Twees!!!

I SOOOO LUV RONALD!!!!!!!

Oi don't get the wrong idea la deyy!! To anyone who is having a crush on Ronald or whatever, don worry he's still yours but when it comes to maths, he's mine!! Wahahahaha!!! He's my hero now!! Hahaz... finally somebody teach me maths!! And that's why i luv Ronald now. Hahaz... you guys arh always jump to conclusion! Thanks so much man Ronald. You save me from being all confuse with all the maths questions. I appreaciate it a lot. Thanks buddy! Thanks for being soooo sooooo patient with me. I don't know how to thank you already. Hahaz... ok lets say if i at least got a B3 for maths i will treat you to lunch ok?! Set?! Hahahaz...

Alright maths is settle. Not really actually because i have a lot to practice though. Now i still have biology, chemistry, social studies, history and the subject that i'm slacking now.... ENGLISH!! I'm so dead. Ok peeps i'm off!!

**Thanks a bunch to my dear Ronald!! Twees**

*pulling hair*

AHH!!!!

I can see that people are all counting down to hari Raya. But for me i'm counting down to O Level!! Its like bloody 9 days more!! 9 DAYS!!!!! WTH!!!! Isn't that soooo damn bloody fast! I don't know why all of a sudden i feel so demoralized. Its like as though i can't do the papers on November later! Haiz... Com'on Yus you can do it!

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am in desperate need of someone to help me with MATHS!! Everybody is so busy and i just feel like bursting when i can't do all the maths questions! Maths is in another 9 more days and what the heck i can't do the questions?!... Am i nuts or what? How the fuck can i even make it for my Os. And english?! I think i'm slacking. No practice at all!

What am i suppose to do. I'm really going to let so many people down!!

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That really fears me upside down man! Mr Amran and my parents... i'm sorry i'm gonna let you down but i'm really trying my best now! Wish me luck...

happy times come and go...

I received a shocking news as soon as i reached school just now. The news of Mrs. Kong is leaving Hua Yi today. That makes her last day in Hua Yi. I'm so gonna miss her. Students never fail to hate their principal. But for me i love my principal because she's great. No doubt she can be naggy at times but well she cares. You wouldn't want a principal who wouldn't take things seriously and go haha hehe all the day right?... Hahahaz... Time really flies and it has already been 5 years i'm in Hua Yi and when i'm graduating our principal have to go. Then next year if we were to come back and visit Hua Yi, the new principal would be like... shoo shoo... then die! Hahaz... anyways i'm just gonna miss Mrs Kong la! The Ferraro Rocher that she always give me. The sweets and all! Looking at everyone just now, i don't think i'm the only one who will miss Mrs Kong. Hahaz... even Reshmel said she will miss Mrs Kong. Hahaz... indeed Mrs Kong is a great principal. Here's a picture taken during Prom Night 2004.



I love Mrs Kong!
I love Hua Yi!
I love Hua Yians!
I love 5N3!
I love my Coucillors!
I love my TEACHERS who taught me!
Going to MISS everyone!!!!!!!!

liar liar love's on fire!

Alright don jump to conclusion. I'm not in love or whatsoever. I am just obsessed with this bollywood movie, Maine Pyar Kyun Kiya! Hahaz... It is a nice movie. Some funny show i should say. And the girl in this movie is like wow!! Dead Gorgeous. Katrina Kaif, Salman Khan's girlfriend!! God, i so love her. Wish i could be as pretty as her. Look how gorgeous she is man!



The Miss Universe Sushmita Sen is pretty too but i love Katrina Kaif more!!



Maine Pyaar Kyun Kiya!!!



Hahaz... obsession kills!! One of the song is like so whoah!!! I likE!!!

Anyways moving on, got i have never been this busy before. Loads of studying and revising to be done. Loads of thinking have to be done. I'm so tired and exhausted. Moreover i think the bronchitis attack is coming back. Ahh... i have been coughing none stop lately. I don't see the need to even eat to breakfast because after eating i would just throw up. God! I hate it! I can't eat chicken and fruits again!! Ahhhhh!!!!!!

I so hate being sick!!! The feeling sux!!And my parents and bro have been bugging me to go doctor because i run out of medicine and my spray but NO!!!!!!!!! Going doctor is the last thing i would do. I don't want to put on that stupid gas. It sux!!

MEDICINE SUX TO BE EATEN!! I"M NOT GOING DOCTOR!!!

Alright i think i have to start doing history. Else tommorrow i will get present from Ms Lui and for some reason the present is not liked by any history students... sheeshh!!

why must all this have to happen?...

I'm not the type who will go obsess over a guy. To me its useless to because whenever you like that someone he will never like us in return. Eversince i gotta a blog. I have never blogged anything about guys. As in how cute a guy is, how i have a crush on this particular guy or how this guy wants me to be his girlfriend. To me it just a waste of time blogging about them. Not worth it. But today i don't know why i want to share a story and it got something to do with a guy.

There's this girl who once thinks that love is just so stupid. Love is nothing but something that really hurt most. She totally don't believe in love. Even now she still believe that true love does not exist. Maybe incidents happening around her make her believe that guys can only love a girl for only a short period of time and not forever while girls can only love only one person in her life. But she believe that not all guys are like that because if all guys are like that than her father will not exist. Her father is just way too good of a husband and father that she hopes somebody if someone were to show her what is love she would want a guy who is as good as her father.

Her family is everything to her. As she is the only daughter, she is pampered and showered with so much love from her parents and brother. Her parents have high hopes for her to enter to a poly at least and to become a teacher in future. She love her parents too much that she fears of dissappointing them. She is never good at lying and she can never lie to them. To her, she can never be blessed by lying to her own parents. Her parents forbid her to have any special relationship at her age now because it will only affect her studies. Her mum always remind her not to fall for a guy sweet words. She is always adviced to find a better half to be with. A responsible and honest one would make a good partner, said her mum.

In school she never dared to be in a relationship. Like her other friends who have boyfriends, she fear that by having one she might only break her parents trust for her. Therefore, how big a crush she had towards a guy, she never want it to be a serious one. One day she realised that she had a crush on this guy who was her classmate but then she realised that one of her best friend too had a crush on him. She remained silent untill after a few years that guy confessed to her his feelings for her for the past 4 years. She never thought it was true. It seems more of a joke to her but it was true. She then decided to confess to him her feelings towards him. Since this is the last year they will be in the same school. Like any other guy would do, he asked her to be his girlfriend but was rejected because she realised her situation she is in. She realised that she definately can't be in a relationship when she have to sit for her most important exam and most importantly she can't lie to her parents. Never would she have the heart to do it. Thus she explained to him how her situation is and so they guy respected and insist that she waits for her till she's ready.

As days goes by she realised that untill when would the guy wait for her. She realised that it will be so sellfish of her if she were to asked the guy to wait when he can go for any other girl. Hence, she was honest with the guy and told him to not wait and instead find someone else to like. She fears of huting him and so its better for her to tell him now than later. He insisted on waiting for her.

One night the guy asked her if she really want him to wait or not to wait for her. Again she explained to him of her situation and try to make him understand. To her it tough to let him go but its tougher to let him wait. It breaks her heart to break his. But she have to be honest that her priority now is studying to make her parents happy. She would sacrfice anything to make her parents happy. Thus its important for her not to be involve in a relationship yet. And she realised that she herself is not ready to be in a relationship and that she needs time. It definately breaks the guys heart to hear all this but she have no ther way. She does not want to give him more hope so she have to be honest and tell him not to wait for her as it will be a waste of time. As much as she likes him she have to say it though its hurting enough. No one can understand what is her situation is like. Not even him. The guy was terribly sad but she felt worst. She don't want other to say that she is only making use of him by asking him to wait. So she wants him to be just friends and not more than that.

She hopes that the he would find a better girl than her. She hopes that he is blessed with good health always. It hurts her to see him hurt and she hopes to see him happy always. All she hopes now is to make her parents proud. She does not know what is love. And if this is called love and that she have already fallen in love then they will surely meet and be together. Not now, not tommorrow but some other time when they know what is the true meaning of love and life. No one can understand how she feels right now. For now she is just concentrating on her studies and hope that future will awaits her with something better.

The end!

Hua Yi's 2005 Graduation Ceremony

Today was awesome. Had so much tear and laughter. I'm so gonna miss Hua Yi and my friends. It is sad to leve Hua Yi but i'm sure the sweet memories in Hua Yi will make me smile whenever i'm down. Especially to 5N3, i love you guys so much! To Mr. Lee and my dear councillors too. You rock! To my malay class, say sayang kamu! Hahahaz... Alright why not i let the pictures do the talking! Hahaz... there...

http://hyssgraduation.mypicgallery.com/?t=1

I'm a step ahead to being a young mature adult. Goodbye all childishness. (maybe a lil though!)... hahaz... haiz... i'm so gonna miss Hua Yi!! Sob sob... after school i stayed back with Sab, Azmi, Farhana, Diyana and Shriffah. And then after azmi left i went up to the library and there we did lotsa stupid things. Laughed so much that my stomach almost burst! Hahaz... my camera had to die that moment. Low batt so took pictures with my handphone. I so love my new phone. The pictures were all so clear and it turned out nice. There is this picture where me, sab, farhana, shariffah and diyana took it was soooo nice. I adjusted the effects to like the oldies sortta and it turned out fantastic! I LIKE!! Thanks to mdm Line who snap the photo for us. Hehez... Once my USB cable can be used i will upload it to my com. Hahaz... i took stupid pictures with Diyana and they bears in the library. Wahaha!! Couldn't stop laughing even by thinking about it.

Whoah it was just so fun! Its been a long time since we last stayed back in school and laughed so much. I missed all that. Thanks to Sab, Farhana, Diyana, Shariffah, ili (for shouting without signal...hahaz!!) and azmi for all the fun! I enjoyed myself so much. To think this will be the last it just brought me to tears... haish... gonna miss al these terribly! Love ya guys loads man! You guys made my day!!

Ok... last words for the day!

I LOVE HUA YI! I LOVE MRS KONG! I LOVE MY TEACHERS! AND THE MOST IMPORTANT IS I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!!!!

Friggin Pissed!!

Everything sux this year!

Ok just two words to sum up my mood and to sum up how sux today is!!

!!!!PRACTICAL SUX!!!!

i'm off....

exploding any moment

Great...

Science practical tommorrow. I am so dead. I don't wanna break test tube! I'm so scared. I'm so nervous. I'm so scared. I'm so nervous. What should i do?! Oh god please help me!!

How How... i don't know shit for chemistry. And for biology. If it does not come out fruit then i'm dead for sure! Haish... exams are so much better without 'Practical'!!

Ahhh.... please let a miracle happened tommorrow. Please let me leave that laboratory with a wide smile. Please please please!! Arghh...

Ouhk i shall not say anything, else i'll get more and all tense.

So YUS all the best!!

Wishlist for tommorrow:
-Can light up bunsen Burner
- **!!Don't break any test tube for once!!**
- wish i can answer all the question.
- Chemistry will not come out anything on rate of reaction!!

BALANCE!!

Can you guys believe it?! I was actually doing POA and i balance evrything and i found the right net profit!! Woo hoo... so happy! I'm suppose to start on maths now but don feel like it lei! Haish... maths... for some reason every subject sucks now except for malay of course and POA. English, maths, social studies, history and the super ULTRA hatest subject for me, SCIENCE!! Argh... i can never score for them. So anyone out there care to share some of your knowledge with me?!

Alright, i got no idea what else to say. So i'm going to end here and force myself to bloody study for science practical now at least. Not in a mood to study maths. So peeps i'm off!!...

**i sooo love my SAMSUNG E730...lalalalala!!**

WeeEEEeeEEEee....

Samsung E730! Finally i decided not to use NOKIA anymore. The pattern was niceand the function are great! I LIKE!! Hahaz... but whatever it is, i still mis my beloved 7260. I love it so much. The 7260 box in my room will remain and i will never throw them away nomatter what. I so love that Nokia 7260. It means a lot to me and that arsehole have to take it away from me. Haish... you are so mean and cruel! Anyways, thanks so much to my bro. He's the one who bought me my new handphone. So basically this entry is goes out to my beloved bro who bought me that handphone!! I love you many many bro!! Muakez....

Complicated...

Feel so exhausted after all those mugging for the past 2 days. Never felt this complicated before. Question, questions and more questions keeps whirling my mind. Wish i could read people's heart. That would make things less complicated.

Ahhhhhhh................

Whatever... sometimes things are better off unsaid...

**The look tells it all**

Just finish studying bio but has yet to finish the whole chapters of course. Hahaz... but ouh well. Managed to do some POA, Maths and Bio today. Not forgetting i get some sleep. This will prevent me from having those ugly panda eyes. Else Hari Raya i will look more like a ghost.

Laugh so much today in school. Thanks to Stephen and farhan and Joline. Joline was so funny when she actually told us what she saw in the bus. She look so cute and adorable. Feel like pinching her cheeks. Hahaz... so nice to have such a cute girlfriend. Hahaz... people pls stop tat jealousy. Hahaz... Joline is mine. Opps... if my darling Jia Qi read this i'm dead. Hahahahaha... Anyways its nice today. Laugh around with Stephen and we broke the recored of not fighting with each other throughout the day. Hahahaz... maybe because of the 'Entry Proof'. Thanks for the advice Stephen about the 'pampered thingy'. Hahaz... so funny talking with you in that tone. Hahahaz... anws you rock my day la!! I played this stupid 'eye string' game with steve just now. As usual i can NEVER win because i'll end up laughing. Thanks Stephen. How the heck you can tahan not luaghing man looking at me or my eyes or whatever. Hahahaz...

POA was like kindda rush. I don't know why but i think i'm beginning to like. Errm... whats that word. Can't catch up?... Ahh... not now man! Not when its like only 27 days to Os!! I don't know how to start studying my chem! MR LEE and PAM!!! I need your help... DESPERATELY!!! Haish!! Who is so kind to like come to my rescue and coach me all the way man! Isn't it nice to have a genius in front of you and in a blink of an eye you will be a genius! WOW!!! Ouhk dream on Yus!!

Farhana is soooo kuku!! Hahahaz... you make me melt with all those so soothing and nice music. You know what i'm talking about. Hahaz... Twees! Alright i need to get some sleep else can't wake up for sahur in like another 5+ hours. So twees....

Too much on the list...

Never knew that wearing conatact lenses is this tough. My shaky hands adds on to the difficulty wearing those lenses. Ouh well! Spects broke and i need them for science practical later else the goggles can never stay in place. Thanks bro for the lenses. Had a sumptuos meal at Long John Silver! Hahaz... i break fast at Long John just now because i was looking at Faezah's pictures at her blog. She and the rest had Long John on Friday when they went to watch Stephen's gigg. It was a temptation looking at those fries. So told mama, papa and bro to have dinner at Long John Silver! And now i'm as bloated as a... alright i can't think of a nice word to match with that phrase. Hahahaz... ouh well!!

God! My worksheets are pilling real bad. So many things to finish up!! Don't believe me look at the list!!

English:

1. Comprehension

Mathematics:

1. Newtown Paper 2

2. Kranji Paper 2

3. Bukit Panjang Government high Paper 2

4. Nan Hua Paper 2
5. Cedar Girls Paper 1 & 2
6.Tanglin Paper 2

Biology:

1. Practical Paper
2.November Paper 2002

Chemistry:
1.Xin Min Paper

Principles of Accounts:
1. ACS Prelims Paper
2. Bartley Paper
3. Bedok Green
4. Bendemeer Paper
5. Bukit Panjang Government High Paper

6. Deyi Paper
7. St Anthony Paper
8. Serangoon Prelim Paper

History:
1. Prelim Paper Question 5 stryctured essay
2. Prelim Souce based
3. New notes (worksheet given)


AHHH!!!!!!! I'm sooo dead!!! And i have yet to finish up my revison in my ten years series. *faints* Im off peeps!!

Its hard to say...

Till now the culprit has yet to find out. I think we'll never going to know which coward has done something so stupid like that. Ouh well. Just my luck to have such friends. Anyways, this has already ruin my birthday this year but most importantly i don't want to ruin my O level just thinking about it. I had enough. No doubt i'm upset and all about this. Who wouldn't. But i'm going to face every of my friend bravely in school and continue to work hard for my upcoming Os. Its hard to say though. Sometimes i can't help from thinking about it. Especially when i'm alone and when the thought the person who stole your phone is actually right in front of you. Just one of them and the one i treasure as 'friends'.

Haish before i got all emotional about it i better stop. I got to concentrate on more other things in my life right now. But whatever it is i can never ever forget this very incident that happened to me on 1st October 2005. Moving on, i jst came home from school and i played frisbee just now. Hahahaz... i don't care how sleepy or thirsty i was but i played. Hahahaz.... it was fun but i played for like just a while. At first the guys makes me all scared to play but the temptation was s high that i decided to sub Gab. Hahaz... Well between guys there sure fights here and there. BUt not a major one. It normal in a game. Hahaz... I heard the next match was with 4E5. Hmm... not bad... looking forward for it. And yesterday played floorball with Ms Lui and Mrs Tan (Siew Ngo... hahaz!) and not forgetting the girls. It was fun but wow it was a hot day though. Then again the temptation was too high and so Shariffah and me played for like an hour or so and then went to buy food for our break fast and then continue studying during night studying. What a day though. I never fell asleep while doing my work. But for some reasons, i amazingly fell asleep just now while doing maths in the canteen. Oh God! It was a hot day and played soccer during PE so guess was very tired. Hahaz...

So yeah here i am at home. Blogging. I wasn't really in a mood to blog that past few days. Mood is totally zer0! Haish... Practical is just 2 weeks away. I'm so dead. So going to break test-tube. I so don't know shit about chemistry. Biology is understandable but chemistry... GOSH!! Anyways... Os is in like 32 more days and i still have loads to catch up. Worksheets are piling and revision has yet to finish. I'm like so very dead and so not in a mood for Hari Raya. Ouh well... Haish i really don't know how bad i'm going to perform for my Os. I can't imagine how many people i'm going to dissappoint. Haish!! Life is sooo much better without exams. Or better..s life is sooo much better if studying don't exist! Arggh....

Things had been really stressing me in school. And knowing me i don't really like to share all of my problems to people. So i think i really need to be strong to face all the problems in life. What if life without problems. Like Azmi always say, always look on the bright side of life. So yeah... my aim now is just to study and really do my best for the Os. That's it at the moment. I don't think i have time for anything else. I'm like watching Romance the Amour 3 at channel 8. Yeah a repeat. But who cares its a fantastic show. And so cute the guy actually gave the girl a ring and he said that its not an engagement ring, not a wedding ring but a promise ring. Awww.... so touching... so romantic right. Ish... anyways ouhk i don't want to be disturbed. Want to watch and imagine if i were to be that girl. Sure faint... hahahaz!!~

**It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone .....but it takes a LIFETIME to FORGET someone.**

Nobody wants this...

Alright... 3 worst things had ever happened to me on my birthday!!!
1. I lost my hp! Yes my beloved 7260!!
2. I found out that its one of my friend who came for my party!!
3. I have the worst birthday ever!!

Whoever you are. I really don't know whats your motive. So much for the trust and friendship for 5 years. I made a big mistake by trusting you seriously. I thought its ok to trust someone we call 'friend'. I'm sorry guys if i'm starting to not trust anyone now. I learnt my lesson and i don't wanna repeat my mistake ever! Thanks for coming to my house guys on saturday and to that person thanks for ruining my birthday and the party. To have the heart to do that to a friend, i'm sorry to say i don't know why you deserve such nice friends like the i have. I am so bloody dissappointed. I love the phone so much and you got ta snatch it anway from me. I hope you wouldn't snatch anyone else happiness in future because it will not be nice. I am full of dissappointment. FULL!! That i think i don have anymore space for it. Nobody ever make me so much on my birthday but you do! What else do you want to do to this friend of yours. If you even consider me as one. But i know i do! Thanks for everything and making my life hell now. Thanks so much. Just a curious question to you who took my phone INTENTIONALY if you happened to have internet and read my blog.... what if this happen to you? Can you tell me how you would feel and how you would react?

I already had the worst birthday ever. I don't wish to talk about it. It hurts me more. I never blogged with so much tears. Haiz... thanks people for all the presents. I love them. To people who have always been there for me! Because of you , i can laugh and smile in school just now. People like Azmi, Stephen, Nick, Farhan, Yi Sheng, Norhan, Nurul, Shariffah, Reshmel, Pam, Mr Lee and more and more and more and the list keeps going. Sorry to people whom i didn't mention your name. You know who you are. I really thank you! You guys make my day! Thanks too. Sorry pam to trouble you with all the messages to the kuku-bird. And to you kuku bird thanks a lot. I really really really appreaciate everything that you have done for me that i don't know how more to thank you! I so love you man... thanks once again for troubling you. You are just the best! Special special thanks to you, Mr Lee! I'm off enjoying a few more moments of my worst birthday, 4th October 2005!

the misture of feelings

I am so exhausted. I feel so tired. I feel so happy. I feel so worried. I feel so sad. I feel so blessed. I feel s guilty. I feel like screaming. I feel like crying. I feel like laughing. That the mixture of feelings i have right now. Don't ask me why because i don't know! Well, just finished watching my all time favourite malay love story, Suara Kekasih. Oh my god! Its a damn bloody touching movie. I so love this love story man! But for some reasons i think no guy would love the girl like this guy in the movie. Crazy in love. Hahahaz! But ouh well, nobody knows. I am so in love with each and every song from the movie. The lyrics are so nice. Alright O level is in like less than 37 days so yeah no time to really update this blog. The books need me or rather i need the books. So i have to really start mugging. Alright this ulcer on my tongue and lips are really killing me. I can hardly eat... Damn!

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Senandung Duka

Kala kita bersama

Dunia berseri

Manis ooo manisnya

Cinta didada bersemi

Hari yang ku lalui

Indah penuh makna

Hati ini bernyanyi

Lagu tentang cinta

( korus )

Tapi kini kau pergi

Membawa mimpi ku

Meragut cinta ku
Merobek angan kuSirna segalanya

Musnah semuanya

Ku hanyut di kesepian

Hari berganti hariKu tetap sendiri

Namun dihati ini

Cinta mu tetap bersemi ( 2X )

( ulang korus )

Hidup ku terasa sepi

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Ini sebuah kisah cinta

Dari sekuntum bunga sekeping hati

Dua jiwa dalam hayalan

Berat rasa untuk berpisah

Dua dunia satu mimpi

Satu cita dalam satu hati

Terjerat dalam permainan hidup

Terkandas dalam cinta terhalang

Mengapa dunia

Kejam pada mereka yang bercinta

Mengapa bercinta

Harus ada saja perpisahan

Kisah cinta berakhir

Dengan penuhharapan

Kisah cinta berakhir

Dengan penuh ratapan

Kisah cinta...

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