I'm Frustrated!

I'm really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really FRUSTRATED!!! Firstly, when i wake up early in the morning just now i have a very bad sore throat!! Like WTF!!! I have to teach tuition today for 2 boys and i'm having a sore throat. Just Great!! Simply great!! Ass!!

Next my laptop is one big problem. So much for buying in school. Then cork up. I can't download DLL because the software doesn't support it. Like WTH! Then what's the use of owning a laptop if i can't do anything for my module. Great!! Now i have to share whenever its STB practical. Argghh... the speaker was ok already then now the software. Bloody shit ah....seriously...!! Its drving me nuts! Wednesday is such a drag cum dread!! I hate Wednesday!!! Suddnenly miss my boys like, AARON CHAN JUN HON, NICHOLAS TAN KAI SHENG, STEPHEN KWEK XIU WEN, LOKE YNG MING, MUHD FARHAN and more!! I miss thier nonsense and crap!!! Just wish they were here now outside this practical room to make me laugh!! Its so boring. I'm beginning to really miss my seconday school days. BADLY!!! Haiz...

Replies:

Dear Malix: Hahaz... nak ah... i rather partner someone i know rather than a stranger man. I don't really like the feeling of a stranger touching me. Hahaz... suker ehh break record orang. Dush dush!!

Dear pam: Hahaz... yah indeed you are smart. I not smart so i don need study. Wahahahahaz.... oh you wanna watch? But i WATCH already!!! Lalalalalalalaz.... *whistling* =) Miss you too my pammie. Wow... i'm missed!! Who else miss me raise up your hand. Hahahaz....

Dear gab: My illness? Shh... i where got illness. I so fit. Dush dush!! See!! Wow wou miss me. I miss you more!! Twees!!

Ok before i go i just wanna say this, a package of SORE THROAT and having a COLD SUX TO THE CORE!!!!

the end!

Okay i love that picture. Bridget love it more but still bridge i love the one below more!! Wahaha!!


And then Monday was a drag but CD 1.2 was cancelled. So yippie!! But it was sad for Mrs Ching la. Condolosence for her death of her father. So it wasn't all a good ting afterall because we'll surely have make up lesson. So no big deal actually. And we were bored during Belinda's Lecture 15 minutes break so we snap snap again and in conclusion i love this picture so much. The contrast not that good because the room itself is dark. But ok la not bad!! Its like there is a divider separating us man. LOL!!

Then that day went Al-Azhar for lunch and then snap snap again and i like this one the most. Lin also love this one sooo much. Right girl? So see the nest Miss World and Miss Universe!! Wahaha... prasan!!!

Hahaz... as usual dancesports was fun. Today was different. I had a dance partner. Awal. That is Indra's friend. He was good for a new dancer actually. Good dancing partner i have to admit. just more practise i think he's ok. But nah i think he's not that interested in dance so i guess he's not staying for long. =(

I wanna watch X-MEN so badly. Waiting for best friend treat!! Heh heh. I realised that i've been watching 2 cartoon movies with someone whom i thought he's sacry and serious throughout my 4 years in Hua Yi! Cartoon man!! Wth!! Hahaz... with Malik!! Gees... so how can he be that serious right. 4 years never talk and all. Gees... Malik you should be less action la for that past 4 years!! Wahahahaha!! Oops i've said that and he said he's making it up now by breaking my record to be on the phone till 4 am in the morning. Wahahaz... toot you!! Whatever it is i sooooo wanna watch X-MEN!!!! Ahhh!!!!! But got so many test and assignments to finish up la. Grrr!!

Okay thinking of assignments just bring my mood to zer0!!! So i'm off. Bye!!

Over The Hedge!!!!!

It rocks!! Simply awesome. It was a wonderful movie. Over the hedge is a movie which you guys should watch!! Some funny shit!! Hahahaz... goodness i laugh so much man! It sure is better then The Wild. Hahaz... But i still like The Wild though especially the part where the Koala goes, "I'm so cuddly i like you!". Hahaz... that seems tto be Malik's favourite line also!! Hahaz... But Over the Hedge was just so great la! I was laughing and laughing and i don't even care if i'm laughing loudly or my laughter sucks! Hahaz... It was hell funny la!! That RJ is just so cute la!! Hahaz... I LOIKE!! Ok this is Malik's treat so i shall say a million thanks to my dear rabbit Malik!! Hahaz... and thank goodness Nini has stopped asking me 'why is that abang so tall'. Hahahaz... As usual the queue to get the tickets was a drag. The queue was freaking long. And yes Malik i'm going to say this in my entry, "The service is so not good!" Hahaz...

And then Malik was being so sweet again by accompanying me wait for mama and papa to fetch me. And wth Malik don't want my lift. =( And then mama make a lot of noises because pity him go home alone. Wahaha... its ok la mama he big boy already. At least he's not 8 years old like someone!! Hahaz... Ok i'm starting to crap. Overall just wanna thanks that Malik boy for the great day la and sorry ah trouble him with the journeys and all!! Hahaz....

Damn it la. There's a class test tommorrow!! Ok i studied but i'm just so not confident. Like what's cephlocaudal, proximdistal etc. I may understand but i may not know how to explain them in words. Haiz... worried sick!!

Singapore Idol!! Rahimah you rocks my socks la!! Didn't know you have such nice voice. You weren't scary la. Hahaz... So go Rahimah!! Hahaz... i enjoy watching Singapore Idol just now. Funny and great people are in there. Hahaz... interesting indeed.

Alright i shall not talk more crap because its juat CRAP la! So i shall move on relpying my fellow taggers. So here goes:-

Dear indraTo marceLLo: Eyy gatal nyer nie orang!! Yes if she don't mind of course you will partner her. I help you already so now must help me ask your friend lak!! Hahaz... twees!! =p

Dear bridget*: Okay sure girl. We'll take loads and loads of pictures. No la you look good in any picture one. Its only me. =( And yes go and change your tagboard to CBOX or something so that there's an interpersonal girl can flood your tagboard. LOL!! =)

Dear LiNa: Alah girl, its just you who shy to admit that i make a great partner. Com'on don't be shy anymore. Admit it. Wahaha..... i seriously don't know how thick is my skin laa!! Hahaz... don't worry girl if indra wants to join you are safe. Just me and Nad now. =(

Dear SAMM: Hahaz... Sam you are just one clever toot la!! Hahaz... Bridget... next time put perfume first before you do your business aites? LOL!!!

Dear malix: Hahaz... eyy Mr President i would have a partner long ago if you have an interest in dancing than soccer. Hahaz... So don't talk much and find your Prime Minister a partner. Aper HE HE!! Dush dush baru tau!! (i'm so cuddlly i like you!! LOL) =p

Dear ads: Nad is pretty!! She's mine ads. Sorry. Oops she's aini's girl!! Wahahahaz... if nad reads this i'm so dead!! Hahaz..

Dear pam: Hahaz... sorry ehh i'm quite slow here. What choises ehh? What consequences? Hahaz... *blur and scratch heads* But anws thanks. All the best for your test too ya! I'm sure you don't need all that test actually. You are too smart for it. LOL!! Just go for the exam. Yay!! Wahahahaz... see how crappy i can be Pam!! Gees... twees! =)

Dear nisha: NO la girl. I'm not even pretty at the first place. Its you who getting prettier with that rebonded hair. I look suckier in them. Hahaz... so i can woo you already right? Wahahahaz... nah just kidding! I go for guys!! Hahaz... am i dissapointing you now?! LOL!!! Ok again CRAP yus!!

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i'm lovin' it

So school is fun each and every single day. I'm enjoying and lovin' it. Regardless the lecture part, or the tutorial part or the practical part. ECH rocks. Especially having another bunch of girls who never fails to cheer up my day. Love ya guys la. There's this girl name XUE TING which sounds more like SWEATING like Samantha would say, never fails to pick a fight with me. I'm just loving it la hun!! You rocks my bag, socks, shoe and everything!! Hahaz... ouh btw, she's the one at the centre of the picture which looks as though she'd hiding. Hahaz... and XueTing my name is not 'Oh Shit'! toot toot you!! And there's Bridget and Samantha who always wanna know who shits and give off unpleasant smell everytime they enter the toilet. Hahaz... CRAP! And Long Zi is the sweet one who borrowed me her ACER CD when my dear lappie went berserk. Thanks girl!! Hahaz... of course NAD she's as crazy as them and also LINA and KHAI!! Hahaz...

So my lappie is not in a good condition previously. I still am not sure if its ok now. But hopefully it has fully recovered la. Thanks to David. He's the one in charge of the computer thingy. Installing software and repairing notebook la basically. And gees he said he like my 'lazy' and 'sleepy' eyes. WTH!!? I have a lazy and sleepy eyes? Hahaz... never known that. Good observation there David. Hahahaz....

ECH is great but the assignments are the killers!! Goodness. There's class test on MONDAY!! Damn it!! It ruins my weekends mood man. Gees... WTH is Locomotor skills!! Argghh.... i'm still so blur. Cephrecaudal and marked time clibing and proximodistal and fine/gross motor skills and more. Ahhh.... i'm so dead and so not gonna make it for the test. Ok at least one thing cheers me up. There's no common test for ECH!! Woo hoo... so our study break is such a wonderful one. Wahaha!!! But damn i need to think about my ever-so-many-and-pilling assignments that will be due in another few more weeks. Gees... so dead. And i haven't eve started on my musical insturment. Yikes!! I hate assignments so much!! Its ruining my life! Gees... I need enough entertainment first before i start on those assignments man. Which means more movies sessions, pool and bowling and more la!! Ahh...

And DIA have ended. Like finally!! So i lost the bet with Malik if Ivan and Dia will re-marry in the end or not. Gees... never thought that the show will end like happily ever after kindda way. Hahaz... Its such a touching movie la. Feel like watching more but don't think so la it adds on to more frustration only. Hahaz... so sad HE can't watch the last episode which is like 3 hrs. Then i have to story to him and exaggerate the part whereby FIFI IS IN JAIL!!! *evil laugh* Love that part la. If she is jail early in the show is like soooo good man!! Some evil insane psycho freak don't deserve to live in this beautiful earth!! Hahaz... wah i'm being emotional!! Later Malik will go 'dah director ask her act like that what not her fault!' Hahaz... so my father!! LOL!!

Dancesports had been GREAT!!! I just sooo love dancing but one problem!! Me, Nad & Lina don't have a partner. That sux to the core man!! We desperately need a partner. A guy partner by the way because we only learn the girls move. So any guy from Ngee Ann Poly is interested to join dancesports and happened to come to my dear blog and though of being my partner please tag me alright!! Hahaz... i really sound desperate man... goodness! Hahaz... but that's how the situation is like for me, nad and lina. We can dance already but we got no partner. How pathethic!! =( But whatever it is no guy or got guy i still love dancing and enjoying dancesports and CHA CHA!!! Hahahaz... I make a great partner dancing with Lina okay! Right Lina?! Com'on girl, don't be shy admit it. Hahahaz....

Ok i've been blogging crap! Haha.... wonder who's reading it. Whatever! Hahaz... so now i'll reply the tags since i don't wana flood my dear tagboard. So here goes nothing:-

Dear pam: Hey glad that you are well now!! Hahaz... yah the pasar malam is freaking long and the sell a lot of food. When i''m there i ended up not buying any food because there's just too many food and i don't know which shop sells nice food so i decided not to buy any of them. Hahaz... FAIRNESS!! =p

Dear ayienz: Fun is fun girl but i have to think hard of certain answers for the question they asked. They asked a lot of question which will leave me how-on-earth-am-i-suppose-to-answer-that-kid! I can't leave them in ignorance though.... Hahahaz... Hard one!! Hahaz...

Dear lydia: Ish! This girl arh... i dush dush you then you know!! Hahahaz... Malik got no reaction one he wouldn't say that. See my tagboard the least he'd say is 'hahahaha'!! LOL!!! (No offence ah Malik... hahaz!!)

Dear faezah: Of course i rock!! Who else can rocks me besides me. I good okay call you not like you see me walk only!! Hah!! Actually i call you since you said you miss me only if not i don't call you! Malas!! Wahahahahaz.... and Faezah is in DIKIR BARAT!!! Wahaha... that's funny la girl!! =)

Dear gab: GABBIE!!!!!!! Miss you la you kuku!! Like how Faezah miss me, i miss your craps MORE!! Nobody blocks the board in my class. I guess only to you la i will go, "Gab your head is blocking me!!" Wahaha... cya around ya girl!! =)

The End!!

Happy Mother's Day

To my beloved Mama, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!! No words can describe how thankful, happy, lucky and blessed i am to have such a wonderful Mother like you. You never fail to believe in me, support me and shower me with so so so much love. i'm not good in words so to keep it short and sweet. Mama, i appreaciate whatever you have done for me and i promise you that i will fullfilled your ambition that you always have since young if God willing. I never once feel that i have make you proud or give you any gift that will make you happy but i will try my very very best to give you the greatest give that is to become a teacher! Love you loads mama! You are simply the best mother in the whole wide world!! Muackz!!!!

Okay before i go i think i shall reply to the tags. Hahaz... the tags are quite long. So its better to reply here. Hahaz... ok here goes:-

Dear pam: hey girl. Yea i know how irritating and frustrated too be sick. The feeling is like really so so so so terrible!! Its ok girl. Just eat ur medicine and don eat stuff that will make you sick i'm sure you will get a speedy recovery! Get well soon ya girl?! Love ya... =]

Dear xian: Eyy you Kai Xian right?! Hahaz... just checking! Miss ya cute girl. See i'm not the only one who's scared of rat to death! Haha... i think i'll faint to man. Especially if the rat climbs on my leg or something. Hahaz... Ya the kids there are like SUPER cute la!! Just love to hang out and play and talk with them. I find it interesting to read winx club book for them!! Hahaz... So girl you should consider Early Childhood as your course in Poly!! Wahahahaz.... jus kidding!! =P

Dear nish: August?! Nah it will come very fast! So when you know which hospital you are attached to tell me ya!! Hahaz... cheers! =)

Dear lydia: LYD!! !! Are you mad or something? Malik and Me?! of course NOT! We are just friends. Gees... Me and Malik? That's so impossible. So its not like what you think girl. Hahaz.... gees!! I'm still single girl!! Goodness... I think Malik will laugh his heads off if he reads this... LOL!!!!

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Ok people... I SAW A RAT... like how scary can that be man. I almost cried man. Hahaz... and malik can still walk so slowly. Goodness. I just feel like pulling him to walk faster before the rat comes to us. Goodness goodness. Seriously i saw the long tails. YUCKS!!YUCKSSS!!! YUCKSSSS!!!! Malik was indeed talking about rat just now and it really appears. Gosh i really felt like crying man! The feeling just sucks la!! Rat man!! My scariest animal on earth. Lucky got malik if not i would have run back to my aunt's house! Wahaha!!

So i went to watch THE WILD with nini and my dear friend malik. Hahaz... so sweet of him la to even watch cartoon. He actually wanted to watch MI3 but we ended up watching cartoon. Wahaha!! And thanks for the meal treat. Nini keep asking me why is malik is so tall. Like how on earth am i suppose to answer that question man! Goodness nini!! Crazy... wahaha...

So had a great time just now. Its like what so loooong since i went for a movie man. To sum up Vesak Day holiday was fun la! So long never go Suntec. Basically Malik and me were walking aimlessly there. I mean we can count on nini of course for directions. Wahaha... So thanks to Malik for spending the time with me and nini la. So sweet of him. I mean i sure have trouble him a lot already. Travel here and there. So boy next time i treat you to ice cream ehh. Insya'allah! 5 years later ker... Wahaha... j/k! So before i go like i wanna reply to my taggers first so here goes nothing. And ouh yah!! Damcesports was great but i just need a partner and everything will be perfect. Anyone's interested?!! So ok here the replies:-

Dear LiNa: Wahahaz.... its ok la... i'm also embarrassed anyways. Nad too!! Wahaha... once in a while you drop you water face ok what!! Hahaz... malu malu.... =

Dear faezah: Yeah man... NP rocks and ECH rocks MORE!!! Wah i'm missed... so touching. Next time i'll just stick out my head to you so that you will not miss me anymore. Wahaha... =p

Dear pam: Hahaz.. okay... girl... get well soon yea... when i'm fre i'll get back to your mail yea. Been busy lately. Sorry dear. Love ya many many!! =)

Dear nish: Cool right? Then join ECH arh... hahaz... nah i'm sure you'll have fun during your attachment. When is yours dear? =]

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Alright so, i'm at the library now. Blogging. My first time though blogging in the school library. Many things happened recently. Happy, sad and angry one. But i'm okay la. I'm still the same irritating Yus! Like how bad can i change after what happened right. Hahaz... so out of all the days this week, i think i'm gonna talk more on what hapened on Tuesday. I think that's the best day of my life. I mean com'on that Tuesday was fun. Truly fun! A lot of things happened and i don't want to forget it. I will remember those tiny winy incidents for the rest of my life. Hahaz...

So what happened on Tuesday, 9th May 2006? A lot of things happened. Hahaz... ok firstly i went to my first attachment at the childcare centres. It was terribly fun!! What an experience. So i was given a K2 classes. And goodness, i swear those kids have been the nicest bunch of human beings i've ever seen in the world. I was so glad to be welcomed in the teaching world in such a manner. It was really nice. I just love it. I don't how else should i described but the feeling was awesome. I got 2 drawings from this boy name Firdaus and another Rohit. So sweet isn't it. Firdaus drew me and a cat while Rohit drew me a cat. Wahaha... it was really sweet. There's this boy who keeps hugging me and goes bang bang bang and claims that he wanna be a policeman. Wahaha... while the girls just can't stop talking with, holding my hands and all. Wahaha... the girls even fight for who can hold my hand during outdoor activities. Goodness!! Wahahaz.... one gurl just don'y want me to go to anyone else except her. And i was called teacher pizza and lizard instead of teacher Liza. But when i said hat'snot my name and i correct them they start calling me teacher liza. See even children knows how to correct themselves. Unlike Faezah who calls me Yuslizard. Can't you spell my name properly. Even children can pronounce better than you. Wahahaz... Faezah you gotta learn from them man, REALLY!! LOL!!

Okay enough bout that because if i continue i can never stop. And then back to school for lecture which ends at 5. But we have to wait for dance sports training which is like at 6:30 so Nad wants to finish up her assignments first in the library while my stomach is grumbling for FOOD!!! Had so much fun having dinner with him before he go again for like another 2 weeks plus which seems like years. Goodness!! Although we spent only like half hour talking and laughing away i think we had fun. At least we get to snap a picture. BUt poor him we have to like eat at the school canteen because its raining and we don't want to be late. How pathethic can that be being away and then have dinner at Ngee Ann Poly canteen. Gees. But the dinner was great la. So okay.

Then went to find Lina in the libraru after dinner with him. And thanks so much to Lina. I was soooo embarrassed because i spent the time walking all around the library at level 5 to find for them because LINA say they are at level 5 CONFIDENTLY. But guess what when i ask he to meet me at the staircase she was actually at level 4. How interesting can that be right? Goodness. She's like getting the blur diseased from me man. Lina all i can say to you is you are YUS'ed!! Wahaha!! People were already looking at me like why the hell is this girl twirling around level 5. Ish!! Paise paise!! That was only the first incident. Now the second. AZLINA darling again!! She practically showed me to the wrong exit and everyone who saw us was like already laughing at us because there was not exit there. GOODNESS!! Now i learnt my lesson not to trust Azlina's sense of direction. Wahahahahaz.... it was just so funny thinking about it again. And of course the embarrassment. Ish!! No wonder everyone was laughing at us. MALU MALU!!! Nad was so innocent. She was on the phone. And we lead her to the wrong place. Wahahahaz...... poor Nad.

And then we were late for dance sports because Nad have to finish her assignments first. So we were late. They already started their practice and there were a lot of them. Wahaha... so paise again!!! MALU MALU! So we asked the seniors and they asked us to come on Thursday if we want or just join in. But we decided to come on Thursday instead hbecause its too crowded. Which is like TODAY!! So now i'm in the library waiting to pass time for dancesports. So basically we stayed back for nothing. How lame. Then Lina and i had a laughing session at the atrium. Lina should know. We were laughing till we had tears, Wahahaz....crazy us!!!

So yea that's how fun Tuesday is while Wednesday is a drag!! IT lesson but Ambassador game session was great. Everyone were so friendly and i love it. So yah for now can't wait for dance sports. I'm more to scared actually. Gees... all the best to me. So yah... school has been like totally great and finally i completedmy SS assignments but my notebook corks up!! Something is so wrong. The school didn't actually download the software fully. Damn!!! Now this worries me. Damn it i can't frigging get on to do recording for my Speech Training Basic Module. DAMN DAMN DAMN!! SO i'm frustrated now. So i'm gone. Bye!!

because of you...

What are friends for. I was relieved to hear all that. After such a long time i kept things to myself, i let it out. Special thanks to the CE the girls in my life. It was nice meeting you guys just now. Candy, if by luck you are reading this please do contact any of your fellow CE because we just couldn't contact you. Its so hard to get to you girl. Such a busy woman you are. Hahaz... we are not complete without you girl. So please if you qare reading this give me a call or something. Or Sab, or nurul or pam! OK?! And anybody see candy please pass this message to her. Hahaz... in search of a cute and great friend Candy Ong!! Waha... we all miss you badly girl. Pam even scold me when i say i saw Candy at Jurong Point sometime ago. Wahaha... she's like so jealous.

Btw this entry goes out specially to Sabbie, Pammie and Nulul. I wanna say a million thanks to you guys for always being there for me. You guys are the best friend anyone could ever had. You know me best. Thanks for allowing me to always lend your shoulder to cry on. Thanks for the non stop hits of jokes which makes me laugh non stop. In total thanks for being a great friend all along! Love you guys sooo much!! To Pam enjoy yourselves in SP saying 'shuttup arh' in that tone. (you know what i mean) To Nulul enjoy your psycologist and saying 'so how do you feel about that' and Sab enjoy doing your hairstyling!! =) Looking forward for more meetings ya. Provided i'm free la. Hahaz...

I'm like in a CCA dilemma here. I so do't know what to join. Gosh NP why must you offer so many interesting CCA. Its like there's debating club also. Goodness i so don't know what to join. I so like interested in dancesports after S&W today. But i'm also interested in netball and floorball. I'm so confused. But i have a big urge to join dancesports actually. Haiz. I'm so confused!!!

Dance sports lesson just now was sooo interesting, exciting and fun. We learn Cha Cha!! I loike!!! Wahaha... it was confusing at first but i'm okay with it after a while. Melvin looks fierce but overall he's okay arh. Not bad! He dance well. Like duh. He teaches them. us that's stupid. And so goodness i still can't decide on my cca. 2 more days to think okay Yus!! Ish!!

Assignments are killing me. Its like only 2 weeks since we started school. Goodness!! And Tuesaday i'm going for my first field practicum. My childcare centres that is. Thank God there's Azura from 1A01 with me in that child care centre. Its at Jurong West St 52. SO thank God its near my home place. Interesting. Wahaha... can't wait actually. So excited to see the kids. Scared to see the parents and teachers. And as a student teacher i am not allow to like you know get to close to the kids yet. Since i'm like so new. Ish... i don't know how i can stand my fingers not to pinch the kids cute cheek. Wahahaz...

I like so don't know what to blog anymore so i'll just reply to my dear taggers here:-

Dear LiNa: Hey girl thanks so much yea. Yea you guys have been a great gal frens to me. Love ya guys. Thanks for your concern ya!! Love ya many many flabby partner. And Lina... gempal there...wahahahaz....ok tis will be the last i tease you. Wahaha... i think...LOL!! =P

Dear malix: Thanks and please do so everytime you visit this palace of mine of dear boy! Hahaz...

Dear Alicia: Hahaz...thanks girl. Get well soon to ya too. =)

Dear ads: Hehe...ads don worry i'm still smiling so widely. See... =) Wee... thanks girl!

Dear Madey: Yeaps i'm enjoying school so much. I have many crazy friends. How about you girl?

So the end.

The Mixture of Feelings

Ok. I'm very pissed now. VERY. I felt quite sad too. And maybe angry too. I don't know. It isa mixture of feeling. I really hope everything is going to be fine for me. Its been like almost 6 months since it happens. I was saddened by the incident. But what can i do i have my reasons. I don't understand why people just don't seem to understand me.

Doesn't mean i laugh all the time. I smile all the time. I joke all the time. I talk crap all the time. I go disturb people all the time means i'm problem free. Doesn't mean i'm always happy. I mean i'm human i also have feelings. I feel hurt. I feel sad. I felt lost and confuse. I'm sure you guys have ever been in my situation right? Its just hard for me to confide to anyone. I don't know just who will really understand me. Sometimes even the people that you believe will understand you simply don't. That's exactly because they are not me and they can never be me and know what's my feeling like. So how worried i was, how sad i am, how presssured i feel i try my very best not to tell anyone so as i won't bother anyone but there's a limit to everything and there's moments where you just broke down. I really wanna be strong and not break down. I'm really trying my best but it fears me to think that i'm alone and i have nobody to confide in... Haiz...

I really don't know what to say. I just feel so good that i have a blog. The advantages of letting out everything since this is my blog. How i feel and all. I mean i'm not offending anyone. This is just how i feel. Sigh. Why is life so difficult? Especially when it comes to feelings. Ish! I don't want to talk about it anymore. I guess being alone is still the best! So i'm off!!~

My old neighbour whom i treat him just like my real uncle just pass away this morning. It was rather shocking and sad. My mum called me when i was having my Speech Training Basic Lecture. I was shocked. It was very sad that i didn't get to see him for the last time. I didn't even get to go to his house for Hari Raya visiting last year because i was frigging busy with the Os. Haiz... he's a great man whi never fails to give me great advices whenever he sees me. He always reminds me of my ate grandfather. And he pass away also just like late grandfather. Because of heart attack. So sad isn't it? Imagine if it were your dad. He was okay the day before, went to the market in the morning riding his bike and reached home feeling tired. And then you heard your mother screaming for your name, you were in your room, and when you come out you realised that your dad is gone. Your heart will definately sank and pool of tears will already showing right? Goodness. Life is so unpredictable. So guess be nice and live life to the fullest. I was like thinking what if one day i was really mean to my parents and then the next thing you know they left you. For good. Haiz... that's a scary thought. Anyways hope he'll soul will rest in peace and may Allah put him amongst the nice people n heaven. Insya'allah. Amin.

And then school was a drag. Not really though. As usual Curriculum Studies with Belinda was great. Music is the food for live. So how can the lesson be boring. But i just find the time today very slow. Usually time passes very fast. One thing i like about poly is that we get to be released half an hour early unlike secondary whereby its always late. Gees... Alright so went home with Malik. I make him wait again. Gees... sorry sorry sorry Malik. Went JP to collect some stuff for mama. Wth make my bag heavy only. Hahahaz... special thanks especially goes out to Malk actually because he's willing to accompany me go JP even with his heavy laptop. And Malik's theory,'girls can't carry heavy stuff'. Hahaz... i like that. Wahahaz... He's like don't even let me to carry his laptop for just a few steps. Hahaz... so sweet of him right. So girls whoever think he's serious like Lina, he's not. He's a very sweet guy. Hahaz... so girls who want to get to know him don't bother asking me for his number. Wahahaz... just kidding. Malik see i'm promoting you!! I'm can be a good matchmaker for you. Wahaha!!

So reached home uploaded the pictures taken in lectures just now. Hahaz... crazy us. Crazy XueTing forever also disturbs me!! Wahaha... but i loike it la!! Wahaha... So now i don't know what else to blog so i shall take leave. Bye peeps!! =)


**never gonna stop smilling for the rest of the day! =)**

So this are my girls in NP and ECH! Love them! Had so much laughter and fun at Jurong Point. Though it was the most boring shopping centre ever. We enjoyed ourselves especially when we were having our luch. Hahaz... i was so blur to give Lina a dirty tissue when she's asking for it. Wahaha... We ate alot! Hahaz... and i got to finally eat CHOCOLATE WAFFLE!! I think Lina and me are the happiest girls of the day to get to eat them. Wahahahaz... crazy us!! I'm sure Khai, Lina and me enjooyed ourselves so much at Toys R us. Hahaz... found stupid things to talk and crack jokes ... hahaz!! I like!!

So one week of school and it has been great. From the friends. lecturers and the course itself. All great. And guess what i chose dancesport for my sprts and Wellness module. Ballroom dancing, salsa, latin and all. Hmm... sounds interesting. But let's just see. And i still can't decide on what CCA to join. Netball, band or sign language club or whatever it is called. Hahaz.... stress stress!! Out of all modules and lectures Sukuna's lecture is still the best for me. Mrs Pang's too. Hmm.... child development and speech training is fun. Ouh Belinda's too. Music!! Nursery ryhmes. I so like!! I learnt a lot of the history of rhymes. Like humpty dumpty. I didn't know that it was a canon. all along i thought it was an egg. But it was a canon who fall from a tower during a civil war. Interesting! Can teach the kids new stuff now. Hahaz... My group did a spontaneous act for the history of the song of sixpence nursery ryhmes. Though we didn't practice it or whatever. We were great la. It went smoothly. Wahaha!! Belinda was sortta happy with it though. I hope so. Hahaz...

So okay i'm just too lazy to blog further so till the next entry. Bye!!


**Its been a week since you've been gone.**

After a few years, i am studying MUSIC again. Wahaha... well it is part of my module actually. We are suppose to know how to make a song, read notes and sing of course. Goodness! I wonder how i'm going to sing man. It's like ok it rains whenever i sing. Hahaz... It was a fun lecture with Belinda though. And it makes me wanna join band again. But i only want to play the flute nothing else. Hahaz... or maybe percussion. Not the frenchorn again. Ish!!

Ang guess what i lost my ez-link. I didn't lost it. I am confident that i dropped it in the bus because i was holding onto it. And only after i wanna tap it to get down i realised i wasn't holding on to it. I can't practically be searching for it when the bus was like moving off already. So yeah i lost my secondary ez-link. What a waste. No card to keep it for rememberance. Thank God there's no more money. Hahaz... that means i lost my baby photo also which i stick onto it. Damn it la. That's my monkey picture which i love the most. That picture is the only picture which i think i look stupid and cute. GRR!! Like Malik say to the is my blur day. But i disagree because everyday is my blur day. Today is just my dumbest day that's all! Hahaz!!

So went home with Malik. We talk a lot and laugh a lot in the bus and his finger is still in a very bad shape. Hahaz... kesian! Then we walk home and then we saw my dear biology teacher MS SALLY PANG!!! Wahaha... we hugged and i sure miss her man. I miss asking her the 'WHY' question and then she will be all frustrated. She will go, "because its like that. Just like why is 1+1=2." Hahaz... till now i wonder how se can tolerate and be patient with my dumbness. Hahaz... Love ya Miss Pang! Thanks for everything! And i have another Mrs Pang Li Yee in Ngee Ann. She's my lecturer for STB! Hahaz... will see her it tommorrow.

Indeed today is my dumbest day ever. Gosh so paise. I'm so blur today till Malik have to like, "relax relax." I like drop my money and don't know where i put my handphone and all. Ish!! Even now i'm home blogging i'm still blur on what should i do next. Gosh!!

Ok i got to go to do loads of readings now and to do reasearch about nursery ryhmes and their origins. By the way i didn't know that after this course i can not only become a teacher but also children's psychiatrist and more. Interesting isn't it. Hahaz.. ok peeps, i'm off!

**still waiting for that '1 new message'.**

first day at sch!

The day started off with me meeting Malik to go to school together. Yes Malik. Hahaz... you people didn't see wrongly. Stop scratching your eyes. You are reading correctly. Hahaz! Malik seh! The one whom i never talk to for like 4 years in Hua Yi! Hahaz.... i don't even know he exist untill ili and the others start teasing Diyana 'Malik malik...' Wahaha! So okay apologies to Malik because i reached late. Like what's new. YusLiza! when will she be on time. Gees! Hahaz! Malik have this scary look which makes me scared whenever i see him. Maybe because he never smile. Hahaz... scary guy. Nah his not so now. That guy is still the scariest guy on my list now. And btw people its not Zhi Wei. Haha!! even Lina says that Malik look so serious. Hahaz... gotta make him smile more. Never thought i would talk to such serious guy but well i just did and he's not that bad like i've thought it will be like. He's friendly and just very nice. I don't know what word to describe him but he's just too nice la! And btw the secret is i don't know how to go Ngee Ann taking bus! Wahaha... i've been there all along taking cab or my dad will drive me. So my thank yous to Malik. Don't know la he will read this or not. If you are then... thanks and twees!!

So Sukuna's lecture was great! She's just way so funny. Enjoy her lecture. And i'm loving my course. And then the rest of the course. Haiz... i shall not say any further. But overall everything was okay and fun la. With Lina, Nadia, Khairiah and Alicia i can never be bored. There's sure somtheing to talk about. And we always lost Li Yu and Sok Leng. Hahaz... but one thing i realised which i think i don't really like about my modules. I have to do soooo much reading. Reading man! I don't mind reading Haifa Noorin's novels and all but reading theories. Haiz... my eyeballs popping out soon. Nevertheless i find Speech Training (STB) fun. Maybe because i think i just love to talk. Talkative Yus! So i think its going to be fun la.

To sum up first day was fun. Just some parts which i think reminds me of the days in Hua Yi which i practically sleep in class. I'm reminded because i felt the same just now. Wahaha! Okay so here goes the replies to all tags:-

Dear pam: Okay arh set! When i free and got mood we go for lunch or something ok?! Set?! And anyways i miss you so much la girl. And com'on admit it you miss me too right?! That's why you wanna see meet me not because you wanna compare time-table. LOL!! nah just kidding!

Dear Madey: Madey you are most welcome to join us. One day okay!! Twees... cya around soon!
Dear ads: Hey ads! Hi!! Long time no hear from you. How have you been girl?!

Dear bez fren: Hahaz... first day was great. Read my entry. And cute guys?! No! My course only got 5 guys lei! Ish! And so far haven't seen any cute guys. Hmmm....

Dear faezah: Wah faezah! Thanks ehh!!! Ya lah... lagi-lagi your face. Jelak jugak. LOL!! And btw my friends are all not so bad as you to call me that okay!! Hah!! And btw i hope to get my diploma fast so i can council you to be a better and not so psycho kid.

Wahah!!!!Owh yeah. Malik told me something shocking just now. Gees! Why is this world so small?! Ish! Okay i'm off to do lots of reading before DIA starts. DIA just reminds me about what happened on 17th April on Monday. I missed it sooo much! =(

**And he says,"missing them for weeks which would seem like years." And i agree because absence just makes the heart grows fonder.**

So happy birthday to dear nieces Nurul Insyirah and Irdinah!! Went to thier place just now and took a lot of pictures. Eat cakes and more. I was reading 'ELLE' just now when suddenly something reminds me of Nadia. Wahaha... during the orientation she was like "your face like i've seen before." And when she say she stay at Pasir Ris. Like wow that's impossible. So far. Waha! And then Khairiah's friend also. She was like "your face is just so like the photocopy of our friend name lydia". If that's the right name, i forgot! Hahaz... And there's Lina and she was like "you watch 'sungguh hot' or not? You look like one of them." Like what the hell. Hahahaz... do i have twins or what?! Hahaz... to think of it i think its cool to have one, don't ya guys think. But hey i think i have a twin. let me show you! Owh yah before that i saw FAEZAH during my orientation! Like wow... she was so excited to see me and liyu... wahaha!! Okay so i say about you! Happy or not... hehehe!!

There! Don't ya guys think we look the same. Haha! He's my cousin and many says we look alike when we smile. Goodness! Hahaz... Okay so i reached home on the computer and click on 'Internet explorer' and there i see so many taggers. I LOIKE!! So here are the replies:-

Dear liyu: Wahaha... thanks Li Yu for the information. Its okay, its all not my fault. its madey's fault! LOL!!

Dear LiNa: Goodness Lina... don worry you don't know how blur and slow i can be. You can ask my friends here how blur and slow i am. You can especially ask PAM!! Wahaha... she will tell you full detail! Hahaz.. anyways thanks for tagging girl. Glad to meet someone crazy and fun like you too! Flabby rocks okay! Don't play play!! LOL!!

Dear Madey: Decades?! Wow i didn't know that! Wahahaz... Yalah next time straight away just kiss me la! Less distracting and yingxuan can then hug me. Wahaha!! Then i got both hugs and kisses!! Wee!!! Crazy us!!

Dear yingxuann: Oh com'on yingxuann i'm sure you are sad. Com'on admit it! Wahaha!!Hey hey of course i won't forget all the crazy friend i have in Hua Yi!! You guys rocks my stinking socks okay!! Wahaha!! Sure one day we shall gather at canteen 1 and have lunch together. Just for Hua Yians!! Hahahaz... oK?!

Dear faezah: Wahaha... ehh i blog bout you already! Read already or not?! You also didn't put you saw me at your blog okay!! LOL!!

Dear pam: Hey thanks girl!! YEA!! I miss CE too!! Miss 5N3 too. Haiz... if only we could turn back time right. Haiz.. its ok one day we'll meet for luch or dinner okay girl?! No need sad sad! Cheers. =)

Dear Shadow: Yea i got the mp3 for that song. I can give it to ya if you want it. Just tell me your e-mail address and i'll add you. I'll send you through MSN alrights. That's if you wanna. Can?

Okay all tags replied. Lastly i just wanna say that i can't sleep thinking of you. Why? Beats me. Just come back soon. I'll wait for your return safely and with much patience.

** 3 days and counting**

Freshmen X!perience 2006 (ECH)

So orientation was GREAT! Everyone is not stuck up like what i thought the night before the orientation. Everyone is just so friendly. The lecture room wasn't all quiet though its our first time. It was still as noisy like we knew each other for a very long time. Not that we really know each other. Each starts to introduce each other. And the friendly girl that i am i too starts to introduce myself to the people whom i think i never even met before. So the first people whom me and Li Yu made friends are Khairiah and Izzah. Hahaz... they are as friendly too. We got lost to ECE department instead of ECH. Then we headed down to after hearing someone calling out sayin "ECH students please head down to level one." Ish! So paise! Wrong course. LOL!!

So sat at the lecture theatre. And i was surprised that our first day wasn't all boring like the first time i went into secondary school orientation. Everyone starts to mingle and energetically making friends. I can already hear people introducing thier name and which school they were from the moment i sit down. Isn't that friendly and great or what! Hahaz... i LOIKE!! I so like the surrounding. All so energetic and friendly. We are all making friends regardless of language, race, religion and from which school we come from.

So introducing the girls class (instead of girls school lets call it girls class...LOL) 1B01!!! Heh heh!! I so love my class. Guess what people. Li Yu and me got into the same class like again!! Woo Hoo!! Don't jealous arh!! Hahaz... All of them are so nice and soooo friendly. I LOIKE!! So okay i can only remember some of thier names though. Let me refresh my memory again. So there's Yus Liza, Li Yu, Khairiah, Xing Li, err... Alicia... Cindy is one of the Hua Yians (i like just know her name now), Hannah, Bridget, Sok Leng, Azlina, Nadia, Samantha and then i forgot the rest of the names. Wahaha!! great girls!! Thank God there's like no people which spoils my mood during the orientation. Everybody were all just so fun. So there were total of 3 Hua Yians in the class!! Yay!!

Hahaz... enjoyed myself with Khairiah, Izzah and Azlina at MacD. Lina is so crazy. Lina and me are now officially called, 'The Flabbies' because we have flabby arms, fat and fats!! Wahaha!! Actually she's not at all fat. Its just me but ouh well she inisist and so we called ourselves 'The Flabbies of ECH 1B01' Hahaz... Had loadsa of fun during the orientation and i hope to have more fun in my upcoming days in NP especially ECH class 1B01!! Yay!! I think i'm going to love my class. Though there's no guys like Nick, Yong Ming, Stephen, Farhan and more i think i'm going to enjoy myself with those crazy girls. Looking forward for school on Monday. Like Lina repeatedly say just now, "Lambatnyer nak Monday, can't tommorrow just be Monday". Hahaz!!

Okay and so i'm sad that i can't share my joy with a new friend of mine. Haiz! He just have to go for 6 months. A very long 6 motnhs before he could get any reception to msg me. Looking forward for the day when my handphone shows a '1 new message' from him which says 'Hey i'm back'. Just so we can start our 'Unique' game again. Hahaz! Miss it lots!!

So before i end here are the replies for my dear taggers:

Dear pam: Indeed its weird because my both my colleague fall sick too on their last day of work. Hahaz... Gees... i think you are right. Sensitive withdrawal symptoms! LOL!! And btw yeah i sure do enjoy myself during the orientation. Thanks yea for the support! Hahaz...

Dear yisheng: HALOO yi sheng. Long time no hear from you! How have you been doing dude?! =)

Dear nish: I miss you too dear girl! I still haven't see you with your hair rebonded and you haven't seen mine either!! Hahaz... so looking forward to see you yea!

Dear Li Yu: Hey doesn't mean you see me in school everyday you cannot come my blog and tag me right. Please do so everyday also i don't mine. It's my pleasure dear Li Yu! Hee hee...

Dear Gab: Hahaz... heyy i'm missed again! I though noone will miss this irritating girl. Hahaz.. thanks Gab. In fact i miss saying this to you more, "Gab your head too big la i cannot see the board!" Wahahahahahaha!!

Dear afro: Ouh yah arh i haven't update. Now update already what! Hahaz... I wonder who that somebody is. Ish!!!

**Special note to dear Ying Xuan**--- Dear Ying Xuan, Li Yu told me you were sad just now because i didn't hug you. Ouh Well i was distracted by Madeline screaming my name. So sorry it was her fault!! Hahahahaz.... so on Monday i see you i hug you ok sweetie. Wahahahahaz....cheers... and Madey can dush dush me for saying its her fault. Wahahahahaz....



Ok The End!!

Alright like what's new if i say i'm sick. Running a high fever 38.5 on Saturday, 15th of April. Which is like my last the of work. How wonderful can that be? Took half day and off the the clinic. And damn it my private clinic is closed. So have to go to go to my FAMILY Doctor EDEN!! Gees. I don't like it! Grr...

Anyways enough of being sick. I'm well now. Went to have lunch with BESTIE just now. Phew! Eversince i'm working i have really been missing out about a lot of things. So we sure do have things to talk about. Halfway asked Shariffah to come down and join us. And of course there goes the laughters!! Wahahaha!! Its been so long since we ever talked like that. Missed the good old times i spent studying with Shariffah at that very spot. Gees. How i wished i could turned back time. I wished!!

Okay firstly i'm bloody late for work just now. I woke up same time. Same place, same bed. Just that it was raining. HEAVILY. So i already make up my mind to take cab instead of bus. Lazy to go all the way to Hua Yi bus stop in the rain and wait for the bus. So i bath and all then get out of house like normal time. And guess what?! There are like so many people waiting for the cab. Gees!! Like stupid YUS. What do you expect? Its like raining for goodness sake. Sure people will be as lazy like me to take cab.

The next part. There was this guy who suddenly was there also waiting for the cab. I was like "damn it man you have to appear and wait for the cab too!" Then he wave to me. Gees it was Nister WONG KAH KIAN!! Hahaz.... Then he called.

Mr Wong K.K: Hello Yus ah... you going where?

Yus a.k.a Me: Work la. I'm like freaking late already. Where are you going?

Mr. Wong K.K: Ouh ok i going there also. We go together.

Yus a.k.a Me:Okay set!

(KK walking towards me)

So we waited for the cab and i was like so getting late already. So i was stress!! So many freaking hand flagging for a cab. So frustrating man... Then we waited like don't know for how long. In the end i decided to find Cab at the bus stop of Hua Yi's backgate. lazily i forced myself to walk there. Lucky got my dear Kah Kian can talk cork and laugh along the way. Still there's no cab as we reached. Waited for don't know how long again. Then I can't wait anymore so asked desr KK to hail for the bus and GREAT we miss 187 and the freaking thing is 157 didn't stop though we hailed for it. What a bummer. Are we that small or wat to be unnoticed. Finally another 157 came so uickly we boarded it. Kk have to pay the fare for me because i practically left my wallet at my dad's car. So my mum only gave me like 2 bucks and 10 bucks. and that's like note. So i decided to pay Kk 2 bucks instead since he already accompanied e throughout the whole uninteresting journey to JP. But that kuku as usual don't want to take but i force him and there's this uncle who look at us and smile while we were busy pushing the money to each other at our seats. Haha!! Kk and i were like looking at each other already. And KK and his stupid theory. He said, "That uncle likes you Yus!" Wow Kah kian. TERRIFIC! SUPERB!! Then 157 has to go so frigging slow. Crap!It always happened when you are late isn't it? And guess what Wong Kah Kian was late for work also. Gees!! Hahaz... Ouh yah i forgot to announce that on SUNDAY the 9th of April my dear KK bought me Anderson Belgium Chocolate chip ice cream. AHHHH!!! So my favourite. He just appear out of nowhere and then bought me that. Thanks so much Mister KK!! Next time i treat you okay? See my mood alright?

By the way people. Its my first time blogging using a laptop. Yup! They delivered my Acer Travelmate 3010 yesterday. Weee... But for some reason i still prefer desktop. Naybe because i'm blind/potek. Desktop looks bigger yousee. Ouh well... i'll get used to it soon!! BUt i love my lappie!! ITs so beautiful!! Like the owner!! Hahaz... nah so the opposite!!

So today is a heck of a day. Had a terible headache the whole day and like i think since yesterday. Gees. I think a banging from the wall helps. Let me try. Okay so long and good night!!

I bought this Little Cinderella a week ago. Hehez! I've been eyeing on it like since i don't know when. So i got it that day when i got my pay. Isn't it cute? Damn it its pink but for once i didn't wanna care because its CINDERELLA!!! Hahaz... i'm crazy. It sings you know that's why i'm so attracted to it. Here's the lyrics of the song:

(Sing in the tune of Mary Had a Little Lamb)

In my attic

sew with me,

sew with me

sew with me...

We'll use ribbons

1, 2, 3...

And dress up all our friends!

Wahaha.... I'm nuts. So nuts!! At least by meddling with it a bit relieves my stress especially after a hectic day at work. I warned everyone in my house whoever dares to open the doll from the box will get it from me!!

Hahaz... ok i'm so crazy. Alright so four more days to work and then i'm off from Man Master and Le Future. So sad! =( Worked with Shi Min last Saturday. Actually i realised that she's as crazy as me. Hahaz... "Ok lor next time come again and TRY again arh!" Hahaz... familiar sentence hor Shi Min. But i truly enjoyed myself working with her. Looking forward for another day working with you girl. And so sad that's the last. =( Its when i made a lot of regulars and then i have t leave. Haiz... don't feel like stopping but SCHOOL! More important. So yeah... so so sad. =(

Okay somebody came to my workplace and then said hi and talk cork for a while and then he came back with a Anderson Belgium Chocolate Chip Ice Cream!! So my favourite!!! So i wanna especially say thanks to none other than my dear MISTER WONG KAH KIAN!!! Hahaz... thanks for the treat! Though you kuku don't want to buy the jeans but i still happy because of the ice cream. Hahaz... thanks ya!!

I missed Miss Singapore Universe today. =( Will there be an encore!! I never missed watching Any beauty pageant in TV but today i did!! Damn!!! Haiz!! Ok i got nothing much to say so i shall leave. Bye!

The Magic of Wonderful Friends

After so long i get to meet my dear friends. Enjoy every minute spent with them! I laughed a lot today. Its been a long time since i last laughed like that. Love ya girls. Not in order. The fantastic girls are Nurul, Shariffah, Diyana, Farhana and my dear Reshmel!! Hahaz... Only left Sab!! Wished you were there too!!

At first i thought i was late but i was the earliest there with Reshmel. Then came nurul. So we waited for Farhana, Shariffah and Diyana. Was bored so i ask Reshmel take picture but she don't wat so i ask Nurul. And there... SNAP!!


We had an interesting lunch while talking about Mak Cik Asam!! Hahahaz!!! Cannot tahan man!! Reshmel and Me saw something that just couldn't make me stop laughing. Suddenly a loud bang!! Wahahahaha!!! The socks so High!! I bet no one understands what i'm talking about except those girls! Wahaha!! And then Nurul ask me this very interesting yet wierd question.

Nurul: Yus let me ask you this question. i know its weird and not right and all but let me ask you. When wa sthe last time u wore a pampers.

Yus a.k.a me: Erm... i can't remember 4 years old maybe or 5 or 3. I don' t know i just can't remember.

Diyana: Aper seh. Soalan aper sak!

Nurul: Takder. Someone ( i forgot who she say told her) told me me that if you ask anyone for like example a file or something and then she will go answer you ouh its at the second drawer under the this file which called the blah blah blah so specificly it means that she have a very good and careful toilet routine. That is why it makes them a perfectionist. and the first thing person that came in my mind is YUS!!

Yus a.k.a me: Thanks ehh Nurul. Its interesting let me ask my mum then.

(Dialled my home and wait for my mum to answer the phone while Nurul, Shariffah , Diyana, Reshmel and Farhana were laughing)

Yus a.k.a me: Hello Mama! Biler adek tak pakai pampers lagi?

Mama: Entah ehh... tak ingat. Kenaper?

Yus a.k.a me: Ouh takder aderlah some theory yang nak dilogika kan!! Hahaz... Serious mama luper?

Mama: Tak ingat la!!

Yus a.k.a. me: Ouh ok then takper!

Mama: (sidetracking) Kat maner nie jangan balik lambat lambat!

So intelligent Nurul and her theory. But failed because i don't know when i last wore diapers. Wahaha!!! That's like not her exact words la! You can't expect me to remember each and every word she said right? But somehow or rather like that arh!! NULUL NULUL!! Hahaz...

After the interesting luch went to play arcade. Jakun a bit because its NEW!!! Hahaz.. Weird! There are a lot of free games there. Hahaz... Played the basketball. First partner was farhana. Got Second. Second game partner with Shariffh also got second but the second round sway because we started late. Stupid machine!! Hahaz!!! Play with Shariffah interesting because we can't stop maki maki-ing. And Nurul and Diyana were like " aper nie sebelah asyik maki- maki!!" Wahahaha!!! Played Daytona. Was about to get first when Shariffah have to potong jalan. toot you!! Hahahaz!! Then played tembak tembak with DiDi!! Hahaz... Zombie! Card no value me and DiDi end up play tembak tembak together. I kill her she kill me!! Hahahaz!! Bummer...

There Nulul have to snap this...


Then there's this err what is that... got car car... got cartoon... so we snap a picture there. I think its some new cartoon movie arh. Me and Nulul again. Shariffah took that and she can't stop saying "Yus kau pendek sangat la tinggi sikit". TOOT YOU! Hahaz...

Next stop play pool. Hahaz... this is the bestt and funny part. Alot of things happened there! And i find myself singing to the chinese songs there. Because all the song are like so everyday-is-played-at-my-workplace the song. Hahahaz... There are just so many things to talk about. So let the pictures do the talking. Hahahaz... But i'm too lazy to put all the pictures here. So let me just shre with you the best of the best part. Hahaz...

So that's like my group members for the first round. And we won!! Of course got the expert Diyana!! Hahahaz...

And Nurul claim that don't ave her picture because she was taking all the pictures. But hey got okay. I snap this one. See!! Told ya have!! Hahahaz...


And indeed Nurul is busy being a part time camera woman. Then she says "Yus Smile and pose sikit Yus!! And then i go Twees!!!


The second round team members. See all stress already. Farhana face so cute!! hahaz... all stress stress she cute cute!! Hahaz!!


Then DiDi dengki! See what she's doing. Hahahaz... she is actually blowing the ball!! Tupid you!! Hahahaz!!

Hahaz... so tat's all ah. Too lazy too put all!! Moreover all candids by Nurul. Thanks ehh Nurul!! Hahahaz!! So to sum up the girls day out was so much fun!! I enjoy every single minute of it. Love ya girls so much. Shariffah, Farhana and Reshmel accompanied me home taking 98!! Hahaz.. So sweet of you guys!! Love ya many many. Hope to have more of these!!! Till the nest time yeah!! Twees!!

Okay putting aside all the fun. Tommorrow is the day whereby i have to check at the ePortal to confirm that i'm in ECH!! Haiz... So worried about my medical report. What if i'm not accepted in that course. Haiz... i'm so worried. Haiz... well lets just see tommorrow. So till here. Bye.

traces of happy and sad moments...

It was a heck of a week. I assume i don't get sufficient sleep and rest now. I feel so exhausted. I think we just have loads of things to do in life but just too little time. I've been doing a lot and work and thinking this few days that i felt so hard up and my brain i think if there's such things where the brain can explode, it will DEFINATELY explode. There's just so many things to think about. Let me list it down. About friends, family and most importantly my life. It seems very little but hey when you do the sorting out its quite a lot.

Schools starting soon and I really miss Hua Yi. Whatever happened there. I just missed every single minute of it. And suddenly i feel all sad to think that we are all going our own separate ways. And i really truly miss the most important girls in my life. COEXISTENCE!!! Candy, Sab, Nurul and Pam! I miss you guys so much. I may be working but i never once forget you guys. It always cross my minds questions like, how will our lives be? We are so going our separate ways. Everyone of us will be doing different things. We are not going to be the same again where will see each other everyday again. But now everything is different. We'll all be doing different things. Meeting different kinds of people. Getting new friends. I wonder if they will ever forget me and in fact the memories we shared together. It brought me to tears when i i think of the times when i used to disturb Candy and then say "alah CAndy abeh marojak?". Hahahaz... i missed those times when i disturbed Sab with Tirmidzi. Hahaz... sorry best friend. I missed the times when we were at the back of the class with aaron, stephen and yong ming. Sab you should know best what we always talk about like almost everyday at the back of the class. Not paying attention to Mrs Wong especially. Hahahaz!! Miss you best friend! Miss the times with Nurul when i asked her to burn all sorts of CD and especially HINDUSTAN!! Hahaz... Thanks girl for everything! For Pam you should know what i missed about you the most. YOur craps during the prefects and the councillor camps of course!! WHo will forget it?!! Don't ya dare forget it. That Prefect BBQ especially where i organize it and somebody said she's not going to sleep and spend the night talking but she left me talking a alone with Ridzwan! Thanks ehh!! Hahaz...

These girls of mine are just too wonderful and fantastic. Nobody can replace thier places. But one thing for sure I believed that though we are going our own separate ways, in that place where we keep our love ones there's are still place for my name. They can never forget the friendship we build because those are the precious things that its hard to be erased or thrown. I'm certain that COEXISTENCE can never fall just like that. Especially not because off the less time spent and not being all understanding about each others life. Don't we CE! Well To my fellow dear girls!! I just wanna say thanks for brightening up my teenage and secondary school years. We've been through a lot. Sad, happy, hurts, lies and more but we survived. I treasure this friendship so much and i hope you guys too. Just wanna say I love you guys to bits and i hope though we'll not like see each other everyday we'll get to see each sometimes. CE outings will sure happen.Won't it girls? Hahaz... Love you guys many many and loads loads! Hahahaz... wish you guys all the very best in life in whatever you do. Candy, you are doing well in your studies. I hope you'll maintain it and achieve for more. I just wanna be as hardworking as you too man! Hahaz!! Sab, do all your very best to strive for the best because that is YOU! The Sabrina i know since Sec 1 never not do anything to get what her want. So i hope you'll get to join kimage and succeed in life. Ouh yah did i tell you your the best best friend anyone could i ever have? Hahaz... if not there you go! To Nurul too get a degree and then you can go "so how do feel about that?" hahahaz... TO PAM!!!! You kuku!! Just don't forget CE and SC when you are in SP!! All the best in your new school yeah! Hahaz... Love ya girls!!

There's BUSTED 2 and my dear goaty also!! Hahaz!! Shariffah and Reshmel!! Just miss you nonsense and jokes la!!! Hope to meet you guys soon and talk crap and laugh like mad again. Its been a long time since i have a good laugh. Hahahaz!! Farhana and Diyana. Hmmm... just one i miss saying this to the both of them "yalah aku sedar aku bukan best friend korang. aku kan pendek,gemuk, bodoh, kecik, bising, irritating, menyebok tak cantek lak tu!" hahahaz.... And they will go "dah start arh!!" hahahahaz!!! Miss playing volleyball with you guys also!!

These girls have been the very best friends since i entered Hua Yi! Missed every single moments shared with them. Tell me how can i not miss all thier nonsense when i can laugh at every single stupid things they do and say. Hahaz!! I miss saying this to dear Gabriella! "Gab your head too big i can't see the board." Hahaz... i miss saying "Shut up la Nisha don't laugh i'm serious not purposely call Mrs Tan Miss Pang!!" Hahahaz!!! 5n3 I MISS YOU BLOODY MUCH LAA!!! AARON CHAN JUN HON ALSO!!!! I want your brother i don't care!! Hahahaz... AARON wo XIANG ni la!!! I still rememeber on Saturday, 4th of OCtober 2003 where this best friend of mine have to give me a big surprise when he appears behind me at Jurong East Interchange and say HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Hahahaz... bought me that lovely Eyore and a tiny winy cute cake from my favourite Primadeli!! We went to this place and he sang me a birthday song and we cut the cake. Hahaz... that was the first time anyone ever did to me. A surprise birthday party. Ok la not really a party because its just me and him only. Hahaz... But i love it. Thanks Aaron! You're great!! Love you many many!! I don't know if you remember all that i've said but i can still vividly recall what happened that day. To my darling Aaron!! Wo Ai Ni!!! Wahaha!!

Hahaz... today's post is just dedicated to all my friends i've mentioned because i just totally miss them. So much. I don't know why but yeah i missed them terribly today. Actually there's one more person whom i missed so much too. A nice friend of mine. Those memories spent together, i'll locked it in my heart and throw the keys so that it will never be removed because those moments are the best days of my lifes. And yes i've been doing a lot of thinking lately. I'm beginning to hate guys now. I don't know why. BUt no i don't allow myself to because its possible bacause i'll get married to a guy one day. But seriously. Its getting on my nerves. They act so pathethically. What does they think of themselves. I don't know what is that love shit but hey com'on i don't think they know it either. The say it like as though they spit some saliva out from thier mouth. That easy. But don't they think about the future? About if is it the time to say that you have fallen in love. Gosh! I'm just so stubborn. I just can't seem to convince myself to all the words. Till now i don't know if whatever they say to me is the truth or a lie or are they just desperate. Btw i'm not referring this to any guys. Like generally. Okay i'm just so bad at words. But anyways if anyone is hurt i'm sorry but i not referring to anyone. I just state how i feel.

Is it that easy to forget about someone. I bet not. Its rather tough i think. So a change of feelings is rather a difficult task for me you know. I don't understand how people canchange boyfriends or girlfriends in a few weeks or months after a break up. Hahaz... yeah you move on but don't you think you need time to be with someone else. Hahaz... love life's weird yet people are still finding thier true love and life partner. Well let's just see how my llove story will be. Still a long way to go.

I love Man Master!! I'm going to miss those new friends of mine too. Ah bee, Catherine, Chooi har, Chao Ren, Shi Min, Mei Ling, Jason, Aaron, Pei Yong, Wei Wei, Eric, Mabel and more. You guys rocks!!! Never did i expect that i'll work with such nice people.

Phew a long one indeed. To whom who read thanks. To whom not thanks too. Bye!