Last of illusion...

Hectic day indeed. Early in the morning had tuition and it was soooo frustrating that he did not do the worksheet i gave him that day. He is so weak yet he's not doing anything. Not knowing that angle in a straight line is 180 degrees is really suicidal for someone to take 'N' level. God! Anyways, i'm nobody to say anything. Ouh well! Just hope he'll do well for his N!! Alright to after tuition off for henna appointment with my cousin. My brother was so sweet to send me there knowing that i'll go alone. And guess what! He just bought a new bike. I remembered what was the name just though CARI... Something something. Can't remember! Hahahaz... its RED! And nice!! The sound was great. It feels more comfortable then the current bike he have. It have been a long time since i rode on a bike. It feels sooo good! Or rather GREAT!! I wished i could wear the 'LRS' helmet. The design is soooo bloody nice. The combination colour of red and yellow is sooo nice when the helmet itself is black. I likE!! I feel like sitting on a bike again. Enjoying the air. Hahaz... at night will be better. But i don wanna hug my brother. Yikes! But i have to because quite scary la he ride the bike. So laju and like i can go fly man! Hahahaz... and my mama will be like "Bawak baik baik. Abang bawak org sekeping jugak ni!" Its like hellooo... i'm fat okay! I wouldn't fly off that easily. Maybe just the helmet because my head was too small for it. And the helmet is sortta big!

So as soon as i reached my cousin place. I start doing my job. For hours wearing henna for people was really torturing for my hand! Hahahaz... but i enjoy it! Hahaz... sorry Mi that you have to wait for me when you messaged me. Was really busy. But enjoy tallking with you on the phone just now watching the last episode of Baby Blues!! Hahaz... so many babies man! I likE! Hahaz... i so love Shanhu! She is sooo pretty! And Harada is sooo romantic to give jingsaw puzzle to that girl. Forget her name laa. Whatever her name is. And he the way he said will you marry me. AHHHHHH!!!!!!! Hahahaz... Azmi i heard you say that but ouh well... not yet the right time! Hahahahahahaz.... at least i don't go run like that girl just to wear the gown!! Hahahaz... NUTS!

I want more famous amos lei! Bro bought just now then finish already. *sob sob* Was talking with mama just now when she suddenly talk about me finding a good boyfriend! And i try to change the topic but then she start it all. Haiz... so the least i would do is listen and say "Yeah... ok!" She said stuff like Find someone that is sincere about you. If he don't wanna show you to his parents means he have something that he keep from you. And if he don't want to send your house door he's definately don't want to face your parents and is not serious about you. Find someone who knows about religion not a lot a bit also can. Someone who have a stable job. FInd someone who confirm no wife or girlfriend. And lots more. If i list down not enough! Hahahaz... well what my mum say are all true. Sometimes i feel that finding your someone for you to be with, sharing your happiness and sorrow are really not easy. You have to really find the right one. One thing that i will never forget. My mum always say that Men are very good at words. Don't be influenced by thier sweet words. Hahahaz... maybe that's why i'm this stubborn. Just not convince. Ouh well!! Hahahaz... i think its true though. Sometimes thier words are just to make you impressed. And when you are already impressed everything will be a different story.

Haiz... whatever man. Maybe all this is not for me now. So i'll just wait for someone who is like what my mum say. All those sincerity and all. I don't even think love exist so why must all these guys even exist right. Ouh well. Maybe time will prove me wrong or maybe not. Ouh well. I just love saying that. Ouh well! Hahahaz... especially from my daily live! I think love is really not there. They just don't exist. Look at everyone who used to say the 'love' me. Look how crappy it can be. They say the meant it but after a while when i say i don't like them they will have a new someone to say that too. Hahahaz... Yah people do move on. But i wonder if its that easy to really forget someone to like another person. That exactly make me confuse how does this love shit happens. Hahahaz...

So much about love... moving on. Its like already 10 minutes to 1am and i am still awake. Hahaz.. i don't know why i can't sleep well these few days. And last night i think i slept at around 3. I can't bloody sleep. Just what happened to me i don't know. Ouh well! There i go again. Ouh well! Hahaz... i'm obsessed with this mala song but i don't know what is the title because its sort of an old song. Hahaz.. legend. So i'm off to search the title of the song in yahoo to ask husain ('my best cousin'...heh heh!!) to download. Husain you are sooo nice. Ouh yah Aaron also!! Hahahaz...