An update for you hun

So hun, yea she won the petite cycle for Anerican Next top Model.
Nicole.
So apparently, she's representing all the shorties around the world.
Haha!

Though I thought Laura was more charismatic and gorgeous.
Bila aku nak cantek gini? Hee...
=)

-_-

Watching American Idol makes me have the urge to text Sham and say:

"Syg jgn luper tgk american idol."

Which it is impossible now because I just tried to randomly call him and then the operator says:

"Nombor yang anda dial, tidak ada khidmatannya."

That's the malaysian waters for you Yus.
Thanks ehh.. Urgh!!

Benci benci benci!!! =(

When ur gone...

After a whole time of shit we faced,
when the situation is getting better,
you have to leave me syg.
Sham just left for Africa this time round.

I'll pray for your safety always hun.
Last Saturday was hell for us and I kept telling myself, I never want that day to happened again.
With a heavy heart & without tears, i'm letting you go.
Have a safe trip my love.
I'm gonna miss you so. <3

I Know... How?

I know i'm not needed.
I know i'm still going to miss you so.
I know because basically, i've fallen in love.
I know my imperfection hurts.
I know I have to apologize for falling too deep.

What I don't know is...

How to face my tommorrows.
How to turn back time to where you felt more.
How to stop the doubt.
How to overcome the solitude.
How to be a better person.

Yep, it's way past midnight.
Yep, i'm not falling asleep.
Yep, something is bothering me.
Yep, so many things to think about.
Yep, I can easily answer and I hope you would too.

C.O.N.F.U.S.E.D

Truth is I am really sure about how I'm feeling.
However, it's your feelings that I'm unsure of.
So I'm rather confused.

On a random note, I'm back teaching at BLGPS.
So nice to see the colleagues here again.
The countdown to Boston is crazily scary.

URGHH!!!!

April's Twentieth

Amidst all these frustration and preparation for Boston trip, a date with my love was definitely awesome.
KICK-ASS, Rec 2 and delicious crunchie cake from Bakerzin was superbly entertaining.
Haha... I shall give this movie an 8 out of 10. I'm glad love gotta catch it before he sails again.
He really wanted to catch it in theatres.

On a side note, today is 20th.
Which makes YuShaM 38 months old.
Happy 20th hun, imyl!
My poor baby is tired from work, me too actually.
Nights world!

Dear Friend

A close friend lost somone really dear to him yesterday.
Stay strong boy, God loves her more.
Our prayers will always be with her.

Yesterday too, a distant cousin of mine left us forever.
Semoga roh mereka yang telah pergi dicucurih rahmat sentiasa.
Al-fatiha.

Some meeting. =)

We were supposedly having a meeting for our Role of Mentor module activity.
Unfortunately, a series of sidetracking always takes place.
Thursday is last day of school till BOSTON!!
I'm not sure if i'm ready for it.
Somehow, i'm more to scared than excited.
Fear of being so faraway from home.
=(

Well, good night world.

Hungry.

Sham and me already exchanged our good night wishes.
Yet, I was still unable to visit dreamland.
Somehow, chocolates conquered my mind way past midnight.
But since I have to refrain myself from reproducing more pimples on my face, at 2 am in the morning, I just had seaweed and some potato vegetable chips.

While Lin had her biscuit or something.
Dier dah macam cookie monster, belom sempat nak pose dah habes cookie dier.
Tak guner betol.
Btw if you guys realise this chip super act cute tak boleh angss...
Look at how the spelt vegetable at their packaging.
It's spelt, BEGETABLE.
wth.

Thanks you!

I hate the feeling of getting stuck in the center of everything.
Thanks you, for ruining everything.
My life and my love story.
When can you ever stop all these nonsense for once?
I'm getting really tired and drained.
I'm utterly worn out.
Please, spare me.

Syg, why is it I'm so scared of losing the love?

Again&Again.

Yesterday is a bad bad day because we got the news.
His next trip is to Africa.
My heart sank the minute I heard that.
I don't want Monday to come.
Pretty please.

Was supposed to catch a movie with him next week.
But looks like we gotta fast forward the movie date.
So went for a mid-night movie date last night.
Awesome movie, 8.5 out of 10.

Love, I am so going to miss having this at 1am in the morning with one & only you.
We've been through so much these 2 months when your're back, especially what happened today.
I believe, with all these obstacles and challenges we face, it makes us learn to appreaciate each other more.
With all these too, our love blossoms even more stronger. Insyaallah.

To you, you have definitely broken the trust Sham and me had towards you.
Especially me, we are all dissappointed to whatever happened.
Lest did I know, you would result to the decision to resolve everything.
What a great test God have put me through.

Ya Allah, please give me strength, and please I beg of you keep my Sham safe.
I am so worried for him.
I am so in love with him.
Amin.

Overcoming boredom.

This was last night when boredom strikes.

& this was during IT class.
Prevailing another chapter of super ultra greatest boredom.
I shall continue to stone in class.

On a random note, I like these picture taken during our family picnic last valentine day.
Credits to Abg Ayie.
My monyets... aww...
Nak step cool jer mataer aku tu. Haha!
goodbye world.

URGH!

Today is a waste of make-up.
No wonder I was contemplating whether or not to dress up this morning.
What happened was really hurting but what hurt most was the inability to make me feel better.
Not even a little.
I have always thought that to understand is tough, but I guess being understood is far more difficult to comprehend.
I'm not being ignorance, perhaps I need time to pick myself up again.
*pulls hair*

mixfeels

Yep, its always between cyberland fun and the weariness.
That's the exact look i'd give over this issue.
& i'm suppose to frigging U.N.D.E.R.S.T.A.N.D!
All the best Yus!

Lost

I'm falling apart,
I'm weakening

I'm crashing,
I'm exploding

KA BAA BOM!!!

I give up.
I know I can't turn back time so,
Thanks, for the memories.

New Toy

That's my new toy.
But it's disappointing that window 7 starter cannot change desktop wallpaper. =(
Naseb Lin ader kat sebelah tak frustrated sangat aku ni.
Good night world.