Just why?

Why must you be so ego?
Why must you be so afraid to show the world you inner true feelings?

W. H. Y?

Defeat.

I tried to erase all memories with you.
I tried to erase all the love i had for you.
All efforts to erase you from my life failed every single time.
I give up. Goodbye life.

It's so easy for you. You take your leave and ran away so far. How i wish it could be that easy for me too. I wanna go somewhere far away. Where there are no memories of us.

Life is always unfair. I have to be stuck here all alone with all the memories that almost kill me every single day. I really have to thank you for that.

Weakened.

I'm not in favour to face upcoming 20ths. Especially next month's 20th. Pls God, give me strength.

Quiche

It's not for you anymore.

Last goodbye.

& I still have the urge to say goodbye. To kiss your hand and you kissing my forehead. How can that even happen?

Only to realise that separation comes without warning. Too sudden that you will miss the absence terribly and makes you go totally insane.

Mess.

New year, new life? How can that happen when I am still looking back, missing old memories. I want my smile back. The smile I used to have in the past. Everything is such a mess. I'm such a mess.

Still living in denial because you still visit me in my dreams and traces of you are almost everywhere. Still can't believe it i'm embracing a new year without love. Shattered, that I am, but definitely not you. Thanks for everything.