My cute papa turn a year older today.
Mcm cute gitu aku ckp a year older. Hahaha!

May God bless him with great health and wealth always.
Stay charming and cute papaku!

On a random note, I have been reading a friend's blog.
Somehow she is in a state in which I am in too.
Those kinds of mixed feelings.
How I wished we could talks things out and share our thoughts.
But oh well, we ain't that close, so it's quite weird to talk about personal stuff with someone not really close with you.
At least not me, I'm not use to sharing my personal matters with just anyone.

A note for this friend, be strong babe.
They are always out to test our patience and limits.

I repeat ALWAYS!

Morning world.

Happy day because...

That's my baby. After all the hard work. It's due today. Today is teacher portfolio interview assessment. Alhumdulilah it went smoothly. I was super nervous that I cannot even sleep soundly last night. When Juliana say that I did a really good job just now, I really felt like hugging her that very minute! Haha... I'm crazy. But hard work was all paid off. I love my teacher portfolio. It's with Juliana now. =(

Met Asyura for the interview. We were both nervous but were as relieved and happy as soon as we are so over and done with the interview. The feeling spells AWESOME!! Then headed for lunch at Sakura. Then off I went for a date with my busted 1! I miss that bacin! wahahahaha!

Then we feel like asking Fana along for dinner. Called her and taa daa, she was at JP! Coolness!! So we had dinner at Fish & Co. Fickled Sharifah as usual. Thanks Sharifah for all your help. I appreciate it. After so long, met Fana again. Miss her la seh, dier ajer tak rindu aku. Hahaha... and I so know she is reading this because apparently she have been reading my blog chori chori chupke chupke. Haha... Thanks my giler girls, I surely had a good night today with non-stop laughter. If only Resh is around then I think I'll definitely pengsan due to excessive laughter outbreak. Hahaha!

Lately, Lin & Me had a hot date too with darling Khai. Had dinner at LJS and then headed to IMM for secret recipe's cakes and Ice-cream, YOU-scream for ICE CREAM! Hahaha...

That's super fattening I know but hell it was just extremely delicious. I promise I'll go for some dieting, when Sham's gone for sailing again maybe... Not now please! Well, kasi chance la happy happy sikit. Lately too, my ladies went shee-sha- ing. But well, no photos. Ain and Wesley was there too. Again, fantastic night. Thanks guys, you guys just rock my day though I was feeling really shitty that day.

Lin sent me that to cheer me up. How sweet can she be right? To Lin, I know at times when I feel really really shitty, I do feel like doing something stupid. Like really stupid! But with you around I know you wouldn't let it happen. Sham owe you a lot for that I guess. Haha... Thanks babe for everything. You are such a dear. Sometimes, I can't imagine my education life without you. It would definitely be horrendously boring. I swear! I really thank God I have you. *hugs*

There's another dear friend of mine that I would like to share that piece of note that Lin had sent me. For umpteen times I know you have been trying to reach me. But I'm sorry, I was just not ready to explain things as yet. Maybe because my mind is still doing a lot and a lot of thinking. I know you care, and I appreciate it so much. No one really care for me as much as you do, not even someone that really meant the world to, no doubt on that. But maybe the changes in our lives makes me fear in confiding in you. Again, I can't really describe why exactly I am having this fear. Everything is just so complicated but I hope you do understand that I am not trying to avoid or shun you away. I appreciate your messages, your effort to reach me but I don't know, something is just stopping me to confide in you like how we use to. As much as I miss those times, I know it can never come back, it breaks my heart yet I know we have to move on with life. Maybe I am just being too overly emotional about this but somehow, I don't want to make it all worst. I love the friendship, I don't wanna lose it ever and I really hope you'd understand. Though nothing much is being delivered to you most of the time. I wished you'd know. I really do.

At the lowest peak of your life at times, your friends had been really great. Sometimes you just can't thank them enough. I have no reason to sulk when they are always there to pick me up each time I fall. I feel so grateful and lucky that I bump into these dearies in my life. I really have to thank God for that.

Indeed life have taught me to be more independent and sensible. Life have been tough with doubts, uncertainty, insecurities, feelings of unworthiness and unappreciated, but I know I have to live with it and I am living with it. I've fallen too deep that I am not able to reach out even with the tallest ladder. Please God, give me the strength to face all these obstacles of yours.

Bye world.

AGAIN!

HE IS SO GOING TO LEAVE ME AGAIN.
I HATE HIS JOB x 1MILLION!!!

Spare me!

I guess I've had enough.
I'm not here to throw you anger at.
Though I may look like a punching bag to you, my size and all,
I'm not literally a punching bag.
So please spare a thought for me.
I may just fall apart anytime soon.

Please give this last few weeks some peace.
Pretty please, I beg of you.
I need those peace, we need those peaceful times again.

Hope for a better day tomorrow.

Updates on 20th

20th was great.

Went to Singapore History & Living Gallerries &
Quest for Imortality- The World of Ancient Egypt
Thanks a bunch to Fana Darling for all the help.
After much uploading of pictures, I shall just leave the pictures to the the talking!
=)

Alright, good night world.

Twentieth twentieth

We turn 37 months old today. =)
Believe it or not, I finish 4 reflective journals for IT module at this hour and while texting Mr Boyfriend.
Yes, I hate IT module!
Happy twentieth hun hun! ILMYLC!

I was just googling and I found this news.
Early Childhood Education is indeed progressing well.
I'm so proud of my profession. =)
I've never regret majoring in it.

Feverish Fever

I'm not sure if I'm currently suffering from a fever or flu. I measured my temperature just now and it shows 38.1. So fever la tu ehh, then my body is aching all over, so maybe flu also la ahh. Haha, exactly why I'm unsure what's my condition now. I felt as though I'm fainting or something during Role of Mentor tutorial. So cold and head spinning like crazy. My body is so aching all over badly. I was so in pain, so decided to just cab home. Reached home, ate medicine and off to bed. Can't really sleep, in the end I woke up and watch TV. & then I was too bored alone at home, here I am blogging!

Oh yes, last Friday, Sharifah treated me to watch Alice in Wonderland 3D. The start was such a drag. I almost fell asleep. Furthermore, that very day too, I was down with bad running nose. Wth. Anyways, I'd give the movie a 6 out of 10. The 3D effect wasn't that nice la. I guess Singapore Discover Centre 3D was way better. Haha...

I've been having sleepless nights lately. A lot of things have been running through my mind I guess. Especially when March is so ending. He's leaving like again, Boston trip is nearing and many many more things are so bothering me. Sometimes don't you just wish to be a child again? So much easier because basically all you do is play, eat and sleep.

Oh did I mention that I hate IT module? No?

Quiche

Baking the Crust

After baking the crust, the filing made its way on top of it.

Bake it hot hot!

So... Taa daa!!

The existence of oven at home is so missed. The outcome of my awesome culinary skills. Haha... Macam Paham!! Baking was super fun. Though my efforts were rather unappreciated, I still feel good that I make full use of my Sunday. Not doing assignments at least. I rushed from one place to another to get the ingredients for this quiche. But when the family says it's delicious, it's enough to put a smile on my face that terrible Sunday.

I was so excited baking for that someone who excitedly too asked me to bake it but somehow, my effort all went down to waste. No thank you, no acknowledgement, nothing! Thank you for making me feel so dumb to be all excited baking something that I don't even eat. My disappointment is nothing big anyways. Maybe, I'm just getting use to life being alone and unappreciated. Lin have been great with all the help and simply the best listening partner she'd given me. Thanks Lin. Love you babe.

If only your ego don't hurt me too much.

Crazy!

March hadn't been starting well. It's rather brain cracking and emotionally annoying. Starting on assignments have been such a dread. That explains the piling assignments. I am even too exhausted to face the lappie.

Love got himself a new toy. & ever since the existence of this thingy, he haven't been getting enough sleep. It's nice to see him enjoying himself but it's worrying if it tires him. But oh well, he have only until the end of this March to enjoy like crazy. & then my days change drastically again.

I am so blogging while Lynn Heng is having her talk during lecture. So I think I should make this entry short. I'm missing those days badly. Really badly. Hope to bump with those kind of days real soon. Bye world.

What's happening?

I've typed a long entry before this.
But I decided to just highlight it and hit on the delete button.
No use being long winded when the only message that I wish to send across is,
I want everything to end fast because I'm just too exhausted.

Dear God, please give me the strength to keep on going.

I am not as strong as I thought I would be.
I am feeling rather lost and I guess I'm getting weaker and weaker each day.
Please God, help me.

i'm sorry?

I'm sorry, I just needed some tiny time to myself. Alone.

I didn't mean to make it all complicated.
Indeed i'm trying very hard to fix my emotions back to its original state.
Yes, I'm trying my best, but your actions are not helping.

To you, thanks for making it all messed up between us.
I know I can't blame you but I'm sure, if this happens to you too, you will not like it one bit.
I'm very sure of that because apparently, that's just us, females.