Visited him last Sunday. Alhumdulilah there was some improvements in him. That eyes as he looked at me. That hands as he gripped mine somehow tells me that he wanted to say something, but he couldn't. My prayers will always be with you Norhan. May you get well real soon. Insya'allah.

Btw Happy birthday papa and kakak norin! =)

Back from Seremban. In all, it was great. Will elaborate once i'm in the mood to.

Happy birthday to the childhood friend, Kimberly!!

Lately these are the movies I've watched. An 8 out of 10 for My Bloody Valentine 3D and a 9.5 out of 10 for 12 rounds. A very recommended movie to watch. Non stop action from the starting of the show.

Sometimes I hate this man here but most of the time I love him to the extreme. <3

I tried so hard to not be such a burden.
I'm loss for words.

That dear friend...

Will be leaving for Seremban in a few hours time.

But wherever I am, my prayers will always be with you Mr Bully.
Please wake up soon ok friend?
We all miss you.
Speedy recovery to you, Insya'allah.

dreams

The existence of you in my life brings to me a ray of hope to find the one.
& when I already do, you left.
The reality of you leaving this world is yet to be accepted, I just can't bear another.

Please God, don't snatch another from me ever.
Because he's my strength and my weakness.
Let all the bad be mine and may the good be his forever.

Liz Creations

Another work of art. Enough of the hands for a while and now the feet. Above's my skin while below's mama.

& yours truly,

(credits to muhd nasri for snapping this spontaneously unglam picture.)

Days hadn't been going quite well. But I'm glad I'm there for them. I may not be of much help but I'm sure being there for them is what they needed the most. May Allah bless us all always.

Will be going to Seremban soon for ECH study trip. Honestly I've never been far away from my family even for a day. Seremban is near yet far. Haish, but still I'm excited to meet my girls and gain some knowledge there.

This is one of the stress relieve agent for me. Unfortunately, I'm only able to do the left hand. If right hand also can do pelik tuu. Anyways, Sham had been sucha dear. Listening to my problems and all. Thanks so much love. If you look properly, there's his name amidst those henna design. Similar to how his name is being carved in my heart. Gosh, ily hun!

Till here, bye world!

I shall give this movie a 7.5 outta 10. It was ok, hilarious and touching but I gues there were just too many characters in the movie that make it all, err, I don't know how to say it but yah. A bit messy. On the same day I went to Arab street to collect my baju. I feel so cheated over some reasons. I was all furious till I cried. Haha... lucky he was nice enough to pujuk me. Kalau tidak memang dier mintak kene DUSH! It was a nice date with him and the rain. Hee... the feeling was perfect being wrapped in his arms. I was kindda emotionally disturbed that day, and only he understands me best. He claims that I easily gets upset ad angry that day. Well, girls just have their days you see. & unfortunately mine was that Saturday. Gees! Oh, we were freezing in the bus. Goodness, super cold man. I don't know how can I survive if I were o go Boston. Sejuk macam bus gitu tak ehh kat Boston? Hur hur!

This boy came to my house last Tuesday. He was so busy with his sailing thing. I'm happy for him that he's NS is going to be over soon but well I don't want him to go. As in sailing. He already went for his medical check-up. As I held his hands tightly, those tears could not stop rolling down the cheeks secretly without him noticing it. I tried be strong because no matter what I will always support him in whatever he do. Having to endure days without him really breaks the heart. I don't even dare to imagine how I'm going to be once he starts sailing again. =(

I know I have been dwelling a lot about this but I just can't help it. Wel at least I whine it here and not to some people. Irritating tu kalau balek balek whine pasal nie kat seorang insan. Hahaha, insan! Reminds me of Reshmel. She loves to use this word during secondary school days. Have been bumping into her quite a few times lately. Hilang rindu dier kat aku. Hahaha!

Been planning to go jogging with Shariffah but you see eh, it has been raining lately. So yeah, terpakse ler cancel. Besides these few days have been tough at school. Having to handling behavior problem child who never stops hitting my boys in class till they bleed. Having to see the victim's parents. Counselling. Haish, issue issue like this la makes me think twice to be a permanent teacher at primary level. At least preschool level do not have a lot of serious and complicated cases like this. Ish! But well, having the opportunity to teach different age group and different levels of children taught me a lot about the teaching world. I gain a lot of experiences teachin in Boon Lay Garden Primary.

Been busy with henna lately. Ok the gambar kaki is so tak glam with the tissue but oh well, dah malam. Rembat lah! Besok keje lagi!

& I know this is a bit outdated. But oh well, I stiil wanna post this picture here. Saw a raibow!! Actually kalau tengok betol betol can see 2 of them. See...

Last words, you guys, I'm loss for words to explain myself. I'm sorry goobye.

It's Friday!

Yessa, Friday Friday Friday!! Best keper?! Haish, weekend is so here. Which means boleh bangun tidur lambat la sikit. Tak yah bangun kul 5:15 am!! & even soon, I will not have to wake up so early because I'm teaching Primary 2 now yaw. Baikk baikk baikk ah! As quoted by man, "Baik baik, takder yang tak baikk!!" Wahahahahaha... So gonna say goodbye to my P3s soon. 4 months or so with the P2s, gonna be sungguhkecoh.com ini small beings. Gosh! Tapi takper at least no attitude problem like the P4 onwards.

Anyways anyways, the best part is, this lady here, Siti Khairiah Abdul Jalil is sooooooo gonna be my colleague soon. Hahaha, she's going to be my neighbour because she is relieving 2/8 while me 2/7. She's teaching the best class, how I envy her. Hahaha, excited man! Hopefully she will stay till term 2 as I'll only start teaching the P2s when term 2 starts. I'm like super duper gembira tak terkate kerana dapat bersua jua dengan seorang kawanku yang suka nah cakap, "BABAT BETUL!" Hahaha, not forgetting, she's like sooo my dance sports partner for the sports and wellness module in year 1. Hahaha, maklumlah kukarangan lelaki la bebudak ECH ni. Wahahah, those were the days man.

Then yesterday Nur Azlina Subari message me saying that she miss me. Sweet kepe! Hee... haish, betapa ku merindui jugak ini pompan gile yang slalu layan aku gila jugak. Eversince I'm working, I will sleep early and so I will have no time to talk and crap with Lin on the phone. & we both can't help, but to always whine and whine that we can sleepover at each other's house again. =(

In short, I miss these 2 like crazy la. Miss those days when we get all stressed out together because of IEP. Hahaha... stress yet laughing. Angry yet patient. That is so Yus, Lin, Khai! Hahaha!! OI AKU RINDU KORANG LA, BABAT BETOL! =(

Anyways, enough, blogging about them, will just make me miss them more. =( School have been hectic with book checking coming up and all, Stellar course and still stuck in model drawing makes me all stressed out. Suppose to start with multiplication already! Sungguh slow classku!! Mati mati! Stress sangat sampai tak tahu kene buat recess duty just now. Till Anderson came and said, "Ms Yusliza, you never do your duty and so me and Mr Ng have to stand and parade ourselves in the canteen you know" I'm like, "Ohoh!" I'm like sooooo guilty. Hahaha... and then Anderson starts singing the Stellar SBA tuning-in song this:

"Yusliza belongs in the rubbish, so pick her up and throw her in, we can enjoy a world so clean, if you can do your part, come on and make a start!"

My blood boiling2 tau!! Never sacred die you know this guy! Hahahahahaha! But never mind, I memorise his I/C number! Hur hur... Oh, World of Sports is having a 50% sale people. Anderson told me! So go shop!

Overall, today i'm just so freaking excited that I will be back sitting besides gorgeous Andrea again in the office. So noise level in the office gonna increase tremendously again. Tinggal nak tambah Alif je! Hahaha!! Ok dah la nak tido! Good night world.

Messed

My mail is so flooded with mails from the respective level heads. There's just so many things to do as a form teacher. Makes me think twice to go NIE. Gees, fickled me.

Watch The Pink Panther 2 last Saturday with Nini and bro. Hilarious movie. Shall give it 7 out of 10. & rented IP Man dvd and watched it with love on Sunday. We were too busy to watch it in theatres recently. Anyhoos, it was superb and i'll give it 9 out of 10. =)

Missed~

"Hold me tight for Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday & Friday. I'm gonna miss you my hunneyboo."

Beautiful 20th!

730 days passed and YuShaM turns 2 years. =) Happy Annivesary hunney! We had a blast of a time yesterday. I enjoyed myself so much with my lover boy. Went to watch Songs of the sea. It was great. The effects was superb! & I baked all these for Sham & glad he love it. Thanks to Lin for allowing me bake it her house using her oven. Maklum la saya ni takder oven at home.

One is called Quiche, one is brownie and one is my very own recipe, chocolate cookie. Menjadi tau, nice ok! Fana and Lin's dad say I can even start a business tau and sell the cookies during Hari Raya. Hahaha... and see, selame nie asyik buat henna je. Dah penat ah, now buat icing lak on a cookie. Hahaha...

How I wish time will stop yesterday. When he said that maybe next year we wouldn't be able to celebrate 20th together because he's going sailing, I'm too weak to control my emotions. Whatever it is, I have to be strong to support him all the way till he achieve success in his career. Last words, you are mine darling, no doubt I will always be yours too. Though we are going to be so far away from each other, we will not allow that distant to stop us from loving each other. I'll always wait for your return love. Thanks for the day, thanks for the love hun.

Ilyvvm Muhammad HIsham Amir!!

The moments.

Watch The Curios Case of Benjamin Button just now with love. Macam hindustan la pulakk criter ni. 3 Jam la sehh! Hmmm... ok, i'll give it, 8 out of 10.

My throat is so killing me. The people at home have been bugging me to see the doctor. No thanks, not yet, I hate medicines. Bummer! I understand so much why teachers don't wanna be teachers anymore. But my P3s ain't that bad afterall. The cute factor is still there. I still leave school reminiscing those funny comments they make in class. Just like those days when I'll start yakking at my mum about the funny and cute remarks made by my children during practicum. Anyhoos, I still prefer teaching younger children. They are so much huggable, childish and adorably cute to the core. I guess I'm missing my practicum days. Definitely not lesson plans, just working with the children part. I miss Clarence and Elton who wishes so much to be my boyfriend. Hahaha.... those were the days. Ok good night people. *yawns*

Weekends.

It's so nice that I am able to find time to blog most of the time now. So it's the matter of me being lazy or not to blog. Anyways, I'm so jealous that mama bought a handbag from Guess just now! Urgh!! When can I get my pay? Went window shopping at Vivo with the family just now after lunch. I so wanna get stuff from River Island, Forever 21, Mango and Esprit. And speaking of Esprit, met Saerah. The secondary schoolmate. She works there! How interesting! Can bug her for discounts the next time I shop there! Awesome! =p

Yesterday was bbq with family at East Coast Park. I refuse to go with the family because I am so badly missing Sham. Was very determine to go with him that day. So, gotta wait for Sham to finish work before we make our way there. It was kindda late actually but owh well, I insist that I only go with Sham that V.day. =)

However, I was full of guilt that night. Shouldn't have dragged him there. He was so shagged from work. He did not sleep the whole night because of route march. & after work he gotta meet me and go all the way to East Coast. Gees, I'm such a bad girlfriend. =( I'm sorry hun. Thanks so much though. Though you're all exhausted you still went to th bbq with me. Most importantly, you still meet me that day. Thanks so much hunney. What a great V.day gift for me. He's my gift and I have nothing else to ask for. Love you syg!

I'm crazy, I just meet him yesterday and I'm missing him to the max today. I stopped myself from meeting him today to cover up my guilt yesterday. Gotta give him sometime for him to rest. Though there's this huge urge to freaking see him, I managed to control! Hur hur! He's not working tomorrow, YAYNESS!! A few more hours till I get to see him again tomorrow for a short date after my work tomorrow. I miss him. =( My heart sank as the thought of him not being able to celebrate v.day with me next year starts to liger in my mind. Most prolly because he will start his sailing again. Haish, I don't know how I'm going to go through those days without him near me. =(

Ok Yus, don't get senti. Oh well, can't help it right,sometimes you just can't help it from being all emo. Haha... anyways, work tomorrow. Urgh, such a dread. But oh yes, just now went to open up my letter box and guess what! I'm eligible for GST off set la sehh! Seronok keper. Thanks to Dayah for the great help in signing up though there was something 'ajaib' that took place during the process of signing up! Wahahaha!! Kesian Lin! Lin, aku dah besar! Biler kau nak besar dapat duit macam aku ngan Dayah? Wahahahahahaha!! Seronok la! Ok dah, besok kerja! Nak tido!! Good night world. =)

That Bear

This bear turns 2 years today. This was a Valentine's gift for me 2 years back. When he waited for me outside school for me to finish my last exam paper. Then we had a beautiful date. How I miss those days. If only we could turn back time.

i'll never stop waiting and hoping.

Mixture of all

In the mood to change the blog skin.
& just in case you are wondering where's my tagboard, navigate with the words "The Yused".

I have a very bad feeling about it.
I don't think it will work out as plan like again.
But i can't afford to change it.
I don't think its a crime to just follow my heart, isn't it?
Well who'd understand anyways, not even you.
& for you you, just so you know, I'm not really all looking forward for all that.
Things you've said keeps coming back in my mind.
Everything is really disappointing.

Hope

Watched Underworld Rise of the Lycans with Sham last Tuesday. It was superb. I'll give it 8 out of 10. am so sure there will be another sequel to it.

Today's first day at work.Taking over form class again. Last year I took over Lenny's form class 4/3. This time round is primary 3/3. Aliff old class. Haha! Was not that bad though. I think the P4s tend to be more rowdy. Was kindda nervous at first knowing that the previous RT got terminated taking over the class. Ish! I think because i ever thought them when they were in P1 & 2. So somehow or rather they know my teaching and disciplining style. But i'm rather lost to where their previous teacher had stopped. I can't help to go all blur during TTT just now. Anyhoos, was glad to work with people like Andrea, Anderson and more more again. I felt so welcomed dring TTT from the P3 teachers. Meeting also can luagh and eat eat so much. Awesome bunch of educators im working with. =) Gotta talk with Ms Long, Mrs Jasmine Ng, Fadyll and a few others for a while too just now. Feel so good to be back teaching. Tomorrow's going to be a long day at work. Too many things on desk. Gotta do a lot ofsorting out. Besides, gotta go back Ngee Ann to settle stuffs for the Seremban Trip.

& I'm super tired now. Good night world! =)

i'm still hoping that it will be a great one.
the least you could do is to make it happen.

Restless

Knowing for the fact that boyfriend will not be looking at my blog, I decided to blog about this restlessness feeling in me. Did a lot of shopping this month thanks to mama. Bought sandals, shoes and shorts last Saturday. Today, I decided to find some stuff for Sham for V.Day. Though I'm not celebrating it, but I do feel that its a good day to express our appreciation towards our other half. Bump onto this cute shirt and I totally fall in love with the words.

Lost my mind the day I met you! So true! Just thought Sham should know this. =) Bought one for him and myself. But what makes me so restless is that the M size is kindda big. I didn't get the S size because its kindda small. I always have this problem when buying tops. I have very bad judgment with sizes. Even for myself. I always ended up buying wrong sizes for myself. =( What worst was someone in the house threw the receipt which kills all hope to exchange if the size is too big for Sham. Urgh!!! I'm so pissed. I'm sure Sham will not like it if its too big or too small. Gosh! In all, these are what I got for both Sham and myself. That slipper is for Sham too and again size was the biggest problem. Really hope he can fit to it, the shirt too. If not, I'll be wearing the shirt alone this Saturday. *AHHHH!!* How annoying...

The restlessness also adds on because of his work timing. Actually, I've planned something for us this coming Saturday and Sham so cannot make it due to his trainees' POP. Haish, there goes another plan, FAIL! Me and my plans, never turn out the way it should be. & I want to go with him badly to Abg's bbq the same day but not so sure what time he will be outta camp. Another haish! I was so enthu to do something for him this Friday and present to him the next day but I'm not even sure if I'm able to due to his work schedule. *sob sob* Really hope he'll be back early for Abg's BBQ at night at least. I don't wanna go with anyone else but him. Please God, side with me at least this once. =(

Speaking of my plans which never go right, makes me have this low self-esteem in me at times. Really!!! It's not good. Yus hates this kindda negative feeling. Haish... ok Yus, be P-O-S-I-T-I-V-E else you'll feel worst. Ok at least I should not give up and always try all ways to improve the bad situation. Jia you! Dah macam paham la pulak. Dah la, nak tengok tv distress!

I cook a simple fried rice for boyfriend while waiting for him to end his guard duty this morning. Glad that he likes it though its plain. I tried something new today. Thanks to the boyfriend. Believe it or not I went to play LAN game with the boyfriend just now. He taught me how to play the easier game. If i'm not wrong it's called Left 4 dead or something. At frist I was lost and I was still lost halfway through the game. How embarrassing! Aiya, I can be good at doing big book whatsoever but when it comes to GAME i'm sucha loser. Really! Susah betol nak masok otak. Senang cakap, bebal!! Haha!! But I enjoyed the game though. But yang paling seronok was I get to spend the day with my love of course. Been missing him so terribly much!

I had appointment for manicuring at 6. So I left boyfriend for a while and headed to beatify and pamper my nails. So yup, that's the outcome. I did French. I loike!! The stylist taught I was only 16 years old. She said I should take transparent so I wouldn't be scolded in school. I was like, Err I'm not scholing anymore. Ish! Malu sungguh! But hey, not bad, which means I still look young. Like I told Lin, Old at age, young at heart. Haha... alah twenty where got old? Tul tak kawan-kawan yang sekaum twenty nie?! Anyways I so don't know how to take pictures of my own finger la. My finger crooked not nice. Takper la, Syukur tak secacat maner! I can't believe I forgot to wear the ring Sham put on for me 2 years ago today. I never leave home or anywhere without it. Gosh, I'm so angry with myself. I felt so naked without the ring just now. & when Sham held my hands just now he also felt different. Ish, look how important a ring is for me. Yikes!

Then headed back to the Game shop and waited for boyfriend to finish his Dota game with his friends. Waduhh, itu game aku sungguh tak faham dot com. Monster ker weapon ker sungguh confusing. I only manage to understand how Sham's hand moved the mouse and his eyes on the computer screen. Abeh tau tau kawan dier pekik eh I die! Eh who controlling? Sumpah Yus tak faham! Sham ever taught me how to play that game but like I say BEBAL! Killing zombies was way easier. Haha!! Then went to have dinner at Long John Silver's. Sham look so exhausted due to his guard duty the previous night. Thanks so much love for the day. I know you're so dead tired already, yet you still fetch and send me home and all. I appreciate it so much love. Sayang awak banyak-banyak to the extreme tau. Gotta wait till Saturday to get to see him again. Itu pun balek malam lagi. Ni lah bebudak macam LUQMAN HAKIM nie nak kene POP la aper la! Sungguh Leceh! Hahahaha....

Oh yes, met with Di like finally yesterday. And Man also. And Faezah tag along also. Banyak AND tu! It was a short one but I had fun catching up with Di after what it seems like I think dinosaurs years la sehh! Haha...

And last Friday I went to Shi Yuan's farewell party at Downtown East Coasta Sand Resort. That's her. It's really sweet of Seow Wei and Xin Li to plan all this for Shi Yuan. So touching. All I can say is FUN FUN FUN!!! To Shi Yuan, if you're reading this, just wanna say take care girl. Been nice knowing you and having you as my classmate for this 3 years. Hope you will have a blessing and blissful life with your love one in Japan! Love you sexy!! Haha... so these are the crazy things Me, Lin, Khai, Li Yu and Thia did there! Haha...

The first picture was Khai's idea, tak faham why but still cantek la jugak muker kiter. Haha! The jumping session was my idea. And everybody was obsessed with it after that. Of course, especially Lin. Now this was with Thia and Li Yu joining us!

It was superbly fun man! Happy nak mampos kanak-kanak ni! Nie la bebudak Early Childhood. These are teachers or the children? CONFUSE!! Hahaha!

Some of the 3B01 who was there! Thanks to sexy Thia for snapping this lovely photo for us! Love you babe!

Ni la tour guide kiter for the day! Nur Azlina Bte Subari! Hahaha! Seriously aku tak tahu aper nie anak tengah amek! Rembat la Lin! Okay dah la. If I upload all the pictures here its going to be like never ending! So dah ngantok nie. Macam Sham, last night I also guard duty. Penat man. *mcm paham* So gd night world. Twees! <3

The Thursday

Spend the day today making epok-epok with mama. Looking forward for the chalet tommorrow. Chilling with the girls after days of mugging with porjects and assignments. Yesterday, the year 3 ECHians have officially ended all assignments! Yayness!!

To YOU: Stop blaming others, reflect back on yourself, then you'll realise what it has lead to all these while.

The same question still lingers, am I still alone?