Splendid Tuesday!

Yes, today is The Three Musketeers day out.
Haha... so that's how I spent my first day of holidays.
Then Resh suggested for a neoprint session.
As usual our dearest Shariffah will not like that idea but too bad she have no choice.
We drag her and force her to pose.
Muahaha... Love the day... Love my girls...

My scanner is such a pain.
I don't understand why its not working.
So that explains the bad quality of the pictures displayed above.
Can't wait for the next meet up for more catching up session.
Love you ladies...

Getting there...

After such a long time again, I'm updating. A lot happened since the last time I updated. After exactly a month I lost dearest uncle, beloved grandma left me too. It was just too shocking and abrupt. I felt so lost when nenek left us just like that. What more it was 2 days before raya. No wonder there wasn't much mood for raya this year. Adek lagi tak puas bermanje dengan nenek... =(

Each time I pass Nenek's room, I'll imagine she's sitting there watching tv or reading the Qur'an. Haish... No more company to watch tv 2 every Monday night, P.Ramlie show. No more reminders to eat medicine everyday at 8pm. No one else to say I'm beautiful each time I wear something new. Oh God, I so miss my cute nenek. Adek doakan akan ketenangan nenek disana. Semoga roh nenek dicucuri rahmat. Al-Fateha.

& then a week after nenek left us, my other uncle from the maternal side who had been suffering from cancer since 2 years ago passed away too. He had always been the nice uncle who never fail to make me laugh whenever we see each other during Hari Raya. This raya seems so quiet.

Tears never stop rolling from my cheecks each time I hear the Takbir. Sungguh sayu dan menyedihkan. Reminiscing the beautiful past with the love ones makes me weak and broke down to buckets of tears. This Ramadhan and Syawal is really a sad sad one for my family and I. Thanks to peers like Lin, Sydi, Man, Khai, Shazz and some others who were really concern about me and not forgetting the cousin, kak Liza for always being there for my family.

Sham came back only for a few hours a week after raya. Am so so glad to see him after so long, but it was really really a short time spent together and of course I can never get enough of him. =( Gosh, makes me miss him even more now that I'm talking about him. But he promise that the next one will be just me and him since its our birthday. That sound really really good tau syg! Haish... after which he might be sailing to Bangladesh again. Urgh! Which means not seeing him for like more than a month or so. Haish... I don't know what's going to happen of me for that period of time missing and not seeing him. I'm not as strong as you expect me to be. I don't know how to face this. Oh God, please give me strength.

God knows how I really want Sham to be with me when Nenek left. I was at my lowest yet I'm still alone. I hate to say this but I really hate his job and people, think twice please if you are considering Marine Engineering. At least spare a thought for your girlfriend. =( Sham said the sweetest thing when we met the other day. I'm really flattered. You are getting so so HOT each passing day too hun. Ahhh... I miss that guy! I'll stop here else, I'll turn crazy. Really! Because I'm just too crazily in love with him and only him.

After all that happen I can't be bothered as much for raya. But ok tak baik kan, so yes I sambut raya ala kadar aje. Felt seriously exhausted. Had tahlil for 3 days straight and the 7th day. The plan to do something to my hair to the salon and all ceased and this is what I did to my hair myself when I went out for raya visiting on the 6th & 7th day of raya. I guess, my straight hair still looks fine and I don't need to do anything to it as yet. As long as it looks presentable, ok la...

Today is not a good day either. Unlucky day I must say. =( The most unluckiest thing that happened was, I accidentally deleted the whole lot of hindi songs in my external hard disk as I was transfering stuff from my laptop to the hard disk. Like WTF??!! There goes like Shariffah's, Shazzman's, Luqman's and maybe some others effort in helping me to download hindi songs since the past 4-5 years. I just feel like hitting my head really hard for this. Urgh!! A.N.N.O.Y.E.D!!!!!!

Will not be updating any sooner either as lappie will be sent to Lin's brother for further treatment. Something is really wrong with lappie. Really hope that no reformating is required. Last day of semester 1 today and holidays starts from tommorrow. But I don't think its much of a holiday since I haven't start anything for my Teacher Portfolio for Juliana's module, Development of a Teacher Portfolio which is due next year. I keep telling myself that I should start like really soon. This is not some kind of assignment that can be done last minute. Maybe first step will be just collecting relevant artifacts for 10 principles. Haish... penat laa...

confusion

I can only envy girls with that kindda hair.
It's not like I can't have it, but I just don't look good with it because my hair's thin.
I even think I'm balding! Gee, goodness!

I know its not good to not look forward for raya.
But oh well, a lot of things happened lately that I don't really have the mood for raya.
But gees gees, I am still happy raya datang lagi!
But ramadhan's gonna leave soon. =(

As much as I am not so into raya this year, I still wanna look presentable.
& the condition of my hair now is so not helping.
I don't wanna rebond, neither do I wanna go to the salon to curl.
Natural hair too may not be a good idea as for now.
Ahhh..... how how?
Should I just get the hair curler and start curling it myself? (though I don't really know how it works)
Straigth hair with hair straightener? (like usual!) :
Haish...

On a brighter note, Sham love message me this morning to say he misses me.
*smiles*

Huge Updates

Phew, it seems like dinosaur years since I last blog. Haha... ok that is so exaggerated. As usual, busy busy me. Haish, feel so lethargic and exhausted. However, interesting things do happen along the way. Haha... so decided to blog today since the important assignments for this week are all done. So here goes the highlights of the few weeks back.

First and foremost, 28th August 2009. Lin's birthday la sehh!! Haha... The day started off with me sabo-ing Lin. I proudly asked Kak Fiza O to sabo Lin in 'Birthday RadiO'. We were suppose to have Environmental Impact meeting on that day but it was cancel. So while she was sleeping, jeng jeng jeng. Kak Fiza call. Maka seluruh Singapura telah mendengar suara Lin yang basi itu. Haha... anyone heard her on air? Haha... we were so freaking excited la. It was definitely a good start of the day for Lin. First surprise accomplish. After which we carried on with our plan that is to break fast together. And so I'll let the picture do the talking...

Told her that I have no present for her... so gave her a small birthday card only first during dinner. Hee... After dinner, second surprise. Khai!! She meet us after dinner straight. & definitely Lin was shock and H.A.P.P.Y!! It's been so long since the three musketeers meet each other. Haha... the gossiping and catching up session was super duper nice!! Then here I gave her a third surprise. My birthday present for her. Hahaha... & the picture talks again...

So plan's a great success. Surprises went on plan and that Friday was a blast!! Btw, Abg Fir join us too. Went Shee-shaing at Al-majlis. & of course its been dinosaur years too since we hang out there. Seriously, a looooong time since we've been there. Hahaha... & then on Thursday, 3rd September, the three musketeers plus Abg Fir had iftar at my place. Big feast la sehh. Aper tak, my beloved mama cooked so many nice foods!! Nasi ayam, mee soto and I can't remember what else. But i know everyone was so full and bloated. Sampaikan Abg Fir tdo la sehh lepas makan. Hahaha... Aiyo... I had tuition while they watch some movie with my parents. & after tuition guess what we do?... Jeng jeng jeng...

Bunga api!! Deprive of the childhood years. Wahahaha!!! Best la sehh... kan lin, kan kan kan? Kan Khai, kan kan kan? Don play play!! We only can play!! Woo hooo.... ohh... we went to Sungei Buloh too last last last week. Can't be bothered to recall what day and date it was. Haha... dah malam brain not functioning well. So there, some of the pictures who wants to talk... haha...

Oh that's Preety my professor for Environmental Impact module. She's responsible for this trip. & joining us were David & Susan Fedo. Wheelock College Director. I swear I was interrupting thier conversation when I asked for permission to snap that picture. Haha... & then we went to Jacob Ballas children's garden at Botanical Garden. Again for Environmental Impact module. It's my second visit there and both my visit there was like raining cats and dogs. The first was with my Boon Lay Garden Primary fours. Here's some displayable pictures. The other pictures if i were to display it, I'll either get killed by Lin or she'll throw away my busuk when she comes my houseto do project on Saturday. Hahaha....

Ok ni anti-climax macam paham nyer gambar. Model maner je sesat!! But nice kan effect?! Hahaa... I exaggerate lagi eh, this is at Jocob Ballas Children's Garden. Naseb nak masok kene ader budak if I'll have my wedding outdoor shoot here. Hahaha....

Haha... and then 6th September, Sunday was papa and mama's 29th anniversary. Not forgetting Abg's 28th birthday too. Was suppose to do child portfolio with Lin. But last last child portfolio buat kiter. Sunday la sehh!! Weekends tau do assignments. Sucha dread! Cannot la, it's too beautiful a day to stress ourself with assignments as yet. So we are going to mug this saturday!! Hur hur...

We went Geylang after dinner to take my baju raye. && I'm excited to say... this loverboy came back last Saturday, on the 5th! It was really a wonderful night spent with him. Though it was just a few hours again, I definitely enjoyed myself. With syg with me, what else can I ask for. Thanks Allah for sending him back to again. Though it was a short while. Went sahur with syg's and my brother. Syg treat to Mcdonald. I ate so much. Nugget and McWings. Ish!! Aper tak gemok Yus!! Had a splendid time talking and talking away. & it was so nice to see my loverboy planning for the future. Seeing him like that makes me wanna marry him tomorrow can?!! Hee... gatal kan Yus?! But anyways, that date spent with syg was really awesome. If I could turn back time, I want 5th September again. Now I'm missing him all over again. =( He kept saying he can't wait for January. His leave. Yes, yang, I can't wait for it too. I nak my sham. *sob* Will wait for your return patietly again hun. Meanwhile take care of yourself hun hun! Cyg awak.

Ok enough the mushyness. Makes me miss him even more. Lately, I've been watching so much Upin & Ipin. Hahaha... Malam2 dah penat pun tengok Upin & Ipin dengan Lin! Haha... with such good company to watch an interesting show, I'm not even bothered to sleep. Haha... was sharing it with Sham when he say:

Sham: Ader anak twin cute.
Me: Uh uh, I nak anak twin macam Upin dan Ipin.
Sham: Ish tak nak la. I tak nak anak I botak. Abeh ader rambut satu je ternaik. Buruk ah!

Hahaha... cute per boyfriend aku ni. Hee... Oh no, macam nak Sham jer nie. Dah ah tak nak talk about him. I'm sooooooo missing him. Kesian Lin nanti kene dengar whining aku. Hahahah... Ok so dah la. This entry is long enough. Don't mind the spelling mistakes. I can't be bothered to check for spelling errors already. Da penat. But I like. This entry brings to me a lot of wonderful memories with my love ones. Ok besok lecture pagi. Nak tdo ah, nak mimpi Sham! Ya huuu!!!