Some people just can't give up!

When explaination & reasons have been laid out they just insist in accepting it!
Com'on, leave me alone!

Urgh!

P/S: I love my family, my friends, myself....

&.... MY BOYFRIEND!!!!

SCRAM YOU!!

DISAPPOINTED.

That's how i am feeling now.

& maybe upset too.

I have always been bad at words.

How i feel and what i wanna say always is not sent across.

So might as well i shut up!

when the truth is not appreciated

i can't be bothered to explain anymore.

i'm too drained out.

so hectic

Exhaustion to the max already.

Been mugging & chiong-ing with assignments & projects like a mad woman.

Been missing him like a psycho freak.

Am so deadly fazed!

God, please give me some air to breath!

I am feling so suffocated.
Oh yar i created some test out of tiredness.

Just thought i need some lame & fun entertainment for a while!

So try it if you wana! =)

*Where are you ppl

when i need you the most?*

upset & tired.

I don't quite understand the meaning of 'HOLIDAY' now.

Holiday means completing dued assignments and projects.
A meaingful day suddenly seem so quiet and i'm all alone.

I HATE this feeling of tiredness, exhuastion & being lonely.

p/s: Happy 4th monthsary sweetheart. <33

head bursting

I have no idea how i'm going to do my Music & Movement lesson plan.

Cracked brain for ideas but i simply have none.

Damn! How?! How?!

Art & craft is way easier. Implementing it is not a big problem also.

Music & Movement is so difficult. Gees!!

Sleeping is still the best for now.

Shucks, i have no idea for SAM also! I'm so doomed!

Note to self: Buy yan yan chocolate for ideas*

Someone close told me that Sham & me being far apart for a long time is our source of love. Hmm... thanks for the wonderous comment bro! Haha... =)

p/s: assignments & projects not pregressing @ all!

brain not functioning!! =(

& he left.

"Just like the wind, we can't see them but we can definately feel them."

P/S: I'm missing him so bad.
I don't care what you guys going to say,
but i know i can't live even for a sec not thinking of him!

Period.

I will miss you! =(

Okay what's that?! That's LJS chilli sauce and my dear little devil form shape of a 'S LOVE Y' which practically means Sham love Yus. Haha... and he just can't stop bragging about how artisic he is in shaping a perfect heart shape. Haha... since it look nice i shal give him some credit and compiment! Well done sweetheart. Haha... brought Nini to play arcade. That's what boyfriend wants to do before going NS. Furthermore, she is having a holiday and she's not going anywhere. Pity her, compared to her other friends who go overseas for holiday & she have so brought home so many things man. Played arcade and the boyfriend have initially collected a lot of tickets and adding to today they collected a total of 250. Adding on to i we played again at night while waiting for abang to knock off from work. She gets more stuff again! Gees... I didn't get anything! But its ok as long as i can see him i am most satisfy! =)

I wanna apologies to the boyfriend about how i behave just now & i have reasons for it. You should know why by now. I'm sorry still. I really didn't mean to but i swear i was holding back my tears so bad sayang. I'm sorry! A few hours later he will lave for tekong and i will be as lonely again like how he left me for sailing. Owh well, i guess hopefully my patience will be paid off in the end. I apologise again because i can't send you off and again you should know why. I still feel uilty for that though. In fact i am very upset and frustrated about it. I swear. I'm sorry sweetheart. Guess, i have so many things to be sorry about. =(

I'm so going to miss this devil of mine real bad. But no matter what i will always pray for your good health and hopefull you can just be back in a blink of an eye. Hee... To sum it up i have a whole loads of fun today! That more than 10 times kiss from nini and more than maybe 20 kiss from him was superb. Hahaha... who will kiss me that much in a day right? I am so thankful to be loved. Love this wonderful people as much too. My brother have been very very super ultimately nice lately! I appreciate the hell out of it man. I so love my brother! To Lin, don't even think of exchanging brother! My brother is the best and he is my HERO! Kay maybe after Hisham. Haha... alright guess i end with some reply from the taggers. Toodles! =)

dear sham: I'm going to miss you more sayang! Love you!!! Muackz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dear pinkphreak: Hehe, touching ker? *covers face*

dear ads: Hee... ye ker?! *shy*

dear nish: Hey thanks babe! *shy again* thanks for dropping by after such a looooong time!

dear LiN: Heeee.... skali skaler babe! =p

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p/s: i love mr hisham who is still

playing game now to the max!!!!
Love you sweetheart!!!
So gonna miss you!!

-!MUACKZ!-

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Hello beautiful people. I'm back. Not from a holiday or anyting but just decided to not blog for a while because life have been superbly, umtimately totally hectic. I became so exhausted and tired of life suddenly that i just don't have the mood to blog. See the picture above? Because of him i have the mood to blog now, so let's not waste it. So i decided to not waste my time talking about the problems or any negative incidents that happened to me. Particularly because i just don't want my blog to fill with anymore upsetting events. Enough knowing for the fact that i have only 1 day left with the boyfriend before he left for army. I just have something to just shout out the the world about this little devil of mine and i thought i could just do those shout out here, at my very own blog! Hee...

And so i decided to just talk and talk about the boyfriend in today's entry as he will be leaving me for three months and i can't imagine that he's going to leave me again after two years serving the nation to sail again! URGH!!! So for those who don't wish to go on reading today's entry you may wanna click that 'X' shape thingy at the top right hand corner of your screen ok?But before i continue with the lovey dovey part. I just want to congratulate CENDEKIAWAN for achieving victory against Republic Polytechnic in Bahas 4PM, an annual malay debate competition. CONGRATULATIONS again to Hakim who won the best speaker for the match. Unfortunately, we are unable to proceed to the next round because our team who represented Ngee Ann is unable to be one of the top 8 schools. However, i must say that we have put in a lot of hard work and it's definately a job well done for us as a first timer. First competition for us Cende and thus there's always room for improvement!! Love ya people. And then thanks to the boyfriend who came down to giv support! Appreaciate that! Thanks sweetheart =)

Okay back to this boy called Hisham. So yah, I love him! Haha... okay besides that i just wanna proudly make an anouncement that... I LOVE HIM AGAIN!! Ok enough! I do't know when was the lst time i am being this mushy man! Hahaha... And so i promise this boy i will make a long story for him to read here. So here i try ya? Hee! And ya so i continue the story. Since i was selected to be representing Ngee Ann in the debate team, this sweet boyfriend of mine gave me a very cute and lovely surprise. After debate practice, he came to pick me up and then he surprise me with a wonderful gift! See...

Wanna know what's inside the box? Hur hur... ok ready?! Jeng jeng jeng!! Hahaha....

It's a Hamtaro!!! Super cute right? Have sound somemore! Hahaha... Thanks so much sweetheart! I super duper love it too bits! What's more the card is as lovely as you yoo sayang! And so he deserve a *MUACKZ*!! Then there were some problems here and there which makes me realised that i can d things that i want to do for him. Nevertheless i did nt give up and still try ways to make this loverboy happy. And so i bake a brownie for him & thank god he love it. Haha... i even decorated it with MnMs but i was overly excited to give him i forgot to take picture of it. Hee... but see! Delicious ok!! Aren't you jealous already that he gets to taste it and not you?! It's Hersheys by the way! Hahaha... YUM YUM!!! =P

The month wasn't as good for us. But our love remain strong. Regardless of what happens, we manage to solve the tiniest to the biggest problem. And can you believe it he's going to leave me for army today. What makes it worst is i am unable to send him to tekong because of some reasons whichi just don't wish to talk about. It just aches the heart even more. And anothe surprise by these little devil of mine. He made a nice and unique photo album which i so so love it to the core! Hahaha... and can't help it to blog it here and show it to everyone! I'm so proud to be the owner of this...

It is decorated with some sand and i'm sure its really hard to make. I really appreaciate it sweetheart. Thanks for taking the trouble to do this for me. I so love you. But actualy i recieve the album in this format...
I shall not disclose where this devil get the cloth from. Hahaha... but whatever it is, its nice and match everything!! Hee... and then look at the first page. I so love this!! It's a fact file!!! Hahaha...So there some facts thatyou should know or not know about 'YUSHAM'! Hahaha.... And then the next page!

He claims that i'm his only hope! AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hahaha.... and here's the back page which is amulti-purpose thing because it can also act as a photo frame! Hahaha... i so love love love it and i so love my dear little devil!!!

Lovely isn't it?! Aren't you jealous or something?! Hahahaha.... just wanna say my thanks to this little devil of mine. How deviish he can be, how hyper he can be, how he can outtalk me, how he childish he can be, how lame he can be... I STILL LOVE HIM SO MUCH!!! Thanks sweetheart for everything. I may not be the best girlfriend but just so you know noone can ever love yu like i do! Hahaha... omg... so malu! Never say this in public before! Heee... but owh well!! I jushave to say this. I am just so proud of my love! Lov you sweet heart. Alright its like already 3 am and i think i need to end thestory soon and head of to dreamland and meet my devil. So let's end the story by reminiscing the most happiest momet of my life which is on 11th June 2007, Tuesday! I had the most enjoyable day of my life. Though i was very pressurized and stress out with m poects and assignments, this boy just know how to cheer me up. In fact his presence cheers me up like crazy already!

For my little devil, Hisham, i've said this but i'm goingto say this again. How far apart we are. How long we will not see each other. How frustrating life is. I will still be only yours and i will still lvoe you and only you.hat i say on the night of 20th February 2007 will not have any expiry date because YUSLIZA jut LOVE HISHAM to bits!! Like you always say to me hen you went sailing, our love is just like the wind, we cannot see them but we can definately feel them. I'll live life with that beautiful phrase of yours in your absence. Hopefully you'll not stop mising and loving me like how i will always contiue to do so & hopefully this story flow well enough. What can i say its lte at nigt the brain might juststop functioning. Hahaha! I love you sayang! Muackz!!

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