Sometimes happy Sometimes sad.

My title was really random till i remembered the hindustan version, Khabi Khushi Khabi Gham. Haha... guess that's life. At some point of time you're happy and at some point of time you're just feeling sad. Been going through that for this past few days, weeks and months. Apa kater kiter ckp everyday. Haha...

So that wednesday was Cende's iftar. So glad to get to meet up my best buddy in my poly life. She just cheer up my day. She's always day for me and i don't know what's life now without her!! NUR AZLINA BTE SUBARI!!!! Haha... miss you babe! And she's taken over me, she rebonded her hair while i'm all curls!! Haha... saper yang curls fetish ni skarang? Hahaha.... i still don't have the pictures of cende for that day. I only have this pictures and i sure do miss these girls!!!


I bloody change my tagboard thinking that the virus will be gone for good. That day my laptop was attacked by this stupid porn virus. And i don't watch porn mind you! How it started was like this. I went to CE's blog. Its a private blog btw so only the five of us are allowed to enter. So i got all paniked when there's someone tagged out tagboard. So i open the link and before it fully open i already got attacked by that stupid virus. I think its some porn website shit la. So irritating. I nearly refomatted my com but yeah i didn't because it was okay after i restored my lappie. But my tagboard, after i tag they said there are tracks of porn something something and i shud remove it. So thought by deleting the previous tagboard would be betterbut i guess its the same. So whatever la i shall leave it. Hope it will not get any worsen. Idiot! Who the hell even invent these porn shit! Farktards!! So i managed to read myra's tag rom the old tagboard so i just replied her through the new tagboard of mine. Keep tagging ya people. Gotta remind myself to not open links anyhow now. Haha... saya sudah learn saya punyer lesson, can?!

Okay i just thought i could say something here. At my OWN blog. So if you guys don't wish to read this, pls click the cross at the top right hand corner of your screen okay?! =)

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Well, i just feel that noone's perfect. When i was in Hua Yi, my friends used to label me as Yus the perfectionist. I tired to be one, knowing that i can never ever achieved it. Yet, till now i still try. But i know, and i realised so much that indeed NOONE is perfect. I don't understand why people still insist to be mean and act cold towards someone bad points or habit. At times we should and we have to do that but when one ALWAYS does that you're just being a hypocrite who claims that you are good and reasonable to everyone because you condemn people like almost ALL the time and you just think you are right, right, right. By being too stright forward is good but i think, one should also consider the feelings of that someone aftermath of you being all rash.

There was like trillions of fights when i was in high school and the only reason why it happens is because we couldn't accept and tolerate each others flaws. Being in the same school, facing each other everyday, what more can we ask for than just tolerance and accepting. For me, there's surely bad points in everyone. It's whether it will be noticed or not. So why hate someone because of thier flaws where basically EVERYONE on this earth has it. Sometimes this flaws pissed us off each and every single moment but then again after that we can still laugh it off.

Good example is my bro and his friends. I was really impressed with their friendship. Though some people in their cliques is always creating a hell of a problem, they don't hold grudges and they will laughed it off at the end of the day. They still meet up the next day and then treasure every single moment with each other while they still can. Guess, that's true friends. I'm not stereotyping between boys and girls ad that boys don't choose friends while girls do. But what i'm experiencing now is rathers boys are the one who are more of being not accepting and sensitive towards thier friends feelings and such. I don't understand why. My bro's cliques of friends have both boys and girls yet their friendship is going on well day by day. So i'm in no position to say ALL boys or girls. Still yeah, noone is perfect. But my point is, do people have to hate each other just because of one's flaws? That really make me thinking. Sometimes you got to wake up and face the reality that you have tonnes of weaknesses than the person you condemn all the time. And when you realised it you will tend to understand how insensitive you have been. Everyone have emotions and feelings. Not only girls can be emotional all the time, guys can too. We are all human beings.

I really hope to be a better person after what i've gone through and see in life. Seeing friends being so insensitive towards one's feeling and being hypocritical makes me pray hard that i wouldn't be catgarised in that group of people. Mama always told me wherever we go and whereever we are, there's always people who will never fail to bring yu down and make you feel so bad that you will just feel you can't survived. Hopefully, i will be stronger to face all obstacles. Insya'allah. How you treat me and how mean you are towards my stupidity at times brought tears in my eyes but well, i'll take it as a lesson learn and a way to improve myself. This are all part and parcel of life. Till my patience has reached it limit, i don't know what will happen next. God, pls give me the strength to face this ups and downs of life. For no doubt, every single day, i tried to be perfect but to no avail. Then i realised it can NEVER happen even if i tried to push myself so hard.

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Whoah! Okay i suck at words but owh well, i just feel like pending my thoughts here. Which is surely just by words. Don't mind my language and my terrible grammar. No offence to whoever who feels bad about this. Siapa makan cili, dier yang teraser pedas. Haha... seriously, it's ust how i feel. No pointing out or blaming at any particular person. So sorry about that. Haha... Lin said she suddenly miss a lot of people. Well, i've been terribly missing A LOT OF BEINGS this few days. I miss, SAB, NAD, KHAI, LIN, SYAF, AIDA, CANDY, BOYFRIEND'S MUM, my BUSTED 2 (shariffah), RESHMEL, SYDI, even Di's bro, FAIRUZ AND OF COURSE the BOYFRIEND SO SO SO SO DAMN MUCH!!!! Will always pray for their well-being and may all are blessed with great health always. Love you guys!

Boyfriend's coming back in a few hours time. Actually i just want him to be home quickly so that he can get ample rest since its the fasting month, his training must be a killer, all he need is rest rest and much rest. So worried about his health though. Hopefully i could meet him. Dgr dgr got some family gathering tommorrow but i so don't know if its confirm. If there is, i can't meet the boyfriend already. =((

Wow long post, okay that's it for now! Daa...

MIA?

BOO!! Haha... back back. Hiatus again?! No la where got? Just creating a lil spider web here and there only. Hahaha... as usual, been busy lately. And what is so pissing me off once i open my laptop is MSN! So bloody irritating. I can't bloody start a conversation and i can't receive anyone's messages also. So heart ache. And besides that, my laptop was attacked by some stupid viruses. Idiotic! Was on the verge of reformatting but being the genius me, i manage to get rid of the virus myself. Haha... hopefully its no more though. Haha....

So yea fasting month, SLAMAT BERPUASER KEPADER SEMUA YANG SEDANG BEPUASER dan kepada sesiapa yang tak tu INSAF lah anda sebelum anda DIINSAFKAN!!! Haha... chey chey... it is sure tiring to shout and scream so much when you're shouting. Ish... menghauskan!! Ni semua COBAAN! Haha... Those kids were really testing my patience. I got no other choice but to shout and scold. Gees...

So the boyfriend's off to camp again. This time at Pasir Labar or something. Posted to Seargeant Course. There goes another chapter in our love story where the Sham Boy have to leave the ever so blur Yus! Haish... life is so unfair. I don't know how to carve a smile each time this boy have to leave me. So hate it la, terribly awfully hate it to the MAX! I so have to apologise to him for giving him such a big headache each time he's going away. Can't help it la syg. I so cannot control my emotional state whenever you have to go, go and go. I wonder what is going to happen when he have to leave me for sailing! AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I so hate to think about that! Damn it!

Sorry k syg? Thanks for tolerating me and yet loving me still sweetheart! Ahhh... i so love my boyfriend can?! Sunday was iftar at my house and my dearest boyfriend bought me McWings and Nuggets!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Been craving for it and finally, i get it!!!!!!!! Thanks love!!! Muackz....

Iftar with CE over, Iftar at home was superb next is with my fellow cendes. Karaoke session after iftar at my house was simply hilarious. With Abg Adnan, Shahid & wifey & cutey adorable son, Asri, Abg Lutfi, Wawan, Dayana, Nur, Heifi, dearest Aishah and MY LOVELY BOYFRIEND was just so fantastic! Haha... hope to have something like this during RAYA!! Haha... speaking of which i have yet to buy my baju raya. Like no mood like that. The boyfriend also haven't buy since the country needs him so much. He's just so busy serving the nation. Takder time nak beli baju. Dah la gitu, dah penat serve nation bukan nak kasi bonus raya ker! Haha... boleh the girlfriend enjoy it also. Haha...

A lot of things happen lately also and my beloved Abg have really been a great friend! He has alays been there for me and what else can i say besides i so LOVE my brother la! Noone can pamper more besides my BOYFRIEND & my BROTHER! Haha... Thanks abang for being there for me when i needed you the most. It's just the 2 of us, no other siblings and i'm glad that we get along real well all this while. Being there for each other, to mengadu naseb, cry and laugh together. Thanks Abg! I so love you! What happen surely teaches us all a lesson and we will both learn from our mistake. So cheer up k bro, i'm always with you! Though thick or thin!! Not only me mama and papa also!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! I SOOOOOOOOOOO LOVE MY BOYFRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I SOOOOOOOOO LOVE MY BROTHER!!!!!!!!!!! AND OF COURSE I SOOOOOOO LOVE MY MAMA & PAPA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To my cafe people also thanks all the fun!! Aishah still owes me a birthday treat. Abg Luthfi also. Hmmm... best lak! Hahaha... chey chey... prasaan Yus!!! Actually i only want my boyfriend for my birthday. But can't, again we can't celebrate out birthday together. =(( Just like last year. =(( URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY DO NATIONAL SERVICE EVEN EXIST?!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dahlah, else i'll keep whining and whining like some nenek tua maner! Granny also kalah! Ok before i end, i was watching 'Konon-konon cerita hant' with Aishah at cafe and then i realise that we were sitting right in front of Imran Ajmain and Syarif Sleeq. Haha... and toot Aishah i thought she knew when she say tat the guy in front of us was good-looking since Heifi already told her that's Imran! Slow gak ni pompan! Hahaha... Ok... ciaoz!!

emotionally dysfunction

I hate this feeling of being all confuse.

There's just so much questions and fear in me.

Yet i still don't know how to express myself.

There's just so much too worry but there can't seem to be any solution.

Is my past happening again?

It still and keeps haunting me till now.

I can't smile it off, laugh it off and so i broke down.

I don't know what to do or what to say.

God, please help me get through all this.

I'm in a state whereby the next step is still unknown.

I'm tired of worrying and being upset.

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Okay results tomorrow. I'm so dead. Haish, worried sick. I so don't think i'm going to do well this semester. I just hope that i don't fail any module because i totally don't wish to retake any module again. This semester is so tough. I think i'm lucky if my GPA hit 2.5 at least. Good bye GPA of 3! =((

I'M SO DEAD TOMORROW!!!!!

URGH!!!!!

YUS is so DEAD DEAD DEAD!!!!!

some things are better left unsaid.

puase!!!

Yay yay besok puaser! Jap lagi sahur! Too all muslims... don't forget to bacer niat sebelum tidur!! Hahaha... i checked my mail and i came across ths funny mail by my dearest cousin Ms Farah Wahidah! See how lame it is but... it is sure something to laugh about! Hahaha....

1. Terlajak perahu boleh diundur, terlajak kereta pun boleh undur,terlajak kapal terbang takde gear reverse, sori.
2. Bersatu kita teguh, bercerai kita kahwin lain.
3. Sudahlah jatuh ditimpa pula tangga lepas tu tercium pulak tahi ayam.
4. Alang-alang mandi biar guna sabun & syampu.
5. Harimau mati meninggalkan belang, isteri mati meninggalkan gelang,suami mati meninggalkan hutang. (Itulah...lain kali jangan suruh suamibeli gelang secara hutang)
6. Sebab mulut santan binasa sebab mulut juga... nasi pun habis.
7. Kalau tiada angin masakan pokok bergoyang kecuali kalau ada beruk atas pokok tu.
8. Malang tak berbau tapi kentut boleh berbau walaupun tak berbunyi.
9. Biar mati bini jangan mati anak (boleh kahwin lagi ape)
10. Alang-alang menyeluk perkasam biar sampai ke pangkal ketiak.
11. Biar korek hidung jangan korek tabung.
12. Berakit-rakit kehulu, berenang-renang ketepian lama-lama jadi letih.
13. Sayangkan anak tangan-tangankan sayangkan isteri kahwin lagi satu.
14. Kalau padi katakan padi, tidak aku ternanti-nanti, kalau sudi katakan sudi, kalau tak sudi.....boleh blah.......
15. Harapkan pagar, pagar pun tak boleh harap. (Harapkan pagar, pagar dah roboh).
16. Tempat jatuh lagikan dikenang inikan pula tempat kena saman.
17. Hujan emas dinegeri orang, hujan batu dinegeri sendiri, kalau macam tu lebih baik tak payah hujan.
18. Biar lambat asalkan perlahan, Jangan mati sebelum sampai.
19. Kalau tiada rotan, pelempang ajelah....
20. Habis madu, sepah jangan dibuang merata-rata.
21. Carik-carik bulu ayam lama-lama jadi bulu tangkis badminton, pasti ayam kebogelan.
22. Air dicincang takkan putus tapi kalau daging dicincang tandanya ada kenduri
23. Kerbau berpegang pada tali, manusia berpegang gunakan tangan....Maaf kerbau takde tangan nak pegang. Gigit boleh lee..
24. Pinggan tak retak nasi tak dingin, kalau orang tak hendak tandanyakita tak lawa.
25. Takkan lari gunung dikejar, tapi kalau tak kejar pun gunung tu takkan lari jugak.
26. Patah tumbuh, hilang report polis.
27. Berapa berat mata memandang, berat lagi ahli sukan yang masuk acara angkat berat.
28. Sepandai-pandai tupai melompat akhirnya tak masuk Sukan Olimpik jugak.
29. Kalau ada jarum yang patah jangan disimpan di dalam peti, buang aje beli jarum yang baru.
30. Kalau ada sumur diladang, boleh hamba menumpang mandi, kalau ada umur yang panjang, bolehlah kita kahwin lari.......(nak tak?)
31. Kajang Pak Malau Kajang berlipat, Kajang hamba makan satay Kajang lagi best......
32. Kalau kail panjang sejengkal, belilah kail yang panjang sikit.
33. Kalau takut dilambung ombak janganlah berumah di tepi pantai, buatrumah jauh-jauh sikit dari pantai, bodoh!
34. Pecah kaca pecah gelas, kalau dah pecah tu tak reti-reti nak ganti ke...

-SEKIAN-

Ups & Downs

My blog is so collecting dust. Haha! I'm just too lazy to update. Been busy lately because there's so much things to settl at home and been working before school holidays lately. Been working on Monday and today also. So yah! Life has really been testing me so much lately. Hopefully God will give me the strength to face it and solve it with the best way possible. I believe bad times will pass and good times will soon appear to anyone who have patience. To me, the most important thing is to smile, and there's nothing you can't overcome.

But still, it's still easier said than done la. I can hardly smile when the boyfriend have to leave me for his camp on Sundays. Today is his ORD and so BMT is OVER! Just waiting for his posting. Seriously, my emotional status hadn't bee good lately and the boyfriend have been really understanding. Thanks for that sweetheart and i apologise that i can't attend your passing out parade just now. Have to work. Sorry to Cende also because i can't join you guys just now.

So besides working what did i do? Hmm... i have been watching a lot of TVs!!!! Hahaha... i managed to finish watching Hikmah and can't wait to watch Hikmah 3! Who have please kindly borrow me can? Hee... i manage to complete my process of watching is all thanks to the boyfriend's mum who borrowed me th VCD from her friend! I so love her! Haha... Then i manged to also finish watching this Taiwan (if i'm not wrong, it speaks chinese though) drama called Sonrio Pasta. Nice show just like devil beside you. Its Khai's DVD and so thanks babe. Finally after borrowing since like donno how many months ago i finish watching it. Hahaha! Not only i take months to read, i also take months to finish up a drama series. Maklumlah, busy woman. Hopefully Khai is buying the next drama 'Why why love'. All of them are the cast from devil beside you! Expensive man the DVD! Saw it sold at popular. Farktard cheespie! Who can buy for me?!Pls pls! Hahaha.... Love the song, there i attached the song and maybe you guys can look at some sneaks of the show. Cute love dovey drama indeed! Although it's like an old drama, still alah lets just say i outdated! Hahaha!

Yesterday after teaching, i met up with my laughing buddy! Shariffah and Reshmel. No change, Reshmel as pretty and lame as ever and Shariffah as mepek and nonsense as ever. Haha... nice catching up with them. The best catching up... LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH! No tension at all! Hahaha... Thanks guys, you guys rock my world! Hahaha... till the next laughing session!

I went back to Hua Yi for the teacher's day celebratuon. Sorry Pam i have to go home early and thanks for coming that day too. Catch up with Mr. Amran and hopefully Hua Yi will call me up to relieve malay there. Easier for me. No need transport. Cut cost. Hahaha.... So motivated when Mr Amran say wanna open childcare together. Hahahaha.... chey chey but who knows it come true. Nothing is impossible. Insya'allah! Hahaha... so nice of it comes true! Haha... Don't worry Cikgu even if kiter tak dapat open childcare together, i will still continue studying and get my degree at least. Hee... doakan ehh? Hee.... oh yah, Reshmel already completed her diploma and now waiting for her degree! Wahlau! How jealous! Hahaha... pelan pelan kayuh Yus! =P

That 6th September was dearest Abang's birthday. It was a sad birthday for him again this year. It's okay bang, everything happens for a reason. Again, just smile and there's nothing you can't overcome. So went to cafe to celebrate it with his birthday. With the normal al-maklis gang. Abg adnan & Lutfi, kak Dayana, Heife, Aishah, wawan, mahathir and ranny. Sadly kak timah wasn't there because she's in Thailand. Thank you so much guys for being there to celebrate abang's brithday. I'm sure he's veryhappy with each and everyone's presence that night. Abg Lutfi treat us to food and we have to follow the birthday boy's request to go to Mustapha Centre. We ended up there at around one or two plus in the morning doing stupid stuff! Haha... ketawer ketawer macam like mad people. Then eat prata in the middle of the night. Been great hanging out with ya people! Cheers people and that's them! =))

As usual been teaching at Boon Lay Garden Primary, and today was great although it's tiring. You know why because i receive this:



Yes, a rose! Haha... By who else if not the boyfriend. He tried to surprise me by fetching me after school but how cute can he be he landed at the old Boon Lay Garden Primary school! Hahaha.... in the end he was so hardworking to sprint so that he can catch up with me. Haha... poor little devil of mine. Thanks sweetheart, it was really sweet of you to come all the way to fetch me. You're sure tired! Love you so so so much dearest! Haha... Taught malay on Monday and this bunch of Primary pupils really touch my heart with their stories. Very well behaved class and after a long day of work they really cheer up my day. Thanks people! I'll always pray you will achieve to be whatever you aim for!


Alright let me just end off today's entry with replies from my dearest taggers.

dear busted 2: Baik shariffah! slalu2 la singgah sini yer?!

dear NurseYAN: Yup, life's like that, full of ups and downs. Thanks babe! =)

dear faezah: Huh? Finally aper ehh?! Hahha... sorry slow!

dear Khairiyah: Hello babe!!! Cepat-cepat beli WHY WHY LOVE!!!!!!! And then lend me! LOL!!!!

dear nish: Hey girl, i'm fine! Nice to see you that Teacher's day!! Still as bubbly! Haha... Twees!

dear dLa small: BAIK RED HOT CHILLI PEPPER! Kecik kecik people rocks!!!!!!1 Haha...

dear Lin: Yelah! Dah update! Alamak ni mindah! Dush dush! Hahaha....

dear sok leng: Haha... yah i clean already. Ok not now? LOL! =P

dear -fidah-: Haha... aku jumper kau jugak!!! Woo hoo!! Hahaha... okok baik dah update cik puan! Hahahaha!!


Alright,i'm tired. Bye!

BAD BAD BAD!!!!

I HAD A BAD BAD DAY!

JUST BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD!!!!

& NOBODY CAN IMAGINE HOW BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD IT GOES!!!!!

I HAD ENOUGH OF WAITING!

I'M TIRED!

THAT'S IT!

BYE!

My head hurts!

I'm so furious with my connection! Stupid! So don't know what's wrong with it. Anyways, i had a bad bad headache the whole day! Goodness! I seriously don't know why. The boyfriend message me at 6:52 am in the morning just now then he woke me up again with his call at around 10! Haha.... so sweet! I so love the disturbance though i had a nice sleep with the weather oh-so-beautiful this morning. Seriously, the weather is just so awesome for me to pull my blanket and just snore in bed. Haha... after putting down the phone with my sweetheart i continue sleeping till 12! Haha... yaya i know, ANAK DARA APER NI... blah blah blah! The boyfriend said the exact same word but alah, its been sucha long time since i had such beauty sleep. Its either i don't get enough sleep or i have no time to sleep this well because i'm just so busy. Haha!

I don't know why i fell asleep again at around 3 just now! Goodness, i seriously don't know why i was so sleepy the whole day. And actually, i'm stil sleepy now. Haha... So basically i just slept the whole day and then watch tv and then eat and then blog. Nothing much! My head hurts the whole day also. But yah, to think again, actually, there's a reason to it though and i decided to just not state the reason here because i don't want the whole world to know the reason why. Haha...

Boyfriend will be booking out tommorrow morning! Yayness! He called just now and he sound so shag. It was a tiring day for him because they ha this thing called 'road or route (i don't know) march' today. Cian my swetheart, he is so tired. Hopefully he'll get enough rest when he's back. Will try my best not to disturb him. Hee..

I so need some DVDs or VCDs to watch. I'm so bored everynight. Haish, i so need some bollyhood or hollywood or whatever! I love this slacking period but its beginning to be a little too boring. So yah, a movie marathon alone would be nice. Ok la i don't know what else to blog abut besides i can't wait to see the boyfriend! Haha....

I tried this and just see la ah! Haha... let the boyfriend judge my seduction style and see what he have to say when he comes back to see this. Haha... and our love profile! We are both LIBRAS!!! Haha!!! Ye ker best day to date is wednesday? Hmmm.... But the part where it says difficult to decide where to hve dinner, what movie to watch is soooo soooo true about us! Hahaha!!!

Your Seduction Style: The Coquette

You are a pro at playing the age old game of hard to get. Your flirting style runs hot and cold, giving just enough to keep them chasing you. Independent and self-sufficient, you don't need any one person to make you compelte. And that independence is exactly what makes people pursue you.

Libra - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits: You are open minded enough to date outside your typical "type" ... successfully! You are diplomatic - and likely to end a fight instead of dragging things out. You are easily loyal and faithful, but only for the right person. Your negative traits: You're a bit gullible, and partners take advantage of you. You still may not know it. You find it difficult to decide where to go to dinner, what movie to watch, who to date... You have to be in a relationship, or else you just don't feel like yourself. Your ideal partner: A smooth talker who enjoys socializing as much as you to. Someone classy and cultured who knows which wine to order with dinner. Is beautiful to you - although not necessarily attractive in the traditional sense. Your dating style: Romantic. If your date comes bearing flowers, wine, and poetry... well, your heart soars. Your seduction style: Giving. Your lover's pleasure is as important as your own. Soft and sensual - you don't like anything to be rough. Extravagant ... your fantasy involves staying at a five star hotel with your love. Tips for the future: Don't be so quick to compromise in relationships - and you'll get taken advantage of yes. Try being single for a while. Seems impossible, but you'll learn so much about yourself from doing so. Make some decisions about your romantic life, right now. You'll be happy that you did. Best color to attract mate: Green Best day for a date: Wednesday

May allah always blessed our family.
Insya'allah!~

"i don't friend him, he hit me!"

Kids this days are just too clever. They absorbed things faster than any other people living on this earth. Not to mention, they are all so daring also. I walked pass this group of malay children, girls and boys, and can you actually believe what they say? This is what they say:

"Eh, awak tengok cikgu tu, badan dier kecik eh? Macam budak kecik!"

Like oh my god, do you even dare say that when you were young? Seriously, I don't know about you people but i know i don't! When the teacher is like ten metres away than maybe i dare say that. Gees... but i was there! Maybe 3 steps away! Like i cannot hear like that! Goodness, and they are just so daring to raise up thier hand in class cand voice out any issue. I clearly remember that i'm not even as daring to raise up my hand to say i need to pee urgently! Hahaha... Not only me, i don't remember my other friends raising up thier hands just to complain. Children nowadays are just so different. If i were to do any research or thesis again, this is a soo a good topic man! Haha...

So taught primary 2/6 today. Ish, this class ah! But i think this class is improving since i last took them. I remember i relieve this class on my first day ever of relieve teaching.This time round they were better. Way better but still hard to handle. During music, we played some games and a lot of injury happens. Firstly this boy name 'A' drop his teeth (& amazingly we can't find his teeth!). Haha, it was already shaky just waiting for the right time to drop and it have to drop during the game. So he cried scolding that friend of his that unintentionally hit him during the game. But i managed to cool him down. Then boy 'B' got hit by the stuff used during the game but he's a strong boy, didn't cry. Then a girl cry because the boy 'C' who borrowed his stuff to us to be used during the play got spoilt when the girl touch it. Then again i managed to cool the situation. Haha... was so proud of myself! *ehem* Haha... what only Yus! But really, it was really good to teach the children to say sorry and forgive one another and accidents are bound to happen. Then they were all friends again and they kept saying 'we must care for everyone'. Haha... impressive bunch of kids!

Taught class 3/4 social studies for one period. Then i recieve this from 2 lovely girls.



I don't know why the thank you for so i opened, and it looks like this:


& for a clearer view, it states...


So that's from Xue Ting & Adriana. Haha... adorable right this girls? Love them. Such good flatterer man this people. They just know how cheer up my day. Haha... In all i just totally love what i'm doing right now. Hopefully my dream of becoming a full fledge teacher will fullfilled one day. Insya'allah. Teaching is so my profession and will be working hard to achieve towards it. Gees, makes me miss my toddlers so much!

Alright besides talking about how my work went i don't know what to talk about. like some of you may say i got no life. Yea! Guess this is all i do everyday. If i'm not working i have to be home. So nothing much actually. So yah, miss my toddlers and those nursery children at Carpe Diem. Though lesson plans can be such a hassle, working with them bring so much joy to me!

I'm currently addicted to this indonesian drama called 'Mimipi manis' & 'Anakku bukan anakku'. It's showed at the new malay channel 'Sensasi'. Macam bagus pulak but super menyakitkan hati. Sabar jer! Dah macam Hikmah, but i still have the urge to watch it. If you don't like long draggy drama don't watch. Once you watch you'll get addicted and you can't stop. Ahh... that's where the heart ache appears. Haha...

Okay enough! I'm outta here! See ya! =))

Teacher Liza & Miss Liza not same ah?

Look a the title, that's what one of the girl ask me. Haha... Ineresting! Called up for relief teaching today at Boon Lay Garden Primary. Miss doing relief teaching. Thanks to Fauziah for the call and so i'm back to teaching those cutie percutie primary ones! For some reasons, i guess i enjoy teaching primary ones more than any other level. After trying to teach the other levels. primary ones are the best level to teach! Hahaha... maybe they are still in the stage of Early Childhood stage that's why. Hahaha...

Today was the most relax day in school. From 12 noon to 4pm i had free period. I just have to mark attendance at 1:30pm then collect exam paper at 3pm then i'm stuck in the office reading Alicia's book that i have yet to return because i have yet to complete reading it, 'Why men marry bitches' while listening to my mp4. Interesting book. Oh yah after so long, i get to crap again with my Busted 2, Shariffah! Haha... she so need my help on something! *ehem ehem* Haha... met up with her last last week and she still look the same. Skinny, irritating & mepek Shariffah! Haha... we went to visit Farhana that day. Poor her. her leg's injured. Hopefully she's fine now. She can hardly walk the other day. Anyways thanks eh Shariffah, ader pon aku kawan dalam maser-maser aku memerlukan sesorang untuk merepek! Hahaha.... she's a damn good company i tell you! Haha... and surprisingly, she book me in advance on the 4th to break fast together as its my birthday. Haha... super cool la. She actually remember my birthday. Haha... who else wanna book me? Quick, while stock lasts! Hahaha... love this mepeks busted 2 la! Looking forward to more mepeks yah?!

That's the aftermath of spending 4 hours in the office doing basically something so NOTHING! And yah the staff access card to the office change and for some reason its labelling is super big that noone will ask me anymore if i am relieving. Haha... Look ah! Haha... should have brought my laptop then can watch movie or something. But owh well, i'm just plain lazy to carry it. I did not teach much today because they were having thier mother tongue exam. So i just invigilate and then left one period, i just did spelling game with them. Goodness, what i learn is so true. Children definately have short attention span. I am so used to be in an examination hall so silent, so quiet then i have class who's having exam and it's just so noisy with the sound of the stationery and the children displaying solitary play. They arrange thier pencils, earsers and whatever they can find in their pencils box and create an aeroplane or car & amazingly not only the boys were doing it. The girls too. Haha... that's why they are so labelled as the CUTEST beings in this world. Haha!

Oh yah last night, or rather morning, i managed to watched Naqaab the full movie! Yayness!! Haha!! An interesting and thrilling movie indeed. Quite unique. Having real life movie. So impossible but owh well, nice one. Urvashi Sharma is just so dead gorgeous, i love the ending of the movie.

So, i kindda not feeling good about something. Kindda worried about it though. Haiz... Anyways will end here for now. So long and good night. =))

down, down and away...

Yeah, i had been feeling down lately. So down. A lot of things to be upsetting and worried about. I get so frustrated when i can't confide to anyone. What's worst i don't know what isrestrictin me lt it out to anyone. I know bottling up my feeling ain't a good habit, but i just don't understand myself. I just find it so hard to open up and share it with someone. Even to someone important and close to me. At times i get so frustrated and even disappinted with myself. It's so hard to grow up, i don't want to grow up at all.

Ahh enough said about being all sad la. I've had enough. No use explaining things here, i rather i look for some entertainment and entertain myself now. So exactly, i am loading the movie Naqaab from you tube. And heck i have been loading it since 12 am just now its still not done. Super slow man. I so wanna watch the movie man. The girl is so pretty. A new actress so i guess its her debut film. Bu the actor spoil, Akshay Khanna. So already. Thinking of which i never watched a hindi movie in cinemas. Haha... wanna try it out some day with someone of course. Did talk about it with the boyfriend bt we just don't have the time and if we do we ain't sure which cinemas has it. Hahaha! I'm so crazy. But seriously watching bollywood movie is the only thing that can help me forget all my problems. Usually i will just sleep it off but i can't sleep now.
I so love the Naqaab song, ek din teri rahoon! Super nice! The girl and Akshay dance was awesome. Love it man. Been repeating and repeating the song. If only the boyfriend is here to watch it with me. Then he would have make me dance with him also. Hahaha... crazy fella! I don't know what else to blog actually but i just wanna blog.

Btw i was attached to Carpe Diem Kidsworld Pte Ltd and the experiences there was awesome! Wendy, my mentor was simply superb! She gave me a beautiful gift made up of different kind of beautiful phrases. So motivating. She's the best mentor ever! & good news i'm attached to the same centre again next semester! Thank god!! I miss my toddlers! I enjoy teaching toddlers so much! Especially doing art & craft with those smart little cute people. Miss them loads!

Oh yah, boyfriend called and good news!! He may be booking out on friday morning an then book in again on Mondy night!! Woo hoo!! Long break for him!! Yeayness!! Okay then i'm going to stop here to watch a little of Naqaab! Good night people!

I'M SO BACK!

Wow, i miss blogging. After sucha long time, i'm back to the blogging world. And taa daa.... new layout. Wasn't putting much effort in it though. Just doing a quick simple one. Guess will do a much better one next time. Not in the best mood nowadays. Don't kow hy, nowadays i've been having this fetish for the colour red and someo other bright colours. Maybe it stimulates my brain. Haha... hmm....

Finally exams over. Semester 1 done. Phew! Tiring year 2 indeed. And will be expecting more work to come next semester. Was told that we are suppose to do a Math learning centre next semester and its not going to be our mentor or supervisor who will be assessing us but our school lecturers! I'm like so dead. If i get Sukuna, i can kiss my 'Pass' grade! Haish, its next semester but i'm starting o panic and worry already. Stop it sia Yus. Now enjoy first. Child Development 2.1, Infant & toddler behaviour & development was another one heart ache paper. Studied like crazy fot it, memories like mad yet i don't think i can make it for that paper. Haish, and i tought Designing learning Environment was worst! Gees... well, here goes my GPA that i've always been getting 3 and above. This semester for sure its going to be less that that. What a heart ache! But one good news for me, Financial Management that i was so confident to fail, i actually PASS!! Haha.. was so happy when Khai say Mrs Loke told Yvonne everyone pass! If she bluff memang ah, saket hatiku! Cheat my feelings only. Hahaha...

So the boyfriend's serving te nation and i'm definately lying if i were to say i don't miss him at all. Yesterday was the twentieth and its our 6th months which is half a year & counting! Owh i must say this, i so must say this! I watched LOVE IS CINTA already and it was so heart aching! Goodness, saket hati jer tgk citer tu! Ish, Watched with the Boyfriend, the brother and his girlfriend! And the VCD was thanks to Hanafi. It's his! I think... ehh? Entah all i know i get to watch it. And recently i watch this scary movie called terowong casablanka or something. Criter tak paham sangat but itwas freaking scary. Watch it at the boyfriend's house while waiting to send him off to camp. & there's this one part where the boyfriend wants to go pray then suddenly Hanafi also hilang masok bilik or donno where, i get so freaking scared and panic man being left alone! I was ALONEwatching it. Maner boleh jadi kan?! Sabar jer!! Nice movie but i will never watch it at home alone. NEVER! Haha...

Erm... a lot of things happen but i just don't know where to start. To many things happen. News that are shocking, experiences that are scary, get to meet my late grandfather's brother from boyan (& i got hug like a teddy bear by him, kalah my hisham hug me, punyer kuat!) then many many things la. Haish, i'm so so so busy lately that i can''t find time for myself also. Ish!

Since i don't know where to start and what to say, i shall end here then! Owh, anyone can be so so so so kind to lend me new Bollywood movies. I'm so outdated la. Eversince the boyfriend stop going sailing, my supply of hindustan movie also cease. I wanna watch Tararumpum, Naqaab, Partner, Salameishq & many many more la! Whoever is sooo sooo nice can lend me those movies must tell me tau, you will get excessive love from Yus! (thought it will never be as much as i love Mr.Boyfriend, Hee!) I miss NUR SABRINA BTE RASID la, hope to meet her real soon. And for some reason i miss CANDY ONG MEI XIN also, i dreamt bout her last night. Hahaha...

So okay people. Till the next update then! Twees! =))

Some people just can't give up!

When explaination & reasons have been laid out they just insist in accepting it!
Com'on, leave me alone!

Urgh!

P/S: I love my family, my friends, myself....

&.... MY BOYFRIEND!!!!

SCRAM YOU!!

DISAPPOINTED.

That's how i am feeling now.

& maybe upset too.

I have always been bad at words.

How i feel and what i wanna say always is not sent across.

So might as well i shut up!

when the truth is not appreciated

i can't be bothered to explain anymore.

i'm too drained out.

so hectic

Exhaustion to the max already.

Been mugging & chiong-ing with assignments & projects like a mad woman.

Been missing him like a psycho freak.

Am so deadly fazed!

God, please give me some air to breath!

I am feling so suffocated.
Oh yar i created some test out of tiredness.

Just thought i need some lame & fun entertainment for a while!

So try it if you wana! =)

*Where are you ppl

when i need you the most?*

upset & tired.

I don't quite understand the meaning of 'HOLIDAY' now.

Holiday means completing dued assignments and projects.
A meaingful day suddenly seem so quiet and i'm all alone.

I HATE this feeling of tiredness, exhuastion & being lonely.

p/s: Happy 4th monthsary sweetheart. <33

head bursting

I have no idea how i'm going to do my Music & Movement lesson plan.

Cracked brain for ideas but i simply have none.

Damn! How?! How?!

Art & craft is way easier. Implementing it is not a big problem also.

Music & Movement is so difficult. Gees!!

Sleeping is still the best for now.

Shucks, i have no idea for SAM also! I'm so doomed!

Note to self: Buy yan yan chocolate for ideas*

Someone close told me that Sham & me being far apart for a long time is our source of love. Hmm... thanks for the wonderous comment bro! Haha... =)

p/s: assignments & projects not pregressing @ all!

brain not functioning!! =(

& he left.

"Just like the wind, we can't see them but we can definately feel them."

P/S: I'm missing him so bad.
I don't care what you guys going to say,
but i know i can't live even for a sec not thinking of him!

Period.

I will miss you! =(

Okay what's that?! That's LJS chilli sauce and my dear little devil form shape of a 'S LOVE Y' which practically means Sham love Yus. Haha... and he just can't stop bragging about how artisic he is in shaping a perfect heart shape. Haha... since it look nice i shal give him some credit and compiment! Well done sweetheart. Haha... brought Nini to play arcade. That's what boyfriend wants to do before going NS. Furthermore, she is having a holiday and she's not going anywhere. Pity her, compared to her other friends who go overseas for holiday & she have so brought home so many things man. Played arcade and the boyfriend have initially collected a lot of tickets and adding to today they collected a total of 250. Adding on to i we played again at night while waiting for abang to knock off from work. She gets more stuff again! Gees... I didn't get anything! But its ok as long as i can see him i am most satisfy! =)

I wanna apologies to the boyfriend about how i behave just now & i have reasons for it. You should know why by now. I'm sorry still. I really didn't mean to but i swear i was holding back my tears so bad sayang. I'm sorry! A few hours later he will lave for tekong and i will be as lonely again like how he left me for sailing. Owh well, i guess hopefully my patience will be paid off in the end. I apologise again because i can't send you off and again you should know why. I still feel uilty for that though. In fact i am very upset and frustrated about it. I swear. I'm sorry sweetheart. Guess, i have so many things to be sorry about. =(

I'm so going to miss this devil of mine real bad. But no matter what i will always pray for your good health and hopefull you can just be back in a blink of an eye. Hee... To sum it up i have a whole loads of fun today! That more than 10 times kiss from nini and more than maybe 20 kiss from him was superb. Hahaha... who will kiss me that much in a day right? I am so thankful to be loved. Love this wonderful people as much too. My brother have been very very super ultimately nice lately! I appreciate the hell out of it man. I so love my brother! To Lin, don't even think of exchanging brother! My brother is the best and he is my HERO! Kay maybe after Hisham. Haha... alright guess i end with some reply from the taggers. Toodles! =)

dear sham: I'm going to miss you more sayang! Love you!!! Muackz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dear pinkphreak: Hehe, touching ker? *covers face*

dear ads: Hee... ye ker?! *shy*

dear nish: Hey thanks babe! *shy again* thanks for dropping by after such a looooong time!

dear LiN: Heeee.... skali skaler babe! =p

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p/s: i love mr hisham who is still

playing game now to the max!!!!
Love you sweetheart!!!
So gonna miss you!!

-!MUACKZ!-

M.I.A DELETED!

Hello beautiful people. I'm back. Not from a holiday or anyting but just decided to not blog for a while because life have been superbly, umtimately totally hectic. I became so exhausted and tired of life suddenly that i just don't have the mood to blog. See the picture above? Because of him i have the mood to blog now, so let's not waste it. So i decided to not waste my time talking about the problems or any negative incidents that happened to me. Particularly because i just don't want my blog to fill with anymore upsetting events. Enough knowing for the fact that i have only 1 day left with the boyfriend before he left for army. I just have something to just shout out the the world about this little devil of mine and i thought i could just do those shout out here, at my very own blog! Hee...

And so i decided to just talk and talk about the boyfriend in today's entry as he will be leaving me for three months and i can't imagine that he's going to leave me again after two years serving the nation to sail again! URGH!!! So for those who don't wish to go on reading today's entry you may wanna click that 'X' shape thingy at the top right hand corner of your screen ok?But before i continue with the lovey dovey part. I just want to congratulate CENDEKIAWAN for achieving victory against Republic Polytechnic in Bahas 4PM, an annual malay debate competition. CONGRATULATIONS again to Hakim who won the best speaker for the match. Unfortunately, we are unable to proceed to the next round because our team who represented Ngee Ann is unable to be one of the top 8 schools. However, i must say that we have put in a lot of hard work and it's definately a job well done for us as a first timer. First competition for us Cende and thus there's always room for improvement!! Love ya people. And then thanks to the boyfriend who came down to giv support! Appreaciate that! Thanks sweetheart =)

Okay back to this boy called Hisham. So yah, I love him! Haha... okay besides that i just wanna proudly make an anouncement that... I LOVE HIM AGAIN!! Ok enough! I do't know when was the lst time i am being this mushy man! Hahaha... And so i promise this boy i will make a long story for him to read here. So here i try ya? Hee! And ya so i continue the story. Since i was selected to be representing Ngee Ann in the debate team, this sweet boyfriend of mine gave me a very cute and lovely surprise. After debate practice, he came to pick me up and then he surprise me with a wonderful gift! See...

Wanna know what's inside the box? Hur hur... ok ready?! Jeng jeng jeng!! Hahaha....

It's a Hamtaro!!! Super cute right? Have sound somemore! Hahaha... Thanks so much sweetheart! I super duper love it too bits! What's more the card is as lovely as you yoo sayang! And so he deserve a *MUACKZ*!! Then there were some problems here and there which makes me realised that i can d things that i want to do for him. Nevertheless i did nt give up and still try ways to make this loverboy happy. And so i bake a brownie for him & thank god he love it. Haha... i even decorated it with MnMs but i was overly excited to give him i forgot to take picture of it. Hee... but see! Delicious ok!! Aren't you jealous already that he gets to taste it and not you?! It's Hersheys by the way! Hahaha... YUM YUM!!! =P

The month wasn't as good for us. But our love remain strong. Regardless of what happens, we manage to solve the tiniest to the biggest problem. And can you believe it he's going to leave me for army today. What makes it worst is i am unable to send him to tekong because of some reasons whichi just don't wish to talk about. It just aches the heart even more. And anothe surprise by these little devil of mine. He made a nice and unique photo album which i so so love it to the core! Hahaha... and can't help it to blog it here and show it to everyone! I'm so proud to be the owner of this...

It is decorated with some sand and i'm sure its really hard to make. I really appreaciate it sweetheart. Thanks for taking the trouble to do this for me. I so love you. But actualy i recieve the album in this format...
I shall not disclose where this devil get the cloth from. Hahaha... but whatever it is, its nice and match everything!! Hee... and then look at the first page. I so love this!! It's a fact file!!! Hahaha...So there some facts thatyou should know or not know about 'YUSHAM'! Hahaha.... And then the next page!

He claims that i'm his only hope! AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hahaha.... and here's the back page which is amulti-purpose thing because it can also act as a photo frame! Hahaha... i so love love love it and i so love my dear little devil!!!

Lovely isn't it?! Aren't you jealous or something?! Hahahaha.... just wanna say my thanks to this little devil of mine. How deviish he can be, how hyper he can be, how he can outtalk me, how he childish he can be, how lame he can be... I STILL LOVE HIM SO MUCH!!! Thanks sweetheart for everything. I may not be the best girlfriend but just so you know noone can ever love yu like i do! Hahaha... omg... so malu! Never say this in public before! Heee... but owh well!! I jushave to say this. I am just so proud of my love! Lov you sweet heart. Alright its like already 3 am and i think i need to end thestory soon and head of to dreamland and meet my devil. So let's end the story by reminiscing the most happiest momet of my life which is on 11th June 2007, Tuesday! I had the most enjoyable day of my life. Though i was very pressurized and stress out with m poects and assignments, this boy just know how to cheer me up. In fact his presence cheers me up like crazy already!

For my little devil, Hisham, i've said this but i'm goingto say this again. How far apart we are. How long we will not see each other. How frustrating life is. I will still be only yours and i will still lvoe you and only you.hat i say on the night of 20th February 2007 will not have any expiry date because YUSLIZA jut LOVE HISHAM to bits!! Like you always say to me hen you went sailing, our love is just like the wind, we cannot see them but we can definately feel them. I'll live life with that beautiful phrase of yours in your absence. Hopefully you'll not stop mising and loving me like how i will always contiue to do so & hopefully this story flow well enough. What can i say its lte at nigt the brain might juststop functioning. Hahaha! I love you sayang! Muackz!!

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