I have the right...

I have the right to see you to my heart's content
I have the right to gaze upon you with endless love
My heart calls out in an answer that you have the right too.

This night is missing & passing slowly
It fills talks of love slowly
Darkening, melting, the night is slowly deeepening
Giving in to love's music; a romance, slowly blossoming.

In the music of my bangles, what is the lyrics?
What message does the language of my bangles speak?
To keep you awake all night, i have the right
To steal upon my beauty, you have the right.

My heart calls out in an answer that you have the right

Tommorrw time will distance us

But not for a moment shall i be able to forget you
With my eyes full of your face, your smile

To suffer in your absence, i have the right
To yearn to meet you, i have the right
To suffer in your love, i have this right
I suffer pain for your separation, I have right.

Lepak?!

Lepak? No okay. Doing assignments at al-majlis was superb. Though assignments can never be interesting, but spending the day with my beloved girlfriends is super duper stress relieving. Thanks girls for always being there for me. && i just love you all can?! Hee... you guys rawk my poly days!!! Muackz Muackz to you! & finally i'm at cafe again after such a long time. I get to eat the delicious wedges again! Yessa!! Okay, short post because i'm in DPIP!! Long day today... henna later... ZzZzzZZZzzzz...........

Ponder & ponder

Ok so did i leave this blog to collect dust for quite some time? Haha... Ok, so new skin. Lin & I was so done with ITA2 asignment that is to do a website and our e-portfolio. After which my dreamweaver skills is still fresh in my head so that's when i decided to just have a change to my blog skin. So yah, just a simple one. Too lazy to do anymore complicated one. Haha...

So yea, finally ITA assignment done. Thanks to Lin who was so expert doing flash while i dd the dreamweaver. Lin, thanks for coming all the way to Jurong to sleeping over to do this hassle assignment of ours. Hopefully we'll do A-OK for this yah? We sure put in a lot of effort. So tired that at around 3am in the morning i fell asleep doing the website leaving my laptop on. Haha... thumbs up to Yusliza & Azlina for having to finish the most hassle assignment on time. Haha... Lin, i am so glad you're my partner in crime, assignment, gossip and many more! Thanks for all of that! Love ya loads la girl! Muackz... and we girls discover something interesting to be put as our phone ringtone! Lin... shhh... let just keep it to ourselves. (skali everyone know already Yus... haha!!)

So yeah, let me just show you what have we been doing for science for young children tuorials lately...

Playing with bubbles!! Miss those childhood days. & believe it or not, when i was young i actually drank that bubble bottle. What was i thinking? I don't know, but most importantly, i'm still alive now! Hahaha.... so fun, i make big and small bubbles! Wee....

Then we bake a brownie. We were the first group to start and the last to finish. Baking a browni sure do takes a lot of time. The last time i made brownie was for my game boy for our 3rd monthsary. Hahaha.... and then my group helped Constance's group to do honey cornflakes. So then yea, below our brownie is the honey cornflakes. We combine forces! Haha...

We went to Botanical Gardens for a filed trip for that same module last Saturday. The trip was a bit dull if not for these kinds of photo takings...

Count 1, 2 & 3 with Lin, Yus & Nad!!! Hahaha!!

And then let's prasaan, ROCK NEVER DIES!! Haha...

& we saw this huge and cute dog (though it looks horrible when it salivates, Haha!) Then he meets a female dog. Look at that short video. I was supose to snap a picture but i unintentionally snap a video instead. At first they were so romantic but don't know what happen he went on barking so loudly. Was so shocked that i stop recording. Hahaha!

Then another dogs which caught our eyes. Super obedient also. See how nice they pose!!

I don't know if Lin's gonna kill me for this, but this picture is super classic la!! Lin and her pose! Like WTH?! Hahaha!

Seriously no idea what were we trying to prove by doing that! Haha...

&& lastly the Miss late for that day! & not forgetting we were lost at Botanical gardens to find the classroom! Haha... But wth, i have my dear Azlina to be lost together... awwww... so touching! Haha... and on the bus home we had the ever delicious CURRY PUFF that were bought from JE interchange shop there!! Haha!! YUM!!

& here's some picture of floorball polympics. Here's my smiles team... oh btw i scored one!! Hahaha....

& bringing back the Hua Yi days & toot Gabbie finding 1001 reasons not to be in the pictures! DUSH!!

So yah, i receive some upsetting news from the game boy. He will be going away to Taiwan in mid january maybe. God knows how i felt the moment he told me that news. I don't know what is going to happen to me for that 3 weeks. =(( I'm so missing him now already what more 3 long weeks! Haish, how how?! =(( Damn!! Who even come out with this NS idea?! Urgh!!! I'm going to be as alone again and again. Haish, life is so plain boing for me now. God knows how i'm feeling now!! What luck!! *smacks head*

Okay that's it for now! daa...

Estudiante people! Look at that cute babies. It's made of sugar. Interesting right? Look so real. Pammie send me that mail! The pictures so attracted me! Haha... Actually i'm sleepy already but don't know why just feel like blogging. Dah datang rajin la nie. Tiring day indeed. Just came back home an hour ago from hospital. My uncle's warded for some reason which i am actually not quite clear what's the actual illness he's suffering from. So yah. Just hopefully he will get well soon. Insya'allah.

One presentation down. Effective Communication (EC) presentation about the Art of Flirting was very interesting indeed. The other groups did well too. Hopefully we entertained the class with our tupid tupid acts in the skit though. Hee... It's tiring to prepare all this skit thingy. We stayed back late till night to do this skit.

Just now went to see Mrs Cheong our ITA lecturer to ask about our assignment. Lin came to my house yesterday with the intention to start on the assignment but wedon't know how to. We have to do a website using dreamweaver, then make flash movie, video clip and more more more. Which Lin & I totally have no idea how to do and start them mainly because dreamweaver is last year's work and we totally forgot everything! Gees... we are so dead. Last year it took Lin & me 1 whole day to create a website. Which means this time round is going to be the same. So Lin's staying over my crib tommorrow after which i can get to see my sayang again!!

4 days already never get to see or hear his voice!! Heart pain, heart pain!!! So looking forward to meet him again!! I miss his hugs and kisses!! His smile, the wahe irritates me, the way he always bite me then i will go 'Oi, bodoh la! Saket la!!' Hahaha.... cute lah my game boy! I SO MISS HIM!!! =(( Give me him soon plese please please!!!

Dah la dah sedih nak tido ah! Takder orang nak pujuk! Manyak saket hati woh!! I have to reach school at 1030am tommorrow for delegate duty. There's a parent's seminar tommorrow. On duty till like 1430pm!! Kesian Lin have to wait for me to come back then we can start on our assignment. Haish... will be down with assignment, assignments and more assignment for the nest few days and weeks. Yelah when i update, i don't think there's even anyone reading it but when i never update everyone tag, nag, bahase and scold me and ask to update! Hahaha... macam macam l korang korang yang tersayang ni! Hahaha.... Okay la, wanna go dream about my game boy!! Ta-ta! =]

Update Update...

May peace be upon you people! Chey chey! So yes, i'm back to some updates. Been very very very busy lately. After Sham's birthday, yes i'm still busy. Though school have yet to open but was still busy. With Hari Raya preparation and relief teaching and all those family matters. Busy busy busy me. But well, my birthday, hari raya and some outings was a blast. Will be sharing with ya soon. But one thing that suck is this semester's timetabling. Though Wednesday there's no school, besides coming back for Cende, i still have to come back for PROJECT/ASSIGNMENTS DISCUSSIONS!! Urgh! And assignments this semester is a killer! Can i whine about it please?

Okay set! Yah, so we have to like carry out 2 language arts lessons, 3 math lesson & 1 science lesson. What's the killer? My language arts lesson will be assessed by a lecturer!! URGH!!! STRESSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!! Sungguh stress.com! Did my pactice and first language arts lesson. I will be assessed on the 21st Dec. So THE STRESS!!!!

Anyways forget about that for awhile. So my birthday was a blast. I spend it equally with my love ones. It's sad that my game boy couldn't celebrate with me on my birthday since he's in camp. So we celebrated together on the 6th October. We broke fast at Secret Recipe. Decided to eat at Suntec's Secret Recipe since he already brought me to Marina's Secret Recipe that Valentine's Day. Sadly, we didn't have any cakes because the cakes we want were all sold out. Just a minute ago we saw them then we came back its gone! How sad! After which we went somewhere 'beautiful'! Love that place! Love the night! Love his company! And the best part is i get to play swing again!! After such a long time and since now these new modern playground don't even have swing la! Crap!! =)) So deprived of my childhood days! So yah, thanks love for that wonderful day!! Love you la!!

On the 4th October itself, i spend that Wednesday night or rather Thursday morning with my budak2 cafe (al-majlis). This time, got cake got cake. Thanks to Aishah and Heifi who went all around to buy the cake since its late all shop close! Thanks guys! Hahaha... and i have swensen ice-cream cake!! Superb!!! Thanks all for coming down to Al-majlis to celebrate my bithday! Special thanks to dearest Abang of course! Love you! Then thanks to the ever so sweet and best partner in crime in my Poly days, NUR AZLINA BTE SUBARI for turning up that day though its late at night and then there's some things that makes everything so farked up for you after that because of some lives you gotta handle. You know i now la ehh! Hahaha... Then of course to Sydi bestie!!! You also, thanks for takig a time off with your 'wife' to be there. Thanks to Aishah, Heifi, Wawan, Asri, Shahid and wife and ever-so-cute son SHAFIQ!!! Super cute and super entertaining that day!! He entertained me the most that day! Thanks people! Your beautiful! Hee...

That Shafiq boy!! I loike!!

Oh Asri, Abg Adnan, Shahid and fam haven't come yet this time. Ever so late la they! And oh yah, how can i forget my kakak!! Kak Timah!! She was there also to cut cake with me. Thanks kak. And people, i'm gaining weight is all because of my dearest sis here. She pampers me wit great food at cafe. Everytime i come after buker puase, she will drag me to break fast with her again since she was so busy just now with the customers.No time to eat properly. Then there i go eat eat eat. Since i start school now, i've not been there for so long already! And i miss the wedges!!! I miss Kak timah's Aiman boy also!!! Gees...

Okay then i went to break fast with my Hua Yi girls!! So miss them la!! It's sad that Pam and Canz couldn't join us! So thank to the BEST FRIEND who gave me a sweet letter (after so long) and a sketch of me which turns out to look more like Nurul. Oh well, Sab has always beengood with her fingers to do all these kinds of drawings. Me?! Hopeless! Haha... thanks to Shariffah, Farhana, Reshmel and Nurul too!! So enjoy the day!!! Twees!! =)) Okay i don't have any clearer picture of us! Shucks!! And oops, Shariffah's not in the picture because she's the one who snaps this picture. So busted 2 you want me post a special picture of only you and me or not?! Hahaha!!

Then on the Friday, i celebrated my birthday with the family. Nothing much but just full filling dinner!! I loike!!! Hahaha.... Then, raya was a blast also!! First time raya with the status 'attached'! Haha... So my game boy and i wore red! He was down with some ulcer at his throat that malam raya. So he went to see doctor at NUH that night. So went to visit him on the first day of raya with my family. So let the pictre do the talking...

Nice or not i editted the background. Thanks to photoshop!! =))


I did this collage for quite some time actually. And i just realised it untill now! Gees...

The mama's side cousin! Thanks ehh abg ayie still haven't giv me the full family photo! That's why cannot blog! Aww.... dah besar2 sumer!!! Whoah!!

&& The papa's side cousins! Again... not all were there. Susah nah nak amek family photo.

Then with the bebudak cafe... a lot of pictures taken but love this the most! Haha... vogue la kire si Yusliza, Ayu ngan Aishah nie!!!! Hahaha...


Then with my fellow ECHians!! We have two cars for the day! Hyundai Getz car Far far drive, Proton Gen 2 abg drive! Chauffer for the day! Hahaha!! Then got walkie talkie!! Shiok laa!! Uber fun!!

Picture of the day!! Hahaha.. Lin is so going to kill me for posting this picture! Hahaha.... CRAZY!!

I actually went jalan rayer with the best friend and the boyfriend but i have no picture because it was taken using her camera and she can't passed it to me since her com's down. Take a few using my mum's phone and my mum's phone gone case also! Urgh!! But had fun going jalan raya as a couple this year with the best friend!! Love you man!!! And not forgetting, went berayer with the game boy's madrasah friends. These are all that left for the last house.



Okay, after that, there's just a lot that happen la. I just can't remember. But latest, that day i skipped lesson with my girls. We were just too stressed out with projects, assignment and all and we thought we deserve a break. So we went for some....

Yes!! Waffle and ice-cream at Gelare! Had so much fun yakking and shopping for Lin's dress and Nad's shoe besides stressing out for our project that is. Yum yum! Super nice! And then i fall in love again with 2 things! Super nice things! Super love it but i can have them now bcause of the shrt of cash for the time being! Damn it! When i have the $$ nothing just seem to attract me! So any kind souls who can get me that?! Please....!!!

Super cute right?! Urgh!! Heart pain!

Pretty right?! *faints*

Haha... after which i meet CE to celebrate Pammies' birthday. Finally she's like 19! Hahaha... went to have dinner at Pepperlunch! Miss these babes la!! Pics pics..

So yeah, that's about it la huh. So yeah that Friday i went for an eye operation.To remove the lump! Nothing much to talk about just that it's super painful. The buse is not taking effect because the doctor claims that our skin at the eye i the most sensitive part and its vey thn so no matter how many times he busy me i will still the pain! Damn its bloody painful and i cried! Urgh! I officially hate doctors, medication and anything that got to do with clinic or hospitals now! Okay not really la without them also one nig headache. Hahaha.... But nothing to worry, its still healing now. Still under medication. Thanks to those who were being so concern. Even Yong Ming called me la!! Hahaha.... how touching is that?! That long lost friend called me! Hahaha... Thanks people. Okay i'm tired la. So will stop here. Don't know when is my next update. Will be so busy. Red camp duty over. Then parent's seminar then polympics then assignment, assignment and more assignment! Wth!! As usual, i got no life la. What can i say?! Ok toodles people! Cheers!! =))

Back back

Hey people! Like wow, finally i'm back. Got time to update now. No class today just attachment just now. Haha... so many tags asking me to update. And Lin has been bugging me to bloody update also in school for like upteen times. && there's just so many people asking me to update. Well i will update you guys whatever happened from my birthday to hari raya to going out with my girls and Pam's birthday with my dearest CE and wow i don't know if i missed out anything else. Tell me what you guys wanna know. I'll update you ok?! Haha... oh yah latest about me. I had an operation. An eye operation that is. But not to worry because its not that serious! I should be fine! =))


Okay so i will not update you today because i am still editing pictures. I guess pictures is the best way to be displayed after a long MIA! Break record. I've not been updating my blog for like almost 1 month plus.LOL!! & for me to blog so long it will take me an hour or so. So definately i'm not updating it today. But today's the 20th! Which means it marks YuShaM 9th months!! And so i recieve that present. My love ask me to update also so that i can tell the whole world about his heroic act in my blog. Haha...


Yah so i got that present from the 'game boy'. The picture's quite dark. Don't know why theres no flash when the game boy snap it. Anyways ya no trying to change topic but I so can't stand this boy once he sets his mind to have some gaming session with his best friend Mr. Fahmi, which i so forbid the most!!! URGH!! Okay so what so heroic? Well we got that plush toy after playing that you know the one dollar or two dollar game. (yg tikam2 tu lah, yg susah banget tu nak dpt!) Haha... so after like maybe 100010992304298 times of trying (mcm bedek la pulak!) we finally won something! Haha... and then we got a free balloon wrap! Haha... He has always been trying to get the plush toys for like everytime we played cheng cheng but never won any! So how nice, we got it this time. And we got a free beautiful balloon wrap somemore! Hahaha!! Thanks game boy! You are so my hero!! Haha... and next up he's all out to collect his taps points card to get the big winnie the pooh bear for me! Yay!! Haha... such a waste of money Yus!! Haha... oh well, its not like we play arcade everyday like how my Sham boy will play his warcraft or whatever as soon as he reach home! DUSH! Hahaha!! So more i love my gameboy!!! The positioning of the balloon is so wrong a boy!!

The Hero of the month!!! Ehh no, Yus's Hero only!! All rights reserved! Haha...

The making of my winnie-in-the-balloon!

So yah, Happy 9th months hun! I don't know what else to say just that, may you love me, miss me, want me, day dream about me (like in the picture) and yang sewaktu dengannyer FOREVER!! Hee... I so LOVE YOU!!!!! Yay!!! =))

So people, i'll give you a proper updates as soon as i'm done editing and choosing which pictures to put it up here. If i put all i think i will break the record of the longest time taken for a blogger to blog! Haha... So wait up for more okay?! Meanwhile thanks for tagging people! Love you guys. Those uninvited peeps out there who dares tag without respect in my blog, you're are such a disgrace to the adult world. If you are an adult that is. Haha... okay. Currently, first lesson for language arts done. Will be cracking head for science and math lesson and assessment by lecturer!! AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EGG CRACK!

A year ago i get the age wrongly.
But this year i am so sure i make the correct birthday wish.
Its the 2nd of October which makes my Sayang a year older.
Which means his 21 today!!!
Happy birthday hun, may all wishes and dreams come true.
May allah bless you with great health always.
Muackz muackz muackz muackz!!!!

Again as much as you yearn for perfection in me,
I'm sorry i can't be as perfect as maybe, your dream girl should be.
But just so you know noone else can love you like i do hun.
So may our love and feelings remain strong forever
though we always have to be far from each other.

Situations around are always so cruel, thanks for always being there for me hun.
Thanks for telarating my stubborness, my temper and everything
about me that at times just gets on you nerves.
Thanks for you're still here with me and not letting it go.
Thanks sayang, no words can describe how much i Love you.

Once again, HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY sweetheart!
*Hugs & Kisses!*


& lastly, he's so MINE!
*winks*

When September ends...

So nobody wake me up when September ends. Haha... anyways wanna wish all the children out there a very HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY! Hahaha... And i'm sure the happiest child today is this girl below. Haha...

So we bump into this Danielle guy who look so like the bestie, SYDI! Haha... i'm not sure what's his name because i totally don't watch that drama. Nini is a big fan of that drama though. Sanggup tidur lambat just to watch Danielle. Then besooknyer nak bangun to go school susah. Haha... She was all gatal to take a snap with that guy. The boyfriend and me were so malu and all when she goes, "ABANG (Lin's gatal style!) boleh kiter amek gambar?" Hahaha.... the boyfriend and I couldn't stop ourselves from covering our face and laugh like mad. Haha... Nini is so gatal la. So like that girl, Azlina or something her name. Hahahaha.... and she was all excited that she ask me to keep that picture properly. I'm to print for her 3 pieces. Then she can't wait to call Di to tell him she saw his twins. Hahaha.... Gees...

Owh that was on Saturday whereby i accompanied the boyfriend to Beach Road to get his army stuff. Then break fast with my family at ZAM ZAM and i promise i wouldn't go there to brek fast ever again. I wanted the big-like-malaysia-kindda-prata-telor. But they only fixed on serving murtabak and bryani! Urgh, and i don't eat murtabak. Not in a mood for murtabak! I'm so not full. Grr... so is boyfriend and family. Aftr breaking fast we headed to Geylang in which i fall in love with this Baju Kurung at where else, RH! Haha.... so deposit some money first because i don't have the csh yet that day.Have to deposit because it only comes at one piece. SO before anyone grabs it i better have it. And its rare to have the design XXS my size. So yessa!!!!

So when September ends, the family and i AGAIN went down to Geylang. To collect my baju and Mak Cu shopping sahkan! Haha... and before that we broke fast at Cameron. It's been so long since we ate there. I have always ate there since i was young. When there was still an arcade then at Mckenzie Road. I already warned them that i'm taking a picture of them. Yet see... so candid like that. Ish! Haha!!

From left to righ: Nini the DANIELLE girl (what's with her face anyways? LOL!), Mak CU the bestest MA CIKKUs!, yours truly & beloved BROTHER!!

Haha... Saw abg ajib, Riz Gunawan and TG! I can't wait for raya now because after a long time, i met my dearest cousin again yesterday and i felt so contented like crazy becuase its been a long time since we met. It's like also a long time since we had any family gathering. Miss the kecohness! Haha... For some reasons i so like the baju songket Abg Riz was trying. Damn it! If only i have the money to buy it for boyfriend! Urgh!!

So okay la. As usual abg got me my baju raya already. Mama also, abg also & papa also. Hee... Okay so i feel like eating the Nasi Bryani at 7-eleven besar at my house here. So i'm off to get it now!! YUM!! Alamak, batal tak puaser cakap YUM?! =p

Sometimes happy Sometimes sad.

My title was really random till i remembered the hindustan version, Khabi Khushi Khabi Gham. Haha... guess that's life. At some point of time you're happy and at some point of time you're just feeling sad. Been going through that for this past few days, weeks and months. Apa kater kiter ckp everyday. Haha...

So that wednesday was Cende's iftar. So glad to get to meet up my best buddy in my poly life. She just cheer up my day. She's always day for me and i don't know what's life now without her!! NUR AZLINA BTE SUBARI!!!! Haha... miss you babe! And she's taken over me, she rebonded her hair while i'm all curls!! Haha... saper yang curls fetish ni skarang? Hahaha.... i still don't have the pictures of cende for that day. I only have this pictures and i sure do miss these girls!!!


I bloody change my tagboard thinking that the virus will be gone for good. That day my laptop was attacked by this stupid porn virus. And i don't watch porn mind you! How it started was like this. I went to CE's blog. Its a private blog btw so only the five of us are allowed to enter. So i got all paniked when there's someone tagged out tagboard. So i open the link and before it fully open i already got attacked by that stupid virus. I think its some porn website shit la. So irritating. I nearly refomatted my com but yeah i didn't because it was okay after i restored my lappie. But my tagboard, after i tag they said there are tracks of porn something something and i shud remove it. So thought by deleting the previous tagboard would be betterbut i guess its the same. So whatever la i shall leave it. Hope it will not get any worsen. Idiot! Who the hell even invent these porn shit! Farktards!! So i managed to read myra's tag rom the old tagboard so i just replied her through the new tagboard of mine. Keep tagging ya people. Gotta remind myself to not open links anyhow now. Haha... saya sudah learn saya punyer lesson, can?!

Okay i just thought i could say something here. At my OWN blog. So if you guys don't wish to read this, pls click the cross at the top right hand corner of your screen okay?! =)

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Well, i just feel that noone's perfect. When i was in Hua Yi, my friends used to label me as Yus the perfectionist. I tired to be one, knowing that i can never ever achieved it. Yet, till now i still try. But i know, and i realised so much that indeed NOONE is perfect. I don't understand why people still insist to be mean and act cold towards someone bad points or habit. At times we should and we have to do that but when one ALWAYS does that you're just being a hypocrite who claims that you are good and reasonable to everyone because you condemn people like almost ALL the time and you just think you are right, right, right. By being too stright forward is good but i think, one should also consider the feelings of that someone aftermath of you being all rash.

There was like trillions of fights when i was in high school and the only reason why it happens is because we couldn't accept and tolerate each others flaws. Being in the same school, facing each other everyday, what more can we ask for than just tolerance and accepting. For me, there's surely bad points in everyone. It's whether it will be noticed or not. So why hate someone because of thier flaws where basically EVERYONE on this earth has it. Sometimes this flaws pissed us off each and every single moment but then again after that we can still laugh it off.

Good example is my bro and his friends. I was really impressed with their friendship. Though some people in their cliques is always creating a hell of a problem, they don't hold grudges and they will laughed it off at the end of the day. They still meet up the next day and then treasure every single moment with each other while they still can. Guess, that's true friends. I'm not stereotyping between boys and girls ad that boys don't choose friends while girls do. But what i'm experiencing now is rathers boys are the one who are more of being not accepting and sensitive towards thier friends feelings and such. I don't understand why. My bro's cliques of friends have both boys and girls yet their friendship is going on well day by day. So i'm in no position to say ALL boys or girls. Still yeah, noone is perfect. But my point is, do people have to hate each other just because of one's flaws? That really make me thinking. Sometimes you got to wake up and face the reality that you have tonnes of weaknesses than the person you condemn all the time. And when you realised it you will tend to understand how insensitive you have been. Everyone have emotions and feelings. Not only girls can be emotional all the time, guys can too. We are all human beings.

I really hope to be a better person after what i've gone through and see in life. Seeing friends being so insensitive towards one's feeling and being hypocritical makes me pray hard that i wouldn't be catgarised in that group of people. Mama always told me wherever we go and whereever we are, there's always people who will never fail to bring yu down and make you feel so bad that you will just feel you can't survived. Hopefully, i will be stronger to face all obstacles. Insya'allah. How you treat me and how mean you are towards my stupidity at times brought tears in my eyes but well, i'll take it as a lesson learn and a way to improve myself. This are all part and parcel of life. Till my patience has reached it limit, i don't know what will happen next. God, pls give me the strength to face this ups and downs of life. For no doubt, every single day, i tried to be perfect but to no avail. Then i realised it can NEVER happen even if i tried to push myself so hard.

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Whoah! Okay i suck at words but owh well, i just feel like pending my thoughts here. Which is surely just by words. Don't mind my language and my terrible grammar. No offence to whoever who feels bad about this. Siapa makan cili, dier yang teraser pedas. Haha... seriously, it's ust how i feel. No pointing out or blaming at any particular person. So sorry about that. Haha... Lin said she suddenly miss a lot of people. Well, i've been terribly missing A LOT OF BEINGS this few days. I miss, SAB, NAD, KHAI, LIN, SYAF, AIDA, CANDY, BOYFRIEND'S MUM, my BUSTED 2 (shariffah), RESHMEL, SYDI, even Di's bro, FAIRUZ AND OF COURSE the BOYFRIEND SO SO SO SO DAMN MUCH!!!! Will always pray for their well-being and may all are blessed with great health always. Love you guys!

Boyfriend's coming back in a few hours time. Actually i just want him to be home quickly so that he can get ample rest since its the fasting month, his training must be a killer, all he need is rest rest and much rest. So worried about his health though. Hopefully i could meet him. Dgr dgr got some family gathering tommorrow but i so don't know if its confirm. If there is, i can't meet the boyfriend already. =((

Wow long post, okay that's it for now! Daa...

MIA?

BOO!! Haha... back back. Hiatus again?! No la where got? Just creating a lil spider web here and there only. Hahaha... as usual, been busy lately. And what is so pissing me off once i open my laptop is MSN! So bloody irritating. I can't bloody start a conversation and i can't receive anyone's messages also. So heart ache. And besides that, my laptop was attacked by some stupid viruses. Idiotic! Was on the verge of reformatting but being the genius me, i manage to get rid of the virus myself. Haha... hopefully its no more though. Haha....

So yea fasting month, SLAMAT BERPUASER KEPADER SEMUA YANG SEDANG BEPUASER dan kepada sesiapa yang tak tu INSAF lah anda sebelum anda DIINSAFKAN!!! Haha... chey chey... it is sure tiring to shout and scream so much when you're shouting. Ish... menghauskan!! Ni semua COBAAN! Haha... Those kids were really testing my patience. I got no other choice but to shout and scold. Gees...

So the boyfriend's off to camp again. This time at Pasir Labar or something. Posted to Seargeant Course. There goes another chapter in our love story where the Sham Boy have to leave the ever so blur Yus! Haish... life is so unfair. I don't know how to carve a smile each time this boy have to leave me. So hate it la, terribly awfully hate it to the MAX! I so have to apologise to him for giving him such a big headache each time he's going away. Can't help it la syg. I so cannot control my emotional state whenever you have to go, go and go. I wonder what is going to happen when he have to leave me for sailing! AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I so hate to think about that! Damn it!

Sorry k syg? Thanks for tolerating me and yet loving me still sweetheart! Ahhh... i so love my boyfriend can?! Sunday was iftar at my house and my dearest boyfriend bought me McWings and Nuggets!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Been craving for it and finally, i get it!!!!!!!! Thanks love!!! Muackz....

Iftar with CE over, Iftar at home was superb next is with my fellow cendes. Karaoke session after iftar at my house was simply hilarious. With Abg Adnan, Shahid & wifey & cutey adorable son, Asri, Abg Lutfi, Wawan, Dayana, Nur, Heifi, dearest Aishah and MY LOVELY BOYFRIEND was just so fantastic! Haha... hope to have something like this during RAYA!! Haha... speaking of which i have yet to buy my baju raya. Like no mood like that. The boyfriend also haven't buy since the country needs him so much. He's just so busy serving the nation. Takder time nak beli baju. Dah la gitu, dah penat serve nation bukan nak kasi bonus raya ker! Haha... boleh the girlfriend enjoy it also. Haha...

A lot of things happen lately also and my beloved Abg have really been a great friend! He has alays been there for me and what else can i say besides i so LOVE my brother la! Noone can pamper more besides my BOYFRIEND & my BROTHER! Haha... Thanks abang for being there for me when i needed you the most. It's just the 2 of us, no other siblings and i'm glad that we get along real well all this while. Being there for each other, to mengadu naseb, cry and laugh together. Thanks Abg! I so love you! What happen surely teaches us all a lesson and we will both learn from our mistake. So cheer up k bro, i'm always with you! Though thick or thin!! Not only me mama and papa also!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! I SOOOOOOOOOOO LOVE MY BOYFRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I SOOOOOOOOO LOVE MY BROTHER!!!!!!!!!!! AND OF COURSE I SOOOOOOO LOVE MY MAMA & PAPA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To my cafe people also thanks all the fun!! Aishah still owes me a birthday treat. Abg Luthfi also. Hmmm... best lak! Hahaha... chey chey... prasaan Yus!!! Actually i only want my boyfriend for my birthday. But can't, again we can't celebrate out birthday together. =(( Just like last year. =(( URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY DO NATIONAL SERVICE EVEN EXIST?!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dahlah, else i'll keep whining and whining like some nenek tua maner! Granny also kalah! Ok before i end, i was watching 'Konon-konon cerita hant' with Aishah at cafe and then i realise that we were sitting right in front of Imran Ajmain and Syarif Sleeq. Haha... and toot Aishah i thought she knew when she say tat the guy in front of us was good-looking since Heifi already told her that's Imran! Slow gak ni pompan! Hahaha... Ok... ciaoz!!

emotionally dysfunction

I hate this feeling of being all confuse.

There's just so much questions and fear in me.

Yet i still don't know how to express myself.

There's just so much too worry but there can't seem to be any solution.

Is my past happening again?

It still and keeps haunting me till now.

I can't smile it off, laugh it off and so i broke down.

I don't know what to do or what to say.

God, please help me get through all this.

I'm in a state whereby the next step is still unknown.

I'm tired of worrying and being upset.

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Okay results tomorrow. I'm so dead. Haish, worried sick. I so don't think i'm going to do well this semester. I just hope that i don't fail any module because i totally don't wish to retake any module again. This semester is so tough. I think i'm lucky if my GPA hit 2.5 at least. Good bye GPA of 3! =((

I'M SO DEAD TOMORROW!!!!!

URGH!!!!!

YUS is so DEAD DEAD DEAD!!!!!

some things are better left unsaid.

puase!!!

Yay yay besok puaser! Jap lagi sahur! Too all muslims... don't forget to bacer niat sebelum tidur!! Hahaha... i checked my mail and i came across ths funny mail by my dearest cousin Ms Farah Wahidah! See how lame it is but... it is sure something to laugh about! Hahaha....

1. Terlajak perahu boleh diundur, terlajak kereta pun boleh undur,terlajak kapal terbang takde gear reverse, sori.
2. Bersatu kita teguh, bercerai kita kahwin lain.
3. Sudahlah jatuh ditimpa pula tangga lepas tu tercium pulak tahi ayam.
4. Alang-alang mandi biar guna sabun & syampu.
5. Harimau mati meninggalkan belang, isteri mati meninggalkan gelang,suami mati meninggalkan hutang. (Itulah...lain kali jangan suruh suamibeli gelang secara hutang)
6. Sebab mulut santan binasa sebab mulut juga... nasi pun habis.
7. Kalau tiada angin masakan pokok bergoyang kecuali kalau ada beruk atas pokok tu.
8. Malang tak berbau tapi kentut boleh berbau walaupun tak berbunyi.
9. Biar mati bini jangan mati anak (boleh kahwin lagi ape)
10. Alang-alang menyeluk perkasam biar sampai ke pangkal ketiak.
11. Biar korek hidung jangan korek tabung.
12. Berakit-rakit kehulu, berenang-renang ketepian lama-lama jadi letih.
13. Sayangkan anak tangan-tangankan sayangkan isteri kahwin lagi satu.
14. Kalau padi katakan padi, tidak aku ternanti-nanti, kalau sudi katakan sudi, kalau tak sudi.....boleh blah.......
15. Harapkan pagar, pagar pun tak boleh harap. (Harapkan pagar, pagar dah roboh).
16. Tempat jatuh lagikan dikenang inikan pula tempat kena saman.
17. Hujan emas dinegeri orang, hujan batu dinegeri sendiri, kalau macam tu lebih baik tak payah hujan.
18. Biar lambat asalkan perlahan, Jangan mati sebelum sampai.
19. Kalau tiada rotan, pelempang ajelah....
20. Habis madu, sepah jangan dibuang merata-rata.
21. Carik-carik bulu ayam lama-lama jadi bulu tangkis badminton, pasti ayam kebogelan.
22. Air dicincang takkan putus tapi kalau daging dicincang tandanya ada kenduri
23. Kerbau berpegang pada tali, manusia berpegang gunakan tangan....Maaf kerbau takde tangan nak pegang. Gigit boleh lee..
24. Pinggan tak retak nasi tak dingin, kalau orang tak hendak tandanyakita tak lawa.
25. Takkan lari gunung dikejar, tapi kalau tak kejar pun gunung tu takkan lari jugak.
26. Patah tumbuh, hilang report polis.
27. Berapa berat mata memandang, berat lagi ahli sukan yang masuk acara angkat berat.
28. Sepandai-pandai tupai melompat akhirnya tak masuk Sukan Olimpik jugak.
29. Kalau ada jarum yang patah jangan disimpan di dalam peti, buang aje beli jarum yang baru.
30. Kalau ada sumur diladang, boleh hamba menumpang mandi, kalau ada umur yang panjang, bolehlah kita kahwin lari.......(nak tak?)
31. Kajang Pak Malau Kajang berlipat, Kajang hamba makan satay Kajang lagi best......
32. Kalau kail panjang sejengkal, belilah kail yang panjang sikit.
33. Kalau takut dilambung ombak janganlah berumah di tepi pantai, buatrumah jauh-jauh sikit dari pantai, bodoh!
34. Pecah kaca pecah gelas, kalau dah pecah tu tak reti-reti nak ganti ke...

-SEKIAN-

Ups & Downs

My blog is so collecting dust. Haha! I'm just too lazy to update. Been busy lately because there's so much things to settl at home and been working before school holidays lately. Been working on Monday and today also. So yah! Life has really been testing me so much lately. Hopefully God will give me the strength to face it and solve it with the best way possible. I believe bad times will pass and good times will soon appear to anyone who have patience. To me, the most important thing is to smile, and there's nothing you can't overcome.

But still, it's still easier said than done la. I can hardly smile when the boyfriend have to leave me for his camp on Sundays. Today is his ORD and so BMT is OVER! Just waiting for his posting. Seriously, my emotional status hadn't bee good lately and the boyfriend have been really understanding. Thanks for that sweetheart and i apologise that i can't attend your passing out parade just now. Have to work. Sorry to Cende also because i can't join you guys just now.

So besides working what did i do? Hmm... i have been watching a lot of TVs!!!! Hahaha... i managed to finish watching Hikmah and can't wait to watch Hikmah 3! Who have please kindly borrow me can? Hee... i manage to complete my process of watching is all thanks to the boyfriend's mum who borrowed me th VCD from her friend! I so love her! Haha... Then i manged to also finish watching this Taiwan (if i'm not wrong, it speaks chinese though) drama called Sonrio Pasta. Nice show just like devil beside you. Its Khai's DVD and so thanks babe. Finally after borrowing since like donno how many months ago i finish watching it. Hahaha! Not only i take months to read, i also take months to finish up a drama series. Maklumlah, busy woman. Hopefully Khai is buying the next drama 'Why why love'. All of them are the cast from devil beside you! Expensive man the DVD! Saw it sold at popular. Farktard cheespie! Who can buy for me?!Pls pls! Hahaha.... Love the song, there i attached the song and maybe you guys can look at some sneaks of the show. Cute love dovey drama indeed! Although it's like an old drama, still alah lets just say i outdated! Hahaha!

Yesterday after teaching, i met up with my laughing buddy! Shariffah and Reshmel. No change, Reshmel as pretty and lame as ever and Shariffah as mepek and nonsense as ever. Haha... nice catching up with them. The best catching up... LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH! No tension at all! Hahaha... Thanks guys, you guys rock my world! Hahaha... till the next laughing session!

I went back to Hua Yi for the teacher's day celebratuon. Sorry Pam i have to go home early and thanks for coming that day too. Catch up with Mr. Amran and hopefully Hua Yi will call me up to relieve malay there. Easier for me. No need transport. Cut cost. Hahaha.... So motivated when Mr Amran say wanna open childcare together. Hahahaha.... chey chey but who knows it come true. Nothing is impossible. Insya'allah! Hahaha... so nice of it comes true! Haha... Don't worry Cikgu even if kiter tak dapat open childcare together, i will still continue studying and get my degree at least. Hee... doakan ehh? Hee.... oh yah, Reshmel already completed her diploma and now waiting for her degree! Wahlau! How jealous! Hahaha... pelan pelan kayuh Yus! =P

That 6th September was dearest Abang's birthday. It was a sad birthday for him again this year. It's okay bang, everything happens for a reason. Again, just smile and there's nothing you can't overcome. So went to cafe to celebrate it with his birthday. With the normal al-maklis gang. Abg adnan & Lutfi, kak Dayana, Heife, Aishah, wawan, mahathir and ranny. Sadly kak timah wasn't there because she's in Thailand. Thank you so much guys for being there to celebrate abang's brithday. I'm sure he's veryhappy with each and everyone's presence that night. Abg Lutfi treat us to food and we have to follow the birthday boy's request to go to Mustapha Centre. We ended up there at around one or two plus in the morning doing stupid stuff! Haha... ketawer ketawer macam like mad people. Then eat prata in the middle of the night. Been great hanging out with ya people! Cheers people and that's them! =))

As usual been teaching at Boon Lay Garden Primary, and today was great although it's tiring. You know why because i receive this:



Yes, a rose! Haha... By who else if not the boyfriend. He tried to surprise me by fetching me after school but how cute can he be he landed at the old Boon Lay Garden Primary school! Hahaha.... in the end he was so hardworking to sprint so that he can catch up with me. Haha... poor little devil of mine. Thanks sweetheart, it was really sweet of you to come all the way to fetch me. You're sure tired! Love you so so so much dearest! Haha... Taught malay on Monday and this bunch of Primary pupils really touch my heart with their stories. Very well behaved class and after a long day of work they really cheer up my day. Thanks people! I'll always pray you will achieve to be whatever you aim for!


Alright let me just end off today's entry with replies from my dearest taggers.

dear busted 2: Baik shariffah! slalu2 la singgah sini yer?!

dear NurseYAN: Yup, life's like that, full of ups and downs. Thanks babe! =)

dear faezah: Huh? Finally aper ehh?! Hahha... sorry slow!

dear Khairiyah: Hello babe!!! Cepat-cepat beli WHY WHY LOVE!!!!!!! And then lend me! LOL!!!!

dear nish: Hey girl, i'm fine! Nice to see you that Teacher's day!! Still as bubbly! Haha... Twees!

dear dLa small: BAIK RED HOT CHILLI PEPPER! Kecik kecik people rocks!!!!!!1 Haha...

dear Lin: Yelah! Dah update! Alamak ni mindah! Dush dush! Hahaha....

dear sok leng: Haha... yah i clean already. Ok not now? LOL! =P

dear -fidah-: Haha... aku jumper kau jugak!!! Woo hoo!! Hahaha... okok baik dah update cik puan! Hahahaha!!


Alright,i'm tired. Bye!