The love of my life!

When i first saw you, i was tongued tied, i was afraid to talk to you.
When i first talk to you, i was afraid to kiss you.
When i first kiss you, i was afraid to love you.

Now that i love you, i'm afraid of losing you!

Thanks syg for always being there for me, tolerating my flaws and showers me loads of love.
Thanks for all the sacrifices and everything that you've done just to make me smile.
When you went down on your knees a year ago to present your love for me,
I was speechless,
thinking what have i done in life that God gave me such a wonderful gift.
Indeed you stole my heart in your own special way.

I love you syg, my heart just says so!
My heart tells me you're just the one for me.
I don't know what is love.
I never thought of falling in love or even wonder what's love.

Maybe love is a special thing that always give us butterflies.
Whatever it is, if what we are going through now is love,
i'm here to say:
Thanks Sham syg for teaching me how to love.
To be in love with you, the feelings is just awesome,
that i don't want anyone else but you, to spent my life with.

We are always far from each other but
nevetheless, our heart ramains togther because:
Our love is like the wind, we cannot see them but we can definately feel them.
I love you Hisham, i really do! Muackz! <3-

I'm so exhausted & shagged with all this studying.
End soon please.

HELP!

ECHians ALERT!!
Anyone, anybody knows where to find the notes or anything bout:
Developing Parent Involvement Programme
Topic about Working with children with separation anxiety,
Do ring me, sms me, nudge me at MSN, tag me or anywhere that you can possibly reach me.
Okay peeps. Love ya guys!
Thanks world!

holidays ending. =(

The CNY holidays ending.
Which means its time to mug mug and mug for exams.
Urgh, so not in the mood to study now. How?
Okay forget about that for awhile.
Let me just do some updates on what have been happening during this festive season.
Let's skip on the 6th because i've updated & basically i had a beautiful date with bf after that Taiwan trip he had.

7th February 08, Thursday

It's my dearest cousin, Farah Wahidah's engagement. Finally an engagement after such a long time from the maternal family. Congrats to you kakak. You're finally engaged and soon you will be someone's wife. Dah besar kakakku sorang ni. Haha... So after so long, we had such kenduri kendara again. It was fun. We took a lot of stupid, crazy, beautiful, fantastic and horrible pictures that day. It was super fun to have such family gathering for a wonderful event again. Made a slideshow. But you guys can still view the whole picture in my photo album. =)

8th February 08, Friday

Basically i'm home after a tiring day the day before. Was trying hard to study but nah, it didn't happen. Guess the mood wasn't there. No motivation at all. Ring Lin up to ask if she's studying but she's not either because she's sick. So all the more the 'niat' to study just vanished on the spot.

& the most interesting part of the day was, I watched P/S: I LOVE YOU!!! Haha!!! Lin, i've watched! When are you watching ni? Hahaha... It was such a superb movie. I proudly announce this is the first movie that make me teared. Usually i will only cry when watching a ghost story but not some romantic movie. I read the book the day before till 3am in the morning. I was only at chapter 5 and i started to have tears rolling down my cheeks. It's really a 'must-see-movie for those who haven't watch it. (Like Lin) Haha... how i ended up watching it?

Well, Abg Ayie and his gf came to my house. & then Kak Fiza & I was like super excited to watch already. Called up Bf and then off we went. Before watching the movie we went to bring Nini and adek Ayu to watch fireworks at esplanade. The fireworks was awesome. I was never so near such beautiful and loud fireworks. Wish i could put the video here but the size is too big! Finally gotta watch fireworks with my dearest Hisham! *loves* Again i made a slideshow but feel free to see the other pictures in the album. =)

9th February 08, Saturday

I proudly make another announcement that i failed my BTT! Haha.... Actually the plan for Saturday was to accompany bf to Beach Road to get his stuff but i totally forgot i that i have to sit for my basic test till my dad reminded me. I think i got 45 over 50 yet fail. Gees... anyways, will be retaking them and its on the 29th April. Wish me luck! Haha.... then went to my Uncle Philip, my dad's best friend's house. He invited us for Chinese New Year. Met my childhood mate Jonathan and Kimberly. Kim was out when we take picture. So took with Jon only! He's like taller than me though i'm much older. Gees!! Nothing new Yus! =(

10th February 08, Sunday

Went to walk around at Changi airport with the family. Went to look around at Terminal 3. Saw kak Ana. What a co-incidence, we reached and her flight just landed. She's in her uniform so she can't join us. So we walked & walked & then camwhored. Hee...

So yah, will be going to accompany Shariffah to see the Doctor then off to studying with Lin in a few hours time. Before i end today's entry, wanna say something to the bf. Though he's only going to read this when he comes back during the weekends, i will still be saying it now.

Dear Bf,
It have been rough for us those few days.
I apologise for all the trouble i create.
I really am sorry for all that seem to be a hassle & trouble for you.
I apologise again that you have to be the one loving me.
Hopefully my flaws and imperfection will not be the barrier to our love story.
It's going to be a year now, I appreciate you for still holding on & always being patient with me.
I'm sorry that my flaws and imperfection can cause a lot of misunderstandings between us but no matter what happens, my feelings for you have always been true and that i truly love you hun. Just don't give up on me k syg because you're my only hope. ilu!

A Beautiful Date.

6th February 2008
It was really a day i will treasure & not ever forget.
It was the best date ever.
We don't need to have everything to have a perfect date.
Being with each other, talking under the beautiful stars was just PERFECT.

Dear BF,

Walking on a path of air

Seeing your faces everywhere

As you melt this heart of stone,

you take my hand to guide me home and now, I'm in love.

Holding your hand

I won't fear tomorrow.

Here were we stand, we'll never be alone.

I'm sorry i'm ain't perfect for you.
As much as i tried i know i can't.
But i thank god, you're still by myside till now.

& hun, i realised now that
Love does not consist in gazing at each other,
but in looking outward in the same direction.
Indeed YOU've become the meaning of my life! <3

I Love Bf!

Finally, today's the last day of semester 2, Year 2!
Yet, assignments still not done yet.
Guess this is a self-declared holiday kot?
Sebab lagi ader exam
How nice!

Today was supposedly a happy happy happy day for Yus!
Why?!!
Because my syg called me the moment i manage to change the movie maker to WMV format!!

Like finally, after trying it so hard the whole day just now & the whole night yesterday.
I didn't know what i click then it was ok!
The feeling of achieving it was superb man.
Relieve stress & frustration.
& to share all this with Lin, was great great great.

(Gambar muker basi taken during while doing ITA ytd!)

Dear Lin,
Again Lin, thanks for being sucha fantastic partner in assignments/projects!
You're great.
We went through a lot to complete our assignment but i hope you not serik to do those assignment with me.
It's a joy & blessing to have you sharing ideas & knowledge for projects & assignments for these 2 years.
Hopefully year 3 will be a better year for us ok babe? Love you la!!!
**Hugs**

& back to the bf.
Yups yups yups!!
He finally CALLED me!
Tears of joy actually rolled down my cheecks as soon as i put down the phone with my game boy!
Gosh i super miss him la!
Can't wait for his return on Sunday.
Unfortunately i can't be fetching him from the airport because he need to help out at his camp.
So he will be going to his camp right after. =(
How unlucky to have your camp near your house!
URGH!!!!

& to the BF,

dear Syg,
come back soon and put me in your arms again k hun?
I miss you tonnes!
You are the reason that i can smile!
I love you!

& i'm left with CD 2.2,
Psychology for Exceptional Children storybook!
Btw, Shariffah, sorry tadi tgh stress ehh ngan IT projekku!
Cannot join you guys!
Next time tau ok?! =))

Yesterday was sucha hectic day.
I'm so drained out of energy till today.
Did SF individual critical analysis today and i really cracked my brain.

Yesterday was hell.
Firstly, my dearest laptop is crashed with some irritating, idiotic and frustrating virus!!
The virus was so bad that it was so hard to clean it off till the Cal 2 person gave up.
He said it's time, it's time for what?
To reformat my whole laptop!
I was freaking out already.
I mean com'on, its the most busiest moment.
Assignments due and i so need my laptop.
Goodness, i almost cried when they reformatted my (D:)
Now everything there is lost.

The virus was so strong that it actually crashed my Norton, Symantec Antivirus.
That's why it couldn't detect.
The person downloaded for me the new AVG and then it could detect and heal it.
Gosh, so troublesome. So meanwhile, my laptop can still be used.
But after all assignments done i sure gotta reformat.

What's worst, not only my laptop but even Lin's and Nad's!
Now Nad's laptop is the worst.
I think Khai's getting it also because we all shared our thumbdrive.
& so that's how it get affected.. Goodness!
&& my desktop is also down with virusES!

That's it la Yus, ur doomed!!
FP assignments down, left SF, SYC, CD 2,2 & idiotic ITA.
We gotta do movie maker this time.
URGH!!!
& ytd i went home from school at 10 to complete our SF and SYC that is both due this Friday!
Was super super tired.
Till now. In a while more going on skype with Lin to discuss about ITA!
Goodness, when is all this ending?!!!

Oh btw, met the busted 2 on Monday after school for dinner.
We ate at west coast. We were like hungry ghost!
But the mee goreng so pedas, so nice! & the rojak was superb.
Still we couldn't finish the rojak! Haha...
The hungry ghost too full already.
It was sucha long time since we met & it's nice to do some catching up though its only for a while.
Thanks for the day babe! Hope you have a nice date just now! Haha!!
Diyana was suppose to join us but Fikri gotta rush.
& Sab called & say maybe she's joining but she didn't.
So after dinner went home to continue with my SYC booklet.
Gees it was so confusing to do. Thanks Khai for the help.

Monday was also my last attachment. =(
Gonna miss my toddlers, N1s and K2s.
Though i'm sure i'm not coming back to carpe diem next semester, i still hope i will be back there for my practicum in year 3.
Love the people there. Carpe Diem Rocks.
Thanks to Teacher Wendy, Teacher Yani, Teacher Rani & Teacher Corinne for all your help and guidance throughout my practicum at carpe diem.
I had a long hug and goddbyes with my K2s.
Li shi snap for me a video whereby the K2s said 'i love you teacher Yus'.
Look at the video, there's this girl, she was so sad that she couldn't hug me, so she stand aside with a sulky face.
Haha... so cute la this clever children! Love them.
Will drop by there when i'm free.

What's the sweestest was this boy.
At first when i came in the centre he said, i don want love you.
You very naughty.
I was like blank.
When i'm leaving, i told him i'm not coming back.
He pull me and whisper to me," Teacher Yus, i love you already you don't go ok?!"
How cute was that man! Goodness, iwas so emotional.
Felt like crying and not want to leave them.
I feel so attached with Carpe Diem already. =(

ilu

I miss my Hisham.
I love you BF!

First stop!! See that picture?!
Yes yes, that's ITA case study results. Its a pair work which i did with NUR AZLINA SUBARI!! It was the toughest assignment i tell you!
Lin have to stay over my huse for quite a few times to finish this up.
We have to create a website for a special needs childcare centre.
We need to use everything, from dreamweaver, to photoshop to most importantly, FLASH macromedia.
Flash is super leceh yet we did a great movie clip. Thanks Lin! Tak sia sia aku ckp, 'H E A D= Head!' Haha... i try to put our flash movie clip with your people to see! Hee...
I'm just so proud of our flash movie clip. Well done babe!!
This assignment took us a few weeks to fnish it up completely.
Thanks Lin for being a great partner. & our hard work sure did paid off.
And got my language arts lesson plan that is assessed by Belinda (my lecturer) and guess what my sandwich making lesson, i got an A also!! Yay!! Super happy la Yus today! Hee... Alhumdulilah!!

Today was a hectic day! Like super hectic.
Class starts at 9 just now & i wasn't late for the first time because my brother send me to school. Hee.... one assignment down. Language arts lesson plan submitted.
I'm left with Science activity kit, Special needs Story book, Singapore family frienly city project, ITA movie maker assignment and Math lesson adn overall evaluartion and journal to submit.
Had Effective Communication Speech test just now. I don't know how i fair.
Will be having Advanced Speech training assessment tommorrow.
Just gotta pray hard! Gees.
Went for lunch at KFC with my girls jus now for lunch and off to find out Science kit materials. Was not able to find BINOCULARS!
Wonder where should we get it from. Hmmm...
End test at 6:30, rush home for tuition.
& now i'm super tired. Goodness!!
So i'm off to get som rest and sleep. Good night world.

-10 more days.-

Exhausted-

Semester's ending and exams coming.

Assignments dued and it keep on going.

Wth!
Got a new ITA assignment just now that is dued on the 4th Feb.
When the bf is finally coming back from Taiwan!
How irritating!

For some reasons i have been having te mood to blog nowadays.
Maybe its the new layout. I just so love it.
Simple and plain.
& blogging just relieves my stress due to assignments & of course been mssing the game boy super ultra loads!!!! =(

&& oh yah, love that picture with the ever so beautiful NORA DANISH!!
She's hot!! If she's my sister-in-law, i'm so contented! (rather than some young freak!) Haha...
Dream on Yus!! =p

-12 more days till he's back.-

I'm happy today. Don't ask me what's withthe glow thingy at my waist! =)
Like thank God! Math lesson, assessment and Math learning centre all done!!

Did my learning centre and my assessment just now and my mentor says i passed!!

Alhumdulilah, my hardwork paid off.

Finally all lesson done
I thought my learning centre will be so ugly but it turns out fine.
In fact it was actually colourful ad nice! Haha...
I felt terribly happy and relieve when i see the children exploring & trying out my activities.
They seem to be enjoying the activites in my learning centre.
Some were even so engrossed with the activities.
Hopefully Belinda will pass my lesson plan that she will be marking.

Not been feeling quite well today.
Feeling lethargic and so unwell.
Guess i'm too tired and exhausted with all these lessons and all.
Can't wait for holidays.
Need to catch up on my beauty sleep and rest.
I'm just so so tired.
Life's so hectic.

Next week will be the last day of practicum.
So i will be playing with the toddlers and Nursery children for half of the day and then a closure with my beloved, intelligent K2s!
They are just awesome la. They rawk my lessons! Love them!

So yah that's Teacher Yus's Math Learning Center!!

I don't know what i'm doing here when i'm having my Math lesson, learning centre and assessment tmr.

I got a new hp as my late hp had a software crashed.
So just thought of having a new layout here.

Okay enough, i needta get some sleep now.
&& bf messaged me just now & guess what he remembers our special day amidst his busy schedule!!
How can i not love him?!

Gees~

&&& HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY CANDY ONG MEI XIN!!!!!!

feeling down

Mood totally switch off right now.
It's the 20th and i'm alone.
Anws Happy 11th monthsary bf!
I realised that i have no one.
I'm always so busy during the day & at night when i want some fresh air, go out for some leisure or something i have no friends to turn to.
Particularly because the girls, they can't go out at night.
The guys? I don't know who else i will go out with besides bf and sydi.
Life's a bore now. Since i'm alone, i rather drown myself to more work even at night.
My brother have been really a good company these past few weeks but no doubt its kindda boring when each time its only the two of us.
Now i envy those people who have more tha one siblings.
I envy those my age who have a dramatic and interesting life.
My life's so mundane.
I'm running out of words to describe how i'm actually feeling right now.
My room's my best friend now.
I have nothing else to say.

Hello world!
Look at the time now and i'm still awake?
Been sleeping this late these past few days because of Math lesson, learning centre, assignments and projects.
Macam maner tak saket?!

But i can't afford to fall sick now.
Too many things to do yet so little time.
Urgh, i'm like so racing for time.
Especially for Math Lesson. Gees!!
How frustrating can life be now?
Assignments piling & bf haven't been calling!
URGH!!! No motivation yet Yus have to keep going.
You can do it Yus! Jia You!!!!
Whoah!!! =((

HATE means HATE

When i say i HATE it i mean it!

I may sound bitchy now but i don't give half a fking care about it.

The thought of THEM makes me wanna puke.

The sight of HER in school just makes my blood boils.

Heck, i hate YOU la!

Grow up kiddo!

I miss my boyfriend!

down with High Fever..

So what actually happen to me? Well it first started that Tuesday night. I already felt uneasy. Throat felt kindda different & suddenly block nose at my left nose. Thought the running nose is coming back so i ate my previous medicine then went off to sleep. Then around 5 am in the morning, i was so cold. Shivering like mad but my body was all hot. Woke my parents up. I was having a terrible headache. I could not stand the coldness and my body temperature. Tried to sleep but till around 6 or 7 plus i cannot take it anymore, i told my mum i need to go to the hospital. As my private doctor does not open on wednesday and its still early, no otherdoctor is open, i have to go to the hospital. By then i already had difficulty in breathing. So no choice, gotta go hospital.

So i was sent to SGH. Upon reaching my temperature was already so high, 39.7 degrees. The nurse was so shocked and brought me straight to the isolation and observation ward. Then have to do ECG, x-ray and blood check, And again, idiotically i have to be poked like 3 times this time because the doctor couldn't get my blood. He said my veins was too small. But improvement though because last year when i was admitted the doctore poke me 5 times! Now 3 times only. The doctor was nice though. He knows its painful, he stops and calm me down which the previous doctor doesn't do. Then they say i have to be put on drip because i lack of water due to my high temperature. So i was poke again to put the drip. One bottle that is. They ask me to rest and sleep after they give me the fever jab because i'm allergy to paracetamol i have to given a jab. Idiot, i hate jabs!! But oh well, i cannot sleep. The headache was such a killer. Not only that, the ward was super duper cold la. Even the nurses were complaining that it was soooo cold. Goodness. I asked for 3 blankets! Imagine a normal healthy person is already so cold, what more one who is down with HIGH FEVER!! Gees...

Just when i was about to sleep, the nurse came in a woke me up to take my blood pressure. See how am i suppose to sleep? At around 12 to 1 the doctor came in and told me that i have a viral infection and i should be fine after the drip, medicine and all. But i need loadsa rest else the viral come back again. The doctor also says that my heart was kindda not normal at first, it beats rather fast and i don't know what he say. But he say that maybe due to the high fever but it should be fine by now. My headache needs a few days to recover so after one bottle of drip i cn finally go back home. Home sweet home! I was at the hospital for like about 6 hours, wonder what mama & papa was doing by then. Pity them, they must be so tire. Haish, why must i even fall sick?!

I had 3 days MC and the doctor already warned me to better rest at home. & what the hell i have my activity kit to submit today!!! I was panic. How can the girls do my part for me? I really felt guilt. But i can't bring myself to my laptop and do it. Brain is really not functioning and the medicine was super duper drowsy. Sorry to my girls for the trouble. I really am sorry. Thanks to thes stupid viral infection i make sucha mess right? Thanks Lin for editing my persnal reflection and everything. I can't help it but to be here blogging to say my thanks and sorries to you girls. I owe you girls so much. Thanks ya?!

And the reason why i'm here amidst these drowsiness still is because i have to post an entry before the 12th. Boyfriend's leaving for Taiwan tommorrow! How irritating can that be? Just wanna say take care sweetheart. He'll be spending like more than 2 weeks in the jungle and then the later part in the city looking for hot chicks. What hot chicks?! HYAK DUSH!! Don't ya even think about it? I'll cut you into pieces when you're back!! Haha... no 'see no touch' thoery ehh. See also cannot! Hahaha... Anyhoos, i'm sorry because i'm sick i couln't be with you a day before you go. Actually my plan was to drop and see you today after my school ends but oh well, thanks this sickness. I'm sorry hun! Hopefully we'll see each other tommorrow as i'll be sending you off okay hun?! Just reminding you that Yus loves Sham and Yus miss Sham to the max. Like always Yus will await for Sham to come back and grab her in his arms again! Don't forget to miss kiter k awak? Sayang awak...

*I'll always wait for YOU.*

DJ-ing experience!

It was a nice experience dj-ing with Lin & Nona Kirana just now at RIA 89.7. Although, it was just an hour, or rather less than an hour, its was fun fun fun. Actually, we was not given a chance to give a dedication at the end of the segment like how KC would do because definately different dj have different style of conducting thier segment. & moreover it was kak Nona's first day at RIA! Haha... so yah i guess she was rushing for time. So to those who wanted us to say their names on air, we didn't have the time to. We are so sorry ya. To people like, Sabbie, Pammie (who don understand yet she gave me her fullest support), to my fellow cendekiawans, Nad, Khai, Saleha & HMS delegates gang and many more. To Shafiqah Sahir and Nisa who send SMS and the teke teki! Thanks so much! Sorry ya people!! & thanks for your well-wishes and support. To those who message and all, appreaciate it loads. Love ya guys.

So this is the beautiful kak Nona Kirana, not Nora people. Haha... thanks kak for choosing us as the DJ pelajar for the day.

Not only Kak Nona was there but Kak Fiza, Abg KC & Zan was also there. Our dj lame was busy just now but we still sempat take pictures. Hahaha... Thanks Kak Fiza for fetching us since we were lost to the conty. Haha...

& oh yah, Abg Riz came in to check us out since Kak Noorin message him i was there. & for the first time since i always see him at Mak Ijah's house, he's not wearing cap!! Hahaha... Can see his hair already. Hahaha....

Nice meeting them all. Hope game boy was there. Hope game boy can hear me on air. =((Had fun just now. & now's another saddest part, i gotta start my assignment in a few minutes time! & i'm having running nose like AGAIN!! Urgh... i hate this. 2 assignments, 1 test and 1 presentation down. Still moore to go. Math lesson plan & learning corner have yet to start! & i am so behind time! Dead Yus! Alright, i'm outta here!

Tune in to 89.7FM

Yours truly & Nur Azlina Bte Subari will be on air @ RIA 89.7FM tonight!
Do tune in to us at the segment skoolz, hanya untuk pelajar.
We will be the 'Dj Pelar' or 'Student Dj' for that hour.
It's 8-9pm!
Do hear us out & do keep your smses coming in because we might be reading it out!
Ciaoz~

=), =p, =(, ;-), =O

Okay seriously, don't know why such a pose by YuShaM!
Haha.. at first the pose was nice then haha... bluek bluek bluek!!
That was taken on the new year's day!

Got to see my game boy for dinner just now.
After so long, gosh i miss him so!
He will be flying to Taiwan in 5 days time.
Urghh!!! How frustrating!!
Assignments sucha heartache, Advanced Speech Training Test?
I think i screwed that test so bad!
Science Kit still not done.
EC, Science lesson and DPIP kit dued!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
Math lesson plan have yet to start!!
Learning centre no idea!!!!!!
Teacher Yus is SOOOO Dead, dead, dead!!
I hate this period after the 2 weeks term break!!
Rush, rush and more rush to go before exams!
All the best to me!!
Thanks Li Yu for lending me your WHY WHY LOVE!!
Like finally, but i can't watch it as yet, so many things to be done now.
Can't wait for February & 2 months holiday!!
I WANNA WATCH WHY WHY LOVE!!!
Whine whine & more whine!! Hahaha!!
Whining is sucha stress reliever!!!
Okay, tommorrow Teacher Yus is meeting the K2s, so gotta catch some sleep.
Night world!

Wow, New Year!

Just wanna say Goodbye 2007, Hello 2008!

Thanks to the 2 best friends. You know i know why!

Thanks, love you guys!!

Mcdonald breakfast later with game boy!

& i wish i could stop time!