Warmth.

It is sucha warm day today.
It was a super hot day that after lunch,
Lin, Khai, Nad & Me bought a tub of ice-cream & ate it at Khai's place.
After which we rushed back to school to have DAC with Corina.
This hot weather just makes me restless that i can't stop disturbing Lin in class.
Ouh wells!

After a long long long time, i am suppose to write a Summary again.
The last time i did a summary was during O level English Paper 2 man.
Now that's my assignment now.
Reading a freaking long article and chapters and then 3 summaries in all.
I realised now why Ms Dalina always emphasize on our summary writting.
How important is it for us.
I've always hated English and so i sucked at writting.

I'm so in need of Ms Dalina now.
Or maybe Mrs Wong Guan Khor.
How i wish they were reading this! Grrr....
I so need to go back Hua Yi for an hour of English remedial.
Else i'll just flunk this assignment of mine!
Urgh, i hate english writting or whatever crap this assignment can relate to!
URGH!!!

These days.

It's going to be the end of weekends.
It's not that i don't like it.
As much as i really hope that the day will pass quickly & that 11th May will come fast,
because that's when Sham will be back.
I don't want the days to pass quickly.
Contradicting?
Okay mainly because there's assignment due on the 2nd, 5th & 9th May.
& till now i haven't start anything, not even the readings.
How interesting is that.
Ok let's just pass on this for awhile.

Basically last Thursday, i was suppose to send papa for his check up at SGH.
Unfortunately, the eyes was giving me a hard time that day.
I went to school with the most selekehness, anyone can i ever imagine Yus can be.
With the swollen & red eye, i took the bus with everyne staring at me.
Yes, the tembel strikes back.
&& NO eh i never mengintai orang tengah bogel or anything!
Gees!!
I woke up having difficulty opening my eyes & it was super duper painful & itchy!
I decided not to wait for 2 weeks like last time to see Dr Khairul & got operated,
so i went to clinic that day itself .
Dr Khairul was so proud of me because i went to see him immediately & not wait like the last time.

No operation or anything this time like THANK GOD!!!
I hate that operation, i am so super serik that i swear i never want an operation ever.
It was so painful and i swear i cried like a baby when Dr Khairul was doing the op for me.
Yikes, don't wanna talk about it. Such a trauma!

Was really looking forward to shop with Lin & meet up with Man, Dayah & bro on Friday.
So i never skipped the medicine and the cream for my eyes so that it would be A-OK by Friday.
Since the eye was getting better & i promised them to be there on Friday,
So yes, went shopping with Lin, Khai & Li Yu after school first,
Got some tops for bf & myself.
After getting all tired with the shooping craze, went to al-majlis.
While we waited for Dayah & Man, Lin & Me get super bored.
So here goes nothing...

Then, we decided to snap each other's picture using our handphones.
That's my shiok sendiri pictures. Lin's pictures are in her phone.
So too bad i can't post it here. LOL!

Went to have late dinner with Lin, Man, Dayah & Bro at Simpang Bedok.
& the best part was Lin slept over my house.
Haha... thanks to her parents for allowing her to stay over my house.
So i'm not alone that night. LOL!
In all last Friday was superb!
Dayah was crazy as ever, ader ker dier cakap matair si Man namernyer calamari?
This was the conversation:

Me: Kau ni Man, dari kerje bukan nak bawak Calamari datang sini.
Man: Tak cakap maner aku tahu.
Dayah: Huh? Kau tak bawak matair kau? Namer matair kau Calamari?
Lin: Mampos, dayah!! LOL!!!!!

Hahaha! A lot of laughter, singing, screaming and surprises that day.
Especially in the car when Lin shouted a name!
Haha... you know i know la yer Dayah & Lin!
We went to drive around a place which really shows me the reality of life. Gees!

& after food, everyone was so dead while i was too hyper.
Noone actually layan me after food.
Like what the hell.
Abg and Man nak kencing.
Lin nak muntah!!
After the toilet session at caltex after sending dayah home, everyone was back to normal.
Man was like drifting all the way while driving.
The song was "Fast & furious, drift drift drift."
His was "Tokyo Tokyo!!!"
Mampos!!! Joker sak ini mamat!
My stomach can explode anytime due to excessive laughter. Haha!
Thanks people for the wonderful night!
After this no more hanging out for the time being,
because i got no choice but not to be lazy anymore and start with the piling assignments.
I'm sure Lin will go, HAIZ!!!!! MALAS LA SAK!!!!!!!!! Haha!

&& boyfriend have been calling me everyday.
At least lepas sikit rindu dapat dengar suara my Hisham. Hehe!
Unlike Taiwan last time, he can only call me like once in 3 weeks.
Rindu banget dehh sama ini syg sorang. Grr...
He come back first thing nak gigit dier ah! Geram ah! Hahahahaha!!
& i can't wait to watch Made of Honour when he's back.

Okay, eyes is giving me a really really hard time now.
Itchy la, pain la. Wanna do readings also no mood.
How to start assignment?!
For now, i just feel like screaming...
Don't mind ehh...
NAK SHAM NAK SHAM NAK SHAM NAK SHAM,
NAK SHAM JUGAK!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(

Last Monday, while i was hanging out with Lin & Man at Island Creamary,
my boyfriend called me to ask for my address.
He said it was for some lucky draw thingy.
Never did i expected that it was actually for something so so sweet.
Not some lucky draw but a lovely surprise gift for me.



It was our 14th Monthsary & that's so my gift.
Ain't he sweet or what?
How can i not love my boyfriend like so bloody much right?
Thanks syg, i simply love it & appreciate it so much.
You shouldn't have trouble yourself Syg,
because even w/o gifts i will still love you like tonnes & tonnes.
I love you sweetheart!



Ytd when i sent him off at the airport, i so didn't wanna let go of him!
Urgh, these army thang is really getting on my nerves!
Even w/o his presence he can make me smile so wide.
Indeed, i smile the widest today upon receiving that gift & not only that,
Tears almost roll down my cheeks when i read those words written on the card he gave me.
It was the most beautiful card anyone had ever gave to me.





Ok yes, i cried upon reading this. Here's a closer one.



The words were so meaningful. Thanks love!
Though you're far from me but you're always close to my heart.
May we continue to love & may we last forever.
I love you & missing you badly here syg! Muackz!

School starts at 9am tommorrow & thus i should be asleep by now.
But no, i'm stubborn enough to tell myself to wait for his msg.
There was no msg or call from him the whole day.
& i just know that how late he is, how busy he is he'll still msg me.
& my wait was eventually rewarded with his msg at 12:46am.
I know he's dead beat & i'm so worried about him.
God, pls take care of him for me,
Cause he may not be as strong as he is when he often make that remark;
"It's okay, i'm strong."
Though he's the hero in this story, i guess he still need to be taken care of by the only, ME!
So, pls give him all the energy to face through these hard times.
Insya'allah, our distant will only bring us closer because,
sometimes the greatest journey is between the distance between two people.
I love him.

Because...

Why does my love for you swell so up & high?
What more can i give you except for my life.
My life is for you,
have at least some concern.

You are my breathe, my heartbeat,
& the cause of my infactuation
The creator made me so infactuated only about you.
Have at least some concern.

Rough Vs Tough

This few weeks have been rather a rough & tough week
I'm glad that school have already started.
Else, i'll be at home rotting after work while the bf will be away to Thailand.
Yeah, like again.
After Taiwan, Thailand pulak!
Crap to the core.

& you know i've been trying really hard to get over it.
To get over the fact that i'm facing another 3 weeks of hell w/o my love again.
At times i really hope he knows how much i really misses him.
At times i'm mad, i just feel like meeting him every single day now even if I could only kiss his hand & him kissing my forehead like each time he will want to leave me.
I can't thank God enough if that would happen.
But i know its impossible.
He will be super tired by then.
With his work at camp and all.

As much as how people say all those like even if we meet for a while can 'menghilangkan rindu',
i guess i really need to work hard and accept the fact that he's going away again now and soon, in the future. So avoid meeting often.
Honestly i tried to remain calm and take it cool that he's always away but deep inside,
I'm really broken, i feel so lost, and all i want to do is to cry like how babies would do, when they are hungry for milk.
That's exactly how i am, the thirst for Sham, Sham, Sham!

To admit this is really embarrassing, oh goodness.
But i just need to say it.
I can't afford to bottle up everything.
Just hope he would not be reading this post.
Yikes, malu malu!
It's really embarrassing like toot if he knows.

Haish, & when the most important thing to do now is to tell him how much i miss him.
I simply can't.
Why?!
I got no idea.
I called him to say i miss him, but i just couldn't bring myself to say it.
To say it in my best & proper way.
I just can't!!!
But when i said i miss you, i don't think it's the right way to express how i really really feel right now. Because simply, no words can describe how much i miss, love & long for his presence all the time.

I may hurt him so much but deep down, i really don't have the intention to.
I swear.
Guess, now, i need to keep my cool.
Don't get so emotional & got to remove the urge of wanting to meet him all the time.
Yes yes, i'm trying real hard.
Dear God, please give me the strength to face all these obstacles.

Amidst all these, i thank God i have crazy friends who never fails to show me their care and concern.
To Lin, Shariffah, Sydi and Man...
Thanks guys.
& hanging out with Lin & Man with tasty ice-cream at island creamery was absolutely stress relieving.
I can't thank God enough for this lovely gifts of His.
To present me these beautiful people in my life.
& of course saving the best for the last,
Thanks God, for bringing Sham to my life.
He show me the best part of life that is being in love.

Till then good morning world.

a lot like crap.

A lot of shits happened these few days.
No doubt a lot of fun happened too.
But at times i just feel that it's hard to pretend
what more bottling things up.
I miss those days.
& i wish i could turn back time.

One more thing i'm closing my blog.
Real soon.
Goodbye world.

Stages completed!

Here i am early in the morning, sitting on this cold place called,
Teacher's common room, at my desk blogging.
My lesson was supposed to be at 11am.
But Fauziah read my time-table wrongly,
& here i am rotting since 7:15am just now.

-Boredness-

Yesterday was arcade session with the Busted 2.
The beginning part of the meeting was preposterous because
Sharifah left her purse at her work place and we were both kan chiong.
But then with the help of her kind friend,
we got the money through the magic of POSB money transfer. lol.

We headed straight for arcade as soon as we got the money.
&& we cleared all stages of that hitting game.
What an achievement!
Haha... like finally we played all the stages.
It was super fun, fun, fun & the best form of stress reliever.
Just keep on hitting & hitting!
Phew, i loike!

After which we headed for some serious talking business.

And yess eh, the 'Busteds' really did some serious sharing moments.
No laughing laughing business or further distruptions.
Just a little sidetracks here and there. Haha...

But was glad Sharifah shared her problems and let it all out.
& as for me i'm glad i did that too.
Thanks Sharifah for listening.
It was really an enjoyable day for me although it was just a few hours.
I still enjoy myself.
The best part about meeting Sharifah is i wouldn't go home alone after meeting her.
Haha... cause our house is near, it's so much convenient.

Hopefully everything will be ok for Sharifah.
Relax and don't stress2 already ok?
Know that i'm will always be here for you!
Next up gaming session at my house again ok babe?

Yr 3 going to start real soon.
As much as i wanna quickly get my diploma,
I'm still in a dilemma on which path i'm going after poly.
Wheelock college or NIE?
It's just so hard when i'm interested in both.

Hopefully i'll come to a decision real soon.
For now concentrate about completing yr 3 first.
Gosh i still have like an hour more to rot!
Urgh, thank God Boon Lay Garden don't serve
delicious food. Else my name will have the words 'boncit giler'
at the front of my name. Gees!

Don't know la when i'm thinking too much,
nothing can make me feel better than just eat, eat and eat!
OKay i got nothing else to whine, to complain, to mengadu
so i shall take my leave.

With love.

Falling in love is easy, but being in love,
now that's the tough part.
But no mater how much we argued and quarrel,
our love remain strong.
Thanks for the love sweetheart.
I'm sorry for the rough day we had.
I'm sure YuShaM have the toughest day today.
Sorry syg. Nothing much to say now besides ily!

This song is so for you sweetheart.
It's by Romance, Kuingin Kamu
I so like this part of the song:

"Kuingin engkau menjadi milikku

aku akan mencintaimu

menjagamu selama hidupku

dan aku kan berjanji

hanya kaulah yang kusayangi

ku akan setia disini

Menemani..."

Thanks to Lin who pass me this song
which i actually have it because
my brother was also currently obsessed with this song. =)
Oh yes, if i were to describe my bf by using just one word,
i would say he's rather HARDWORKING.
See how can i not love this darlingness?!
grr... geram saya!