Splendid Tuesday!

Yes, today is The Three Musketeers day out.
Haha... so that's how I spent my first day of holidays.
Then Resh suggested for a neoprint session.
As usual our dearest Shariffah will not like that idea but too bad she have no choice.
We drag her and force her to pose.
Muahaha... Love the day... Love my girls...

My scanner is such a pain.
I don't understand why its not working.
So that explains the bad quality of the pictures displayed above.
Can't wait for the next meet up for more catching up session.
Love you ladies...

Getting there...

After such a long time again, I'm updating. A lot happened since the last time I updated. After exactly a month I lost dearest uncle, beloved grandma left me too. It was just too shocking and abrupt. I felt so lost when nenek left us just like that. What more it was 2 days before raya. No wonder there wasn't much mood for raya this year. Adek lagi tak puas bermanje dengan nenek... =(

Each time I pass Nenek's room, I'll imagine she's sitting there watching tv or reading the Qur'an. Haish... No more company to watch tv 2 every Monday night, P.Ramlie show. No more reminders to eat medicine everyday at 8pm. No one else to say I'm beautiful each time I wear something new. Oh God, I so miss my cute nenek. Adek doakan akan ketenangan nenek disana. Semoga roh nenek dicucuri rahmat. Al-Fateha.

& then a week after nenek left us, my other uncle from the maternal side who had been suffering from cancer since 2 years ago passed away too. He had always been the nice uncle who never fail to make me laugh whenever we see each other during Hari Raya. This raya seems so quiet.

Tears never stop rolling from my cheecks each time I hear the Takbir. Sungguh sayu dan menyedihkan. Reminiscing the beautiful past with the love ones makes me weak and broke down to buckets of tears. This Ramadhan and Syawal is really a sad sad one for my family and I. Thanks to peers like Lin, Sydi, Man, Khai, Shazz and some others who were really concern about me and not forgetting the cousin, kak Liza for always being there for my family.

Sham came back only for a few hours a week after raya. Am so so glad to see him after so long, but it was really really a short time spent together and of course I can never get enough of him. =( Gosh, makes me miss him even more now that I'm talking about him. But he promise that the next one will be just me and him since its our birthday. That sound really really good tau syg! Haish... after which he might be sailing to Bangladesh again. Urgh! Which means not seeing him for like more than a month or so. Haish... I don't know what's going to happen of me for that period of time missing and not seeing him. I'm not as strong as you expect me to be. I don't know how to face this. Oh God, please give me strength.

God knows how I really want Sham to be with me when Nenek left. I was at my lowest yet I'm still alone. I hate to say this but I really hate his job and people, think twice please if you are considering Marine Engineering. At least spare a thought for your girlfriend. =( Sham said the sweetest thing when we met the other day. I'm really flattered. You are getting so so HOT each passing day too hun. Ahhh... I miss that guy! I'll stop here else, I'll turn crazy. Really! Because I'm just too crazily in love with him and only him.

After all that happen I can't be bothered as much for raya. But ok tak baik kan, so yes I sambut raya ala kadar aje. Felt seriously exhausted. Had tahlil for 3 days straight and the 7th day. The plan to do something to my hair to the salon and all ceased and this is what I did to my hair myself when I went out for raya visiting on the 6th & 7th day of raya. I guess, my straight hair still looks fine and I don't need to do anything to it as yet. As long as it looks presentable, ok la...

Today is not a good day either. Unlucky day I must say. =( The most unluckiest thing that happened was, I accidentally deleted the whole lot of hindi songs in my external hard disk as I was transfering stuff from my laptop to the hard disk. Like WTF??!! There goes like Shariffah's, Shazzman's, Luqman's and maybe some others effort in helping me to download hindi songs since the past 4-5 years. I just feel like hitting my head really hard for this. Urgh!! A.N.N.O.Y.E.D!!!!!!

Will not be updating any sooner either as lappie will be sent to Lin's brother for further treatment. Something is really wrong with lappie. Really hope that no reformating is required. Last day of semester 1 today and holidays starts from tommorrow. But I don't think its much of a holiday since I haven't start anything for my Teacher Portfolio for Juliana's module, Development of a Teacher Portfolio which is due next year. I keep telling myself that I should start like really soon. This is not some kind of assignment that can be done last minute. Maybe first step will be just collecting relevant artifacts for 10 principles. Haish... penat laa...

confusion

I can only envy girls with that kindda hair.
It's not like I can't have it, but I just don't look good with it because my hair's thin.
I even think I'm balding! Gee, goodness!

I know its not good to not look forward for raya.
But oh well, a lot of things happened lately that I don't really have the mood for raya.
But gees gees, I am still happy raya datang lagi!
But ramadhan's gonna leave soon. =(

As much as I am not so into raya this year, I still wanna look presentable.
& the condition of my hair now is so not helping.
I don't wanna rebond, neither do I wanna go to the salon to curl.
Natural hair too may not be a good idea as for now.
Ahhh..... how how?
Should I just get the hair curler and start curling it myself? (though I don't really know how it works)
Straigth hair with hair straightener? (like usual!) :
Haish...

On a brighter note, Sham love message me this morning to say he misses me.
*smiles*

Huge Updates

Phew, it seems like dinosaur years since I last blog. Haha... ok that is so exaggerated. As usual, busy busy me. Haish, feel so lethargic and exhausted. However, interesting things do happen along the way. Haha... so decided to blog today since the important assignments for this week are all done. So here goes the highlights of the few weeks back.

First and foremost, 28th August 2009. Lin's birthday la sehh!! Haha... The day started off with me sabo-ing Lin. I proudly asked Kak Fiza O to sabo Lin in 'Birthday RadiO'. We were suppose to have Environmental Impact meeting on that day but it was cancel. So while she was sleeping, jeng jeng jeng. Kak Fiza call. Maka seluruh Singapura telah mendengar suara Lin yang basi itu. Haha... anyone heard her on air? Haha... we were so freaking excited la. It was definitely a good start of the day for Lin. First surprise accomplish. After which we carried on with our plan that is to break fast together. And so I'll let the picture do the talking...

Told her that I have no present for her... so gave her a small birthday card only first during dinner. Hee... After dinner, second surprise. Khai!! She meet us after dinner straight. & definitely Lin was shock and H.A.P.P.Y!! It's been so long since the three musketeers meet each other. Haha... the gossiping and catching up session was super duper nice!! Then here I gave her a third surprise. My birthday present for her. Hahaha... & the picture talks again...

So plan's a great success. Surprises went on plan and that Friday was a blast!! Btw, Abg Fir join us too. Went Shee-shaing at Al-majlis. & of course its been dinosaur years too since we hang out there. Seriously, a looooong time since we've been there. Hahaha... & then on Thursday, 3rd September, the three musketeers plus Abg Fir had iftar at my place. Big feast la sehh. Aper tak, my beloved mama cooked so many nice foods!! Nasi ayam, mee soto and I can't remember what else. But i know everyone was so full and bloated. Sampaikan Abg Fir tdo la sehh lepas makan. Hahaha... Aiyo... I had tuition while they watch some movie with my parents. & after tuition guess what we do?... Jeng jeng jeng...

Bunga api!! Deprive of the childhood years. Wahahaha!!! Best la sehh... kan lin, kan kan kan? Kan Khai, kan kan kan? Don play play!! We only can play!! Woo hooo.... ohh... we went to Sungei Buloh too last last last week. Can't be bothered to recall what day and date it was. Haha... dah malam brain not functioning well. So there, some of the pictures who wants to talk... haha...

Oh that's Preety my professor for Environmental Impact module. She's responsible for this trip. & joining us were David & Susan Fedo. Wheelock College Director. I swear I was interrupting thier conversation when I asked for permission to snap that picture. Haha... & then we went to Jacob Ballas children's garden at Botanical Garden. Again for Environmental Impact module. It's my second visit there and both my visit there was like raining cats and dogs. The first was with my Boon Lay Garden Primary fours. Here's some displayable pictures. The other pictures if i were to display it, I'll either get killed by Lin or she'll throw away my busuk when she comes my houseto do project on Saturday. Hahaha....

Ok ni anti-climax macam paham nyer gambar. Model maner je sesat!! But nice kan effect?! Hahaa... I exaggerate lagi eh, this is at Jocob Ballas Children's Garden. Naseb nak masok kene ader budak if I'll have my wedding outdoor shoot here. Hahaha....

Haha... and then 6th September, Sunday was papa and mama's 29th anniversary. Not forgetting Abg's 28th birthday too. Was suppose to do child portfolio with Lin. But last last child portfolio buat kiter. Sunday la sehh!! Weekends tau do assignments. Sucha dread! Cannot la, it's too beautiful a day to stress ourself with assignments as yet. So we are going to mug this saturday!! Hur hur...

We went Geylang after dinner to take my baju raye. && I'm excited to say... this loverboy came back last Saturday, on the 5th! It was really a wonderful night spent with him. Though it was just a few hours again, I definitely enjoyed myself. With syg with me, what else can I ask for. Thanks Allah for sending him back to again. Though it was a short while. Went sahur with syg's and my brother. Syg treat to Mcdonald. I ate so much. Nugget and McWings. Ish!! Aper tak gemok Yus!! Had a splendid time talking and talking away. & it was so nice to see my loverboy planning for the future. Seeing him like that makes me wanna marry him tomorrow can?!! Hee... gatal kan Yus?! But anyways, that date spent with syg was really awesome. If I could turn back time, I want 5th September again. Now I'm missing him all over again. =( He kept saying he can't wait for January. His leave. Yes, yang, I can't wait for it too. I nak my sham. *sob* Will wait for your return patietly again hun. Meanwhile take care of yourself hun hun! Cyg awak.

Ok enough the mushyness. Makes me miss him even more. Lately, I've been watching so much Upin & Ipin. Hahaha... Malam2 dah penat pun tengok Upin & Ipin dengan Lin! Haha... with such good company to watch an interesting show, I'm not even bothered to sleep. Haha... was sharing it with Sham when he say:

Sham: Ader anak twin cute.
Me: Uh uh, I nak anak twin macam Upin dan Ipin.
Sham: Ish tak nak la. I tak nak anak I botak. Abeh ader rambut satu je ternaik. Buruk ah!

Hahaha... cute per boyfriend aku ni. Hee... Oh no, macam nak Sham jer nie. Dah ah tak nak talk about him. I'm sooooooo missing him. Kesian Lin nanti kene dengar whining aku. Hahahah... Ok so dah la. This entry is long enough. Don't mind the spelling mistakes. I can't be bothered to check for spelling errors already. Da penat. But I like. This entry brings to me a lot of wonderful memories with my love ones. Ok besok lecture pagi. Nak tdo ah, nak mimpi Sham! Ya huuu!!!

Little Updates..

Lin's twentieth was awesome!
Was glad that she's a happy girl on her birthday and the best part is I PLAN THE WHOLE SURPRISE THING WELL!! Hahaha...
Will update more about the 28th August real soon when i'm free.

Today is visiting the uncles day.
& alhumdulilah both obek and uncle Phillip my god-dad is getting better.
Was glad to see uncle Phillip cracking jokes again.
Speedy recovery to him.
& that picture is so incomplete without my loverboy. =(
Uncle Phillip's 'ah chong'. Haha...

syg is so missed.
=(

A man of few words he is yet loving.

Dearest Uncle, Allahyarhan Wahib B. Warren left us but he will stay in our heart forever.
Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat.
Al-fateha.

I thought that would be all.
After this heart-breaking news, my only uncle beside the paternal side was warded due to a heart attack.
& today he went through a major operation and he is still unconscious.
Don't worry obek, our prayers will always be with you.
Be strong and you'll definitely pull through and in no time you will start teasing and disturbing me again.

When I see how fragile life is, I began to realise that our parents, aunties and uncles and even us are getting older day by day.
We should always treasure every one's presence now when you can still see them.
Death is a promise to all human created by God.
We all have to face it no matter what.

"Boy you know I miss you.
I just wanna kiss you.
But I can't right now so baby kiss me through the phone."

A short date yet BEST!

Dapat jumper sham!!
Yay yay!!

Sayang Hisham!!

Cinta Hisham!!
Rindu Hisham!!

& also...
Sayang Azlina!!!

Missed~

Finally I decided to continue my driving. Haha...
After so long, I renew my membership at BBDC.
Let''s just see if I'm able to make it this time.
Ouh well, hopefully commitment is there this time round Yus.

Met my Busted 2!!! Haha...
Maner ader Shariffah disitu lah aku ketawe terbahak-bahak!!
Like Sharifah say, although its short, we sure do enjoy ourselves.
So excited for our date this weekend yaw!

& schools begins today.
New module: Environmental Impacts
Geography! Like wth!! I took History and I know nuts about environment.
I never pass geography, I wonder how I'm going to make it for this module.
But not bad, assignments for 'drama for children' and 'teaching and learning through arts' module, I As it. Hee... HAPPY!!!

Da lah dah penat ketawe, now Iwanna sleep.
No no, watch hindustan, school at 2 tomorrow ya'all! Yahuu!!

Before that, speedy recovery to my dearest God-father, Uncle Phillip.
Stay strong Kim darling and Jon.

Separated we're not!

Yes hun, if only I'm a princess or the daughter of a pop legend, you wouldn't have to work like this anymore. =(
10 days not seeing you is like 10 years.
& so I gotta force myself to bear this pain of not meeting you for another 10-20 more days.
Arghh...

Well it's ok hun, we can never be separated.
Because our hearts will forever be as one.
Ilmyvvm sygku.

I was looking through my blog history,
when I read the entry I posted about this girl.

I remembered I told Sham about how cute this girl is and I really wished our daughter can be as cute as that.
& he was like, " Eee, tak nak eh muker anak I macam monster. Mata besar!"
& I cannot help it but to burst out laughing.
Muahaha...

Ok, how random can I be.
Missing you loads hunneyboo.
Terlepas rindu sikit when my love... hee...
Go figure...
Toodles.

Farewell to the lovely professors.
Dr. Susan Kosoff who taught me the module on Drama for children & Learning and taching through Arts.
& Dr. Felicity Crawford who taught me Designing Curriculum and Impact of Special needs.
I guess Susan's drama was really exciting and Felicity's knowing more about chidlren with special needs was really engaging.
It was a really a blast of 6 weeks.
Can't believe intensive 6 weeks had past.
See you in Boston next year Susan and Felicity. =)

Thanks to Anisah who drove us to the airport to send Felicity off.
These are the ladies (oops, Ayura is not in the picture) who stayed till almost 3am at my house before the big presentation on Thursday.
Finally its over babes!!
Time to catch up on our beauty sleep.

I'm so enjoying my 1 week break, sleeping, lazing, eating and sleeping lazing and eating.
Hahaha... I am so gaining weight with all the junks during the stressful times in school and now, the piggy attitude at home. Gees...

Nevertheless, I am so so missing my loverboy truckloads. =(
Am still waiting for your return hun.

I want your laugh!

Inilah Sri Mersing terkini dari Wheelock College.
Haha, some underground secret. =)
I promise Lin to do something to this picture?
So Lin, how?
Work wonders tak skill aku?
Muker kau panjang, muker ku lebar.
Kwang kwang kwang

Special thanks to Lin & Family for the extemely fillinf and delicious dinner on Sunday! =P

When sometimes, the hardest thing now is to smile and laugh again.