Sometimes happy Sometimes sad.

My title was really random till i remembered the hindustan version, Khabi Khushi Khabi Gham. Haha... guess that's life. At some point of time you're happy and at some point of time you're just feeling sad. Been going through that for this past few days, weeks and months. Apa kater kiter ckp everyday. Haha...

So that wednesday was Cende's iftar. So glad to get to meet up my best buddy in my poly life. She just cheer up my day. She's always day for me and i don't know what's life now without her!! NUR AZLINA BTE SUBARI!!!! Haha... miss you babe! And she's taken over me, she rebonded her hair while i'm all curls!! Haha... saper yang curls fetish ni skarang? Hahaha.... i still don't have the pictures of cende for that day. I only have this pictures and i sure do miss these girls!!!


I bloody change my tagboard thinking that the virus will be gone for good. That day my laptop was attacked by this stupid porn virus. And i don't watch porn mind you! How it started was like this. I went to CE's blog. Its a private blog btw so only the five of us are allowed to enter. So i got all paniked when there's someone tagged out tagboard. So i open the link and before it fully open i already got attacked by that stupid virus. I think its some porn website shit la. So irritating. I nearly refomatted my com but yeah i didn't because it was okay after i restored my lappie. But my tagboard, after i tag they said there are tracks of porn something something and i shud remove it. So thought by deleting the previous tagboard would be betterbut i guess its the same. So whatever la i shall leave it. Hope it will not get any worsen. Idiot! Who the hell even invent these porn shit! Farktards!! So i managed to read myra's tag rom the old tagboard so i just replied her through the new tagboard of mine. Keep tagging ya people. Gotta remind myself to not open links anyhow now. Haha... saya sudah learn saya punyer lesson, can?!

Okay i just thought i could say something here. At my OWN blog. So if you guys don't wish to read this, pls click the cross at the top right hand corner of your screen okay?! =)

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Well, i just feel that noone's perfect. When i was in Hua Yi, my friends used to label me as Yus the perfectionist. I tired to be one, knowing that i can never ever achieved it. Yet, till now i still try. But i know, and i realised so much that indeed NOONE is perfect. I don't understand why people still insist to be mean and act cold towards someone bad points or habit. At times we should and we have to do that but when one ALWAYS does that you're just being a hypocrite who claims that you are good and reasonable to everyone because you condemn people like almost ALL the time and you just think you are right, right, right. By being too stright forward is good but i think, one should also consider the feelings of that someone aftermath of you being all rash.

There was like trillions of fights when i was in high school and the only reason why it happens is because we couldn't accept and tolerate each others flaws. Being in the same school, facing each other everyday, what more can we ask for than just tolerance and accepting. For me, there's surely bad points in everyone. It's whether it will be noticed or not. So why hate someone because of thier flaws where basically EVERYONE on this earth has it. Sometimes this flaws pissed us off each and every single moment but then again after that we can still laugh it off.

Good example is my bro and his friends. I was really impressed with their friendship. Though some people in their cliques is always creating a hell of a problem, they don't hold grudges and they will laughed it off at the end of the day. They still meet up the next day and then treasure every single moment with each other while they still can. Guess, that's true friends. I'm not stereotyping between boys and girls ad that boys don't choose friends while girls do. But what i'm experiencing now is rathers boys are the one who are more of being not accepting and sensitive towards thier friends feelings and such. I don't understand why. My bro's cliques of friends have both boys and girls yet their friendship is going on well day by day. So i'm in no position to say ALL boys or girls. Still yeah, noone is perfect. But my point is, do people have to hate each other just because of one's flaws? That really make me thinking. Sometimes you got to wake up and face the reality that you have tonnes of weaknesses than the person you condemn all the time. And when you realised it you will tend to understand how insensitive you have been. Everyone have emotions and feelings. Not only girls can be emotional all the time, guys can too. We are all human beings.

I really hope to be a better person after what i've gone through and see in life. Seeing friends being so insensitive towards one's feeling and being hypocritical makes me pray hard that i wouldn't be catgarised in that group of people. Mama always told me wherever we go and whereever we are, there's always people who will never fail to bring yu down and make you feel so bad that you will just feel you can't survived. Hopefully, i will be stronger to face all obstacles. Insya'allah. How you treat me and how mean you are towards my stupidity at times brought tears in my eyes but well, i'll take it as a lesson learn and a way to improve myself. This are all part and parcel of life. Till my patience has reached it limit, i don't know what will happen next. God, pls give me the strength to face this ups and downs of life. For no doubt, every single day, i tried to be perfect but to no avail. Then i realised it can NEVER happen even if i tried to push myself so hard.

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Whoah! Okay i suck at words but owh well, i just feel like pending my thoughts here. Which is surely just by words. Don't mind my language and my terrible grammar. No offence to whoever who feels bad about this. Siapa makan cili, dier yang teraser pedas. Haha... seriously, it's ust how i feel. No pointing out or blaming at any particular person. So sorry about that. Haha... Lin said she suddenly miss a lot of people. Well, i've been terribly missing A LOT OF BEINGS this few days. I miss, SAB, NAD, KHAI, LIN, SYAF, AIDA, CANDY, BOYFRIEND'S MUM, my BUSTED 2 (shariffah), RESHMEL, SYDI, even Di's bro, FAIRUZ AND OF COURSE the BOYFRIEND SO SO SO SO DAMN MUCH!!!! Will always pray for their well-being and may all are blessed with great health always. Love you guys!

Boyfriend's coming back in a few hours time. Actually i just want him to be home quickly so that he can get ample rest since its the fasting month, his training must be a killer, all he need is rest rest and much rest. So worried about his health though. Hopefully i could meet him. Dgr dgr got some family gathering tommorrow but i so don't know if its confirm. If there is, i can't meet the boyfriend already. =((

Wow long post, okay that's it for now! Daa...

MIA?

BOO!! Haha... back back. Hiatus again?! No la where got? Just creating a lil spider web here and there only. Hahaha... as usual, been busy lately. And what is so pissing me off once i open my laptop is MSN! So bloody irritating. I can't bloody start a conversation and i can't receive anyone's messages also. So heart ache. And besides that, my laptop was attacked by some stupid viruses. Idiotic! Was on the verge of reformatting but being the genius me, i manage to get rid of the virus myself. Haha... hopefully its no more though. Haha....

So yea fasting month, SLAMAT BERPUASER KEPADER SEMUA YANG SEDANG BEPUASER dan kepada sesiapa yang tak tu INSAF lah anda sebelum anda DIINSAFKAN!!! Haha... chey chey... it is sure tiring to shout and scream so much when you're shouting. Ish... menghauskan!! Ni semua COBAAN! Haha... Those kids were really testing my patience. I got no other choice but to shout and scold. Gees...

So the boyfriend's off to camp again. This time at Pasir Labar or something. Posted to Seargeant Course. There goes another chapter in our love story where the Sham Boy have to leave the ever so blur Yus! Haish... life is so unfair. I don't know how to carve a smile each time this boy have to leave me. So hate it la, terribly awfully hate it to the MAX! I so have to apologise to him for giving him such a big headache each time he's going away. Can't help it la syg. I so cannot control my emotional state whenever you have to go, go and go. I wonder what is going to happen when he have to leave me for sailing! AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I so hate to think about that! Damn it!

Sorry k syg? Thanks for tolerating me and yet loving me still sweetheart! Ahhh... i so love my boyfriend can?! Sunday was iftar at my house and my dearest boyfriend bought me McWings and Nuggets!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Been craving for it and finally, i get it!!!!!!!! Thanks love!!! Muackz....

Iftar with CE over, Iftar at home was superb next is with my fellow cendes. Karaoke session after iftar at my house was simply hilarious. With Abg Adnan, Shahid & wifey & cutey adorable son, Asri, Abg Lutfi, Wawan, Dayana, Nur, Heifi, dearest Aishah and MY LOVELY BOYFRIEND was just so fantastic! Haha... hope to have something like this during RAYA!! Haha... speaking of which i have yet to buy my baju raya. Like no mood like that. The boyfriend also haven't buy since the country needs him so much. He's just so busy serving the nation. Takder time nak beli baju. Dah la gitu, dah penat serve nation bukan nak kasi bonus raya ker! Haha... boleh the girlfriend enjoy it also. Haha...

A lot of things happen lately also and my beloved Abg have really been a great friend! He has alays been there for me and what else can i say besides i so LOVE my brother la! Noone can pamper more besides my BOYFRIEND & my BROTHER! Haha... Thanks abang for being there for me when i needed you the most. It's just the 2 of us, no other siblings and i'm glad that we get along real well all this while. Being there for each other, to mengadu naseb, cry and laugh together. Thanks Abg! I so love you! What happen surely teaches us all a lesson and we will both learn from our mistake. So cheer up k bro, i'm always with you! Though thick or thin!! Not only me mama and papa also!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! I SOOOOOOOOOOO LOVE MY BOYFRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I SOOOOOOOOO LOVE MY BROTHER!!!!!!!!!!! AND OF COURSE I SOOOOOOO LOVE MY MAMA & PAPA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To my cafe people also thanks all the fun!! Aishah still owes me a birthday treat. Abg Luthfi also. Hmmm... best lak! Hahaha... chey chey... prasaan Yus!!! Actually i only want my boyfriend for my birthday. But can't, again we can't celebrate out birthday together. =(( Just like last year. =(( URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY DO NATIONAL SERVICE EVEN EXIST?!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dahlah, else i'll keep whining and whining like some nenek tua maner! Granny also kalah! Ok before i end, i was watching 'Konon-konon cerita hant' with Aishah at cafe and then i realise that we were sitting right in front of Imran Ajmain and Syarif Sleeq. Haha... and toot Aishah i thought she knew when she say tat the guy in front of us was good-looking since Heifi already told her that's Imran! Slow gak ni pompan! Hahaha... Ok... ciaoz!!

emotionally dysfunction

I hate this feeling of being all confuse.

There's just so much questions and fear in me.

Yet i still don't know how to express myself.

There's just so much too worry but there can't seem to be any solution.

Is my past happening again?

It still and keeps haunting me till now.

I can't smile it off, laugh it off and so i broke down.

I don't know what to do or what to say.

God, please help me get through all this.

I'm in a state whereby the next step is still unknown.

I'm tired of worrying and being upset.

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Okay results tomorrow. I'm so dead. Haish, worried sick. I so don't think i'm going to do well this semester. I just hope that i don't fail any module because i totally don't wish to retake any module again. This semester is so tough. I think i'm lucky if my GPA hit 2.5 at least. Good bye GPA of 3! =((

I'M SO DEAD TOMORROW!!!!!

URGH!!!!!

YUS is so DEAD DEAD DEAD!!!!!

some things are better left unsaid.

puase!!!

Yay yay besok puaser! Jap lagi sahur! Too all muslims... don't forget to bacer niat sebelum tidur!! Hahaha... i checked my mail and i came across ths funny mail by my dearest cousin Ms Farah Wahidah! See how lame it is but... it is sure something to laugh about! Hahaha....

1. Terlajak perahu boleh diundur, terlajak kereta pun boleh undur,terlajak kapal terbang takde gear reverse, sori.
2. Bersatu kita teguh, bercerai kita kahwin lain.
3. Sudahlah jatuh ditimpa pula tangga lepas tu tercium pulak tahi ayam.
4. Alang-alang mandi biar guna sabun & syampu.
5. Harimau mati meninggalkan belang, isteri mati meninggalkan gelang,suami mati meninggalkan hutang. (Itulah...lain kali jangan suruh suamibeli gelang secara hutang)
6. Sebab mulut santan binasa sebab mulut juga... nasi pun habis.
7. Kalau tiada angin masakan pokok bergoyang kecuali kalau ada beruk atas pokok tu.
8. Malang tak berbau tapi kentut boleh berbau walaupun tak berbunyi.
9. Biar mati bini jangan mati anak (boleh kahwin lagi ape)
10. Alang-alang menyeluk perkasam biar sampai ke pangkal ketiak.
11. Biar korek hidung jangan korek tabung.
12. Berakit-rakit kehulu, berenang-renang ketepian lama-lama jadi letih.
13. Sayangkan anak tangan-tangankan sayangkan isteri kahwin lagi satu.
14. Kalau padi katakan padi, tidak aku ternanti-nanti, kalau sudi katakan sudi, kalau tak sudi.....boleh blah.......
15. Harapkan pagar, pagar pun tak boleh harap. (Harapkan pagar, pagar dah roboh).
16. Tempat jatuh lagikan dikenang inikan pula tempat kena saman.
17. Hujan emas dinegeri orang, hujan batu dinegeri sendiri, kalau macam tu lebih baik tak payah hujan.
18. Biar lambat asalkan perlahan, Jangan mati sebelum sampai.
19. Kalau tiada rotan, pelempang ajelah....
20. Habis madu, sepah jangan dibuang merata-rata.
21. Carik-carik bulu ayam lama-lama jadi bulu tangkis badminton, pasti ayam kebogelan.
22. Air dicincang takkan putus tapi kalau daging dicincang tandanya ada kenduri
23. Kerbau berpegang pada tali, manusia berpegang gunakan tangan....Maaf kerbau takde tangan nak pegang. Gigit boleh lee..
24. Pinggan tak retak nasi tak dingin, kalau orang tak hendak tandanyakita tak lawa.
25. Takkan lari gunung dikejar, tapi kalau tak kejar pun gunung tu takkan lari jugak.
26. Patah tumbuh, hilang report polis.
27. Berapa berat mata memandang, berat lagi ahli sukan yang masuk acara angkat berat.
28. Sepandai-pandai tupai melompat akhirnya tak masuk Sukan Olimpik jugak.
29. Kalau ada jarum yang patah jangan disimpan di dalam peti, buang aje beli jarum yang baru.
30. Kalau ada sumur diladang, boleh hamba menumpang mandi, kalau ada umur yang panjang, bolehlah kita kahwin lari.......(nak tak?)
31. Kajang Pak Malau Kajang berlipat, Kajang hamba makan satay Kajang lagi best......
32. Kalau kail panjang sejengkal, belilah kail yang panjang sikit.
33. Kalau takut dilambung ombak janganlah berumah di tepi pantai, buatrumah jauh-jauh sikit dari pantai, bodoh!
34. Pecah kaca pecah gelas, kalau dah pecah tu tak reti-reti nak ganti ke...

-SEKIAN-

Ups & Downs

My blog is so collecting dust. Haha! I'm just too lazy to update. Been busy lately because there's so much things to settl at home and been working before school holidays lately. Been working on Monday and today also. So yah! Life has really been testing me so much lately. Hopefully God will give me the strength to face it and solve it with the best way possible. I believe bad times will pass and good times will soon appear to anyone who have patience. To me, the most important thing is to smile, and there's nothing you can't overcome.

But still, it's still easier said than done la. I can hardly smile when the boyfriend have to leave me for his camp on Sundays. Today is his ORD and so BMT is OVER! Just waiting for his posting. Seriously, my emotional status hadn't bee good lately and the boyfriend have been really understanding. Thanks for that sweetheart and i apologise that i can't attend your passing out parade just now. Have to work. Sorry to Cende also because i can't join you guys just now.

So besides working what did i do? Hmm... i have been watching a lot of TVs!!!! Hahaha... i managed to finish watching Hikmah and can't wait to watch Hikmah 3! Who have please kindly borrow me can? Hee... i manage to complete my process of watching is all thanks to the boyfriend's mum who borrowed me th VCD from her friend! I so love her! Haha... Then i manged to also finish watching this Taiwan (if i'm not wrong, it speaks chinese though) drama called Sonrio Pasta. Nice show just like devil beside you. Its Khai's DVD and so thanks babe. Finally after borrowing since like donno how many months ago i finish watching it. Hahaha! Not only i take months to read, i also take months to finish up a drama series. Maklumlah, busy woman. Hopefully Khai is buying the next drama 'Why why love'. All of them are the cast from devil beside you! Expensive man the DVD! Saw it sold at popular. Farktard cheespie! Who can buy for me?!Pls pls! Hahaha.... Love the song, there i attached the song and maybe you guys can look at some sneaks of the show. Cute love dovey drama indeed! Although it's like an old drama, still alah lets just say i outdated! Hahaha!

Yesterday after teaching, i met up with my laughing buddy! Shariffah and Reshmel. No change, Reshmel as pretty and lame as ever and Shariffah as mepek and nonsense as ever. Haha... nice catching up with them. The best catching up... LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH! No tension at all! Hahaha... Thanks guys, you guys rock my world! Hahaha... till the next laughing session!

I went back to Hua Yi for the teacher's day celebratuon. Sorry Pam i have to go home early and thanks for coming that day too. Catch up with Mr. Amran and hopefully Hua Yi will call me up to relieve malay there. Easier for me. No need transport. Cut cost. Hahaha.... So motivated when Mr Amran say wanna open childcare together. Hahahaha.... chey chey but who knows it come true. Nothing is impossible. Insya'allah! Hahaha... so nice of it comes true! Haha... Don't worry Cikgu even if kiter tak dapat open childcare together, i will still continue studying and get my degree at least. Hee... doakan ehh? Hee.... oh yah, Reshmel already completed her diploma and now waiting for her degree! Wahlau! How jealous! Hahaha... pelan pelan kayuh Yus! =P

That 6th September was dearest Abang's birthday. It was a sad birthday for him again this year. It's okay bang, everything happens for a reason. Again, just smile and there's nothing you can't overcome. So went to cafe to celebrate it with his birthday. With the normal al-maklis gang. Abg adnan & Lutfi, kak Dayana, Heife, Aishah, wawan, mahathir and ranny. Sadly kak timah wasn't there because she's in Thailand. Thank you so much guys for being there to celebrate abang's brithday. I'm sure he's veryhappy with each and everyone's presence that night. Abg Lutfi treat us to food and we have to follow the birthday boy's request to go to Mustapha Centre. We ended up there at around one or two plus in the morning doing stupid stuff! Haha... ketawer ketawer macam like mad people. Then eat prata in the middle of the night. Been great hanging out with ya people! Cheers people and that's them! =))

As usual been teaching at Boon Lay Garden Primary, and today was great although it's tiring. You know why because i receive this:



Yes, a rose! Haha... By who else if not the boyfriend. He tried to surprise me by fetching me after school but how cute can he be he landed at the old Boon Lay Garden Primary school! Hahaha.... in the end he was so hardworking to sprint so that he can catch up with me. Haha... poor little devil of mine. Thanks sweetheart, it was really sweet of you to come all the way to fetch me. You're sure tired! Love you so so so much dearest! Haha... Taught malay on Monday and this bunch of Primary pupils really touch my heart with their stories. Very well behaved class and after a long day of work they really cheer up my day. Thanks people! I'll always pray you will achieve to be whatever you aim for!


Alright let me just end off today's entry with replies from my dearest taggers.

dear busted 2: Baik shariffah! slalu2 la singgah sini yer?!

dear NurseYAN: Yup, life's like that, full of ups and downs. Thanks babe! =)

dear faezah: Huh? Finally aper ehh?! Hahha... sorry slow!

dear Khairiyah: Hello babe!!! Cepat-cepat beli WHY WHY LOVE!!!!!!! And then lend me! LOL!!!!

dear nish: Hey girl, i'm fine! Nice to see you that Teacher's day!! Still as bubbly! Haha... Twees!

dear dLa small: BAIK RED HOT CHILLI PEPPER! Kecik kecik people rocks!!!!!!1 Haha...

dear Lin: Yelah! Dah update! Alamak ni mindah! Dush dush! Hahaha....

dear sok leng: Haha... yah i clean already. Ok not now? LOL! =P

dear -fidah-: Haha... aku jumper kau jugak!!! Woo hoo!! Hahaha... okok baik dah update cik puan! Hahahaha!!


Alright,i'm tired. Bye!