Tired

Done with kenduri.
Phew tiring.
& guess what!
Desktop's back from hospital this morning too.
But sadly scanner still couldn't work because just got to know my printer's sick too.
& the person said it's meant to be since my both my printer and com is like more than 7 years old. Gees... lamer jugak bertahan.
But ok lah boleh print dah alhumdulilah.
Motherboard CPU-ku rosak and so it cost me a bomb.
Please ehh jgn lah rosak lagi! Tak mampu aku nak bayar lagi. Ish!

Tiring day today but it was fun to see the cousins again.
As usual, it is sure to be noisy with them around.
& the aunties can never stop teasing me infront of syg's parents. Gees...

& syg's present to me (iPod) is their addiction today.
Especially when dearest Abg Ayie put in fun games for me.
Alangkah seronoknyer dier org main2 iPod tersygku the whole day.
Dah habes battery baru kasi balek! Thanks eh! Haha...

Thursday night was awesome.
But it was too short.
It's not enough.
In fact it can NEVER be enough.

Boy, I'm so in love with you! <3

Some anger...

How would you feel if you hear someone is just trying to badmouth you just as soon as you came home from a tired day at work?
Let me answer that, the words are "Super FURIOUS!"
Heck, work was exhausting and to hear all that when I reach home...
Anyone on earth too will get piss!

Like hello, can you bloody stop seeing other people's bad side and start badmouthing them?
Hey, you ain't perfect too.
You'll never know you're worst than anyone else.

I never like the idea of throwing my anger at my blog.
My blog is too nice for all this but I really can't stand it.
Too bad that I have to come across this entry if I were to browse through my past post in future.

For goodness sake, stop being such a hypocrite will you?!
& another thing, stop putting words in my mouth damn you.
Else your mouth will just starts to sore so badly as everything you said was just untrue.
No wonder there's so many out there who dislikes you badly.
My mistake to not believe them.
Gosh! Nothing beats the anger I encounter today.

Neither do I need your help nor your sympathy.
Just bloody get outta my life.
You never fail to annoy me you know but I was rather patient with your attitude.
My patience has its limits too alright.
I've been through a lot of shits and I never needed you to be there for me.
So please, stop being such a pain!

Urgh!! I can't believe I'm saying all this here.
With such 'good' english some more.
Such uncontrollable anger.
Btw, saper yg terase tu too bad for you!
I feel like saying this so much to this idiot, "Mulut macam pantat ayam ah!"

Urgh!!!
That's it I'm off!

Work Work Work

Teaching have been fine, except that the hassle of lesson plans never stops.
The usuals, these kids can be such monkeys yet adorable.
Work's tiring but their nonsense really make my day though.
Haha... & what more can I say...
I miss my boy...
Oh boy, I'm so in love with him.
Come back soon darling, you're so missed!

10 days w/o you. =(

Twentieth!

It's the twentieth!
Which makes us Yusham 32 months old and 972 days.
We've exchanged our well-wishes last Saturday because for sure syg will not get reception since he's sailing.
Will look forward for more months, days and years with you my love.
Ilmytteot hun. (Only dearie Sham know what that means... hee!)

&& a birthday shout out to the great friend, Sharifa darling!
Finally you're 21! So except the fact! LOL!
Happy Birthday sweetie!
May Allah bless you with great health & wealth always. Amin!

A Perfect Saturday Night <3

Yesterday's date with love was just AWESOME! I had butterflies in my stomach while I'm on my way to meet this boyfriend of mine. I don't know why but whenever I meet him for a date, it's like the first date we had. Hee... was extremely happy and excited the moment he says he's able to go offshore. =)

We were whirling together the moment we met as Sham carried me in his arm. Macam hindustan la gitu kan... HAHA! Romantic la sehh matair aku sorang ni! Haha... We don't even care if people were like practically watching us. Ahh... don't care, all that we know was we were extravanganzaly happy to see each other again. Went to have dinner at The Mussel Guy restaurant right after. It was a really nice dinner with lovely company. Boy, how I miss him. To get to see him again, I just can't let go of him. Spent the night talking and catching up about what had happened since we were far away from each other. & how time passes when I'm with love. Wouldn't it be nice if time freezes right at that moment. =( I haven't and will never get enough of my boy and there he have to leave again. Again, it breaks the heart.

Syg, I know it have been tough on you to be working like this but don't worry ok dear, like you say, kiter susah dulu senang kemudian tau ok sygku? You have safe journey and do take care while working. It worries me to know you're unwell recently. Thanks for the lovely night and thanks for the gifts syg. The DVDs are definitely the best! =) Thanks a lot love. Most importantly, thanks for loving me syg. Don't you dare have wild thoughts like that because I'll marry no one else but only you my love. Stay strong and always remember I'll always wait for your return safely. Yusliza is just so in love with you Muhammad Hisham! Miss you boy...

He's mine & only mine now & forever.
Allrightsreserved. =)

Don't miracles happen?

Never at ease & will never be pleased,
Until the eye meets,
with such gaze, I plead.

Boy, how I miss him...

Awesome Saturday!

Lappie is well again. thanks to Lin's brother for the great help. Actually I'm really tired to blog but today was just an awesome day. So I'm gonna blog everything that had happened lately quickly and off to meet my lover boy at lalaland. Hee... Ok great things happened to me for that past few days. Here it goes...

2nd October, my man turned twenty-three! Happy Belated Birthday dearest. I get to wish him on the phone only. HIs present is still with me. =( How I miss him!

4th October I turned twenty-one. Early in the morning I the sweetest delivery from love. And guess what I get for my birthday. My first twenty-first present. Taa daa...

His love note for me... hee...

It's definitely the best birthday present ever. Thanks syg! It's really lovely but I felt so guilty that you have to spend such a bomb for this. There's an engraving at the back of my dear iPod which says "For my Dearest on her 21st. With Love- Sham". Sweet la sehh! Adoi!! I miss my syg so bloody much la. Nak sham! =( Thanks once again hun!

Nothing much to celebrate about because I'm just getting older each passing year. & I gotta admit being an adult ain't that easy. So basically the close ones did not wish me on that day. So yeah, I thought every one's busy. Sham too is not able to come call me due to unavailability of reception but his present is enough to make me smile so wide on my birthday. It will be better if he's in the delivery. Ok, I wish!!

So 5th October seems like a normal day for me. Go to work as per normal but receive a bad news from Sham. He's not able to meet me though he's in Singapore that day as he had to sail to Bangla straight away. Bangla means far, means he's gonna come back only after 15 to 18 days. Like WTF!!!! Urgh!!! I felt so terrible that I cried while talking to him on the phone when children were asleep. I swear I felt extremely terrible and weak. All I need was him. I even cried in the bus on my way back home that day.

Until I reached home and opened my room door. I received a really pleasant surprise. I swear it was the best birthday surprise ever. There stood Lin, Sharifah, Reshmel and Dayah in my room. How can I not be shock! Haha... It's really sweet guys. Thanks so much. I'm really touched. Thanks to Lin who have planned and pakat with my family since like 2 weeks ago. & it was aban's idea that noone wish me as yet. Like, wth. Hahaha... here's some pictures of the awesome birthday surprise.

The transformation they made to my room. 21 heart shape balloons on my bed. =)
So I slept with so many balloons this few days. Feeling2 macam princess. LOL!

Truffle cake thanks to abang. & muker tgh sememek after crying. Lol!

Thank you so much adek Ina and the mum for the presents.

& then comes 10th October. As planned earlier, Lin & Me need to do some retail therapy. I can't remember when was the last time I did any shopping. Was suppose to go to Eda's twenty-first birthday party but was not able to because its far and the parents don't want me to go back home alone late at night. So yeah. I bought jeans, bag, iPod cover and screen protacter, purse and yes we took neoprints! Haha... awesome day today. Thanks Lin! I really enjoyed myself. & today we both have curls ya'all.

&&&, loverboy message. Get to hear his voice yesterday too. Maka terubat la sikit rinduku padanya. Sikit jer ehh, tak cukup langsung! =( *sobx* & the fact is Yus & Sham is sick, LOVE SICK! =(

"I don't know about remedy but I know what I'll keep doing. I'll keep on living day by day hoping and wishing I'll be back with you. For now, I'm gonna sleep yet another day without you away. So it will bring me closer to beautiful you. We say goodbye to today and we'll say hello to another day closer to us."- Sham

I tear so bad as I read that message of his. Haish, Yus nak Sham so badly, pleeeeeeeeease! Who even understand us. =( So sesungguhnyer Yus sungguh ngantuk.com! This whole week was just about work then tuition due to PSLE and final year exams. There's tuition still tomorrow. Yes, even on a Sunday! Sungguh tak cukup tdo! Grr... da la! Nak gi bobok and meet him at lalaland. Toodles world!

Worried

Responsibilities arise as your age increase each year.
I guess I'm feeling the tense now.
First day of work today was great except for the call I received while I'm teaching.

Haish... I guess money is never enough in this world.

Back working at Kinsland Educare.
Just that this time round, I'm not a student teacher but a permanent teacher till next year.
Taking over the old class, K1 and K2.
Was talking about how cute Guo You was with Lin the other day.
How I miss him... was so glad to see him again today. =)

The only thing that makes me smile or laugh today were the children.
The children are having Mid-Autumn lantern celebration concert tomorrow.
So first day was a hectic one, yet looking at their performance makes the teachers smile from ear to ear.

I'm glad that at least the children are there to cheer me up at stressful times.
I didn't even have the appetite to have anything the whole day.
Kalau gemuk pun naseb... haish...

Ok this is random, but I guess I'm just letting this off my chest here.
Well, I'm just disappointed by your reluctance.
I should have known, it's just another day.
I should have known I'm not as important after all.
No matter what thanks for everything, I still love you the same.

Ok, this got nothing to do with my Sham love.
Sham have been there for me though he's always far away.
Can never thank him enough for all the help he'd given me.

Thanks my love.
Thanks everyone.