So this are my girls in NP and ECH! Love them! Had so much laughter and fun at Jurong Point. Though it was the most boring shopping centre ever. We enjoyed ourselves especially when we were having our luch. Hahaz... i was so blur to give Lina a dirty tissue when she's asking for it. Wahaha... We ate alot! Hahaz... and i got to finally eat CHOCOLATE WAFFLE!! I think Lina and me are the happiest girls of the day to get to eat them. Wahahahaz... crazy us!! I'm sure Khai, Lina and me enjooyed ourselves so much at Toys R us. Hahaz... found stupid things to talk and crack jokes ... hahaz!! I like!!

So one week of school and it has been great. From the friends. lecturers and the course itself. All great. And guess what i chose dancesport for my sprts and Wellness module. Ballroom dancing, salsa, latin and all. Hmm... sounds interesting. But let's just see. And i still can't decide on what CCA to join. Netball, band or sign language club or whatever it is called. Hahaz.... stress stress!! Out of all modules and lectures Sukuna's lecture is still the best for me. Mrs Pang's too. Hmm.... child development and speech training is fun. Ouh Belinda's too. Music!! Nursery ryhmes. I so like!! I learnt a lot of the history of rhymes. Like humpty dumpty. I didn't know that it was a canon. all along i thought it was an egg. But it was a canon who fall from a tower during a civil war. Interesting! Can teach the kids new stuff now. Hahaz... My group did a spontaneous act for the history of the song of sixpence nursery ryhmes. Though we didn't practice it or whatever. We were great la. It went smoothly. Wahaha!! Belinda was sortta happy with it though. I hope so. Hahaz...

So okay i'm just too lazy to blog further so till the next entry. Bye!!


**Its been a week since you've been gone.**

After a few years, i am studying MUSIC again. Wahaha... well it is part of my module actually. We are suppose to know how to make a song, read notes and sing of course. Goodness! I wonder how i'm going to sing man. It's like ok it rains whenever i sing. Hahaz... It was a fun lecture with Belinda though. And it makes me wanna join band again. But i only want to play the flute nothing else. Hahaz... or maybe percussion. Not the frenchorn again. Ish!!

Ang guess what i lost my ez-link. I didn't lost it. I am confident that i dropped it in the bus because i was holding onto it. And only after i wanna tap it to get down i realised i wasn't holding on to it. I can't practically be searching for it when the bus was like moving off already. So yeah i lost my secondary ez-link. What a waste. No card to keep it for rememberance. Thank God there's no more money. Hahaz... that means i lost my baby photo also which i stick onto it. Damn it la. That's my monkey picture which i love the most. That picture is the only picture which i think i look stupid and cute. GRR!! Like Malik say to the is my blur day. But i disagree because everyday is my blur day. Today is just my dumbest day that's all! Hahaz!!

So went home with Malik. We talk a lot and laugh a lot in the bus and his finger is still in a very bad shape. Hahaz... kesian! Then we walk home and then we saw my dear biology teacher MS SALLY PANG!!! Wahaha... we hugged and i sure miss her man. I miss asking her the 'WHY' question and then she will be all frustrated. She will go, "because its like that. Just like why is 1+1=2." Hahaz... till now i wonder how se can tolerate and be patient with my dumbness. Hahaz... Love ya Miss Pang! Thanks for everything! And i have another Mrs Pang Li Yee in Ngee Ann. She's my lecturer for STB! Hahaz... will see her it tommorrow.

Indeed today is my dumbest day ever. Gosh so paise. I'm so blur today till Malik have to like, "relax relax." I like drop my money and don't know where i put my handphone and all. Ish!! Even now i'm home blogging i'm still blur on what should i do next. Gosh!!

Ok i got to go to do loads of readings now and to do reasearch about nursery ryhmes and their origins. By the way i didn't know that after this course i can not only become a teacher but also children's psychiatrist and more. Interesting isn't it. Hahaz.. ok peeps, i'm off!

**still waiting for that '1 new message'.**

first day at sch!

The day started off with me meeting Malik to go to school together. Yes Malik. Hahaz... you people didn't see wrongly. Stop scratching your eyes. You are reading correctly. Hahaz! Malik seh! The one whom i never talk to for like 4 years in Hua Yi! Hahaz.... i don't even know he exist untill ili and the others start teasing Diyana 'Malik malik...' Wahaha! So okay apologies to Malik because i reached late. Like what's new. YusLiza! when will she be on time. Gees! Hahaz! Malik have this scary look which makes me scared whenever i see him. Maybe because he never smile. Hahaz... scary guy. Nah his not so now. That guy is still the scariest guy on my list now. And btw people its not Zhi Wei. Haha!! even Lina says that Malik look so serious. Hahaz... gotta make him smile more. Never thought i would talk to such serious guy but well i just did and he's not that bad like i've thought it will be like. He's friendly and just very nice. I don't know what word to describe him but he's just too nice la! And btw the secret is i don't know how to go Ngee Ann taking bus! Wahaha... i've been there all along taking cab or my dad will drive me. So my thank yous to Malik. Don't know la he will read this or not. If you are then... thanks and twees!!

So Sukuna's lecture was great! She's just way so funny. Enjoy her lecture. And i'm loving my course. And then the rest of the course. Haiz... i shall not say any further. But overall everything was okay and fun la. With Lina, Nadia, Khairiah and Alicia i can never be bored. There's sure somtheing to talk about. And we always lost Li Yu and Sok Leng. Hahaz... but one thing i realised which i think i don't really like about my modules. I have to do soooo much reading. Reading man! I don't mind reading Haifa Noorin's novels and all but reading theories. Haiz... my eyeballs popping out soon. Nevertheless i find Speech Training (STB) fun. Maybe because i think i just love to talk. Talkative Yus! So i think its going to be fun la.

To sum up first day was fun. Just some parts which i think reminds me of the days in Hua Yi which i practically sleep in class. I'm reminded because i felt the same just now. Wahaha! Okay so here goes the replies to all tags:-

Dear pam: Okay arh set! When i free and got mood we go for lunch or something ok?! Set?! And anyways i miss you so much la girl. And com'on admit it you miss me too right?! That's why you wanna see meet me not because you wanna compare time-table. LOL!! nah just kidding!

Dear Madey: Madey you are most welcome to join us. One day okay!! Twees... cya around soon!
Dear ads: Hey ads! Hi!! Long time no hear from you. How have you been girl?!

Dear bez fren: Hahaz... first day was great. Read my entry. And cute guys?! No! My course only got 5 guys lei! Ish! And so far haven't seen any cute guys. Hmmm....

Dear faezah: Wah faezah! Thanks ehh!!! Ya lah... lagi-lagi your face. Jelak jugak. LOL!! And btw my friends are all not so bad as you to call me that okay!! Hah!! And btw i hope to get my diploma fast so i can council you to be a better and not so psycho kid.

Wahah!!!!Owh yeah. Malik told me something shocking just now. Gees! Why is this world so small?! Ish! Okay i'm off to do lots of reading before DIA starts. DIA just reminds me about what happened on 17th April on Monday. I missed it sooo much! =(

**And he says,"missing them for weeks which would seem like years." And i agree because absence just makes the heart grows fonder.**

So happy birthday to dear nieces Nurul Insyirah and Irdinah!! Went to thier place just now and took a lot of pictures. Eat cakes and more. I was reading 'ELLE' just now when suddenly something reminds me of Nadia. Wahaha... during the orientation she was like "your face like i've seen before." And when she say she stay at Pasir Ris. Like wow that's impossible. So far. Waha! And then Khairiah's friend also. She was like "your face is just so like the photocopy of our friend name lydia". If that's the right name, i forgot! Hahaz... And there's Lina and she was like "you watch 'sungguh hot' or not? You look like one of them." Like what the hell. Hahahaz... do i have twins or what?! Hahaz... to think of it i think its cool to have one, don't ya guys think. But hey i think i have a twin. let me show you! Owh yah before that i saw FAEZAH during my orientation! Like wow... she was so excited to see me and liyu... wahaha!! Okay so i say about you! Happy or not... hehehe!!

There! Don't ya guys think we look the same. Haha! He's my cousin and many says we look alike when we smile. Goodness! Hahaz... Okay so i reached home on the computer and click on 'Internet explorer' and there i see so many taggers. I LOIKE!! So here are the replies:-

Dear liyu: Wahaha... thanks Li Yu for the information. Its okay, its all not my fault. its madey's fault! LOL!!

Dear LiNa: Goodness Lina... don worry you don't know how blur and slow i can be. You can ask my friends here how blur and slow i am. You can especially ask PAM!! Wahaha... she will tell you full detail! Hahaz.. anyways thanks for tagging girl. Glad to meet someone crazy and fun like you too! Flabby rocks okay! Don't play play!! LOL!!

Dear Madey: Decades?! Wow i didn't know that! Wahahaz... Yalah next time straight away just kiss me la! Less distracting and yingxuan can then hug me. Wahaha!! Then i got both hugs and kisses!! Wee!!! Crazy us!!

Dear yingxuann: Oh com'on yingxuann i'm sure you are sad. Com'on admit it! Wahaha!!Hey hey of course i won't forget all the crazy friend i have in Hua Yi!! You guys rocks my stinking socks okay!! Wahaha!! Sure one day we shall gather at canteen 1 and have lunch together. Just for Hua Yians!! Hahahaz... oK?!

Dear faezah: Wahaha... ehh i blog bout you already! Read already or not?! You also didn't put you saw me at your blog okay!! LOL!!

Dear pam: Hey thanks girl!! YEA!! I miss CE too!! Miss 5N3 too. Haiz... if only we could turn back time right. Haiz.. its ok one day we'll meet for luch or dinner okay girl?! No need sad sad! Cheers. =)

Dear Shadow: Yea i got the mp3 for that song. I can give it to ya if you want it. Just tell me your e-mail address and i'll add you. I'll send you through MSN alrights. That's if you wanna. Can?

Okay all tags replied. Lastly i just wanna say that i can't sleep thinking of you. Why? Beats me. Just come back soon. I'll wait for your return safely and with much patience.

** 3 days and counting**

Freshmen X!perience 2006 (ECH)

So orientation was GREAT! Everyone is not stuck up like what i thought the night before the orientation. Everyone is just so friendly. The lecture room wasn't all quiet though its our first time. It was still as noisy like we knew each other for a very long time. Not that we really know each other. Each starts to introduce each other. And the friendly girl that i am i too starts to introduce myself to the people whom i think i never even met before. So the first people whom me and Li Yu made friends are Khairiah and Izzah. Hahaz... they are as friendly too. We got lost to ECE department instead of ECH. Then we headed down to after hearing someone calling out sayin "ECH students please head down to level one." Ish! So paise! Wrong course. LOL!!

So sat at the lecture theatre. And i was surprised that our first day wasn't all boring like the first time i went into secondary school orientation. Everyone starts to mingle and energetically making friends. I can already hear people introducing thier name and which school they were from the moment i sit down. Isn't that friendly and great or what! Hahaz... i LOIKE!! I so like the surrounding. All so energetic and friendly. We are all making friends regardless of language, race, religion and from which school we come from.

So introducing the girls class (instead of girls school lets call it girls class...LOL) 1B01!!! Heh heh!! I so love my class. Guess what people. Li Yu and me got into the same class like again!! Woo Hoo!! Don't jealous arh!! Hahaz... All of them are so nice and soooo friendly. I LOIKE!! So okay i can only remember some of thier names though. Let me refresh my memory again. So there's Yus Liza, Li Yu, Khairiah, Xing Li, err... Alicia... Cindy is one of the Hua Yians (i like just know her name now), Hannah, Bridget, Sok Leng, Azlina, Nadia, Samantha and then i forgot the rest of the names. Wahaha!! great girls!! Thank God there's like no people which spoils my mood during the orientation. Everybody were all just so fun. So there were total of 3 Hua Yians in the class!! Yay!!

Hahaz... enjoyed myself with Khairiah, Izzah and Azlina at MacD. Lina is so crazy. Lina and me are now officially called, 'The Flabbies' because we have flabby arms, fat and fats!! Wahaha!! Actually she's not at all fat. Its just me but ouh well she inisist and so we called ourselves 'The Flabbies of ECH 1B01' Hahaz... Had loadsa of fun during the orientation and i hope to have more fun in my upcoming days in NP especially ECH class 1B01!! Yay!! I think i'm going to love my class. Though there's no guys like Nick, Yong Ming, Stephen, Farhan and more i think i'm going to enjoy myself with those crazy girls. Looking forward for school on Monday. Like Lina repeatedly say just now, "Lambatnyer nak Monday, can't tommorrow just be Monday". Hahaz!!

Okay and so i'm sad that i can't share my joy with a new friend of mine. Haiz! He just have to go for 6 months. A very long 6 motnhs before he could get any reception to msg me. Looking forward for the day when my handphone shows a '1 new message' from him which says 'Hey i'm back'. Just so we can start our 'Unique' game again. Hahaz! Miss it lots!!

So before i end here are the replies for my dear taggers:

Dear pam: Indeed its weird because my both my colleague fall sick too on their last day of work. Hahaz... Gees... i think you are right. Sensitive withdrawal symptoms! LOL!! And btw yeah i sure do enjoy myself during the orientation. Thanks yea for the support! Hahaz...

Dear yisheng: HALOO yi sheng. Long time no hear from you! How have you been doing dude?! =)

Dear nish: I miss you too dear girl! I still haven't see you with your hair rebonded and you haven't seen mine either!! Hahaz... so looking forward to see you yea!

Dear Li Yu: Hey doesn't mean you see me in school everyday you cannot come my blog and tag me right. Please do so everyday also i don't mine. It's my pleasure dear Li Yu! Hee hee...

Dear Gab: Hahaz... heyy i'm missed again! I though noone will miss this irritating girl. Hahaz.. thanks Gab. In fact i miss saying this to you more, "Gab your head too big la i cannot see the board!" Wahahahahahaha!!

Dear afro: Ouh yah arh i haven't update. Now update already what! Hahaz... I wonder who that somebody is. Ish!!!

**Special note to dear Ying Xuan**--- Dear Ying Xuan, Li Yu told me you were sad just now because i didn't hug you. Ouh Well i was distracted by Madeline screaming my name. So sorry it was her fault!! Hahahahaz.... so on Monday i see you i hug you ok sweetie. Wahahahahaz....cheers... and Madey can dush dush me for saying its her fault. Wahahahahaz....



Ok The End!!

Alright like what's new if i say i'm sick. Running a high fever 38.5 on Saturday, 15th of April. Which is like my last the of work. How wonderful can that be? Took half day and off the the clinic. And damn it my private clinic is closed. So have to go to go to my FAMILY Doctor EDEN!! Gees. I don't like it! Grr...

Anyways enough of being sick. I'm well now. Went to have lunch with BESTIE just now. Phew! Eversince i'm working i have really been missing out about a lot of things. So we sure do have things to talk about. Halfway asked Shariffah to come down and join us. And of course there goes the laughters!! Wahahaha!! Its been so long since we ever talked like that. Missed the good old times i spent studying with Shariffah at that very spot. Gees. How i wished i could turned back time. I wished!!

Okay firstly i'm bloody late for work just now. I woke up same time. Same place, same bed. Just that it was raining. HEAVILY. So i already make up my mind to take cab instead of bus. Lazy to go all the way to Hua Yi bus stop in the rain and wait for the bus. So i bath and all then get out of house like normal time. And guess what?! There are like so many people waiting for the cab. Gees!! Like stupid YUS. What do you expect? Its like raining for goodness sake. Sure people will be as lazy like me to take cab.

The next part. There was this guy who suddenly was there also waiting for the cab. I was like "damn it man you have to appear and wait for the cab too!" Then he wave to me. Gees it was Nister WONG KAH KIAN!! Hahaz.... Then he called.

Mr Wong K.K: Hello Yus ah... you going where?

Yus a.k.a Me: Work la. I'm like freaking late already. Where are you going?

Mr. Wong K.K: Ouh ok i going there also. We go together.

Yus a.k.a Me:Okay set!

(KK walking towards me)

So we waited for the cab and i was like so getting late already. So i was stress!! So many freaking hand flagging for a cab. So frustrating man... Then we waited like don't know for how long. In the end i decided to find Cab at the bus stop of Hua Yi's backgate. lazily i forced myself to walk there. Lucky got my dear Kah Kian can talk cork and laugh along the way. Still there's no cab as we reached. Waited for don't know how long again. Then I can't wait anymore so asked desr KK to hail for the bus and GREAT we miss 187 and the freaking thing is 157 didn't stop though we hailed for it. What a bummer. Are we that small or wat to be unnoticed. Finally another 157 came so uickly we boarded it. Kk have to pay the fare for me because i practically left my wallet at my dad's car. So my mum only gave me like 2 bucks and 10 bucks. and that's like note. So i decided to pay Kk 2 bucks instead since he already accompanied e throughout the whole uninteresting journey to JP. But that kuku as usual don't want to take but i force him and there's this uncle who look at us and smile while we were busy pushing the money to each other at our seats. Haha!! Kk and i were like looking at each other already. And KK and his stupid theory. He said, "That uncle likes you Yus!" Wow Kah kian. TERRIFIC! SUPERB!! Then 157 has to go so frigging slow. Crap!It always happened when you are late isn't it? And guess what Wong Kah Kian was late for work also. Gees!! Hahaz... Ouh yah i forgot to announce that on SUNDAY the 9th of April my dear KK bought me Anderson Belgium Chocolate chip ice cream. AHHHH!!! So my favourite. He just appear out of nowhere and then bought me that. Thanks so much Mister KK!! Next time i treat you okay? See my mood alright?

By the way people. Its my first time blogging using a laptop. Yup! They delivered my Acer Travelmate 3010 yesterday. Weee... But for some reason i still prefer desktop. Naybe because i'm blind/potek. Desktop looks bigger yousee. Ouh well... i'll get used to it soon!! BUt i love my lappie!! ITs so beautiful!! Like the owner!! Hahaz... nah so the opposite!!

So today is a heck of a day. Had a terible headache the whole day and like i think since yesterday. Gees. I think a banging from the wall helps. Let me try. Okay so long and good night!!

I bought this Little Cinderella a week ago. Hehez! I've been eyeing on it like since i don't know when. So i got it that day when i got my pay. Isn't it cute? Damn it its pink but for once i didn't wanna care because its CINDERELLA!!! Hahaz... i'm crazy. It sings you know that's why i'm so attracted to it. Here's the lyrics of the song:

(Sing in the tune of Mary Had a Little Lamb)

In my attic

sew with me,

sew with me

sew with me...

We'll use ribbons

1, 2, 3...

And dress up all our friends!

Wahaha.... I'm nuts. So nuts!! At least by meddling with it a bit relieves my stress especially after a hectic day at work. I warned everyone in my house whoever dares to open the doll from the box will get it from me!!

Hahaz... ok i'm so crazy. Alright so four more days to work and then i'm off from Man Master and Le Future. So sad! =( Worked with Shi Min last Saturday. Actually i realised that she's as crazy as me. Hahaz... "Ok lor next time come again and TRY again arh!" Hahaz... familiar sentence hor Shi Min. But i truly enjoyed myself working with her. Looking forward for another day working with you girl. And so sad that's the last. =( Its when i made a lot of regulars and then i have t leave. Haiz... don't feel like stopping but SCHOOL! More important. So yeah... so so sad. =(

Okay somebody came to my workplace and then said hi and talk cork for a while and then he came back with a Anderson Belgium Chocolate Chip Ice Cream!! So my favourite!!! So i wanna especially say thanks to none other than my dear MISTER WONG KAH KIAN!!! Hahaz... thanks for the treat! Though you kuku don't want to buy the jeans but i still happy because of the ice cream. Hahaz... thanks ya!!

I missed Miss Singapore Universe today. =( Will there be an encore!! I never missed watching Any beauty pageant in TV but today i did!! Damn!!! Haiz!! Ok i got nothing much to say so i shall leave. Bye!

The Magic of Wonderful Friends

After so long i get to meet my dear friends. Enjoy every minute spent with them! I laughed a lot today. Its been a long time since i last laughed like that. Love ya girls. Not in order. The fantastic girls are Nurul, Shariffah, Diyana, Farhana and my dear Reshmel!! Hahaz... Only left Sab!! Wished you were there too!!

At first i thought i was late but i was the earliest there with Reshmel. Then came nurul. So we waited for Farhana, Shariffah and Diyana. Was bored so i ask Reshmel take picture but she don't wat so i ask Nurul. And there... SNAP!!


We had an interesting lunch while talking about Mak Cik Asam!! Hahahaz!!! Cannot tahan man!! Reshmel and Me saw something that just couldn't make me stop laughing. Suddenly a loud bang!! Wahahahaha!!! The socks so High!! I bet no one understands what i'm talking about except those girls! Wahaha!! And then Nurul ask me this very interesting yet wierd question.

Nurul: Yus let me ask you this question. i know its weird and not right and all but let me ask you. When wa sthe last time u wore a pampers.

Yus a.k.a me: Erm... i can't remember 4 years old maybe or 5 or 3. I don' t know i just can't remember.

Diyana: Aper seh. Soalan aper sak!

Nurul: Takder. Someone ( i forgot who she say told her) told me me that if you ask anyone for like example a file or something and then she will go answer you ouh its at the second drawer under the this file which called the blah blah blah so specificly it means that she have a very good and careful toilet routine. That is why it makes them a perfectionist. and the first thing person that came in my mind is YUS!!

Yus a.k.a me: Thanks ehh Nurul. Its interesting let me ask my mum then.

(Dialled my home and wait for my mum to answer the phone while Nurul, Shariffah , Diyana, Reshmel and Farhana were laughing)

Yus a.k.a me: Hello Mama! Biler adek tak pakai pampers lagi?

Mama: Entah ehh... tak ingat. Kenaper?

Yus a.k.a me: Ouh takder aderlah some theory yang nak dilogika kan!! Hahaz... Serious mama luper?

Mama: Tak ingat la!!

Yus a.k.a. me: Ouh ok then takper!

Mama: (sidetracking) Kat maner nie jangan balik lambat lambat!

So intelligent Nurul and her theory. But failed because i don't know when i last wore diapers. Wahaha!!! That's like not her exact words la! You can't expect me to remember each and every word she said right? But somehow or rather like that arh!! NULUL NULUL!! Hahaz...

After the interesting luch went to play arcade. Jakun a bit because its NEW!!! Hahaz.. Weird! There are a lot of free games there. Hahaz... Played the basketball. First partner was farhana. Got Second. Second game partner with Shariffh also got second but the second round sway because we started late. Stupid machine!! Hahaz!!! Play with Shariffah interesting because we can't stop maki maki-ing. And Nurul and Diyana were like " aper nie sebelah asyik maki- maki!!" Wahahaha!!! Played Daytona. Was about to get first when Shariffah have to potong jalan. toot you!! Hahahaz!! Then played tembak tembak with DiDi!! Hahaz... Zombie! Card no value me and DiDi end up play tembak tembak together. I kill her she kill me!! Hahahaz!! Bummer...

There Nulul have to snap this...


Then there's this err what is that... got car car... got cartoon... so we snap a picture there. I think its some new cartoon movie arh. Me and Nulul again. Shariffah took that and she can't stop saying "Yus kau pendek sangat la tinggi sikit". TOOT YOU! Hahaz...

Next stop play pool. Hahaz... this is the bestt and funny part. Alot of things happened there! And i find myself singing to the chinese songs there. Because all the song are like so everyday-is-played-at-my-workplace the song. Hahahaz... There are just so many things to talk about. So let the pictures do the talking. Hahahaz... But i'm too lazy to put all the pictures here. So let me just shre with you the best of the best part. Hahaz...

So that's like my group members for the first round. And we won!! Of course got the expert Diyana!! Hahahaz...

And Nurul claim that don't ave her picture because she was taking all the pictures. But hey got okay. I snap this one. See!! Told ya have!! Hahahaz...


And indeed Nurul is busy being a part time camera woman. Then she says "Yus Smile and pose sikit Yus!! And then i go Twees!!!


The second round team members. See all stress already. Farhana face so cute!! hahaz... all stress stress she cute cute!! Hahaz!!


Then DiDi dengki! See what she's doing. Hahahaz... she is actually blowing the ball!! Tupid you!! Hahahaz!!

Hahaz... so tat's all ah. Too lazy too put all!! Moreover all candids by Nurul. Thanks ehh Nurul!! Hahahaz!! So to sum up the girls day out was so much fun!! I enjoy every single minute of it. Love ya girls so much. Shariffah, Farhana and Reshmel accompanied me home taking 98!! Hahaz.. So sweet of you guys!! Love ya many many. Hope to have more of these!!! Till the nest time yeah!! Twees!!

Okay putting aside all the fun. Tommorrow is the day whereby i have to check at the ePortal to confirm that i'm in ECH!! Haiz... So worried about my medical report. What if i'm not accepted in that course. Haiz... i'm so worried. Haiz... well lets just see tommorrow. So till here. Bye.

traces of happy and sad moments...

It was a heck of a week. I assume i don't get sufficient sleep and rest now. I feel so exhausted. I think we just have loads of things to do in life but just too little time. I've been doing a lot and work and thinking this few days that i felt so hard up and my brain i think if there's such things where the brain can explode, it will DEFINATELY explode. There's just so many things to think about. Let me list it down. About friends, family and most importantly my life. It seems very little but hey when you do the sorting out its quite a lot.

Schools starting soon and I really miss Hua Yi. Whatever happened there. I just missed every single minute of it. And suddenly i feel all sad to think that we are all going our own separate ways. And i really truly miss the most important girls in my life. COEXISTENCE!!! Candy, Sab, Nurul and Pam! I miss you guys so much. I may be working but i never once forget you guys. It always cross my minds questions like, how will our lives be? We are so going our separate ways. Everyone of us will be doing different things. We are not going to be the same again where will see each other everyday again. But now everything is different. We'll all be doing different things. Meeting different kinds of people. Getting new friends. I wonder if they will ever forget me and in fact the memories we shared together. It brought me to tears when i i think of the times when i used to disturb Candy and then say "alah CAndy abeh marojak?". Hahahaz... i missed those times when i disturbed Sab with Tirmidzi. Hahaz... sorry best friend. I missed the times when we were at the back of the class with aaron, stephen and yong ming. Sab you should know best what we always talk about like almost everyday at the back of the class. Not paying attention to Mrs Wong especially. Hahahaz!! Miss you best friend! Miss the times with Nurul when i asked her to burn all sorts of CD and especially HINDUSTAN!! Hahaz... Thanks girl for everything! For Pam you should know what i missed about you the most. YOur craps during the prefects and the councillor camps of course!! WHo will forget it?!! Don't ya dare forget it. That Prefect BBQ especially where i organize it and somebody said she's not going to sleep and spend the night talking but she left me talking a alone with Ridzwan! Thanks ehh!! Hahaz...

These girls of mine are just too wonderful and fantastic. Nobody can replace thier places. But one thing for sure I believed that though we are going our own separate ways, in that place where we keep our love ones there's are still place for my name. They can never forget the friendship we build because those are the precious things that its hard to be erased or thrown. I'm certain that COEXISTENCE can never fall just like that. Especially not because off the less time spent and not being all understanding about each others life. Don't we CE! Well To my fellow dear girls!! I just wanna say thanks for brightening up my teenage and secondary school years. We've been through a lot. Sad, happy, hurts, lies and more but we survived. I treasure this friendship so much and i hope you guys too. Just wanna say I love you guys to bits and i hope though we'll not like see each other everyday we'll get to see each sometimes. CE outings will sure happen.Won't it girls? Hahaz... Love you guys many many and loads loads! Hahahaz... wish you guys all the very best in life in whatever you do. Candy, you are doing well in your studies. I hope you'll maintain it and achieve for more. I just wanna be as hardworking as you too man! Hahaz!! Sab, do all your very best to strive for the best because that is YOU! The Sabrina i know since Sec 1 never not do anything to get what her want. So i hope you'll get to join kimage and succeed in life. Ouh yah did i tell you your the best best friend anyone could i ever have? Hahaz... if not there you go! To Nurul too get a degree and then you can go "so how do feel about that?" hahahaz... TO PAM!!!! You kuku!! Just don't forget CE and SC when you are in SP!! All the best in your new school yeah! Hahaz... Love ya girls!!

There's BUSTED 2 and my dear goaty also!! Hahaz!! Shariffah and Reshmel!! Just miss you nonsense and jokes la!!! Hope to meet you guys soon and talk crap and laugh like mad again. Its been a long time since i have a good laugh. Hahahaz!! Farhana and Diyana. Hmmm... just one i miss saying this to the both of them "yalah aku sedar aku bukan best friend korang. aku kan pendek,gemuk, bodoh, kecik, bising, irritating, menyebok tak cantek lak tu!" hahahaz.... And they will go "dah start arh!!" hahahahaz!!! Miss playing volleyball with you guys also!!

These girls have been the very best friends since i entered Hua Yi! Missed every single moments shared with them. Tell me how can i not miss all thier nonsense when i can laugh at every single stupid things they do and say. Hahaz!! I miss saying this to dear Gabriella! "Gab your head too big i can't see the board." Hahaz... i miss saying "Shut up la Nisha don't laugh i'm serious not purposely call Mrs Tan Miss Pang!!" Hahahaz!!! 5n3 I MISS YOU BLOODY MUCH LAA!!! AARON CHAN JUN HON ALSO!!!! I want your brother i don't care!! Hahahaz... AARON wo XIANG ni la!!! I still rememeber on Saturday, 4th of OCtober 2003 where this best friend of mine have to give me a big surprise when he appears behind me at Jurong East Interchange and say HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Hahahaz... bought me that lovely Eyore and a tiny winy cute cake from my favourite Primadeli!! We went to this place and he sang me a birthday song and we cut the cake. Hahaz... that was the first time anyone ever did to me. A surprise birthday party. Ok la not really a party because its just me and him only. Hahaz... But i love it. Thanks Aaron! You're great!! Love you many many!! I don't know if you remember all that i've said but i can still vividly recall what happened that day. To my darling Aaron!! Wo Ai Ni!!! Wahaha!!

Hahaz... today's post is just dedicated to all my friends i've mentioned because i just totally miss them. So much. I don't know why but yeah i missed them terribly today. Actually there's one more person whom i missed so much too. A nice friend of mine. Those memories spent together, i'll locked it in my heart and throw the keys so that it will never be removed because those moments are the best days of my lifes. And yes i've been doing a lot of thinking lately. I'm beginning to hate guys now. I don't know why. BUt no i don't allow myself to because its possible bacause i'll get married to a guy one day. But seriously. Its getting on my nerves. They act so pathethically. What does they think of themselves. I don't know what is that love shit but hey com'on i don't think they know it either. The say it like as though they spit some saliva out from thier mouth. That easy. But don't they think about the future? About if is it the time to say that you have fallen in love. Gosh! I'm just so stubborn. I just can't seem to convince myself to all the words. Till now i don't know if whatever they say to me is the truth or a lie or are they just desperate. Btw i'm not referring this to any guys. Like generally. Okay i'm just so bad at words. But anyways if anyone is hurt i'm sorry but i not referring to anyone. I just state how i feel.

Is it that easy to forget about someone. I bet not. Its rather tough i think. So a change of feelings is rather a difficult task for me you know. I don't understand how people canchange boyfriends or girlfriends in a few weeks or months after a break up. Hahaz... yeah you move on but don't you think you need time to be with someone else. Hahaz... love life's weird yet people are still finding thier true love and life partner. Well let's just see how my llove story will be. Still a long way to go.

I love Man Master!! I'm going to miss those new friends of mine too. Ah bee, Catherine, Chooi har, Chao Ren, Shi Min, Mei Ling, Jason, Aaron, Pei Yong, Wei Wei, Eric, Mabel and more. You guys rocks!!! Never did i expect that i'll work with such nice people.

Phew a long one indeed. To whom who read thanks. To whom not thanks too. Bye!

lie, lies and more lies.

Today was the last day i'm working at Man Master Causeway Point. Its so sad though because i just realise that i met with so many crazy and fun colleagues. Such nice new friends that i wish i will meet too when i'm in Ngee Ann. Today was the first and the last time i ever worked with Mei Ling. So sad. :-(

To Mei Ling: Its fun working with you girl. Love the chats and the laughter. Love your shouts especially to Jia Wei! Hahaz... Such a lovely girl like you deserve the best gift that is so much LAUGHTER... hahaz!! So laugh more aites!

I can guarentee chop chop she will not read this because i don't think she even goes to net to ever do bloghopping. But if she do then that's for you girl. Everybody there was just so friendly. Like Patrick from Time Studio. Gees, he's a nice man. A really really nice and gentle man. Lucky. The girl beside my shop was also very very friendly though we never meet before and we hardly talk. People there are just fantastic. No wonder many people wants to work at Cause way Point. Hahaz... Jia Wei you are one heck of funny guy too. And Young Zhou... ok i just knew who you are. Finally! Hahaz!! But no doubt i still enjoy working at Jurong Point and Queensway. Though Aaron can be like some road runner who suddenly dissappears to the other shop is still fun working with him. Hahahaz... hope to work with them again. Its great knowing people like them. Though i'm the only malay i don't feel left out because i speak in malay with the JURONG POINT peeps!! hahahaz!!

Okay so papa's birthday was a bad one. His leg was swollen so badly. It scares the hell out of me, mama and my bro that we went straight to the hospital last night at around 12 plus which his BIRTHDAY. How sad can it be? But no matter what i have a present for him. I hope he likes it though. Hopefully the traditional way will help papa recover soon since the hospital medicine seems useless.

These few days have rather been very hectic. Like yesterday i only have 3 hours or 2 hours of sleep. Then off to work and work and work. That's all that i've been doing. Work. Ouh well its ok. I only have these 10 days to work then i got nothing else to do besides school school school. Lately my feelings have been emotionally disturb. I just don't know how to express it to anyone. Till now, not even a single soul knows what i have been through. How i actually felt. Truly not even one person! Yeah that's because i prefer to keep it to myself. But the fact is i just don't know how to express it to anyone. How do i start telling. How do i go around elaborating it. There's just so many things that really hurts me deply, make me sad, make me worried and more. My emotional level is like so rojak now. I'm in a state of loss of words to describe how i'm actually feeling. Why must all these feelings even exist. I hate it. Well i pray hard that all these just don't bring me down and i make sure that it wouldn't make me stop smiling and laughing. Hate my laughter. Hate me smile. Hate me. I don't care. I just love everything about me. I love myself. So whoever hates me and if you don't wih to see all that smiles and laughter just grab a gun and just pull th trigger and bang! You'll never see me ever again. Haha!! That's cool!

Enough said for today. Will post an essay as soon i have nothing to do after 15th April. Before i'm off here are th replies to all my beloved taggers.

Dear Pam: So you mean you borrowed from the library! Okay! And Pam guess what i think i'll just give you the cash for you to get the First book that i lend from you and which i suppose to get you a new one. How is it? Because i just couldn't find it at any bookstores. Ok girl!

Dear Jv: Deyy don't expect all poly students to be so good ok. I wonder how i can get to poly with so much blurness in me. Expect for the worst instead. Hahaz... eyy will re-link you soon. Busy lerr.. hee hee...

Dear Nisha: Hahaz... i'll be touched and even more happy if my friends missed me actually. Ouh well. Hahaz... because i know everyday Frankie Muniz miss me. What's new. Cehbah... hahaz!!

Dear Azizah: Girl great you came by to tag again!! If not i don't know what's your address. Will re-link you soon ya!

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