This few weeks have been rather a rough & tough week
I'm glad that school have already started.
Else, i'll be at home rotting after work while the bf will be away to Thailand.
Yeah, like again.
After Taiwan, Thailand pulak!
Crap to the core.
& you know i've been trying really hard to get over it.
To get over the fact that i'm facing another 3 weeks of hell w/o my love again.
At times i really hope he knows how much i really misses him.
At times i'm mad, i just feel like meeting him every single day now even if I could only kiss his hand & him kissing my forehead like each time he will want to leave me.
I can't thank God enough if that would happen.
But i know its impossible.
He will be super tired by then.
With his work at camp and all.
As much as how people say all those like even if we meet for a while can 'menghilangkan rindu',
i guess i really need to work hard and accept the fact that he's going away again now and soon, in the future. So avoid meeting often.
Honestly i tried to remain calm and take it cool that he's always away but deep inside,
I'm really broken, i feel so lost, and all i want to do is to cry like how babies would do, when they are hungry for milk.
That's exactly how i am, the thirst for Sham, Sham, Sham!
To admit this is really embarrassing, oh goodness.
But i just need to say it.
I can't afford to bottle up everything.
Just hope he would not be reading this post.
Yikes, malu malu!
It's really embarrassing like toot if he knows.
Haish, & when the most important thing to do now is to tell him how much i miss him.
I simply can't.
Why?!
I got no idea.
I called him to say i miss him, but i just couldn't bring myself to say it.
To say it in my best & proper way.
I just can't!!!
But when i said i miss you, i don't think it's the right way to express how i really really feel right now. Because simply, no words can describe how much i miss, love & long for his presence all the time.
I may hurt him so much but deep down, i really don't have the intention to.
I swear.
Guess, now, i need to keep my cool.
Don't get so emotional & got to remove the urge of wanting to meet him all the time.
Yes yes, i'm trying real hard.
Dear God, please give me the strength to face all these obstacles.
Amidst all these, i thank God i have crazy friends who never fails to show me their care and concern.
To Lin, Shariffah, Sydi and Man...
Thanks guys.
& hanging out with Lin & Man with tasty ice-cream at island creamery was absolutely stress relieving.
I can't thank God enough for this lovely gifts of His.
To present me these beautiful people in my life.
& of course saving the best for the last,
Thanks God, for bringing Sham to my life.
He show me the best part of life that is being in love.
Till then good morning world.
I'm glad that school have already started.
Else, i'll be at home rotting after work while the bf will be away to Thailand.
Yeah, like again.
After Taiwan, Thailand pulak!
Crap to the core.
& you know i've been trying really hard to get over it.
To get over the fact that i'm facing another 3 weeks of hell w/o my love again.
At times i really hope he knows how much i really misses him.
At times i'm mad, i just feel like meeting him every single day now even if I could only kiss his hand & him kissing my forehead like each time he will want to leave me.
I can't thank God enough if that would happen.
But i know its impossible.
He will be super tired by then.
With his work at camp and all.
As much as how people say all those like even if we meet for a while can 'menghilangkan rindu',
i guess i really need to work hard and accept the fact that he's going away again now and soon, in the future. So avoid meeting often.
Honestly i tried to remain calm and take it cool that he's always away but deep inside,
I'm really broken, i feel so lost, and all i want to do is to cry like how babies would do, when they are hungry for milk.
That's exactly how i am, the thirst for Sham, Sham, Sham!
To admit this is really embarrassing, oh goodness.
But i just need to say it.
I can't afford to bottle up everything.
Just hope he would not be reading this post.
Yikes, malu malu!
It's really embarrassing like toot if he knows.
Haish, & when the most important thing to do now is to tell him how much i miss him.
I simply can't.
Why?!
I got no idea.
I called him to say i miss him, but i just couldn't bring myself to say it.
To say it in my best & proper way.
I just can't!!!
But when i said i miss you, i don't think it's the right way to express how i really really feel right now. Because simply, no words can describe how much i miss, love & long for his presence all the time.
I may hurt him so much but deep down, i really don't have the intention to.
I swear.
Guess, now, i need to keep my cool.
Don't get so emotional & got to remove the urge of wanting to meet him all the time.
Yes yes, i'm trying real hard.
Dear God, please give me the strength to face all these obstacles.
Amidst all these, i thank God i have crazy friends who never fails to show me their care and concern.
To Lin, Shariffah, Sydi and Man...
Thanks guys.
& hanging out with Lin & Man with tasty ice-cream at island creamery was absolutely stress relieving.
I can't thank God enough for this lovely gifts of His.
To present me these beautiful people in my life.
& of course saving the best for the last,
Thanks God, for bringing Sham to my life.
He show me the best part of life that is being in love.
Till then good morning world.
