Retail Therapy Love

Let's forget sorrow.
Let's push aside misery.
Because all these will lead to nothing but pain.
Let's look at beautiful things like these...

B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L!!!
Pamper me with these and you'lll get an extra love from me.
Muahahahaha!!

Doubts

I decided to check on it again.
& great, after doing that, doubt starts increasing.

I don't know why, but I think I have to be prepared for the worst again.
To be cheated over and over again hurt so bad.
Like totally.

I don't know what's on your mind.
I don't know what exactly that you want.
All I know is your actions are hurting me terribly.

What more when I am ever so alone all the time.
I wanna feel good for once.

Who can I confide to now?
All others can say is, I brough it upon myself for being too trusting.
Is it so wrong to even love someone?
Is it a mistake to start trusting someone?

Now, I just can't help to think that whatever that someone ever told me was true.
God, what have life put me through?
I'm sucha total failure when it comes to love I guess.

An hour after midnight...

The gatal me... I just have the urge to let him see.
So there you go.
So much for trying not to be the same old mushy me, I sent it to him.
Gees... Yus oh Yus... WEAK!

When he is truly miss...

Exactly four years ago, we ended twentieth February dancing with this song.
Witnessed by the beautiful moon, we were both in truly, madly in love.
I wished even till today and the days to come, our love will continue to multiply.
Let's end the fourth twentieth with this song again.



We may separated by the seas, oceans and whatsnot, but I will always hope that, that heart of yours is still meant for me and only me. ilya&f.

Mixed

This is when facebook doesn't help at all.
Was suppose to forget the twentieth at least for this year since he is not around.
But each time I log on to facebook, terpampang sebesar-besar nah about our anniversary this Sunday. =(

I thought of doing something for him.
But i guess I've learnt from my lesson adn not to put too much high hopes.
It kills me and I tend to only hurt myself more and more.

I don't know why, I tend to always remind myself to be prepared for the worst all the time.
Maybe it's the haunting past.
Please God, I don't want a repeat of it anymore.
Please, please please God.
Grant me this little wish.

Thanks God.

It was never the same.

I'll still stay strong to my own beliefs and prinicple and it will always be.

Just you & me.

Date with love again today.
& he's back to ship.
Not this Uruguay ship though. Haha...
This is my ship for now.
Have a smooth sailing hunneyboo.
Will be waiting for your next, "I'm back".

imy too already syg. =((

When love's back...

Last Tuesday, we had our late night date again after so long.
Miz those dates...
Was so elated that Love's back that I cancel, postponed and even skip class the next day.
LOL!

But as usual, time flies when you're with your love ones.
& now he's back to work.
No calls and messages from him since last night. =(

Miz him so much already.

Yep, tak sedap hati but well, it all comes down to the big word, trust.

If someone I really trust can do it to the person's special someone, he can do it to me too. =/
Hopefully it's nothing like that, Insya'allah.
Please God!

Take care hunneyboo. ilyvm&ocmtylm.

Waiting...

Yep, I always find myself waiting.
Waiting for almost everything to happen.
Well, I hope with the patience, God show will lead me to the right path eventually.
Insyallah...

Lately, health hasn't been nice to me too.
So prone to getting flu nowadays. Hate it!!
Going to start work real soon.
I don't know how I am going to manage a center.
I know it's going to be hell for me at first but seriously hope things will get better few years after. Still have a lot to explore, learn and grasp.
Praying hard everything will goes smoothly for me despite the hurdles I'll be facing.
& guess what NIE wasn't my choice. Yahuu!!


While waiting for the calls, I've kept myself busy real well too.
Assignments, retail therapy, sourcing out for stuff and all.
Nevertheless, he's in my thoughts 24/7.
Can't escape that though.
When can I receieve that call and msg.
Hurry please, pretty please...

I'm worried about love so much today.
Suddenly I thought about how will he be if he fall sick.
There's nobody to take care of his medicine.
Rather is he taking any medicine.
Weather's really cold nowadays and love don like it too cold.
His cabin will surely be very cold.
Is there thick blankets for him?
Omg, I've never been this worried for love.

Dear God, please take care of my love.
Please do me this huge favour of looking after his health and safety for me.
Please send him back home real soon.
I'm missing him like crazy already.
Really really missing him. So bad...

Am waiting for his call every single second.
Can't bear to be away from my phone even for a while.
Though it's scary as hell to face the later part of him when he's back, I still want to see him safe.
That's all that matters.
Please God, I plead you.
I want my Sham back real soon.
If this is love, please give me strength God.
I need it so bad.
Please, please, please...