Monday, May 31, 2010

Love.Infedelity.Lust

He committed his love to one woman. And fell in love with another.

Pritish Nandy Communications’ first offering for the year is a romance unlike any other. Inspired by the events of his life, Vikram Bhatt puts to celluloid a film after his own heart, Ankahee.

The truth is that Shekhar (Aftab Shivdasani) was a common man. Happily married to his wife Nandita (Ameesha Patel) of several years. The relationship was sealed as special by the coming of their child. They were a happy family. Till one day, the reigning Miss World and Bollywood’s biggest star, Kavya Krishna (Esha Deol), walked into his hospital armed with a slit wrist and what Shekhar believed to be, true love.

Kavya was beautiful, stunning in fact. She was smart and alive and Shekhar, like the rest of the world, fell in love with her. Days hurried past as he cleared the rest of his life, his wife, his daughter, his friends, his work to make way for his love. Nothing was more important than Kavya and his need to be her constant.

Kavya Krishna. The reigning Miss World. The most beautiful woman in the world. Or maybe the most beautiful woman in a pageant of 60 girls. Bollywood’s biggest upcoming star. Beautiful. Powerful. Successful. Alone. Lonely in a world where she was the most popular woman. For her Shekhar was the lifeline, she’d always sought. Her anchor. Her man. The only person in the world who could make her happy. And Kavya wanted, needed, struggled to be happy.

Nandita, of course, was the woman stuck in the middle. Shekhar was her husband. The only man she’d ever loved. And yet, he’d found it only too easy to walk away. From her. From their home. And from Sheena, their 6 year old daughter.

Ankahee is about the truths that were left unspoken between a man, his wife and his daughter. And the lies that need to be uncovered.

It is a film about brutal love, deception, betrayal and the desperate loneliness that accompanies all three.


Synopsis by www.cinemas-online.co.uk

I had just watched Ankahee like again. Oh well, it was on Star Gold, so I just watched it. Watching this movie makes me go into deep thoughts about how vulnerable and fragile a relationship can be. I guess when it comes to situation like this, we ladies never fail to blame the guys. But after much thought, I believe, if the woman themself did not make the first move to seduce a man who is already labelled as 'husband or fiance' then I guess, the word 'home-wrecker' itself wouldn't even exist. Of course, this can even happened before marriage. You know, boyfriend, girlfriend relationship.


I believed, at some point of time, we just can't blame the guys wholely. Guys would be guys. Love and lust, maybe, it's a little hard for them to control. Hence, we ladies play an important role here. Not only do we have to ensure that our relationship stays strong, we have to also ensure that we are not in the way of the happiness of another woman.


This reminds me of what Man says, "It's so hard and expensive to be a girl." Thinking through it actually, it's kindda true. First and foremost, we have to worry that the man we are in love with does not belong to anyone else. Not someone's boyfriend, fiance or husband. However, it is painful at times when guys just don't see our efforts and they just have to do things to hurt us.


Nevertheless, I feel blessed to be a girl. I guess we girls go through the most interesting stages of life. Where firstly, we were born in this world as a daughter, then to being a wife and then, a life giving life to another, as a mother. I can never imagined how strong a woman can be till I realise, that's why there's a saying which goes, "There's a woman behind every successful man." Don't you think so too? A motivation for me to always look and step ahead each day with a strong mind come what may.


Ok my entry today is like as though today is world woman's day or something. Haha... but oh well, just some thoughts to ponder on a Monday. As teachers, we are bound to do tonnes and tonnes of reflections and I guess I was a little too carried aways today. Reflections, reflections and more reflections. Haha... Alright, too much for today. I'm off...

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Some relaxation

This movie was just AWESOME.
The come back of the ladies was simply superb.
& the company was great too, thanks Lin.
After so much thinking, worrying and such lately, I guess retail therapy was just what I needed.
So today and yesterday was fantastic.
Though most of the shoppings was for the Boston trip, I guess it was still relaxing. =)

On a random note, I love my family! =)
Nights!

Friday, May 28, 2010

Afterhours hunger.

It's 1am in the morning & Yus is hungry. After much contemplation, I decided to just order. What more when my Ms dietary adviser, Nur Azlina said that its ok since I only had mee goreng at around 3 just now. So ok la tu... lol!! Didn't manage to finish up my McChicken though... Hee...

This is my first time doing this kindda thing. Alone! Usually someone will be there to accompany me eat at this hour. Of course usually its Sham. Then we will just slack and watch tv. Haish, things like this makes me miss him even more more. Miss those days, those late nights at my place, playing ps3, eat junks, watching hindustan and haish, I shan't go on else I'll turn even more crazy than I already am! =(

Good morning world!

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Just 2 things

Two things that tempt me to whine non-stop:
  1. I don't want to start on assignment! Still on holiday mood. (I'm not alone, Lin feels the same way too, CONFIRM!) =(
  2. Missing him badly and worrying terribly. =(

Good night peeps.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Chocolates Galore.

Yup yup yup, cakes cakes cakes again. After Four Leaves, Coco Exotic and The Royals, Nutella Crunch cakes for Mama's birthday, I was still up for more chocolatey cakes. Yum yum. Ok la, gaining a few more kilos before Boston wouldn't kill that much I hope. So after dinner at Fish & Co with Sabbie, we had cakes cakes and more cakes. Ordered the same cake I ate with love lately. Yahoo... a source of stress reliever. Awesomeness...

After so long... it's Sabbie's treat! Love you. Hee... =) My treat will be up next. Thanks babe, for the dinner and the meet up. & we were like behaving so mak cik mak cik today about who to pay what. Haha... & word for the day will be... Insyaallah! Haha...

Ok bye world, I'm off. =)

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Thoughts.

The few days back, I had been thinkning a lot. There's so much to think that I neglected my own health. For now, nothing worries me more than his health and safety. I pray hard that he is doing well and work hadn't been so torturous for him. He is just too nice of a person that at times I worry if anyone were to take advantage of his good intention. Truth is I miss him. I miss him so much but its just my ego that I couldn't express my feelings to him. & the actual truth is I miss his three words for me. Miss it very very much.

I was just sitting down, staring in blank air, when I heard his voice saying, "your fingers are just too small lar you, that's why the heart shape abnormal." We tried really hard to produce a nice heart shape. Haha, Hanafi had to snap a few times for us. Thanks boy for the pictures. =) This picture was taken on the day we had dinner with his family before he left for Africa. It's the daddy's treat. ;)

Silly me, when I'm alone, I couldn't help but to reminicse about the stupid little things that we do, annoying little fights that we had and crazy little jokes we cracked. It will just makes me smile, and then droplets of tears will start rolling down my pimple-ish cheeks. I'm crazy I know.

Dear God, please look after my love for me. He claimed that he's strong and nothing that he can't handle. So please, give him all the strength and health he needed to perform his daily job efficiently.

Good night world.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Smoothie Sunday

  • Melepak
  • Hindustan movie marathon
  • Consultation with Dr Syed
  • Injection *yucks*
  • Mee goreng campor, no veggies, pedas pedas with egg
  • Hershey's Chocolate Milkshake

&

24 more days to Boston! *scary shit*

Saturday, May 22, 2010

*Hugs*

Met my ladies last night for a make-over photo shoot. Though its was kindda disappointing that there were more individual shots, I believe we still had great fun talking and laughing. At least meeting them cheers my up so much. Away from problems for a while. Most importantly, I recieve the most soothing hugs from my ladies. Thanks babe, you guys are simply the best. Talking with Khai on the train makes me feel so much relieved. Assures me too that I am doing the right thing. Thanks Khai! Well, with these people around is enough to cheer me up, to forget my missings and loneliness for a bit. & definitely my guyfriends are as awesone too. No other relationship is as strong as friendship. I am so blessed. Thanks so much God! =)

I am a simple girl. Considering my simple-mindedness, I am very much thankful with what I've got. & when I get hold of something I really love, I can never bear to let it slip off me just like that. I don't wish to have any regrets. Hence, I'll definitely try my very best to make everything work and at its best.

However, when there's a time I feel that there's a need for me to put a halt to it, maybe I will just let nature takes it course. It may hurt so much but I guess that's life we gotta face. I got so pissed with myself each time when people I really love and cared for have to go to the extend of being so troubled for me. I felt so guilty, so useless and disappointed with myself. As much as I tried to work things out on my own, I just myself not being so independent. I'm sorry friends to always bother you and I thank you so much that you guys are always there for me each time I fall. No words can describe how much I treasure and appreaciate you people in my life.

Well life have been tough lately. Been through so much shits but am trying to pick myself up slowly. Patience and hope, motivates me to become a better person each day. Insyaallah.

Friday, May 21, 2010

Just when I thought, I am picking myself up.
It strikes to me how complicated everything is.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

39th.

It's twentieth today.
I don't know how exactly I should feel right now.
Happy, that its yet another twentieth?
Or should I worry and sad thinking if there's going to be another?
I need you.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

d.e.i.r.r.o.w

When will these feelings due?
Pls God, give me the strength to face everything that lies ahead me.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Elated

Something to smile so widely about today:
  1. Chose the baju.
  2. Crazy rides with girlfriends
  3. Stupid jokes and extravangaza laughters with girlfriends
  4. Call from HIM!!!!!!!!

Thanks Dayah, Khai & Lin!
& hun, imy!

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Uneasy

I am begining to daze a lot lately.
I'm not feeling not too good about it.
I am feeling rather uneasy but I am not sure over what is it exactly.
I don't know if I was just being too carried away.
I'm not sure too if my feelings were sending across the right message to me.
I am just worried.
I am afraid.
I feel like confiding in someone.
I had a bad dream last night.

& I am just hoping for the best.
For us.

Saturday, May 08, 2010

Girlfriends

Girls day out with Khai, Rin & of course Lin was awesome today.
Though it was tiring, I guess the company was great. =)
Thanks babes, love ya'all.

9 days of not hearing from him.
Aku boleh jadi giler la seyy!!!!!!!
I don't know what to say anymore besides, imy hun.

Tuesday, May 04, 2010

Longings...

It's exactly a week now.
Wonder where is he, what is he doing.
From his previous trip, usually he would have message me by now to say he reached either Penang or Bangladesh.
God knows how long for now can I hear from him again.
imy hun hun.

On a side note, I'm not prepared to be far away from home.
Please please please. =(

Monday, May 03, 2010

=(

Almost everyone is talking about Iron Man 2.
Sedih per aku tak gi tgk. =(
It's not like I can't watch but I chose not to.
Since love's not around, the mood to watch movies is like totally ZERO.

We watched the first Iron Man together and since we can't watch it together this time, I shall not watch it too.
We will watch together when he returns.
Wonder what he's doing right now.
He must be all tired from work since the ship is really huge this time.
Kesian nyer syg ku itu. =(

Saturday, May 01, 2010

Wizard!

This is so cute right?
I know... =)