:(

If there's is word which describes, truly, utterly, terribly upset, disappointed and worthless.
Then, that's how I'm feeling right now.
It's happening again & again.

My only birthday present would be the old you,
the you who makes me believe that I'm so much in love.

Nevertheless, happy birthday you.

Whatver.

I'm such in a 'whatever' mood today. Seriously whatever. I'm feeling so exhausted these few days i don't know why. Have not been feeling well and good also. I hate this feeling. Maybe it's just the stress I'm facing each day. It's an amazingly hectic life I'm going through. Sometimes i wish I'm still in my childhood days. Where i have nothing to worry about. No responsibilities. Just a carefree life. Sleep, play, eat and of course receiving endless love, care and concern.

OK whatever to that. I opened to check on my blog and the first thing i read was Kak Sal's tag. She reminded me that my birthday's just around the corner. Well, i hate to admit this but actually i fear of my own big day. Nothing excites me when it comes to my birthday. Just tonnes of fear.

4 years ago, i was really ill during my birthday. Was admitted in and out of hospital because of acute bronchitis. 3 years ago, i lost my hand phone at home when i was having my birthday party. 2 years ago, i celebrated my birthday with just nobody but tears. I thought i could celebrate it with someone so special to me as promised but i didn't know i was hoping for too much. I was utterly hurt and yep my birthday ended with just tears of loneliness. & a year ago, i celebrated my birthday with just myself again. Though it was the year i found my love, the love one have to go somewhere far leaving me alone.

So you see, nothing special. No beautiful, interesting surprises happen on my birthday. Simply nothing. Not like most of you who will get fantastic surprises and presents. At times i do envy those people. Even the closest people around me feel that my birthday is just like any other day for me. But, oh well, i accept life just as it is. I shall not complaint much because i know i still have people who love me as much even if they don't remember it's my birthday. I'm blessed still to have my family. They may not be as rich to give me expensive presents but their presence is enough to make me the happiest girl on the big day.

Yeah so, birthday is just something i don't really look forward to. Adding on to it, i gain a year older each time my birthday comes, which means I'm getting older! Ha ha... so no biggie. & so my birthday falls on a festive month this year. My mum insist that we'll do something this year but nah I'm not agreeing to it. After much thinking, i guess, there isn't much to celebrate about. So i said thanks to my mum, maybe we could just give it a pass for my birthday thingy.

So last word for the day. Whatever.

It was a long tiring, lethargic and exhausting day at work. Had oral exam with the P2 after curriculum time just now. I felt so sad that i have to give this Malay girl a big Zero because she just gave up and says that 'she don't know how to read'. I tried to prompt her and helped her through the phonics way but she totally refuse to try. I have no other choice but to be fair with my grading system.

I was still in a dilemma, choosing between Wheelock college and NIE. I guess Lin too. But whatever my decision is going to be, I still asked Mr Azhar for an appraisal/testimonial since i have been teach at BLGPS for quite some time already. Thus, this means that i have more work to do now. VP's coming to last period of class on Friday to check all the books. Argh!! I am so dead if he's gonna really checked my class's Maths workbook! Like SO dead! I am so used to being assessed mainly on my teaching and lesson plans in the Early Childhood Field, so when it comes to assessing the way i teach & mark, i think I'm going to be so dead!! Grr....

Amidst the tight schedule just now, RH called to say my baju raye is ready for collection. Ya Allah, malas pulak nak amek! Must go Geylang like again. I used to love going there for the food but now, i'm just too tired to walk and walk.

Great VP's checking the pupil's book on Friday and i have yet to finish marking my spelling book, compo, Eng practice paper, science test! Matilah Yus!! Dush!

Strange

It's strange how we quarrelled and argued. Then make it up to it, like so fast. After which we laughed about it. Gosh, i guess these are all the things that enlightened our relationship. My day's not complete without his presence. Love is such a strange thing. Sometimes i wonder how this love thing really works for people. Ish!

Apart from that, I've seen a few heartbreaks this month. It scares me because it happens to someone so close and dear to me. It's true when i say we girls are meant to love only one guy in our life. But guys, they can love 2, 3, 4 girls at the same time. Life's strange nah? What you did to her was just so mean. When you're not honest from the start, don't expect to get her heart at all. These little things makes me fear of being in love.

Nevertheless, everyone have their flaws. That includes me and my love, Sham. How bad he is, i still dare to say that he's the most patient guy i ever seen. Thanks syg for being ever so patient, tolerating my mood and everything.

& to 'that person', you hurt her again, you just watch out. My family is out to get you. You have the money so what? We have our pride and you can never let us down just like that! Ass!

It's Twentieth.

19 months back, on a beautiful night,
he brought me to a lovely place,
and we dance the night to this lovely song.
How i wish time will just stop that very moment.

smiles.

Okay the picture is random. But i love that smile. =)

When hardwork is being paid off.
I feel absolutely relieve, satisfied and not to mention...
H to the A to the P to the P to the Y = HAPPY

Thank God!

I don't like yesterday.

I feel so rejuvenated after few days of hell & nights of tears.
Yesterday was indeed a frustrating + sad + irritated + tired + worried + sick = exhausted day.
After all that happened, his words just rejuvenate me.
It's been sucha long time since those words comes from the dearest him.
His words of assurance just make me feel all better again.
But 15th September was bad bad bad bad bad!
How i wished i have his shoulder to cry on.

Those few months hadn't been a good one either.
Really hope to see him soon.
It's strange how i'm like crazily in love and miss him when he's not by my side.
But when we meet, we'll either quarrel or argue.
His rare calls is enough to make me on cloud 9 and forget all my problems and worries.
Haha... guess 'Marah marah sayang' do exist. Hur hur...
I wonder what would become of me when he starts sailing.
Gosh, i so don't want that day to come. :(

Some Story

Thanks to Luqman Hakim for the Fish & Co treat! & thanks to these 2 man for the wonderful day that friday. After some time i started being crazy and laugh so much again. I realise something, i think Di & me have this best friend telepathy or something. Haha... we always, co-incidentally wore the same colour when we meet. Just like that time when Man & me gave him a birthday surprise. See... black again.

Man spoil ah takder the same telepathy. He's colour is so out!
Hahaha.... && hidup Mustafa la ehh! Wahahahahahaha..... Cheerios!

If life's a remote control...

I could feel the rush of my adrenaline as i turned to my left, and saw a full speeding vehicle approaching me instead of you chasing to grab my hands. My heart skipped a beat and droplets of tears began rolling down my cheeks. Covering those tears just so you wouldn't notice, I began questioning myself, why wouldn't you there for me? Why was i left alone? & when I'm alone again, my mind wonders for the answer. Which then i realise that I'm losing you. I'm losing the 'you' whom i knew a few months back. The 'you' who will never let go of my hands wherever i go. The 'you' who was full of love and affection. I miss it so much. & now when i start reminiscing the past, i began to collect buckets and buckets of tears.

I'm tired of what life have put me through (though i know i shouldn't be feeling this way). How unfair life can be yet i still love you as much. At times i wonder why isn't there any explanation to it. & for other yous' who have been with me since the day i get to see the light. When you don't approve to my future and my only hope, my heart sank. I felt so crushed and weak. I'm stuck between love and life. I never want options because i want both. But why is life so cruel that we have to make sacrifices all the time. With so much sacrifices, how can anyone enjoy life?

I believe there isn't any single soul who could understand how i truly feel right now. What more understanding this entry of mine. I just thought i could just pen down my thoughts here. Trying very hard to put it to nice words so that sorrows sounds like joy and joy sounds like little giggles that are able to accompany this loneliness throughout the night.

'Hope'. The word that I've always been using. Practically because I've been hoping and hoping that things will get better for us each passing day. With that word too, i dared to dream for our future. The future that will not only bring two hearts together but also a complete home just like a jigsaw puzzle without any missing parts. When you decided to find other people instead of me a moment ago, my heart felt terribly painful. Like it was just stabbed by a very sharp knife. I was weakened by your actions. Maybe i was 'hoping' too much but i can't help doing it because you have been my only hope and it will always be come what may.

I have always been looking forward for my future. Since young, thinking about my future will carve a smile on my face. Least did i know that besides having other phobias and fear, i have no other fears but just my future. My biggest fear now, having to live life without you, brings the greatest impact in my life. I i know falling too deep only results in hurt and separation, i will never allow myself to fall ever. I never dared to close my eyes anymore to dream about the future. But if i could, I'd rather live in the past because i was much happier back then. If only life's a remote control... everyone would be satisfied.

Opposites attract

I've been pondering, and wondering over this term again and again as soon as i woke up today. 'Opposites attract'. Don't know what comes into me that I start questioning myself, does it even exist? If they don't, then why is this term created in the first place? Maybe my mind was at whirl and I began to lay down the similarities and differences. Which then, i realised when there's too many diffrences can a relationship be said, 'happily ever after'.

When two people come together and vowed to live life together, the most important factor here is definately the commitment and mutual understanding with each other. But when disagree between two parties starts occuring, how can couples survive each passing day without that sheer satisfaction and happiness with the decisions made? I really hope to know if 'Opposite Attract' really happens to couples and that can couples who shared mostly differences and not similarities live together under one roof and lead a happy life together. I tried browsing through the net and did some readings. I came across this article title, Opposite attract but marry?'. I don't know how reliable it is but sme portions of it sounds kindda true. For those who's interested to check it out. Just click on the article title that is in bold. Alright, pardon my curiosity for today.

It's strange how a stranger can pour out what's in their heart and at the end of the day both felt at thier best. Thanks Muz for the great Wednesday. I was too sick to go anywhere with her after work so she decided to come over to my crib. & of course we had loadsa things to say to each other despite knowing each other for less than 2 months. It was sucha blessing to meet her and be one of her friends. May you find your Mr Right soon babe!

Working in BLGPS had been a joy. Besides the work load as a form teacher, I met beautiful friends that always cheer up my day. Apart from Muz darling, Aliff have been such an entertainer at work. Was surprised to receive a beautiful sunflower on my desk that Tuesday morning. I've always love sunflower and roses. Thanks so much Mister, may you get that girl that you are falling like water. :) And then the Boost chocolate from Muz. And the first person who will give me a warm morning greeting, Andrea then Cikgu Sunari. They just make my day despite of the hectic day i face every day. Thanks so much colleagues. Appreciate your presence in my life.

My heart sank as i browse through some webpages. I shall not state where. It's just the actions someone so dear to me took. It just shows how much it has faded as time flies. Only question left, Why must you do that? I can't help it but tears have been rolling down my cheeks as i stared blankly at my laptop screen. I'm so hurt by it i don't know why. Just so terribly hurt.

Those few days was hell for me. Being me who will just bottle things up, my family have been really sucha darling. They have always been the one supporting me in whatever i do. Can't imagine what's gonna happen to me without them. Hope this Ramadhan brings a ray of light and hope for me to face the future ahead that's full of obstacles and challenges. Happy fasting people!

My only birthday wish:
"I hope this pimple on my forehead that has long been there will disappear like totally. real soon!" =(

And as quoted by haq in his blog:
"Love, you are enjoying it, i'm the one bleeding."

Much love,
Yus

Fish Spa & Escape Themepark Sensation

After seems like so long, i think i had fun again. I began to smile and laugh again. It had been sure a long weeks of hell for Yus & Sham! There were just so many things to do at work for us and we haven't been meeting that much lately. We hadn't been spending so much time together. & so today, i had so much fun with my love, mak cu and nini! I've been meeting Sham since Friday, which makes it 3 days straight. Although there are hiccups during the meetings, i guess i'm still thankful that i could see him again. I'm like the happiest girl when i get to see him. How much we quarrel or argue i still love him as much! Guess, its just a way for me to understand him better. God, i love this boy! Dear God, give him all the happiness in this world and allow me to love him with all my heart always and forever!

Tgh blog touching touching nie, lagu Lifehouse You & Me lak berkumandang at my PSP! Haha... the song in which i dance with Sham on the night of 20th February 2007! Hee... anyways moving on, Saturday Sham accompanied me to the library and i finally found and borrowed the novel titled, Tangisan Bulan Madu by Samsiah Noor. There's 4 volume altogether so borrowed 1 from CCK library and then we went down to JW library. In which Sham and me discovered that there'sa prata shop at JW library! Interesting! Must go try it out one of the days with him. Hee! Btw Tangisan Bulan Madu is an interesting novel. For those who can get TV2 Malaysia at home do watch it on every Monday to Wednesday (i think) at 9pm. Super nice story to watch and read.

Then Sham & me decided to go to Qian Hu Fish Farm to do the Fish Spa since Sham's feet skin is not getting better. Asked Mak Cu & nini along since it's the school holiday. So i lazy to type so much so let the picture do the talking. Besok sahur dok, mlas nak type panjang2! Haha...

In the train to CCK.

Fish Spa. Said to cure all kinds of skin diseases.

I'm going to try it the next time round! Hur hur!
Takut sikit! Ikan gigit la sehh!! Alive fish mine you!!
Hahaha!

The tortoise! Super big and cute! Pandai lak pose!

Mak Cu say that's Pokok Ciku! So...
Pose, kasi mama tengok! Haha!

The fish says they need to sahur also to puase tmr! LOL!

Then my sayang tried a bigger sensation.
He tried to put his feet on the bigger fish!

See all the fish sticking to his feet. Ok maybe can't see it clearly!

That's like how big the fish is for the 'Bigger Sensation' part.
Haha... yikes!!

Then i ask the counter person to help me snap for us.

But he said this persition better because there's the fish spa banner.
Haha... oh yah it was like raining cats and dogs that moment.

After that went to see the fish gallery.
That's a big IKAN PARI!!
Masak asam pedas punyer sedap!!! YUM!

The biggest fish there. Don't know what is it called!

This boy of mine he don really enjoy posing in front of the camera.
So gotta curik curik take his picture.
ShhhH!!!!

As cited by Mak Cu, tu ikan pontianak.
Badan putih mata merah! LOL!

I think these fish is beautiful when it comes together, but not individually though!

Beautiful goldfish & beautiful yusliza!
(Walaupun ader pimple mesti ader high self-esteem babe! Hee!)

According to mama after looking at this picture, its a jengkerik.
It make tis weird kindda sound that you can hear at night in the forest.

Matairku said its nasi!
BLUEK!!! WORMS!!!!!

Dah dah balek! Muker buruk tgh makan! Haha!

But kan kiter tak balik kiter go to ESCAPE THEMEPARK! But there was a lot of rides under maintenance though. & i find myself trying some rides though i keep reminding Sham that i'm scared of heights. Oh well, my boyfriend makes me forget what's my fear. Nothing fears me when i'm with my love. Hee!! Manage to only snap these picture because Mak Cu was basically unwell, and noone is able to snap pictures for us. I tried the Go Kart though for the first time! Hahaha... first time mah, slow ah! I'm basically the SLOWEST!! Haha... But my lovely boyfriend, he can have the choice to just zoooom like the others and leave me but he waited for me and be the second last with me! Hee... sayang dier la! But he ah, dah la aku tak berkeyakinan diri sikit, dier main bump bump lak kreta ku! Sabar jer! But still sayang dier la!!

& so besok puase! Besok tak keje!! School Holiday! & besok Teacher's Day! Happy Teacher's day to all Early childhood Advocates, Teachers of Boon Lay Garden Primary and Everyone who shares their knowledge with the younger ones! Teacher's Day celebration at BLGPS was great! It was sad that i'm unable to make it for the Teacher's Day dinner at Putri Pan Pac that Friday. Didn't know it was Yantee's last day also. So farewell to Cikgu Iryantee kiter yang akan berpindah ke Jurong West primary! Aku akan merinduimu kawan merepekku di office! Hahaha... My thanks too to my primary 4/3 pupils who have beautify my desk with all kinds of gifts and flowers. Stay happy and well-behaved this fasting month alright. Please, Miss Liza tends to get all thirsty after scolding you people la. Haha... Love you guys! =)

Introducing the RTs & CTs of BLGPS that menggempakkan the Staff Common Room in BLGPS!
LOL!! Satu tak termasuk!
Our Mr Aliff the sweet talker.
& the-so-cannot-be-a-photographer guy! Haha!

& that's Andrea, the one who rejected Aliff's love proposal! Haha!!

So dah lah, penat Yus bebel! Haus tau nak puaser! Haha... updating my blog late at night like this remind me of the times where lin, elias, kyn, ahmad and many more MCC members who will go online and crap till late at nights. & most of us were single then. Haha... & it was nice telling & listening to stories wit Ahmad till sahur! Hahaha... & now he is an army boy just like my sweetheart Sham! Ok people, i need to say this. I miss Sham like mad already. It was so much fun to just lie down and lepak with him watch hindustan just now. Having his arms around me tight. Gosh, i wish time could stop right at that moment. =( Ok dah lah, slamat menjalani ibadah puase semua saudara muslim ku! Twees!!

Sesungguhnyer inilah birthday girl!

A shout out to this laydee name Nur Azlina Subari!

She turned 19 yesterday.
I was so busy with the monyetans at the botanical gardens that i forgot to give her a birthday wish.

Gees... i owe you one ok Lin!!
May you are blessed withgreat health always & stay pretty always ya?! =)
Aku rindu kau la wanit-slalu-lambat-mcm-aku! LOL!!
Was nice talking on the phone with her just now.
But not nice to hear she called me because she was practically eating kropok lekor, durian and then chewing gum!

Darah naikk!!!!

Yes, after such a long long time. I'm practically updating. Hee, oh wells. What to say i'm such a busy woman now. Being a form teacher is as tough as putting up 2 learning centres ya know. Haha! 2 periods of art is a free time for me now since they are gone to visit thier dearest one in the ZOO!! Haha, how nice. While i have to go to Botanical Gardens (like again) with my P4s! Anyways, this blog ain't dead yet because Yus is still alive! Yay! Okay lame!

So basically those past few weeks or rather months have been... erm... busy? Hell? Fun? Chaos? I don't know what's the right word. There were just a lot of things happening and i don't even know how to put it in words. Hmm, maybe i should recall. The fun, irritating, frustrating or beautiful part of my life in the past few weeks.

Hmm, where should i start? Okay lets start with what happen like recently. Which is like yesterday! Haha! Went to meet Sham after work becuase he ended work early and then we watched MONEY NO ENOUGH 2! Haha, hilarious and touching movie. I think both Money no enough 1 and 2 were great. Thumbs up to Jack Neo. Hee! & did some shopping becuase i'm in need for working clothes. Then the horrible part was i so down with flu after watching the movie.Like wth?! Actually i've been having sleepless nights lately becuase of block nose. But yesterdat was really bad then Sham accompanied me to the doctor. So yah, was too sick to finish up meeting minutes and all. Grr!! But it was a really nice short date with the love. I've been missing him like so bloody much. Great to see him again and to be back in his arms again. If his arms have keys i'll lock myselfin it. Then throw away the key that NOONE including him can ever get me out of that hug! Hee... love you sayang!

Then recently went out with Di and Man! Di's brilliant last minute call to Man to help him out for his brothers wedding ended up to be a great cathing up session. Was suppose to go damsey road with Man eat ice-cream but Di called. & thanks to di i am so the selekeh to attend his bro's weddind. Sabar jer! Haha! Can't stop whining with Man in the car about how i dressed. Baru balek childcare lagik! Haha... As usual Man and his gilerness-bila-malam-tiba! Still so hyper even though dah malam nak hantar aku balek! Giler ah ini mamat! Haha... TOKYO TOKYO!!!

Then where else? Hmm... Oh, i went on a date with Sham love last last Saturday also and watched Mummy Tomb of the Dragon Emperor. Superb! Wonderful movie worth watching! & i bumped into Ads!! Haha... sucha long long time since we met and i can hardly recognise her. Haha! Hope to bump on more Hua Yians.

Then visit my sick uncle and sham's lovely granny. Speedy recovery to the both of them. & bes friend's mum too. & Man's mum too. So many people are falling sick nowadays. Apart from that, there were many kenduri to go to this month. Includes the kenduri that is held at my own home.

Its really frustrating to be all busy and you don't get to see your love ones often. Thankfully i still get to see Sham like maybe once week. If not i can go crazy! Been missing my CE girls and been meaning to meet up with them. Hope to go out with Di and Man again soon also. Oh well, Man still owe me something. & i miss NUR AZLINA SUBARI la seyy!! Haha! Okay i thought i have loadsa of things to say but as usual i always end up not knowing what to put down here as soon as i start blogging. Damn! Alright! Till then, tata titi tutu!! =)

BOO!

Yes i'm so sorry people, this blog is going to collect dust for several more weeks.

Hee... So...
Farewell and goodbye Kinsland & Hello Boon Lay Garden Primary, Class 4/3!
Still struggling as a form teacher.
Still prefer my lovely preschoolers.
Make me have a stronger determination to continue my degree.
Busy busy busy me.
& so is boyfriend.
Weeks and weeks of hell for us!
Hope everything will be fine real soon for us.

-ymi

I'm so not in the mood to blog. But i don't know what brings me here. Life hasn't gotten any better. I'm still struggling emotionally and physically. Working with children is not the worst part but having to write and plan all those lessons and activities for assignments is such a pain in the ass.

When i decided to blog i have loads of things to say but as i was typing, my mind just go blank. So i guess here's the end.

I'm patiently waiting.

imY-

Hectic Life.

Yes, life has been so hectic. With lesson plans, learning centres, newsletters and CIRPE research project. Everything is piling. Elizabeth say, "You will not have time to pick up your boyfriend's call anymore." That is so true. But one advantage for me, my boyfriend NEVER call. He just hates it. So you can never see Yus bergantung on the phone.

MCYS officer came to check on the centre last Thursday. Goodness, everyone in the school were so kelam kabut. It was very shocking that they came this month because the centre were told that the MCYS will be coming next month. Gees, so it was such a chaotic moment for the teachers. & of course tiring also.

It was such a stressful week for me. Having to redo my lesson plan because the mentor doesn;t approve on it. Had a little arguement with the mentor. Gosh, make me miss Carpe Diem Kidsworld and my mentor Wendy. Wendy is so much caring and concern. But thank God i have Miss Shaikah this time. The K1 and K2 form teacher. She help me so much. Big thanks to her.

So that's my finger puppet. Basically we can't post any pictures of the children in our blog because parents may sue us or whatever. So dared to post this pictures because none of the children's face are clearly seen. Only my sememek face can be seen. So, done my first lesson yesterday but the learning centre not progressing. I don't know when and where to start. I'm like so brain dead. Having to carry out 6 lesson and to do 2 learning corner at such a little time is going to be killer ya know! Oh Gosh!! It was really really a stressful week that i couldn't help myself to break down in the centre after the arguement with the mentor. Year 3 is not good ah... Grrr...

Nevertheless, the children cheer me up and make me smile at the end of the day. They make me leave the centre wih the thought that i still love my job and being in this line has indeed been my profession and passion. Indeed the problem NEVER lies with the children, it's always the adults your working with. How irritating! Again, i still love my job though. So weekends are spent doing lesson plans and preparation and not forgetting CIRPE that is so not progressing. How nice! =)

It's the 20th and so it marks the 16th months since we were together.
Another month of love that will keep on going.
Being with him is so my favourite thing.
If HE ask me if i want anything, i want nothing but just him!
Ily syg! <33

Red red red... =)

Alright, i'm currently sick at the moment. So as much as i wanna update about Abg Asri's wedding, i'm uber lazy. So i'll post some pictures the next time round i update this blog of mine. Meanwhile, i just finished watching the last part of Narnia. Watch with the boyfriend lately but didn't finish watching it because papa fetch me home from his house. Nice ending. I'll give Narnia an 8.5 out of 10!

Yesterday Sham went to meet abang. Didn't know what were they up to. Ask Sham but he said i'll found out the nest day at night. & so abang brought home a RED psp for me. So basically they were out yesterday to get me a psp. & its a RED one. I always wanted that colour. Thanks abg, i so love you. Okay people, don't blame me because i'm too pampered, my abg pampered me since young so what to do... accept je la kan? Haha... So now, abg have one, and Sham have one. Sham so cannot versus Diner Dash with me because he's gonna lose! So wonder what other games can he challenge with me? Hur hur... if i ask Sham what other games, i bet, confirm chop chop he will say this particular game. & its for me to know and for you to find out. Hee... betul kan syg? =)

So kan, besok nak start on brainstorm web, integrated subject web and sequential lesson plan. Haha... macam paham boleh habes besok jer. Will try to do as much as possible though. Will be goind back Kinsland Montessori this Friday and guess where they are going for an excursion. Singapore River la seyy! Haha... this time round the whole school is going. Which includes the playgroup and nursery. Haha... slamat la Cindy with her N1s. I miss my K1s and K2s though! But Friday is the 20th!! Haish, hopefully nothing will stop me from meeting my hero this Saturday. Pls la eh nak dikaterkan dah 9 days tak jumper. Ok besides the fact that he came over my house yesterday after going out with abang. But tak cukup la sey, itu kejap jer. I haven't even have proper hugs and kisses from him. Missing him like so damn much. =(

Before i end today's entry just wanna give a little shout out to that laydee. Sesungguhnyer aku tersangatlah berterima kasih dengan kau Lin kerana sedia membantuku. Thanks babe for always listening and being there for me all this while. Days have been rough, but whatever shits we went through, macam maner kiter kene busted dengan kawan sendiri pun, we know that we have each other to Betul tak? & always know that kiter ini adalah 'orang-orang yang paling cantek dalam dunia'. Baik, baik semua baik, takder yang tak baik! Hahaha... aku sayang kau la Nur Azlina Subari!

So eh dah la, the medicine is taking effect already. Sungguh the drowsy.com. ok then, good night world. =P

Low

I was dumb to be so overly excited to meet him and in the end everything plan just went to waste. I don't know when is the next time i'm going to see him again. Will be busy starting from tommorrow. Thursday & Friday will be busy with assignments, lesson plan and weekend pengantin. After which projects and assignements. Gosh, a few days not seeing him is like years. At times i wonder how he can stand it when i can't. Yus, be strong la com'on. He don't need you as much as you need him you know!!! Urgh!!

I am not at my best today. Was really looking forward to meet him today. I even did something for him. Due to some uncontrolled anger and dissappointment i threw away that masterpiece i made for him. Oh well, i simply can't hold my emotions. Still trying hard to control my feelings. Ish! Ahh whatever, goodbye world.