Breaking Down!

I was happy a few hours ago, truely happy.
I felt i was on cloud nine.

That was the sweetest thing ever.
Then it struck me to say or rather to tell.

The outcome was upsetting and dissappointing.
I felt terrible, i broke down.
I lost even before i have.

I don't want it this way, seriously!

Then again, i thought.
It was never meant to be harsh or horrible.
Its just a matter of time.

I HATE this.
I LOVE it.
Maybe someone is right.
having whatever, whoever i want is imppossible.

I don't wanna care anymore.
I'm already breaking down!