I'm Frustrated!

I'm really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really FRUSTRATED!!! Firstly, when i wake up early in the morning just now i have a very bad sore throat!! Like WTF!!! I have to teach tuition today for 2 boys and i'm having a sore throat. Just Great!! Simply great!! Ass!!

Next my laptop is one big problem. So much for buying in school. Then cork up. I can't download DLL because the software doesn't support it. Like WTH! Then what's the use of owning a laptop if i can't do anything for my module. Great!! Now i have to share whenever its STB practical. Argghh... the speaker was ok already then now the software. Bloody shit ah....seriously...!! Its drving me nuts! Wednesday is such a drag cum dread!! I hate Wednesday!!! Suddnenly miss my boys like, AARON CHAN JUN HON, NICHOLAS TAN KAI SHENG, STEPHEN KWEK XIU WEN, LOKE YNG MING, MUHD FARHAN and more!! I miss thier nonsense and crap!!! Just wish they were here now outside this practical room to make me laugh!! Its so boring. I'm beginning to really miss my seconday school days. BADLY!!! Haiz...

Replies:

Dear Malix: Hahaz... nak ah... i rather partner someone i know rather than a stranger man. I don't really like the feeling of a stranger touching me. Hahaz... suker ehh break record orang. Dush dush!!

Dear pam: Hahaz... yah indeed you are smart. I not smart so i don need study. Wahahahahaz.... oh you wanna watch? But i WATCH already!!! Lalalalalalalaz.... *whistling* =) Miss you too my pammie. Wow... i'm missed!! Who else miss me raise up your hand. Hahahaz....

Dear gab: My illness? Shh... i where got illness. I so fit. Dush dush!! See!! Wow wou miss me. I miss you more!! Twees!!

Ok before i go i just wanna say this, a package of SORE THROAT and having a COLD SUX TO THE CORE!!!!

the end!

Okay i love that picture. Bridget love it more but still bridge i love the one below more!! Wahaha!!


And then Monday was a drag but CD 1.2 was cancelled. So yippie!! But it was sad for Mrs Ching la. Condolosence for her death of her father. So it wasn't all a good ting afterall because we'll surely have make up lesson. So no big deal actually. And we were bored during Belinda's Lecture 15 minutes break so we snap snap again and in conclusion i love this picture so much. The contrast not that good because the room itself is dark. But ok la not bad!! Its like there is a divider separating us man. LOL!!

Then that day went Al-Azhar for lunch and then snap snap again and i like this one the most. Lin also love this one sooo much. Right girl? So see the nest Miss World and Miss Universe!! Wahaha... prasan!!!

Hahaz... as usual dancesports was fun. Today was different. I had a dance partner. Awal. That is Indra's friend. He was good for a new dancer actually. Good dancing partner i have to admit. just more practise i think he's ok. But nah i think he's not that interested in dance so i guess he's not staying for long. =(

I wanna watch X-MEN so badly. Waiting for best friend treat!! Heh heh. I realised that i've been watching 2 cartoon movies with someone whom i thought he's sacry and serious throughout my 4 years in Hua Yi! Cartoon man!! Wth!! Hahaz... with Malik!! Gees... so how can he be that serious right. 4 years never talk and all. Gees... Malik you should be less action la for that past 4 years!! Wahahahaha!! Oops i've said that and he said he's making it up now by breaking my record to be on the phone till 4 am in the morning. Wahahaz... toot you!! Whatever it is i sooooo wanna watch X-MEN!!!! Ahhh!!!!! But got so many test and assignments to finish up la. Grrr!!

Okay thinking of assignments just bring my mood to zer0!!! So i'm off. Bye!!

Over The Hedge!!!!!

It rocks!! Simply awesome. It was a wonderful movie. Over the hedge is a movie which you guys should watch!! Some funny shit!! Hahahaz... goodness i laugh so much man! It sure is better then The Wild. Hahaz... But i still like The Wild though especially the part where the Koala goes, "I'm so cuddly i like you!". Hahaz... that seems tto be Malik's favourite line also!! Hahaz... But Over the Hedge was just so great la! I was laughing and laughing and i don't even care if i'm laughing loudly or my laughter sucks! Hahaz... It was hell funny la!! That RJ is just so cute la!! Hahaz... I LOIKE!! Ok this is Malik's treat so i shall say a million thanks to my dear rabbit Malik!! Hahaz... and thank goodness Nini has stopped asking me 'why is that abang so tall'. Hahahaz... As usual the queue to get the tickets was a drag. The queue was freaking long. And yes Malik i'm going to say this in my entry, "The service is so not good!" Hahaz...

And then Malik was being so sweet again by accompanying me wait for mama and papa to fetch me. And wth Malik don't want my lift. =( And then mama make a lot of noises because pity him go home alone. Wahaha... its ok la mama he big boy already. At least he's not 8 years old like someone!! Hahaz... Ok i'm starting to crap. Overall just wanna thanks that Malik boy for the great day la and sorry ah trouble him with the journeys and all!! Hahaz....

Damn it la. There's a class test tommorrow!! Ok i studied but i'm just so not confident. Like what's cephlocaudal, proximdistal etc. I may understand but i may not know how to explain them in words. Haiz... worried sick!!

Singapore Idol!! Rahimah you rocks my socks la!! Didn't know you have such nice voice. You weren't scary la. Hahaz... So go Rahimah!! Hahaz... i enjoy watching Singapore Idol just now. Funny and great people are in there. Hahaz... interesting indeed.

Alright i shall not talk more crap because its juat CRAP la! So i shall move on relpying my fellow taggers. So here goes:-

Dear indraTo marceLLo: Eyy gatal nyer nie orang!! Yes if she don't mind of course you will partner her. I help you already so now must help me ask your friend lak!! Hahaz... twees!! =p

Dear bridget*: Okay sure girl. We'll take loads and loads of pictures. No la you look good in any picture one. Its only me. =( And yes go and change your tagboard to CBOX or something so that there's an interpersonal girl can flood your tagboard. LOL!! =)

Dear LiNa: Alah girl, its just you who shy to admit that i make a great partner. Com'on don't be shy anymore. Admit it. Wahaha..... i seriously don't know how thick is my skin laa!! Hahaz... don't worry girl if indra wants to join you are safe. Just me and Nad now. =(

Dear SAMM: Hahaz... Sam you are just one clever toot la!! Hahaz... Bridget... next time put perfume first before you do your business aites? LOL!!!

Dear malix: Hahaz... eyy Mr President i would have a partner long ago if you have an interest in dancing than soccer. Hahaz... So don't talk much and find your Prime Minister a partner. Aper HE HE!! Dush dush baru tau!! (i'm so cuddlly i like you!! LOL) =p

Dear ads: Nad is pretty!! She's mine ads. Sorry. Oops she's aini's girl!! Wahahahaz... if nad reads this i'm so dead!! Hahaz..

Dear pam: Hahaz... sorry ehh i'm quite slow here. What choises ehh? What consequences? Hahaz... *blur and scratch heads* But anws thanks. All the best for your test too ya! I'm sure you don't need all that test actually. You are too smart for it. LOL!! Just go for the exam. Yay!! Wahahahaz... see how crappy i can be Pam!! Gees... twees! =)

Dear nisha: NO la girl. I'm not even pretty at the first place. Its you who getting prettier with that rebonded hair. I look suckier in them. Hahaz... so i can woo you already right? Wahahahaz... nah just kidding! I go for guys!! Hahaz... am i dissapointing you now?! LOL!!! Ok again CRAP yus!!

THE END!!

i'm lovin' it

So school is fun each and every single day. I'm enjoying and lovin' it. Regardless the lecture part, or the tutorial part or the practical part. ECH rocks. Especially having another bunch of girls who never fails to cheer up my day. Love ya guys la. There's this girl name XUE TING which sounds more like SWEATING like Samantha would say, never fails to pick a fight with me. I'm just loving it la hun!! You rocks my bag, socks, shoe and everything!! Hahaz... ouh btw, she's the one at the centre of the picture which looks as though she'd hiding. Hahaz... and XueTing my name is not 'Oh Shit'! toot toot you!! And there's Bridget and Samantha who always wanna know who shits and give off unpleasant smell everytime they enter the toilet. Hahaz... CRAP! And Long Zi is the sweet one who borrowed me her ACER CD when my dear lappie went berserk. Thanks girl!! Hahaz... of course NAD she's as crazy as them and also LINA and KHAI!! Hahaz...

So my lappie is not in a good condition previously. I still am not sure if its ok now. But hopefully it has fully recovered la. Thanks to David. He's the one in charge of the computer thingy. Installing software and repairing notebook la basically. And gees he said he like my 'lazy' and 'sleepy' eyes. WTH!!? I have a lazy and sleepy eyes? Hahaz... never known that. Good observation there David. Hahahaz....

ECH is great but the assignments are the killers!! Goodness. There's class test on MONDAY!! Damn it!! It ruins my weekends mood man. Gees... WTH is Locomotor skills!! Argghh.... i'm still so blur. Cephrecaudal and marked time clibing and proximodistal and fine/gross motor skills and more. Ahhh.... i'm so dead and so not gonna make it for the test. Ok at least one thing cheers me up. There's no common test for ECH!! Woo hoo... so our study break is such a wonderful one. Wahaha!!! But damn i need to think about my ever-so-many-and-pilling assignments that will be due in another few more weeks. Gees... so dead. And i haven't eve started on my musical insturment. Yikes!! I hate assignments so much!! Its ruining my life! Gees... I need enough entertainment first before i start on those assignments man. Which means more movies sessions, pool and bowling and more la!! Ahh...

And DIA have ended. Like finally!! So i lost the bet with Malik if Ivan and Dia will re-marry in the end or not. Gees... never thought that the show will end like happily ever after kindda way. Hahaz... Its such a touching movie la. Feel like watching more but don't think so la it adds on to more frustration only. Hahaz... so sad HE can't watch the last episode which is like 3 hrs. Then i have to story to him and exaggerate the part whereby FIFI IS IN JAIL!!! *evil laugh* Love that part la. If she is jail early in the show is like soooo good man!! Some evil insane psycho freak don't deserve to live in this beautiful earth!! Hahaz... wah i'm being emotional!! Later Malik will go 'dah director ask her act like that what not her fault!' Hahaz... so my father!! LOL!!

Dancesports had been GREAT!!! I just sooo love dancing but one problem!! Me, Nad & Lina don't have a partner. That sux to the core man!! We desperately need a partner. A guy partner by the way because we only learn the girls move. So any guy from Ngee Ann Poly is interested to join dancesports and happened to come to my dear blog and though of being my partner please tag me alright!! Hahaz... i really sound desperate man... goodness! Hahaz... but that's how the situation is like for me, nad and lina. We can dance already but we got no partner. How pathethic!! =( But whatever it is no guy or got guy i still love dancing and enjoying dancesports and CHA CHA!!! Hahahaz... I make a great partner dancing with Lina okay! Right Lina?! Com'on girl, don't be shy admit it. Hahahaz....

Ok i've been blogging crap! Haha.... wonder who's reading it. Whatever! Hahaz... so now i'll reply the tags since i don't wana flood my dear tagboard. So here goes nothing:-

Dear pam: Hey glad that you are well now!! Hahaz... yah the pasar malam is freaking long and the sell a lot of food. When i''m there i ended up not buying any food because there's just too many food and i don't know which shop sells nice food so i decided not to buy any of them. Hahaz... FAIRNESS!! =p

Dear ayienz: Fun is fun girl but i have to think hard of certain answers for the question they asked. They asked a lot of question which will leave me how-on-earth-am-i-suppose-to-answer-that-kid! I can't leave them in ignorance though.... Hahahaz... Hard one!! Hahaz...

Dear lydia: Ish! This girl arh... i dush dush you then you know!! Hahahaz... Malik got no reaction one he wouldn't say that. See my tagboard the least he'd say is 'hahahaha'!! LOL!!! (No offence ah Malik... hahaz!!)

Dear faezah: Of course i rock!! Who else can rocks me besides me. I good okay call you not like you see me walk only!! Hah!! Actually i call you since you said you miss me only if not i don't call you! Malas!! Wahahahahaz.... and Faezah is in DIKIR BARAT!!! Wahaha... that's funny la girl!! =)

Dear gab: GABBIE!!!!!!! Miss you la you kuku!! Like how Faezah miss me, i miss your craps MORE!! Nobody blocks the board in my class. I guess only to you la i will go, "Gab your head is blocking me!!" Wahaha... cya around ya girl!! =)

The End!!

Happy Mother's Day

To my beloved Mama, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!! No words can describe how thankful, happy, lucky and blessed i am to have such a wonderful Mother like you. You never fail to believe in me, support me and shower me with so so so much love. i'm not good in words so to keep it short and sweet. Mama, i appreaciate whatever you have done for me and i promise you that i will fullfilled your ambition that you always have since young if God willing. I never once feel that i have make you proud or give you any gift that will make you happy but i will try my very very best to give you the greatest give that is to become a teacher! Love you loads mama! You are simply the best mother in the whole wide world!! Muackz!!!!

Okay before i go i think i shall reply to the tags. Hahaz... the tags are quite long. So its better to reply here. Hahaz... ok here goes:-

Dear pam: hey girl. Yea i know how irritating and frustrated too be sick. The feeling is like really so so so so terrible!! Its ok girl. Just eat ur medicine and don eat stuff that will make you sick i'm sure you will get a speedy recovery! Get well soon ya girl?! Love ya... =]

Dear xian: Eyy you Kai Xian right?! Hahaz... just checking! Miss ya cute girl. See i'm not the only one who's scared of rat to death! Haha... i think i'll faint to man. Especially if the rat climbs on my leg or something. Hahaz... Ya the kids there are like SUPER cute la!! Just love to hang out and play and talk with them. I find it interesting to read winx club book for them!! Hahaz... So girl you should consider Early Childhood as your course in Poly!! Wahahahaz.... jus kidding!! =P

Dear nish: August?! Nah it will come very fast! So when you know which hospital you are attached to tell me ya!! Hahaz... cheers! =)

Dear lydia: LYD!! !! Are you mad or something? Malik and Me?! of course NOT! We are just friends. Gees... Me and Malik? That's so impossible. So its not like what you think girl. Hahaz.... gees!! I'm still single girl!! Goodness... I think Malik will laugh his heads off if he reads this... LOL!!!!

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Ok people... I SAW A RAT... like how scary can that be man. I almost cried man. Hahaz... and malik can still walk so slowly. Goodness. I just feel like pulling him to walk faster before the rat comes to us. Goodness goodness. Seriously i saw the long tails. YUCKS!!YUCKSSS!!! YUCKSSSS!!!! Malik was indeed talking about rat just now and it really appears. Gosh i really felt like crying man! The feeling just sucks la!! Rat man!! My scariest animal on earth. Lucky got malik if not i would have run back to my aunt's house! Wahaha!!

So i went to watch THE WILD with nini and my dear friend malik. Hahaz... so sweet of him la to even watch cartoon. He actually wanted to watch MI3 but we ended up watching cartoon. Wahaha!! And thanks for the meal treat. Nini keep asking me why is malik is so tall. Like how on earth am i suppose to answer that question man! Goodness nini!! Crazy... wahaha...

So had a great time just now. Its like what so loooong since i went for a movie man. To sum up Vesak Day holiday was fun la! So long never go Suntec. Basically Malik and me were walking aimlessly there. I mean we can count on nini of course for directions. Wahaha... So thanks to Malik for spending the time with me and nini la. So sweet of him. I mean i sure have trouble him a lot already. Travel here and there. So boy next time i treat you to ice cream ehh. Insya'allah! 5 years later ker... Wahaha... j/k! So before i go like i wanna reply to my taggers first so here goes nothing. And ouh yah!! Damcesports was great but i just need a partner and everything will be perfect. Anyone's interested?!! So ok here the replies:-

Dear LiNa: Wahahaz.... its ok la... i'm also embarrassed anyways. Nad too!! Wahaha... once in a while you drop you water face ok what!! Hahaz... malu malu.... =

Dear faezah: Yeah man... NP rocks and ECH rocks MORE!!! Wah i'm missed... so touching. Next time i'll just stick out my head to you so that you will not miss me anymore. Wahaha... =p

Dear pam: Hahaz.. okay... girl... get well soon yea... when i'm fre i'll get back to your mail yea. Been busy lately. Sorry dear. Love ya many many!! =)

Dear nish: Cool right? Then join ECH arh... hahaz... nah i'm sure you'll have fun during your attachment. When is yours dear? =]

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Alright so, i'm at the library now. Blogging. My first time though blogging in the school library. Many things happened recently. Happy, sad and angry one. But i'm okay la. I'm still the same irritating Yus! Like how bad can i change after what happened right. Hahaz... so out of all the days this week, i think i'm gonna talk more on what hapened on Tuesday. I think that's the best day of my life. I mean com'on that Tuesday was fun. Truly fun! A lot of things happened and i don't want to forget it. I will remember those tiny winy incidents for the rest of my life. Hahaz...

So what happened on Tuesday, 9th May 2006? A lot of things happened. Hahaz... ok firstly i went to my first attachment at the childcare centres. It was terribly fun!! What an experience. So i was given a K2 classes. And goodness, i swear those kids have been the nicest bunch of human beings i've ever seen in the world. I was so glad to be welcomed in the teaching world in such a manner. It was really nice. I just love it. I don't how else should i described but the feeling was awesome. I got 2 drawings from this boy name Firdaus and another Rohit. So sweet isn't it. Firdaus drew me and a cat while Rohit drew me a cat. Wahaha... it was really sweet. There's this boy who keeps hugging me and goes bang bang bang and claims that he wanna be a policeman. Wahaha... while the girls just can't stop talking with, holding my hands and all. Wahaha... the girls even fight for who can hold my hand during outdoor activities. Goodness!! Wahahaz.... one gurl just don'y want me to go to anyone else except her. And i was called teacher pizza and lizard instead of teacher Liza. But when i said hat'snot my name and i correct them they start calling me teacher liza. See even children knows how to correct themselves. Unlike Faezah who calls me Yuslizard. Can't you spell my name properly. Even children can pronounce better than you. Wahahaz... Faezah you gotta learn from them man, REALLY!! LOL!!

Okay enough bout that because if i continue i can never stop. And then back to school for lecture which ends at 5. But we have to wait for dance sports training which is like at 6:30 so Nad wants to finish up her assignments first in the library while my stomach is grumbling for FOOD!!! Had so much fun having dinner with him before he go again for like another 2 weeks plus which seems like years. Goodness!! Although we spent only like half hour talking and laughing away i think we had fun. At least we get to snap a picture. BUt poor him we have to like eat at the school canteen because its raining and we don't want to be late. How pathethic can that be being away and then have dinner at Ngee Ann Poly canteen. Gees. But the dinner was great la. So okay.

Then went to find Lina in the libraru after dinner with him. And thanks so much to Lina. I was soooo embarrassed because i spent the time walking all around the library at level 5 to find for them because LINA say they are at level 5 CONFIDENTLY. But guess what when i ask he to meet me at the staircase she was actually at level 4. How interesting can that be right? Goodness. She's like getting the blur diseased from me man. Lina all i can say to you is you are YUS'ed!! Wahaha!! People were already looking at me like why the hell is this girl twirling around level 5. Ish!! Paise paise!! That was only the first incident. Now the second. AZLINA darling again!! She practically showed me to the wrong exit and everyone who saw us was like already laughing at us because there was not exit there. GOODNESS!! Now i learnt my lesson not to trust Azlina's sense of direction. Wahahahahaz.... it was just so funny thinking about it again. And of course the embarrassment. Ish!! No wonder everyone was laughing at us. MALU MALU!!! Nad was so innocent. She was on the phone. And we lead her to the wrong place. Wahahahaz...... poor Nad.

And then we were late for dance sports because Nad have to finish her assignments first. So we were late. They already started their practice and there were a lot of them. Wahaha... so paise again!!! MALU MALU! So we asked the seniors and they asked us to come on Thursday if we want or just join in. But we decided to come on Thursday instead hbecause its too crowded. Which is like TODAY!! So now i'm in the library waiting to pass time for dancesports. So basically we stayed back for nothing. How lame. Then Lina and i had a laughing session at the atrium. Lina should know. We were laughing till we had tears, Wahahaz....crazy us!!!

So yea that's how fun Tuesday is while Wednesday is a drag!! IT lesson but Ambassador game session was great. Everyone were so friendly and i love it. So yah for now can't wait for dance sports. I'm more to scared actually. Gees... all the best to me. So yah... school has been like totally great and finally i completedmy SS assignments but my notebook corks up!! Something is so wrong. The school didn't actually download the software fully. Damn!!! Now this worries me. Damn it i can't frigging get on to do recording for my Speech Training Basic Module. DAMN DAMN DAMN!! SO i'm frustrated now. So i'm gone. Bye!!

because of you...

What are friends for. I was relieved to hear all that. After such a long time i kept things to myself, i let it out. Special thanks to the CE the girls in my life. It was nice meeting you guys just now. Candy, if by luck you are reading this please do contact any of your fellow CE because we just couldn't contact you. Its so hard to get to you girl. Such a busy woman you are. Hahaz... we are not complete without you girl. So please if you qare reading this give me a call or something. Or Sab, or nurul or pam! OK?! And anybody see candy please pass this message to her. Hahaz... in search of a cute and great friend Candy Ong!! Waha... we all miss you badly girl. Pam even scold me when i say i saw Candy at Jurong Point sometime ago. Wahaha... she's like so jealous.

Btw this entry goes out specially to Sabbie, Pammie and Nulul. I wanna say a million thanks to you guys for always being there for me. You guys are the best friend anyone could ever had. You know me best. Thanks for allowing me to always lend your shoulder to cry on. Thanks for the non stop hits of jokes which makes me laugh non stop. In total thanks for being a great friend all along! Love you guys sooo much!! To Pam enjoy yourselves in SP saying 'shuttup arh' in that tone. (you know what i mean) To Nulul enjoy your psycologist and saying 'so how do you feel about that' and Sab enjoy doing your hairstyling!! =) Looking forward for more meetings ya. Provided i'm free la. Hahaz...

I'm like in a CCA dilemma here. I so do't know what to join. Gosh NP why must you offer so many interesting CCA. Its like there's debating club also. Goodness i so don't know what to join. I so like interested in dancesports after S&W today. But i'm also interested in netball and floorball. I'm so confused. But i have a big urge to join dancesports actually. Haiz. I'm so confused!!!

Dance sports lesson just now was sooo interesting, exciting and fun. We learn Cha Cha!! I loike!!! Wahaha... it was confusing at first but i'm okay with it after a while. Melvin looks fierce but overall he's okay arh. Not bad! He dance well. Like duh. He teaches them. us that's stupid. And so goodness i still can't decide on my cca. 2 more days to think okay Yus!! Ish!!

Assignments are killing me. Its like only 2 weeks since we started school. Goodness!! And Tuesaday i'm going for my first field practicum. My childcare centres that is. Thank God there's Azura from 1A01 with me in that child care centre. Its at Jurong West St 52. SO thank God its near my home place. Interesting. Wahaha... can't wait actually. So excited to see the kids. Scared to see the parents and teachers. And as a student teacher i am not allow to like you know get to close to the kids yet. Since i'm like so new. Ish... i don't know how i can stand my fingers not to pinch the kids cute cheek. Wahahaz...

I like so don't know what to blog anymore so i'll just reply to my dear taggers here:-

Dear LiNa: Hey girl thanks so much yea. Yea you guys have been a great gal frens to me. Love ya guys. Thanks for your concern ya!! Love ya many many flabby partner. And Lina... gempal there...wahahahaz....ok tis will be the last i tease you. Wahaha... i think...LOL!! =P

Dear malix: Thanks and please do so everytime you visit this palace of mine of dear boy! Hahaz...

Dear Alicia: Hahaz...thanks girl. Get well soon to ya too. =)

Dear ads: Hehe...ads don worry i'm still smiling so widely. See... =) Wee... thanks girl!

Dear Madey: Yeaps i'm enjoying school so much. I have many crazy friends. How about you girl?

So the end.

The Mixture of Feelings

Ok. I'm very pissed now. VERY. I felt quite sad too. And maybe angry too. I don't know. It isa mixture of feeling. I really hope everything is going to be fine for me. Its been like almost 6 months since it happens. I was saddened by the incident. But what can i do i have my reasons. I don't understand why people just don't seem to understand me.

Doesn't mean i laugh all the time. I smile all the time. I joke all the time. I talk crap all the time. I go disturb people all the time means i'm problem free. Doesn't mean i'm always happy. I mean i'm human i also have feelings. I feel hurt. I feel sad. I felt lost and confuse. I'm sure you guys have ever been in my situation right? Its just hard for me to confide to anyone. I don't know just who will really understand me. Sometimes even the people that you believe will understand you simply don't. That's exactly because they are not me and they can never be me and know what's my feeling like. So how worried i was, how sad i am, how presssured i feel i try my very best not to tell anyone so as i won't bother anyone but there's a limit to everything and there's moments where you just broke down. I really wanna be strong and not break down. I'm really trying my best but it fears me to think that i'm alone and i have nobody to confide in... Haiz...

I really don't know what to say. I just feel so good that i have a blog. The advantages of letting out everything since this is my blog. How i feel and all. I mean i'm not offending anyone. This is just how i feel. Sigh. Why is life so difficult? Especially when it comes to feelings. Ish! I don't want to talk about it anymore. I guess being alone is still the best! So i'm off!!~

My old neighbour whom i treat him just like my real uncle just pass away this morning. It was rather shocking and sad. My mum called me when i was having my Speech Training Basic Lecture. I was shocked. It was very sad that i didn't get to see him for the last time. I didn't even get to go to his house for Hari Raya visiting last year because i was frigging busy with the Os. Haiz... he's a great man whi never fails to give me great advices whenever he sees me. He always reminds me of my ate grandfather. And he pass away also just like late grandfather. Because of heart attack. So sad isn't it? Imagine if it were your dad. He was okay the day before, went to the market in the morning riding his bike and reached home feeling tired. And then you heard your mother screaming for your name, you were in your room, and when you come out you realised that your dad is gone. Your heart will definately sank and pool of tears will already showing right? Goodness. Life is so unpredictable. So guess be nice and live life to the fullest. I was like thinking what if one day i was really mean to my parents and then the next thing you know they left you. For good. Haiz... that's a scary thought. Anyways hope he'll soul will rest in peace and may Allah put him amongst the nice people n heaven. Insya'allah. Amin.

And then school was a drag. Not really though. As usual Curriculum Studies with Belinda was great. Music is the food for live. So how can the lesson be boring. But i just find the time today very slow. Usually time passes very fast. One thing i like about poly is that we get to be released half an hour early unlike secondary whereby its always late. Gees... Alright so went home with Malik. I make him wait again. Gees... sorry sorry sorry Malik. Went JP to collect some stuff for mama. Wth make my bag heavy only. Hahahaz... special thanks especially goes out to Malk actually because he's willing to accompany me go JP even with his heavy laptop. And Malik's theory,'girls can't carry heavy stuff'. Hahaz... i like that. Wahahaz... He's like don't even let me to carry his laptop for just a few steps. Hahaz... so sweet of him right. So girls whoever think he's serious like Lina, he's not. He's a very sweet guy. Hahaz... so girls who want to get to know him don't bother asking me for his number. Wahahaz... just kidding. Malik see i'm promoting you!! I'm can be a good matchmaker for you. Wahaha!!

So reached home uploaded the pictures taken in lectures just now. Hahaz... crazy us. Crazy XueTing forever also disturbs me!! Wahaha... but i loike it la!! Wahaha... So now i don't know what else to blog so i shall take leave. Bye peeps!! =)


**never gonna stop smilling for the rest of the day! =)**