I'll be just fine!

Results had always been atrocious! Sux man! Was indeed shocked to even get third for english! Amazing to beat some other clever people in 5N3. Haiya... nonsense la! Its like when i studied like mad, an example, mid year. I did so badly for like all paper. Now that i don really study much for prelims i get all that. Isn't that crappy enough?! Gosh... Whatever. But i was kind of dissappointed with my biology marks. I studied so hard for it but i still can't make it. I even went studying with Shariffah and we really do studied like crazy people. But ouh well just look at the marks. Whatever man... so sick of it! Arggh!! But i was proud of my History, not only cuz i top the class but i think my hard work in it really paid off. I spent a lot of time for history. Studied like mad and have to see ms lui everyday after school. Thanks Ms Lui for all your help and spending your busy time to sit down and teach me the chapters taht i totally have no idea at. Your the best teacher man!!

Well, all this does not matter actually. Because all these marks are not even counted for O level. The most is important thing is if i can still improve and get good grades for the real upcoming Os! Haish... its so tough man. I doubt i can even make it to ITE. Mr. Amran talked to me just now and he said something that i really felt like crying. He said that if he will be the first person to be dissapointed if i cannot get into a poly because he believe that my place is not in ITE but a higher institutes. Oh my god, i was so touched that he actually have faith in me and also i fear that i would really dissappoint him. Whta if i do dissappoint the people around me. My parents, bro and Mr. Amran! Ahhh... how can i face them?... I am so scared!!! There's a lot of " What ifs"!! Haish... oh GOD pleaseeee help me!!!

Ouh well no use dwelling over it. All i can do now is really put my butts down an start studying. Nothing else to do and there's no time to lose! It s like only 40 days to O level YUS! Wake up!!! alright people i'm off. Not in a mood to blog more...