Awesome Saturday!

Lappie is well again. thanks to Lin's brother for the great help. Actually I'm really tired to blog but today was just an awesome day. So I'm gonna blog everything that had happened lately quickly and off to meet my lover boy at lalaland. Hee... Ok great things happened to me for that past few days. Here it goes...

2nd October, my man turned twenty-three! Happy Belated Birthday dearest. I get to wish him on the phone only. HIs present is still with me. =( How I miss him!

4th October I turned twenty-one. Early in the morning I the sweetest delivery from love. And guess what I get for my birthday. My first twenty-first present. Taa daa...

His love note for me... hee...

It's definitely the best birthday present ever. Thanks syg! It's really lovely but I felt so guilty that you have to spend such a bomb for this. There's an engraving at the back of my dear iPod which says "For my Dearest on her 21st. With Love- Sham". Sweet la sehh! Adoi!! I miss my syg so bloody much la. Nak sham! =( Thanks once again hun!

Nothing much to celebrate about because I'm just getting older each passing year. & I gotta admit being an adult ain't that easy. So basically the close ones did not wish me on that day. So yeah, I thought every one's busy. Sham too is not able to come call me due to unavailability of reception but his present is enough to make me smile so wide on my birthday. It will be better if he's in the delivery. Ok, I wish!!

So 5th October seems like a normal day for me. Go to work as per normal but receive a bad news from Sham. He's not able to meet me though he's in Singapore that day as he had to sail to Bangla straight away. Bangla means far, means he's gonna come back only after 15 to 18 days. Like WTF!!!! Urgh!!! I felt so terrible that I cried while talking to him on the phone when children were asleep. I swear I felt extremely terrible and weak. All I need was him. I even cried in the bus on my way back home that day.

Until I reached home and opened my room door. I received a really pleasant surprise. I swear it was the best birthday surprise ever. There stood Lin, Sharifah, Reshmel and Dayah in my room. How can I not be shock! Haha... It's really sweet guys. Thanks so much. I'm really touched. Thanks to Lin who have planned and pakat with my family since like 2 weeks ago. & it was aban's idea that noone wish me as yet. Like, wth. Hahaha... here's some pictures of the awesome birthday surprise.

The transformation they made to my room. 21 heart shape balloons on my bed. =)
So I slept with so many balloons this few days. Feeling2 macam princess. LOL!

Truffle cake thanks to abang. & muker tgh sememek after crying. Lol!

Thank you so much adek Ina and the mum for the presents.

& then comes 10th October. As planned earlier, Lin & Me need to do some retail therapy. I can't remember when was the last time I did any shopping. Was suppose to go to Eda's twenty-first birthday party but was not able to because its far and the parents don't want me to go back home alone late at night. So yeah. I bought jeans, bag, iPod cover and screen protacter, purse and yes we took neoprints! Haha... awesome day today. Thanks Lin! I really enjoyed myself. & today we both have curls ya'all.

&&&, loverboy message. Get to hear his voice yesterday too. Maka terubat la sikit rinduku padanya. Sikit jer ehh, tak cukup langsung! =( *sobx* & the fact is Yus & Sham is sick, LOVE SICK! =(

"I don't know about remedy but I know what I'll keep doing. I'll keep on living day by day hoping and wishing I'll be back with you. For now, I'm gonna sleep yet another day without you away. So it will bring me closer to beautiful you. We say goodbye to today and we'll say hello to another day closer to us."- Sham

I tear so bad as I read that message of his. Haish, Yus nak Sham so badly, pleeeeeeeeease! Who even understand us. =( So sesungguhnyer Yus sungguh ngantuk.com! This whole week was just about work then tuition due to PSLE and final year exams. There's tuition still tomorrow. Yes, even on a Sunday! Sungguh tak cukup tdo! Grr... da la! Nak gi bobok and meet him at lalaland. Toodles world!

Worried

Responsibilities arise as your age increase each year.
I guess I'm feeling the tense now.
First day of work today was great except for the call I received while I'm teaching.

Haish... I guess money is never enough in this world.

Back working at Kinsland Educare.
Just that this time round, I'm not a student teacher but a permanent teacher till next year.
Taking over the old class, K1 and K2.
Was talking about how cute Guo You was with Lin the other day.
How I miss him... was so glad to see him again today. =)

The only thing that makes me smile or laugh today were the children.
The children are having Mid-Autumn lantern celebration concert tomorrow.
So first day was a hectic one, yet looking at their performance makes the teachers smile from ear to ear.

I'm glad that at least the children are there to cheer me up at stressful times.
I didn't even have the appetite to have anything the whole day.
Kalau gemuk pun naseb... haish...

Ok this is random, but I guess I'm just letting this off my chest here.
Well, I'm just disappointed by your reluctance.
I should have known, it's just another day.
I should have known I'm not as important after all.
No matter what thanks for everything, I still love you the same.

Ok, this got nothing to do with my Sham love.
Sham have been there for me though he's always far away.
Can never thank him enough for all the help he'd given me.

Thanks my love.
Thanks everyone.

Splendid Tuesday!

Yes, today is The Three Musketeers day out.
Haha... so that's how I spent my first day of holidays.
Then Resh suggested for a neoprint session.
As usual our dearest Shariffah will not like that idea but too bad she have no choice.
We drag her and force her to pose.
Muahaha... Love the day... Love my girls...

My scanner is such a pain.
I don't understand why its not working.
So that explains the bad quality of the pictures displayed above.
Can't wait for the next meet up for more catching up session.
Love you ladies...

Getting there...

After such a long time again, I'm updating. A lot happened since the last time I updated. After exactly a month I lost dearest uncle, beloved grandma left me too. It was just too shocking and abrupt. I felt so lost when nenek left us just like that. What more it was 2 days before raya. No wonder there wasn't much mood for raya this year. Adek lagi tak puas bermanje dengan nenek... =(

Each time I pass Nenek's room, I'll imagine she's sitting there watching tv or reading the Qur'an. Haish... No more company to watch tv 2 every Monday night, P.Ramlie show. No more reminders to eat medicine everyday at 8pm. No one else to say I'm beautiful each time I wear something new. Oh God, I so miss my cute nenek. Adek doakan akan ketenangan nenek disana. Semoga roh nenek dicucuri rahmat. Al-Fateha.

& then a week after nenek left us, my other uncle from the maternal side who had been suffering from cancer since 2 years ago passed away too. He had always been the nice uncle who never fail to make me laugh whenever we see each other during Hari Raya. This raya seems so quiet.

Tears never stop rolling from my cheecks each time I hear the Takbir. Sungguh sayu dan menyedihkan. Reminiscing the beautiful past with the love ones makes me weak and broke down to buckets of tears. This Ramadhan and Syawal is really a sad sad one for my family and I. Thanks to peers like Lin, Sydi, Man, Khai, Shazz and some others who were really concern about me and not forgetting the cousin, kak Liza for always being there for my family.

Sham came back only for a few hours a week after raya. Am so so glad to see him after so long, but it was really really a short time spent together and of course I can never get enough of him. =( Gosh, makes me miss him even more now that I'm talking about him. But he promise that the next one will be just me and him since its our birthday. That sound really really good tau syg! Haish... after which he might be sailing to Bangladesh again. Urgh! Which means not seeing him for like more than a month or so. Haish... I don't know what's going to happen of me for that period of time missing and not seeing him. I'm not as strong as you expect me to be. I don't know how to face this. Oh God, please give me strength.

God knows how I really want Sham to be with me when Nenek left. I was at my lowest yet I'm still alone. I hate to say this but I really hate his job and people, think twice please if you are considering Marine Engineering. At least spare a thought for your girlfriend. =( Sham said the sweetest thing when we met the other day. I'm really flattered. You are getting so so HOT each passing day too hun. Ahhh... I miss that guy! I'll stop here else, I'll turn crazy. Really! Because I'm just too crazily in love with him and only him.

After all that happen I can't be bothered as much for raya. But ok tak baik kan, so yes I sambut raya ala kadar aje. Felt seriously exhausted. Had tahlil for 3 days straight and the 7th day. The plan to do something to my hair to the salon and all ceased and this is what I did to my hair myself when I went out for raya visiting on the 6th & 7th day of raya. I guess, my straight hair still looks fine and I don't need to do anything to it as yet. As long as it looks presentable, ok la...

Today is not a good day either. Unlucky day I must say. =( The most unluckiest thing that happened was, I accidentally deleted the whole lot of hindi songs in my external hard disk as I was transfering stuff from my laptop to the hard disk. Like WTF??!! There goes like Shariffah's, Shazzman's, Luqman's and maybe some others effort in helping me to download hindi songs since the past 4-5 years. I just feel like hitting my head really hard for this. Urgh!! A.N.N.O.Y.E.D!!!!!!

Will not be updating any sooner either as lappie will be sent to Lin's brother for further treatment. Something is really wrong with lappie. Really hope that no reformating is required. Last day of semester 1 today and holidays starts from tommorrow. But I don't think its much of a holiday since I haven't start anything for my Teacher Portfolio for Juliana's module, Development of a Teacher Portfolio which is due next year. I keep telling myself that I should start like really soon. This is not some kind of assignment that can be done last minute. Maybe first step will be just collecting relevant artifacts for 10 principles. Haish... penat laa...

confusion

I can only envy girls with that kindda hair.
It's not like I can't have it, but I just don't look good with it because my hair's thin.
I even think I'm balding! Gee, goodness!

I know its not good to not look forward for raya.
But oh well, a lot of things happened lately that I don't really have the mood for raya.
But gees gees, I am still happy raya datang lagi!
But ramadhan's gonna leave soon. =(

As much as I am not so into raya this year, I still wanna look presentable.
& the condition of my hair now is so not helping.
I don't wanna rebond, neither do I wanna go to the salon to curl.
Natural hair too may not be a good idea as for now.
Ahhh..... how how?
Should I just get the hair curler and start curling it myself? (though I don't really know how it works)
Straigth hair with hair straightener? (like usual!) :
Haish...

On a brighter note, Sham love message me this morning to say he misses me.
*smiles*

Huge Updates

Phew, it seems like dinosaur years since I last blog. Haha... ok that is so exaggerated. As usual, busy busy me. Haish, feel so lethargic and exhausted. However, interesting things do happen along the way. Haha... so decided to blog today since the important assignments for this week are all done. So here goes the highlights of the few weeks back.

First and foremost, 28th August 2009. Lin's birthday la sehh!! Haha... The day started off with me sabo-ing Lin. I proudly asked Kak Fiza O to sabo Lin in 'Birthday RadiO'. We were suppose to have Environmental Impact meeting on that day but it was cancel. So while she was sleeping, jeng jeng jeng. Kak Fiza call. Maka seluruh Singapura telah mendengar suara Lin yang basi itu. Haha... anyone heard her on air? Haha... we were so freaking excited la. It was definitely a good start of the day for Lin. First surprise accomplish. After which we carried on with our plan that is to break fast together. And so I'll let the picture do the talking...

Told her that I have no present for her... so gave her a small birthday card only first during dinner. Hee... After dinner, second surprise. Khai!! She meet us after dinner straight. & definitely Lin was shock and H.A.P.P.Y!! It's been so long since the three musketeers meet each other. Haha... the gossiping and catching up session was super duper nice!! Then here I gave her a third surprise. My birthday present for her. Hahaha... & the picture talks again...

So plan's a great success. Surprises went on plan and that Friday was a blast!! Btw, Abg Fir join us too. Went Shee-shaing at Al-majlis. & of course its been dinosaur years too since we hang out there. Seriously, a looooong time since we've been there. Hahaha... & then on Thursday, 3rd September, the three musketeers plus Abg Fir had iftar at my place. Big feast la sehh. Aper tak, my beloved mama cooked so many nice foods!! Nasi ayam, mee soto and I can't remember what else. But i know everyone was so full and bloated. Sampaikan Abg Fir tdo la sehh lepas makan. Hahaha... Aiyo... I had tuition while they watch some movie with my parents. & after tuition guess what we do?... Jeng jeng jeng...

Bunga api!! Deprive of the childhood years. Wahahaha!!! Best la sehh... kan lin, kan kan kan? Kan Khai, kan kan kan? Don play play!! We only can play!! Woo hooo.... ohh... we went to Sungei Buloh too last last last week. Can't be bothered to recall what day and date it was. Haha... dah malam brain not functioning well. So there, some of the pictures who wants to talk... haha...

Oh that's Preety my professor for Environmental Impact module. She's responsible for this trip. & joining us were David & Susan Fedo. Wheelock College Director. I swear I was interrupting thier conversation when I asked for permission to snap that picture. Haha... & then we went to Jacob Ballas children's garden at Botanical Garden. Again for Environmental Impact module. It's my second visit there and both my visit there was like raining cats and dogs. The first was with my Boon Lay Garden Primary fours. Here's some displayable pictures. The other pictures if i were to display it, I'll either get killed by Lin or she'll throw away my busuk when she comes my houseto do project on Saturday. Hahaha....

Ok ni anti-climax macam paham nyer gambar. Model maner je sesat!! But nice kan effect?! Hahaa... I exaggerate lagi eh, this is at Jocob Ballas Children's Garden. Naseb nak masok kene ader budak if I'll have my wedding outdoor shoot here. Hahaha....

Haha... and then 6th September, Sunday was papa and mama's 29th anniversary. Not forgetting Abg's 28th birthday too. Was suppose to do child portfolio with Lin. But last last child portfolio buat kiter. Sunday la sehh!! Weekends tau do assignments. Sucha dread! Cannot la, it's too beautiful a day to stress ourself with assignments as yet. So we are going to mug this saturday!! Hur hur...

We went Geylang after dinner to take my baju raye. && I'm excited to say... this loverboy came back last Saturday, on the 5th! It was really a wonderful night spent with him. Though it was just a few hours again, I definitely enjoyed myself. With syg with me, what else can I ask for. Thanks Allah for sending him back to again. Though it was a short while. Went sahur with syg's and my brother. Syg treat to Mcdonald. I ate so much. Nugget and McWings. Ish!! Aper tak gemok Yus!! Had a splendid time talking and talking away. & it was so nice to see my loverboy planning for the future. Seeing him like that makes me wanna marry him tomorrow can?!! Hee... gatal kan Yus?! But anyways, that date spent with syg was really awesome. If I could turn back time, I want 5th September again. Now I'm missing him all over again. =( He kept saying he can't wait for January. His leave. Yes, yang, I can't wait for it too. I nak my sham. *sob* Will wait for your return patietly again hun. Meanwhile take care of yourself hun hun! Cyg awak.

Ok enough the mushyness. Makes me miss him even more. Lately, I've been watching so much Upin & Ipin. Hahaha... Malam2 dah penat pun tengok Upin & Ipin dengan Lin! Haha... with such good company to watch an interesting show, I'm not even bothered to sleep. Haha... was sharing it with Sham when he say:

Sham: Ader anak twin cute.
Me: Uh uh, I nak anak twin macam Upin dan Ipin.
Sham: Ish tak nak la. I tak nak anak I botak. Abeh ader rambut satu je ternaik. Buruk ah!

Hahaha... cute per boyfriend aku ni. Hee... Oh no, macam nak Sham jer nie. Dah ah tak nak talk about him. I'm sooooooo missing him. Kesian Lin nanti kene dengar whining aku. Hahahah... Ok so dah la. This entry is long enough. Don't mind the spelling mistakes. I can't be bothered to check for spelling errors already. Da penat. But I like. This entry brings to me a lot of wonderful memories with my love ones. Ok besok lecture pagi. Nak tdo ah, nak mimpi Sham! Ya huuu!!!