Goodbye hope.

Last day of 2011. A year full of beautiful memories.

& I shall end it with this song in which the song accompanied you nearly 5 years ago, to go down on your knees for me.
How I miss it.

But memories remains as memories forever.

As a matter of fact, true enuf, I was always alone on new year's eve but this time is different, it's without your love.

& this will be the last and final time I'm listening to this.
Goodbye 2011, goodbye hope, goodbye love.

How?

Sometimes I just want to know, how are you without me?
How did you manage to forget all memories?

How did you manage to move on?

How did you manage to forget love?

Or there wasn't any love to start with?

A month after.
But I'm still keeping it.
Still hanging on to memories.

Because I have nothing left, not to love, not for anything.
I am just empty.

I had enough of being the goody to shoes.
It doesn't pay to be nice.
It's time to show the world how dangerous I can be this time.

The thought of leaving this world always occur to me.
One day, I might just really take my leave.
For good because its easier said than done.

Tears again...

I teared looking at these.
Indeed, I'll miss these people.
But I got to be strong and move on from the life I have in my past.

I still can't believe it that this is happening to me.
It seems just yesterday, I was in your arms and you held me tight.

=(

No more 20th!

Indeed, 20th has ended with so much pain.
Goodbye world.

Lost.

Tapi kini kau pergi
Membawa mimpi ku
Meragut cinta ku
Merobek angan ku
Sirna segalanya
Musnah semuanya
Ku hanyut di kesepian

You used to say, "To love someone does not mean you will have them." So now you can really see how much I truly love you. Thanks for everything, indeed, I was just the 'Only Hope' you used to say. What we hope for, we don't always get them. A lesson learnt for me, one should not hope so much. It leaves you with just hurt, hurt and many more hurt.

Amidst all...

Despite the dump, hurt, taken for granted and disappointment, i am still missing, missing, missing, missing, missing, missing, missing, missing, missing you like crazy.

Who'd save me from all this pain? Apparently, noone understands. I'm too weak already. Really.

Little Joys

Sleepless nights are waived by little joys by little ones. The ones you hated cheered this crushed heart.

Memories

I wish it can vanish that easily but memories are too strong to be erased and forgotten. Memories torment me every single day.

It weakens me so bad. I'm so ruin.

Forgotten?

My eyes are wet as rain with the sorrow of the pain.

I've nothing left in this deserted path.

Save me. How strong can I be?

Please...