That's my baby. After all the hard work. It's due today. Today is teacher portfolio interview assessment. Alhumdulilah it went smoothly. I was super nervous that I cannot even sleep soundly last night. When Juliana say that I did a really good job just now, I really felt like hugging her that very minute! Haha... I'm crazy. But hard work was all paid off. I love my teacher portfolio. It's with Juliana now. =(
Met Asyura for the interview. We were both nervous but were as relieved and happy as soon as we are so over and done with the interview. The feeling spells AWESOME!! Then headed for lunch at Sakura. Then off I went for a date with my busted 1! I miss that bacin! wahahahaha!
Then we feel like asking Fana along for dinner. Called her and taa daa, she was at JP! Coolness!! So we had dinner at Fish & Co. Fickled Sharifah as usual. Thanks Sharifah for all your help. I appreciate it. After so long, met Fana again. Miss her la seh, dier ajer tak rindu aku. Hahaha... and I so know she is reading this because apparently she have been reading my blog chori chori chupke chupke. Haha... Thanks my giler girls, I surely had a good night today with non-stop laughter. If only Resh is around then I think I'll definitely pengsan due to excessive laughter outbreak. Hahaha!
Lately, Lin & Me had a hot date too with darling Khai. Had dinner at LJS and then headed to IMM for secret recipe's cakes and Ice-cream, YOU-scream for ICE CREAM! Hahaha...
Lin sent me that to cheer me up. How sweet can she be right? To Lin, I know at times when I feel really really shitty, I do feel like doing something stupid. Like really stupid! But with you around I know you wouldn't let it happen. Sham owe you a lot for that I guess. Haha... Thanks babe for everything. You are such a dear. Sometimes, I can't imagine my education life without you. It would definitely be horrendously boring. I swear! I really thank God I have you. *hugs*
There's another dear friend of mine that I would like to share that piece of note that Lin had sent me. For umpteen times I know you have been trying to reach me. But I'm sorry, I was just not ready to explain things as yet. Maybe because my mind is still doing a lot and a lot of thinking. I know you care, and I appreciate it so much. No one really care for me as much as you do, not even someone that really meant the world to, no doubt on that. But maybe the changes in our lives makes me fear in confiding in you. Again, I can't really describe why exactly I am having this fear. Everything is just so complicated but I hope you do understand that I am not trying to avoid or shun you away. I appreciate your messages, your effort to reach me but I don't know, something is just stopping me to confide in you like how we use to. As much as I miss those times, I know it can never come back, it breaks my heart yet I know we have to move on with life. Maybe I am just being too overly emotional about this but somehow, I don't want to make it all worst. I love the friendship, I don't wanna lose it ever and I really hope you'd understand. Though nothing much is being delivered to you most of the time. I wished you'd know. I really do.
At the lowest peak of your life at times, your friends had been really great. Sometimes you just can't thank them enough. I have no reason to sulk when they are always there to pick me up each time I fall. I feel so grateful and lucky that I bump into these dearies in my life. I really have to thank God for that.
Indeed life have taught me to be more independent and sensible. Life have been tough with doubts, uncertainty, insecurities, feelings of unworthiness and unappreciated, but I know I have to live with it and I am living with it. I've fallen too deep that I am not able to reach out even with the tallest ladder. Please God, give me the strength to face all these obstacles of yours.
Bye world.
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