Hectic Life.

Yes, life has been so hectic. With lesson plans, learning centres, newsletters and CIRPE research project. Everything is piling. Elizabeth say, "You will not have time to pick up your boyfriend's call anymore." That is so true. But one advantage for me, my boyfriend NEVER call. He just hates it. So you can never see Yus bergantung on the phone.

MCYS officer came to check on the centre last Thursday. Goodness, everyone in the school were so kelam kabut. It was very shocking that they came this month because the centre were told that the MCYS will be coming next month. Gees, so it was such a chaotic moment for the teachers. & of course tiring also.

It was such a stressful week for me. Having to redo my lesson plan because the mentor doesn;t approve on it. Had a little arguement with the mentor. Gosh, make me miss Carpe Diem Kidsworld and my mentor Wendy. Wendy is so much caring and concern. But thank God i have Miss Shaikah this time. The K1 and K2 form teacher. She help me so much. Big thanks to her.

So that's my finger puppet. Basically we can't post any pictures of the children in our blog because parents may sue us or whatever. So dared to post this pictures because none of the children's face are clearly seen. Only my sememek face can be seen. So, done my first lesson yesterday but the learning centre not progressing. I don't know when and where to start. I'm like so brain dead. Having to carry out 6 lesson and to do 2 learning corner at such a little time is going to be killer ya know! Oh Gosh!! It was really really a stressful week that i couldn't help myself to break down in the centre after the arguement with the mentor. Year 3 is not good ah... Grrr...

Nevertheless, the children cheer me up and make me smile at the end of the day. They make me leave the centre wih the thought that i still love my job and being in this line has indeed been my profession and passion. Indeed the problem NEVER lies with the children, it's always the adults your working with. How irritating! Again, i still love my job though. So weekends are spent doing lesson plans and preparation and not forgetting CIRPE that is so not progressing. How nice! =)

It's the 20th and so it marks the 16th months since we were together.
Another month of love that will keep on going.
Being with him is so my favourite thing.
If HE ask me if i want anything, i want nothing but just him!
Ily syg! <33

Red red red... =)

Alright, i'm currently sick at the moment. So as much as i wanna update about Abg Asri's wedding, i'm uber lazy. So i'll post some pictures the next time round i update this blog of mine. Meanwhile, i just finished watching the last part of Narnia. Watch with the boyfriend lately but didn't finish watching it because papa fetch me home from his house. Nice ending. I'll give Narnia an 8.5 out of 10!

Yesterday Sham went to meet abang. Didn't know what were they up to. Ask Sham but he said i'll found out the nest day at night. & so abang brought home a RED psp for me. So basically they were out yesterday to get me a psp. & its a RED one. I always wanted that colour. Thanks abg, i so love you. Okay people, don't blame me because i'm too pampered, my abg pampered me since young so what to do... accept je la kan? Haha... So now, abg have one, and Sham have one. Sham so cannot versus Diner Dash with me because he's gonna lose! So wonder what other games can he challenge with me? Hur hur... if i ask Sham what other games, i bet, confirm chop chop he will say this particular game. & its for me to know and for you to find out. Hee... betul kan syg? =)

So kan, besok nak start on brainstorm web, integrated subject web and sequential lesson plan. Haha... macam paham boleh habes besok jer. Will try to do as much as possible though. Will be goind back Kinsland Montessori this Friday and guess where they are going for an excursion. Singapore River la seyy! Haha... this time round the whole school is going. Which includes the playgroup and nursery. Haha... slamat la Cindy with her N1s. I miss my K1s and K2s though! But Friday is the 20th!! Haish, hopefully nothing will stop me from meeting my hero this Saturday. Pls la eh nak dikaterkan dah 9 days tak jumper. Ok besides the fact that he came over my house yesterday after going out with abang. But tak cukup la sey, itu kejap jer. I haven't even have proper hugs and kisses from him. Missing him like so damn much. =(

Before i end today's entry just wanna give a little shout out to that laydee. Sesungguhnyer aku tersangatlah berterima kasih dengan kau Lin kerana sedia membantuku. Thanks babe for always listening and being there for me all this while. Days have been rough, but whatever shits we went through, macam maner kiter kene busted dengan kawan sendiri pun, we know that we have each other to Betul tak? & always know that kiter ini adalah 'orang-orang yang paling cantek dalam dunia'. Baik, baik semua baik, takder yang tak baik! Hahaha... aku sayang kau la Nur Azlina Subari!

So eh dah la, the medicine is taking effect already. Sungguh the drowsy.com. ok then, good night world. =P

Low

I was dumb to be so overly excited to meet him and in the end everything plan just went to waste. I don't know when is the next time i'm going to see him again. Will be busy starting from tommorrow. Thursday & Friday will be busy with assignments, lesson plan and weekend pengantin. After which projects and assignements. Gosh, a few days not seeing him is like years. At times i wonder how he can stand it when i can't. Yus, be strong la com'on. He don't need you as much as you need him you know!!! Urgh!!

I am not at my best today. Was really looking forward to meet him today. I even did something for him. Due to some uncontrolled anger and dissappointment i threw away that masterpiece i made for him. Oh well, i simply can't hold my emotions. Still trying hard to control my feelings. Ish! Ahh whatever, goodbye world.

Long post! BEWARE...

Hey look who's back? Hee... its been like aeons since i last blog. Mcm yeyer jer Yus, padahal baru braper minggu tak blog. Anyways, been so busy lately. Maner nyer yang attachment, saket, assignments dan yang sewaktu dengannyer. So let me just summarise what have been happening so far.

KINSLAND MONTESSORI. It's nice to be there. The teachers were all so friendly. First day was a bit boring and i was so deadly tired that i went home and after maghrib i straight away sleep sampai keesokkan harinya. Dasyat ehh? Hahaha.... but getting used to the curriculum there & i'm taking K2s. They are not bad though, talkative yet interesting. They are so clever. To think that they already know what's adjective, nouns, singular and plural, they are simple superb. Like really, wonderful!! Bijak bijak. Ni la budak-budak sekarang. Susu aper dier minum? Haha... and i'm called Ms Liza there instead of Teacher Yus. Haha... Ms Lee my mentor, she's so young and yet she's the principal. Gosh, motivates me to get the degree and open my own childcare. So interesting isn't it? I still remember once Mr Amran ask me about opening up a childcare centre. He's the boss but i run it. Haha... if he's reading this, Cikgu deal lagi on tak? Saya on! Insya'allah continue degree kalau Cikgu sponsar modal. Hahaha... Well, hardwork though.

And I have a new boyfriend and he's name is Ryusei! (still love the Sham boy more though) He's a japanese boy and he's super cute. When he's shy he'll hide under the table. Haha... how's cute is that? And Miumi, she's another japanese girl, super cute but oh wellthere's a language barrier between the teachers and her. So she's often seen only talking to Ryusei and not any other people. Got Corinna as my supervisor. She is going to assess my lesson and 2 learning centres. Gosh, i'm going to be super duper busy this coming week. With 6 lesson plans & 2 learning centres to be done. With DAC & CIRPE not done. Urgh!! && this kids ah sungguh-the-byk-kerenah.com when they wanna sleep during nap time. Hahaha... mcm mcm ways of sleeping. Ader yang ngigau! Hahaha... gosh i love my job la. I never regret taking Early Childhood Education. It is so my passion! But i'm still in dilemma to apply for NIE after dip or Bacherlor of science in Early Childhood Education with Wheelock College! Cikgu Amran kalau bacer this post tag me. Need your help. Haha... Cikgu Amran has always been such a great help for me when i chose my career path. Once again i think i need his help. With his support i'm sure i'm going to make a wise decision about my future. Ok dah enough, moving on.

HISHAM LOVE. It hadn't been a good month for us. Yet, our hearts remains as one. We face through so much ups and downs together, i hope it will only bring us closer together. No doubt whatever happens, my love for each him grew each passing day. Ahh... i'm so not good with words. Anyways hearts this boy. Lately we went to Sentosa beach. It was fun gaming with our PSP. Haha... for the first time in a game i won. Guess what's the game, DINER DASH! Hahaha... he suck at being a waiter. Takder tokoh langsung! Haha... makan jer tau! So yes he lost and i won! Hahahaha.... overall it was really a nice day. After so long, i had a great time that day. Hope he did too. You know this boyfriend of mine don't really like cameras so we hardly took any pictures. Then today, after a busy week, i decided to join the family to some picnic. & since Sham's off today he joined us. Thanks hun! & today we snap a picture. Hee... see...

Then had late dinner at KFC. My treat for him and the family. Btw, he complained that i always put his picture yang tak lawa. (like the one i put in his friendster, lol!) yang takder rambut la, mata kecik la. So i decided to change the picture in this blog. Haha... to a picture that he like i guess cuz he chose this picture out of so many that i sent to him to be placed in his MSN display picture. He even set the same picture as his PSP wallpaer so i guess that's the best picture for him. Haha... alah syg we always look good together la. No biggie. Hee... *slaps forehead*

MOVIES. Okay no time for movies actually, but since Sham have Ayat-Ayat Cinta DVD and suddenly Chronicles of Narnia DVD was at home, watch it with the boyfriend. Ok i don really like Ayat-ayat cinta. It's kindda lame. Dah kahwin baru sedar dari koma. Kalau tak kahwin tak bangun. & i not a strong believer in polygami. I detest to it so much. I don't agree with sharing my love one with other woman. Sellfish, too bad. That's me. =) But Narnia was awesome. It's a definately interesting movie worth to watch. Just like Sex and the city.

TAGS. Ads & Nish, you're linked. Lin, yelah aku dah update nie. Panjang lebar. Amek kau bacer. Faezah, well year 3 is sucha busy year. Been handling it fine though. Hope you had a wonderful yr 3 ahead la ehh? See ya around soon k? =)

Okay dah la. Panjang dah ni. Penat menaip. Hope to see Sham boy real soon. Miss him already. It's so nice to hear that he still misses me even though i'm like right in front of him. Hearts him loads. Ok dah, good night world!

iwantpeace

watFew days back the beloved brother gave me a treat and we watched Sex & the city.
A super nice movie that you SHOULD watch.
I give it 9.5 out of 10!
Haha... almost perfect seh tuu.
Oh and did i mention anything about the brother buying me a GUESS bag and PSP?
& so he did. Haha...
I love him la, but i hate the part of him where he just have to toot toot toot...
Cannot say it here, macam kene censored gitu. LOL!

& that Thursday, after a whole day of mugging, the beloved bro fetch me and Lin from NLB, Bugis.
Went for supper and then a late supper again.
Haha... went to have mee goreng la seyy like finally.
But tak sedap. :(
After some jln2 and beli barang yang tertentu di MUSTAFA CENTRE, we headed to Swensen.
& yes that was around 12 plus.
Headed to town for Swensen and i had my waffle ice-cream!
It was like MAVELLOUS la!
But i still prefer the Jurong East Entertainment waffle ice-cream.
I am so going to have it with Sham soon.

& this is so the last week i'm going to stay out late.
Practicum started this Monday.
@ Kinsland Childcare Centre.
Not looking forward for it though.
I really hope to be attached to Carpe Diem actually but too bad.
Just hope this centre will be ok.
So no motivation. *rolls eyes*

&& DAC & CIRPE assignments is progressing.
Not bad. Will be meeting Lin in a few hours time for some mugging AGAIN!
Like URGH!!!

Dah la.. penat buatkan inai pengantin tadi.
Bye world.

It was so cute to see my boo boo syg getting all scared
looking at his granny's blood flowing from the drip.
Haha, he's super cute!
He just can't stand blood.
Get well soon nyai dearest. :(

Missing you Sham syg! :(

May's Bad

My May hasn't been good at all.
It's not a good month for fun, freedom and love.
But i still thank a few lives that have been cheering up my days.

No doubt live hasn't been good at all.
But i'm still moving on with life every single day.
Hoping that things will get better each day.

I'm sorry to those whom i hadn't spent time with.
Friends, esp my CE love and cousins or whoever.
& I thank you for your understanding.

A dear friend of mine have lost her love one.
I'm sure she's not at her best now.
But just so you read this girl, know that i'll always be there for you dear.
Be strong and have faith in HIM.
Insya'allah HE will help you pull through this difficult days.

Okay he's so not my bf.
Some friend of my mum thought he's my tunang.
But NO, he's my greatest brother who will always support me in whatever I do.
He's always there when i need him.
He's the one who's supporting my education, expenses & everything.
I don't know what's life w/o him.
Thanks bro for everything.
& he bought me a Lacoste shoe.
I so love it, thanks again abg.
I so love you.

& so YES, this is my bf.
My beloved Hisham Boy!
Okay let me confess something here,
my boo looks so smart with that shirt i bought for him.
& his killer & ever so charming smile,
Gosh, my bf is indeed HOT!!! Hee...
Yus always have this fetish for smart and segak boy! Haha!
Ok, stop it Yus!
& Syg, if you're reading this, thank me for the compliment, quick! lol!

No doubt the tears dried on its own.
No doubt so many shits happen.
No doubt i was sad.
But no matterwhat, my love for you have never change.
Ok i lied because i love you like loads & tonnes more each passing day.
It is always adding and never subtracting.

"seeing you smile, seeing you happy with me makes my day"- syg

If by smiling i'll make him happy, I promise,
i will always try to keep on smiling from now on, come what may.
When he said this on our 15th,
I realise that the little things I do can actually make someone happy.
& i'm not going to give up on you syg, NEVER!
I will still be holding on to you, to our love, because you're my only hope.
Sham Syg, ily! I really do!

Whatever happens, i hope our hearts will still remain as one.
One love & one us!
& he promise to be a good hubby, what else should i ask for from him right? =)

Sham always says that there's no need to say 'I love you ' to me in private because he wants everyone to listen to him saying that he love me.
But i insist that i want the WHOLE WORLD to know i love him.
Just 'everyone' is not enough. Haha!

SO WORLD
YUSLIZA IS SOOOOOOOO IN LOVE WITH HISHAM!!!!!!!!!

Okay bye world.

looking so good.

It's never gonna be the same again.
Happy 15th Love.

Almost Here

But when I need you
You're almost here

And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
Cause your only almost here

When is this going to end?
I'm not as strong as you to face all these.
I'm sorry i'm just too weak to go through these.

There's no more tears for me to cry anymore.

I'm drained out of energy to play pretend.
It's so painful, it's just so hurting.
Just when will these end.
I beg you!
Please end these!

lonely

The pictures are her accompanyment.
The messages are her strength.
The feelings so deep is her hope.

lost.

I envy but i'm too empty to react.

Yes, No, Maybe?

U N D E R S T A N D

Do we even 'understand' what's the real and true meaning behind this word.
I wonder why we used this word so often,
but truth is, there's more to just the meaning of this huge word than just understanding it.

Am currently stuck with summary assignment for chapter 3.
Taking a break for a while and so here i am blogging.
You know what makes me to have the motivation to go school every wednesday?
Although it's just 2 hours of tutorial.
It has to be my lovely 2B01 lunch outing. Haha!
First place was cupphage to al-azhar to mad jack.
& not so sure where are we going tommorrow.
Seow Wei just sent me pictures, so here are the ladies who brighten up my Wednesdays!

Seow Wei & Me. Thanks for the pictures dearie.

That's Nadie, Seow Wei & Bridget Kang! ;P

Me, Shu Ling, Nadie, Linnie.

Qing Ling, the camera's owner & constance.

Me, Cindy, Bi Zhen, Azlina (sengajer spell full name! lol.) Shu Ling & Ah Kang!

Chan Li Yu & Me @ Island Creamery.

Linnie lin lin & Me posing with ice-cream.

& yours truly, courtesy of Seow Wei to lend her cap for me to pose!

The only person who went but not in picture, Khai khai! Hur hur!
After which we all headed for projects, assignments and anything & whatever!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hectic days yet smilling.
Because by smilling we'll go through all obstacles with so much ease.
Get well soon to dearest uncle who is admitted in the hospital.
A loving man & a man of few words.

Speedy recovery to him.
Insya'allah.

&& my spectacles broke into pieces just now in the school's toilet.
It drop and 3 books hit on top of it.
How NICE!!
Urgh!!

6 more days till the boyfriend's back.
Can't wait for Sunday to come.
I soo miss that boo of mine.
He called just now and got cut halfway.
How irritating.
Miss him to bits.

2 assignments (summary) down & more lesson plans to go!
Grrr......
Oh yes...

To hidayah: Miss miss you too babe! Yesh yesh will hang out real soon yea? Nanti Man bawak Calamari matair dier. OK? Haha!!

To faezah: Haha... thks so much. Destress teros when i see you nanti. Bagus ah, ur like a stress reliever. Next time can introduce to people, Faezah the stress reliever. Buy 1 get 1 free. Got commission or not if i do that? Hahaha!! j/k!! You take care ya? =)

To -fiddy-: Heyloo dearie, thanks for dropping by ya? You take care too yea? *hugs*

Goodbye World!

In need of Sham Love!

Nothing much to say after doing this endless summary.
I'm so dead tired & exhausted!

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I MISS MY HISHAM BOY!!!!

I was doing my assignments with Lin when the Windows Media Player randomly played songs.
&& it played Only Hope sung by non other than Mandy Moore.
The same song when he confess his love for me.
When he went down on his knees to express his love for me
When he took my hand and put on a ring on my finger.
& said i'm his Only Hope!!

AHHHH!!!!!!!!!
How i miss that boy!! =(

Frustrating warm day it is.

It's sucha warm warm warm day.
It's so hot here, i wonder what's the weather like in Thailand now.
Hope the boyfriend is doing ok there.
With the killing weather. Gees...
Missing him like crazy.
& the assignments are not helping at all.
Summaries, summaries & more summaries.
So dead tired.
Labour day is so not a public holiday but "an adding on to assignment' day.
Got a new assignment today to make up for Labour Day holiday.
ARGHH!!!!!!!!!!
All the best Yus!

Warmth.

It is sucha warm day today.
It was a super hot day that after lunch,
Lin, Khai, Nad & Me bought a tub of ice-cream & ate it at Khai's place.
After which we rushed back to school to have DAC with Corina.
This hot weather just makes me restless that i can't stop disturbing Lin in class.
Ouh wells!

After a long long long time, i am suppose to write a Summary again.
The last time i did a summary was during O level English Paper 2 man.
Now that's my assignment now.
Reading a freaking long article and chapters and then 3 summaries in all.
I realised now why Ms Dalina always emphasize on our summary writting.
How important is it for us.
I've always hated English and so i sucked at writting.

I'm so in need of Ms Dalina now.
Or maybe Mrs Wong Guan Khor.
How i wish they were reading this! Grrr....
I so need to go back Hua Yi for an hour of English remedial.
Else i'll just flunk this assignment of mine!
Urgh, i hate english writting or whatever crap this assignment can relate to!
URGH!!!

These days.

It's going to be the end of weekends.
It's not that i don't like it.
As much as i really hope that the day will pass quickly & that 11th May will come fast,
because that's when Sham will be back.
I don't want the days to pass quickly.
Contradicting?
Okay mainly because there's assignment due on the 2nd, 5th & 9th May.
& till now i haven't start anything, not even the readings.
How interesting is that.
Ok let's just pass on this for awhile.

Basically last Thursday, i was suppose to send papa for his check up at SGH.
Unfortunately, the eyes was giving me a hard time that day.
I went to school with the most selekehness, anyone can i ever imagine Yus can be.
With the swollen & red eye, i took the bus with everyne staring at me.
Yes, the tembel strikes back.
&& NO eh i never mengintai orang tengah bogel or anything!
Gees!!
I woke up having difficulty opening my eyes & it was super duper painful & itchy!
I decided not to wait for 2 weeks like last time to see Dr Khairul & got operated,
so i went to clinic that day itself .
Dr Khairul was so proud of me because i went to see him immediately & not wait like the last time.

No operation or anything this time like THANK GOD!!!
I hate that operation, i am so super serik that i swear i never want an operation ever.
It was so painful and i swear i cried like a baby when Dr Khairul was doing the op for me.
Yikes, don't wanna talk about it. Such a trauma!

Was really looking forward to shop with Lin & meet up with Man, Dayah & bro on Friday.
So i never skipped the medicine and the cream for my eyes so that it would be A-OK by Friday.
Since the eye was getting better & i promised them to be there on Friday,
So yes, went shopping with Lin, Khai & Li Yu after school first,
Got some tops for bf & myself.
After getting all tired with the shooping craze, went to al-majlis.
While we waited for Dayah & Man, Lin & Me get super bored.
So here goes nothing...

Then, we decided to snap each other's picture using our handphones.
That's my shiok sendiri pictures. Lin's pictures are in her phone.
So too bad i can't post it here. LOL!

Went to have late dinner with Lin, Man, Dayah & Bro at Simpang Bedok.
& the best part was Lin slept over my house.
Haha... thanks to her parents for allowing her to stay over my house.
So i'm not alone that night. LOL!
In all last Friday was superb!
Dayah was crazy as ever, ader ker dier cakap matair si Man namernyer calamari?
This was the conversation:

Me: Kau ni Man, dari kerje bukan nak bawak Calamari datang sini.
Man: Tak cakap maner aku tahu.
Dayah: Huh? Kau tak bawak matair kau? Namer matair kau Calamari?
Lin: Mampos, dayah!! LOL!!!!!

Hahaha! A lot of laughter, singing, screaming and surprises that day.
Especially in the car when Lin shouted a name!
Haha... you know i know la yer Dayah & Lin!
We went to drive around a place which really shows me the reality of life. Gees!

& after food, everyone was so dead while i was too hyper.
Noone actually layan me after food.
Like what the hell.
Abg and Man nak kencing.
Lin nak muntah!!
After the toilet session at caltex after sending dayah home, everyone was back to normal.
Man was like drifting all the way while driving.
The song was "Fast & furious, drift drift drift."
His was "Tokyo Tokyo!!!"
Mampos!!! Joker sak ini mamat!
My stomach can explode anytime due to excessive laughter. Haha!
Thanks people for the wonderful night!
After this no more hanging out for the time being,
because i got no choice but not to be lazy anymore and start with the piling assignments.
I'm sure Lin will go, HAIZ!!!!! MALAS LA SAK!!!!!!!!! Haha!

&& boyfriend have been calling me everyday.
At least lepas sikit rindu dapat dengar suara my Hisham. Hehe!
Unlike Taiwan last time, he can only call me like once in 3 weeks.
Rindu banget dehh sama ini syg sorang. Grr...
He come back first thing nak gigit dier ah! Geram ah! Hahahahaha!!
& i can't wait to watch Made of Honour when he's back.

Okay, eyes is giving me a really really hard time now.
Itchy la, pain la. Wanna do readings also no mood.
How to start assignment?!
For now, i just feel like screaming...
Don't mind ehh...
NAK SHAM NAK SHAM NAK SHAM NAK SHAM,
NAK SHAM JUGAK!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(