busy busy busy bee...

While everyone blogs to tell how busy they are working now, here i am blogging about how busy i am not working but helping out my aunt with her new home. Like as per normal. Holidays is where i'm very very popular. Hahahaz... all my aunties wants a piece of me. Wahaha! Nah my aunties are all so sweet to ask me sleep over thier house during the holidays. I think they love my company or something. Hahahaz... Last year Haifa Noorin you shift house i kpo kpo at your house for like a few weeks and conquer either your room or Ron Najib's room when you guys not at home now mak mon's turn. Wahaha... i loike!! Yeah so this aunty of mine have no children and so i'm her best DAUGHTER ( i wish!) Nah... she took care of me eversince i was born because right after i was born my mum was down with chicken pox and so she's the second women on earth who knows how to take care of me best! And then Mak Ijah!! Love her!! I love staying over her place. But i hate it when Haifa Noorin and hairon Najib have to gigit me everywhere. Kuku you!! Hahahaz... they love gigit-ting me i don't know why. I know i fat but I can't be that fleshy right?... ish!!

So yeah these fews days busy helping my aunt... i sooo love her new home!! And kak hifar you kuku you! Pick wrong day for shopping la! Dush dush!! I don't care, you can't be broke because i know you sure kikis duit abg hyrul!! Wahahaha!! Again i shall reply all taggies in this entry.

Dear Ayienz: hey girl i'll try out the game thingy when i'm free alright? twees!!

Dear Naszri: Yeah man i think my hair sux too NOW! I just love my front part. Haiz... all hairstyles sux for me la! I look stupid in everything man! Grr... sam to sam crocodile dandee!! Wahaha!! Ghost of the kicks not listening to the talks!! --->wth?! Wahaha!!

Dear Rachel: Heyy yeah man send me the pictures soon. The picture whereby i don't think i'm in a right state to take picture and give a proper smile... all because of my DEAR YAZID!!! Kuku him have to be soooo funny!! Hahahaz....

Dear Hi_far: Wahaha... heyy you can tag? I thought you can't! Anyways, don't tell me you shop already? Without me? Actually i went shopping with my bro already that day but not enough i want to kikis your money more!! Wahaha... heyy your dash can drive car my boyfriend will can drive helicopter arh... better than yours!! Hahaz.... and he follows you because he scared you use all your money shopping and left with nothing for the wedding. Wahahaha!!!

Dear Vanessa: Heyy i'm always happy! Hahaz... i cry also i smile! See how crazy i can be? Ish!! Hahaz... Vann we shall flood aaron's tagboard since he never updates with our nonsense. Hows that?! Hahahaz!!! I loike!!

Dear Afro: Ouh gees afro thanks... i know it sux!! In fact any hairstyle i have it will sux so much because my hair have a bloody curl at the edge and its bloddy thin!! What the heck! I can't be bothered with it now. It still looks ugly and i can't change that fact!

and although this person never tag i shall say dear to him also... later he say not fair no dear him!! hahahaz....

Dear Azmi: Thanks a lot for flattering me that night!! You just can't stop doing it don't you! And guess what i sooo miss the round table craps!! Hahahaz... Kuku you and Farhan's nonsense!! I miss Nurul!! Hahahaz.... gees... i'm nuts!!

Alrights! Love ya guys for tagging! All replied! Okay kindda have a bad headache just now so i think i need to friggin shut my eyes now. ZzZzzzZZZZzzz..........

yes YES yes!!

I CUT my hair!!! Woo hoo! And i love it !! So that's like my new haircut... can't really be seen actually. Want to have a clear view i think its better that you see me face to face and judge it. Decided not to rebond and thank god i didn't because my hair is like already straight. I will curl it the next time when i got a job. Pity my bro who have to pay for it now. Wahaha... went shopping with bro, small cousin and Pam!! Nice shopping with ya Pam. And went sandstorm to cut. Actually my stylist is in Jantzen when Pam said "wanna try sandstorm, my stylist, May" and i was like ok my stylist also May at Jantzen. And how interesting thank god i went to sandstorm because Pam's stylist May is my stylist. Hahahaz... she changed to sandstorm. Wahaha!! So conclusion is Pam and me have the same stylist!! Woo hoo!! And so that's it. My new hair. Not that new though. Same old me. Just can't have long hair, sure will cut. Hahahaz... and guess what bro bought me a pants from Giordano. Hahaz... too bad Pam she wanted to buy it to but her mum said no. Instead her bought it for herself. Hahahaz... Its so nice... i like!! Thanks Bro!! Love ya!! Look....

I like i like... Hahahaz... and Haifa Noorin, you also got your pay already!! When are you bringing out to shop. Don't always bring your Dash lei. :-( Mentang2 i know boyfriend. Dush dush!!! Biar later i got boyfriend no time for you at all!!! Hah!!! Hahaz... I love my new hairstyle!!! WEeeEEEee....

my heart goes hmmm...

This heart starts pounding whenever i'm asked 'that' question. Regardless from sms, msn, e-mail or face- to- face. Well, its the 4th time. Well i really hope i will give him a positive answer but well it takes time. I need time to think if the decision i make is a good one or not. I really have to think about the future. Will i be happy with the decision i make now in future? Will i regret my decisions now in future? A lot of question lingers in my mind whenever he ask me 'that' question. Yet i have to be honest and reply him with a 'NO'. Well, i should not rushed. What's the hurry. True love is not found in just 1 second, 1 day, 1 year or 1 century. So for now i'm not rushing and i want t enjoy life being single. Woo hoo... i wouldn't have this chance in like 3-5 years time because maybe i will reply him a 'YES'. Nobody knows. Ouh well... and guess what i'm such a dumbo!! I truly don't know how to at least say thank you when i'm praised or being flattered by someone especially 'that' person. Hehez... gees. Guess what i feel like saying to him.

'Ok, now i'm shy and i think you should continue flattering me next time.'

Hahahaz... god i'm sick. Hating it yet wanting it. Ok don't ask what i truly mean. Ish!!

Alright while everyone is busy working, i'm not even allowed to go for an interview. So i guess i'm so not seventeen. I'm 7!!! Great isn't it. Gosh, now i so don't know what i will do besides learning how to cook, do inai and when january starts the tuitions. God! I rather study now. I wanna go back to school where i can do lotsa of POA so that if i cannot balance i will get all frustatrated. Hahaz.. at least its challenging. I miss writting malay essay also. Hmm... nt a bad idea to write karangan. Hahaz... haish... i so miss school. I so miss HUA YI!!! How nice if we can turn back time. Times where we cry but still laugh so much. I wanna go back to the yesteryears where there were full of laughters and jokes. Though life have been hectic with schoolwork, it was still fun to have a classroom, own table and chairs and jokers such as nicholas tan kai sheng and stephen kwek xiu wen who never fails to irritate me and crack stupid jokes. I miss them. I miss teasing Vienna with centre parting. Wahaha... i miss my darling Joline. I miss laughing with Sheena because of 'centre parting'. I miss laughing my fellow busted 2 and 3. (sharf and resh) I miss the round table peeps (nurul, farhan and azmi).

I MISS EVERYONE!!!!!!!!

Hahaz... tols ya i'm sick. Its well past midnight and here i am missing everyone. Gosh! My heart is going all crazy. Ish! Okay i'm replying everyone's tags here. And again i love all the tags. Thanks peeps for dropping by to tag though it nonsense i still love it. Love ya guys.

Dear Vanessa: Hey my dear Vann, that aaron will get a dush dush from me because he have no time for you. Don't worry, i'll slaughter him for you if you agree with the terms and conditions apply. Wahahaz.... and if that kuku nut sees this i'm so dead. Wahaha!! Anyways Vann i'm so glad to hear from you, stay happy always, take care and ... cheers!! Twees!!

Dear Yi Sheng: Yeah man Harry Potter was indeed a nice show. Maybe beucase i have not been watching the previous movies so i think this one was great. I wonder why some still say it was a let down. It was seriously a nice show.

Dear Madey: That is just exactly what i'm so going to do. Ask my stylist is the best solution.

Dear Naszri: Yeah yeah Harry Potter was awesome. Okay i don't mind watching it AGAIN but you pay!!

Dear Lydia: What?! You cutting your hair? Great! Hahahaz... But i think you look gorgeous with your long hair. But anyways if you cut already show me your new hairstyle arh...jgn lokek. Hahahaz... because its like we will not see each other, so cannot se eyour new hairstyle. Hahaz...

Dear Yingxuann: Heyy girl! I mis you already!! The one who always do POA so bloody fast... dush dush you! Hahahaz.... heyy thanks for the compliment for my blog. Yup i'm doing fine rotting at home. Hahaz... i hope you are doing fine too girl. Twees!!

Dear Farah: Girl, talking about work makes me all frustrated man. Heyy you ever worked in a childcare or something right? How you get i want!! Reply me asap about it yeah?!!

I want to CUT HAIR!!!!....... Lalalala.... i'm getting all crazy each day. See... lalalalallalala....BLUEK!!!!

do fairytales come true?

Can you guys believe it?! I watched Harry Potter the goblet of fire yesterday with my cousin Nas. Kuku him drag me till watch harry potter. Actually intended to watch just like heaven but end up watching harry potter. Finally i watch a movie so long and its not hindustan. It was indeed a long movie. Around 3 hours i think. Not sure but i know long. Overall the movie not bad arh. I still cannot believe myself. YUS watching harry potter? Gosh... can anyone believe it?

I wanna bloody cut my hair to something new. But i got no idea how to. Grr... anyone any idea? and anyone wanna go with me now to cut hair? Haish... such a boring day. Only these hindustan songs and movie can keep me alive for now. Gosh. Hahaz... Yey!! Mere yaar ki shaadi hai today at 9 @ central. I'm so not gonna miss it!

Nas took this and i edit it. Ermm... looks nice! Hahaha...

loved to be loved.

Okay let me settle one by one. First thing i want to reply all the tags in my tagboard. Peeps thanks for at least visiting this nonsense blog of mine. Thanks for tagging. Too many people to reply so i shall answer them here.

dear naszri: heyy too late...eson belik salaam namaste already. Bekna lambat setapak.

dear azri: ouhk...if i'm free i'll come down. no one with cars is available to go out with me for now. my cousin also down with chicken pox. Wahahaz... so cannot go out with him. And another cousin of mine to busy with her mat tahir. Wahaha.... (i think she knows who i'm talking about, and after she read this she would give me a dush dush!) hahaz...

dear Mick: thanks mi for the compliment. anyways who would flatter me more than you do... dush dush... thanks for siding with me. and don't stress so much la. you will get a job soon. don't worry. somebody told me 'always look on the bright side of life'. hahaz... ok before i start to irritae you and make you more stress i better stop. Wahaha....

dear faezah: i can get a free manicure too from my brother's friend sister but its whether i am not lazy to call her and go down to the place or not... wahaha...

dear lydia: hahaz...hindustan is damn nice. i used to hate them because they always sing but only one movie makes me change everything. and now the thing i'm obessed with is not only the movie but also the songs. Woohoo!! Wahaha...

dear farah: yay man!! i can't wait to watch krishh. got my boyfriend inside. got hrithik roshan. Hahahahaz... if out we go watch at wayang arh?...set?...Hahahaz...

Alright done with all the replies. Wahaha... okay so i've watch salaam namaste and so let me rate it. EXCELLENT!! What word is better than excellent arh? MARVELLOUS, FANTASTIC or MAGNIFICENT!! My dil goes hmmm.... Hahaz...

I feel so blessed that i'm loved, cared and appreaciated. I really thank God for it. I am so blessed to have my family, friends, teachers and relatives to support me, care for me, love me and appreaciate what i did. What else can i ask or when i have all the love, care and concern from so many people. I really feel so blessed. Thanks to those who loved me and sorry to those who hate me. I am who i am. I can't change to be what you wanted. I can only change for the better and not for the worst and definately not to what you wanted me to be.

Hahaz... i just feel so blessed. I love these song from Salaam Namaste. Actually i love the meaning of this song only. Here, conerted:

i will always be with you my love.
walking beside you, like the sky above.
in summer's sun, i'll give you my shade
in autumn;s loneliness, i'll be your shadow.
when in doubt, count me in.

with you, i've found life at last.

in a web of joys you cast,

am i discovering all i ever wished for or am i lost?

i will always be with you my love.

walking beside you, like the sky above.

let the sorrow - laden clouds rain on me.

let the despairing moments come to rest on me.

all of your, give to me.

find someone to my heart seemed to say where secrets arent's held,

and all is given away but when i open my eyes will my dream be gone or stay?

i will always be with you my love.

walking beside you, like the sky above.

a sublime love story....

Oh my god! I'm so obsessed with this Barsaat movie. I wanna watch it soooooo badly. In fact i wanna watch so many hindustan movie. Too much but the think is i can't be buying all the CDs at one go. I would go bankrupt. Let me list down the movies i want to watch:

1.Barsaat
2.Salaam Namaste
3.Kyun Ki
4.Shaadi No.1
5.Garam Masal
6.No entry (kuku you reshmel and farhana who have the CD)
7.Parineeta

Okay basically this is at the top of my list for the most WANTED TO WATCH movie... Wahaha!! Anyone, anybody is just soooo sweet enough to get me all this CDs. PLease..... anyone who buy me all this CD, i will do anything for them man!! (depends) Hahahahaz... i'm so nuts. This hindustan all is driving me crazy. Hahahaz....

And guess what i want some manicure badly!! and again who wants to give me for FREE... hehez... Hahaz... eh Haifa Noorin... now i know why you didn't tag me. Hahahaz... mailing is so lame yet interesting. Now i see the joy mailing with somebody so crazy like you also!! Wahaha... i'm looking forward to go shopping with you ok? And if you want to see ANIS QISTINA must tell me arh!! If not... dush dush you!! Okay peeps going out with Sharf to look for hindustan movies. See how obessed i am!! Hahahahaz.... anyone wanna join us?!

its OVER...

Wow...its so unbelievable. Its over. Os is over. And guess what my secondary school have ended. Time flies isn't it? I'm am really going to miss everyone in HuaYi. EVERYONE including the teachers. Seriously. All the fights, all the craps, all the laughter and the 'kenduri' we had beside the toilet during sec 2. Wahaha... miss those days. I'm like officially graduating from Hua Yi. Haiz... so touching! Hahaz... miss the prefect days. Miss the councilors too. Okok stop being so emotional for now. Well Os have kept me real busy these past few weeks. Its driving me nuts. All i did was study study and study. Nothing else. I either study or i either sleep. And the sleep is rather short. I swear now i will sleep like a pig. Yeah to get rid of those panda eye and eye bag. Gosh its so unsightly. Okay so during these few weeks of studying i didn't get to blog much so here i go start to blog as much as i can. Heh heh... enjoy reading.

12th November 2005

Ok a memorable day that i will never forget. Going jln rayer with the sec5 malay peeps. It was fun with the jokes azmi, hanif, zal and the bully norhan. Gosh that norhan arh just can't seem to stop fighting with me. Dush dush!! But norhan after getting to you better you are one funny guy la. And your character is sooo different from your appearence. Hahaz... will miss you bullying me. And hanif and azmi... 'saper nak layan'?!! Hahahahahaz.... oh my god just thinking about it can make me laugh now. It was a memorable time when me, azmi, hanif and ili were laughing non-stop on 198 bus. Oh my god, these guys were sooo funny that ili and me were laughing samapi nak pecah perut. Wahahaha.... 'saper nak layan'?... and ili sorry plan kiter tak menjadi. Next time kiter buat lagik kat si mat mat nie. Hahahaz... and luqman and sydi turn out to be so crazy past midnight. They showed their true colours. Wahaha... they began to be so crazy after midnight. Luqman you were soooo funny. I swear you were. Hahahaz... unexplainable madness. Sydi also. Never seen that sight of them before. Hahaz.. .and azmi you learn something new about your friends. Me , sab and some other girls were kindda upset because this year Candy, pam and reshmel didn't join us. It will sure be more fun with them around. More laughter too. With Reshmel around especially whoever don't start bursting to laughter is so mad! Hahahaz.... Thanks azmi for making me laugh and all throughout the jalan rayer. Sab and shariffah also and everybody laa!! NOrhan thanks for bullying me and bluek azmi is not supporting you! He's still siding with me! Hah!!! Right mi?! (you better say yes else you'll get a dush dush from me) Hahahahahaz....

The picture and the moments that will remain in my heart forever



Studying session

Okay i wanna thank a few people who were very patient with me when teaching me maths and whatever subject. Thanks for all the help. I know i can be very slow and blur at times but it really does helps me. Okay special thanks to Ronald (your present is still with me you kuku head...hahaz), Nisha ( i make a new friend, your cute dog.... i loike! hahaz), ili, Sydi( aku sedar lah aku slalu bully kau but thanks arh! If you happened to read this), Reshmel (you shoould really be a bio teacher man... you rocks my stockings!! hahaz!) and to Kak Salbiah!!!! I love you man. Ouh yar to your friend to kak mira. Is that her name?... hahaz... thanks for taking your time to come down to the library to help me and shariffah! Love you guys. Kak Sal i still remember the swensen deal. But if only i got a B3 which i doubt so i can get. So too bad for you... hahaz!! And special thanks to Shariffah whom i always disturb! Hahahahahaz.... disturb you with all my calls, questions, tolerate my blurness and going study with and teman-ing me go makan and also the CICAKs!! ogh my god i shall not say it anymore it so grossing!! Hahahaz...anyways shariffah you and farhana are my greatest study partner man. Love ya guys. Though we cannot study again together we'll still find time to go out once in a while yah! And to my best friend Sab, though you don't teach or whatever i wanna thank ou for understanding my situation. I can't go anywhere and all because of these stupid exams. So sorry but will be ble to accompany you anywhere now if i'm free. Ok best friend? Luv ya many many! To Pam... thanks for all the help in POA and science. Love your home! So cormfy and looking forward to come your home not to study but to play volleyball with ya? Ok gurl?! Hahahaz.... phew so many people. If i ever missed out anyone i'm soooo sorry. My brain is not functioning well now because i'm kindda sleepy. Hahahaz...so to whoever i missed thanks to you man! You guys rock! Hahahaz...

Kak Sal teaching me...twees!



and we are sick of studying...Wahahaha....we d stupid stuff like this...



Got spiderman...hahaz...kak sal say one..i'm impressed!!


















Okay this part is for MUHAMMAD FAIZAL!!!!!! HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! Finally your 17. What? think i forget is it?! I'm a good friend okay i remember my friend's birthday. Hahaz... hapy birthday awak... hope you are blessed with good health always and may all wishes come true. Especially to get you dream girl (chori chori chupke chupke one) hahahahaz.... !! Thanks for being a great friend who never fails to make me laugh and smile. I hope we'll always stay in contact yah... and i can NEVER forget the time during mid year where you kuku nut go and come my house early in the morning when you can go sleep to send me to school for my poa mid yr exam. You're sweet. Thanks yah! Thanks for being there for me all these while also. Sorry if ever hurt you or make you angry in any way. Hope you pass your O level with flying colours and achieve your goals. I like this picture lah but i know you don't because of your hair...Wahaha....












And to people whom i haven't mintak maaf during the hari raya outing i i wanna say Selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin. Yus tak pandai bermain kata hanya ingin meminta ampun dan maaf dari hujung rambut hingga hujung kaki jika yus pernah menyinggung hati atau terkasar bahasa sepanjang kenalan kiter. Lagi syawal aper so still can bermaaf-maafan. Belum terlambat. Wahahaha.... Because to people like shazz i was really speechless when you wanna salam me and mintak maaf with me. I was shocked don't know what to say. Wahaha... sorry yah!

Phew..long enough right? Phew... ok tired already shall stop here. Yay! change layout finally! So sick of my previous monkey first! Hahahaz.... twees!

battle coming to an end!

One more paper that is tommorrow and that's it i''m going to sleep like a pig to get rid of those panda eyes. I swear those panda eyes is showing.... GOSH! Damn the Os... make me look ugly and more ugly. Actually i thought of sleeping now before i start studying chemistry and biology again because the whether is just so nice for me to have my beauty sleep. But i don't know why i have the urge to blog. I miss blogging actually. Didn't have to blog properly like how seri do. Hahahaz... she have such long entry and i'm so jealous because i have no time to blog. Alright i'm so insane to compare blog entry's length now. Wahaha... all these studying have drive me nuts. So guys beware around me i tend to be more crazy than i ever have been. The symptons is already showing. I think Shariffah is getting the hang of it.

Talking of Shariffah this reminds me of yesterday when i went studying with Resh and Sharf. This happened at night. All the yucky slimy lizards started to appear. It so freaks me out. Alright i shall label lizrads as my second fearest animals on earth. Mice or mouse or whatever is stil the top of the list. Yucks and its so embarrassing that i have to shift my place here and there. What was most embarrassing was my my use to be 'never smile guy' walk pass me when i was freaking out because of those stupid lizards. Oh my god i was so paise and no words can describe how embarrassed i was. Ish... Sharifah thank god your father came at that time and so we went for dinner instead of sitting there becuase i can't continue studying as my eyes can't resisit looking at which direction the lizards is going. What fears me was if it drops. Pyak! on the table then die! Wahahaz... the attacks of the lizards!

And yesterday was such an irritating day. I didn't know guys can be such a parasite. One asking for my phone number, another wanting to 'kenal2' and haiya irriatating people on earth is them man. Hahaz... Ok azmi wants me to talk bout him but i' m sorry mi i don't know what to sweet talk with you here.... Wahahahahaz!! Ouh yah... Azmi u won the bon jovi CD... Hahahaz... Not fair not fair ....HAH!! Dush dush! Hahaz...

Ok i'm off! Either to sleep or chat with azmi for a while or start opening this friggin books about stupid science. Grr.... tats it! BYE!

*&^%$@&$%#$!*($&@(

Alright everything around sux so much right now. The Os, the people who are like hiding stuff behind me and just EVERYTHING!!!!!!! Suddenly i'm so sick and tired of my life. God!

And yesterday i told HIM that i don't want him to wait. I decided to tell him that. I don't want to be such a sellfish bitch to ask a guy to wait for you. Wait till when? I don't know! So i asked him not to wait. Well i still like him though but i shall not ask him to wait for me. I rether hurt him now rather than hurting him after he wait for me. We are not together yet i feel the loss! I never felt this way before in my entire 17 years of my life. Well maybe that's life. Full of ups and downs. We never know what is in store for us in future. I hope its something nicer than all this. All i hope is that he can find a better girl than me and being happy with her. But what i'm really worried right now is he's health. No words can describe how worried i am for his health. But who am i for him to listen to me and not start to smoke again. I'm just nobody to him. But i really hope he will not start smoking again.

In no mood for anything now! I wanna be alone! SCRAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it's hard to say that i was wrong

it's hard to say i miss you
since you've been gone it's not the same

a few more for the struggle...

Maths was okay. It is my first that i am not rushing for maths and i still have time to do. I shall not say it was an easy or hard paper. It was average. Alright fullstop i don't wanna talk about exams. Once the results is out we'll all know how i fair in it. Anyways i want to say a special thank you to KAK SAL for helping me out with my maths and i don't know what's her friend's name i think kak mira or something... hahaz... sorry i totally forgot her name. Thanks the both of you for helpinh Shariffah and me with that idiotic maths. I totally enjoy the day with that stupid pictures we took kak sal... hahaz... alright just let the pictures do the talking...

http://examstrikes.MyPicGallery.com

I am really looking forwrd to 22nd November!!! Can't wait for this frustrating examinations to end! Studied maths with yisheng, faezah, ili, norhan, faizal, sydi and luqman too. Did i left out anyone?.... anyways thanks sydi for all the teachings and tolerating with my stupidity and blurness. ili also and faezah also... thanks! And faezah... that person is sooooooo 1000000000times funny man... terbayang aku that funny thing on his head. Just what was that man? Strange people do exist in public places. Wahaha!!

Happy advance birthday to my dearest friend PAM!!!! Finally your 7-teen! Hope you like the present i gave you. That's is all i afford to buy you. May all wishes come true and may COEXISTENCE makes your birthday even more merrier just nw! Sorry i can't stay... hahahaz!!

Once again HAPPY 7-teen BIRTHDAY PAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The End Of Me

Is it the end of me yet? Was so pissed when the first answer is already a confirm wrong. I did study like crazy for Chem yet i think i can't make it. Yep i can do it but not all of them. Its like i can even get a wrong for an easy question like question 1! How frustrating. I can forget about going poly. I have to be prepared to face everyone that i'm going to dissappoint.

Kill me, shoot me, bang me or just do whatever you want with me right now. I'm feel so lousy and useless. Just what's the point of studying. And Maths... i can do it but i have a very very very HUGE, as HUGE as this word's size, feeling that my carelessness is going to kill me. O level suck to the core man! Maths and science are like what, the most important subject to even enter ITE. And hell ya who knows i can't even get into ITE!!

AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate this. Its ruining my life!! Totally!!!!

Goodbye poly! Goodbye early childhood!

That's it i've had enough!

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!!

"Berlalulah sudah Ramadhan sebulan berpuasa. Kini Syawal kita rayakan dengan rasa gembira."

Yay!! Its Hari Raya. To all my muslin friend. Yus ingin menyusun 10 jari jemari momhon ampun dan maaf jika Yus pernah tersilap kata, kasar bahasa atau pernah menyinggung hati awak awak semua. Yus harap semua dapat menerima kemaafan yus sempena hari raya yang penuh keriangan ini. Hehez... i never blogged in malay... seems nice!

Alright... assalamualaikum... woo hoo!!

yey yey besok hari raya!

Yay! Besok Hari Raya! Besok raya!

Isn't it fast? I just feel like i only start fasting yesterday but actually its already a month that we fast. Ramadhan has come to and end and tommorrow we all will celebrate Hari Raya. Wow... fast fast. Heyy look at the time. Its the last sahur. Hahaz... just sahur just now and feel like blogging since its the last day of puase.

Its deepavali yesterday... to all my indian friends... happy belated deepavali to you. Wahaha!! And to all my muslin friends, Selamat hari Raya!! Maaf Zahir dan batin. Semoga raya awak awak semua nie still gerek though we are having our Os. Okay?!

I'm kindda sleepy. Slept late last night and have to wake up early later Nisha's coming for maths. I never in my life study on the eve of Hari Raya. I either clean the house, help my mum with the cooking or i'll do stupid stuff like disturbing my mum and dad who is busy with thier work. Hahaz... this yaer they don't see that of me because i'm too busy with that stupid maths. Grr... alright then last but not least before i go....

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR RONALD!!
FINALLY 16!! Hahaz....

Ehh dah imsak...hmm....forget to drink a bit of root beer just now...hmm....

when the going gets tough...

I SOOOOOOO Love Nisha & Ronald now!!

Hahaz... since Ronald is my hero now, Nisha is my heroine. Hahaz... because Nisha also saved me from all the confusion for maths just now. Thanks a lot Nisha. Love ya many many. Hahaz...

And i relised that its only 2 days more to HARI RAYA. I have always been very excited for it. Excited to clean house and especially my room but this year mood is totally zer0!! Hahaz.. yeah its the exam season and so to haa haa hee hee here and there is scary because who knows will end up crying or what. Anyways, some people understand but some people don't. Anyways 6 more days to Os... How How?!

Alright this will be the first year i'm celebrating hari raya without playing 'bunga api'!!Not fair...

Ultimate task to be completed before hari raya:
TRANSFORM ROOM FROM A PIG STY TO A PRINCESS DORM!!!!

Twees!!!

I SOOOO LUV RONALD!!!!!!!

Oi don't get the wrong idea la deyy!! To anyone who is having a crush on Ronald or whatever, don worry he's still yours but when it comes to maths, he's mine!! Wahahahaha!!! He's my hero now!! Hahaz... finally somebody teach me maths!! And that's why i luv Ronald now. Hahaz... you guys arh always jump to conclusion! Thanks so much man Ronald. You save me from being all confuse with all the maths questions. I appreaciate it a lot. Thanks buddy! Thanks for being soooo sooooo patient with me. I don't know how to thank you already. Hahaz... ok lets say if i at least got a B3 for maths i will treat you to lunch ok?! Set?! Hahahaz...

Alright maths is settle. Not really actually because i have a lot to practice though. Now i still have biology, chemistry, social studies, history and the subject that i'm slacking now.... ENGLISH!! I'm so dead. Ok peeps i'm off!!

**Thanks a bunch to my dear Ronald!! Twees**

*pulling hair*

AHH!!!!

I can see that people are all counting down to hari Raya. But for me i'm counting down to O Level!! Its like bloody 9 days more!! 9 DAYS!!!!! WTH!!!! Isn't that soooo damn bloody fast! I don't know why all of a sudden i feel so demoralized. Its like as though i can't do the papers on November later! Haiz... Com'on Yus you can do it!

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am in desperate need of someone to help me with MATHS!! Everybody is so busy and i just feel like bursting when i can't do all the maths questions! Maths is in another 9 more days and what the heck i can't do the questions?!... Am i nuts or what? How the fuck can i even make it for my Os. And english?! I think i'm slacking. No practice at all!

What am i suppose to do. I'm really going to let so many people down!!

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That really fears me upside down man! Mr Amran and my parents... i'm sorry i'm gonna let you down but i'm really trying my best now! Wish me luck...

happy times come and go...

I received a shocking news as soon as i reached school just now. The news of Mrs. Kong is leaving Hua Yi today. That makes her last day in Hua Yi. I'm so gonna miss her. Students never fail to hate their principal. But for me i love my principal because she's great. No doubt she can be naggy at times but well she cares. You wouldn't want a principal who wouldn't take things seriously and go haha hehe all the day right?... Hahahaz... Time really flies and it has already been 5 years i'm in Hua Yi and when i'm graduating our principal have to go. Then next year if we were to come back and visit Hua Yi, the new principal would be like... shoo shoo... then die! Hahaz... anyways i'm just gonna miss Mrs Kong la! The Ferraro Rocher that she always give me. The sweets and all! Looking at everyone just now, i don't think i'm the only one who will miss Mrs Kong. Hahaz... even Reshmel said she will miss Mrs Kong. Hahaz... indeed Mrs Kong is a great principal. Here's a picture taken during Prom Night 2004.



I love Mrs Kong!
I love Hua Yi!
I love Hua Yians!
I love 5N3!
I love my Coucillors!
I love my TEACHERS who taught me!
Going to MISS everyone!!!!!!!!

liar liar love's on fire!

Alright don jump to conclusion. I'm not in love or whatsoever. I am just obsessed with this bollywood movie, Maine Pyar Kyun Kiya! Hahaz... It is a nice movie. Some funny show i should say. And the girl in this movie is like wow!! Dead Gorgeous. Katrina Kaif, Salman Khan's girlfriend!! God, i so love her. Wish i could be as pretty as her. Look how gorgeous she is man!



The Miss Universe Sushmita Sen is pretty too but i love Katrina Kaif more!!



Maine Pyaar Kyun Kiya!!!



Hahaz... obsession kills!! One of the song is like so whoah!!! I likE!!!

Anyways moving on, got i have never been this busy before. Loads of studying and revising to be done. Loads of thinking have to be done. I'm so tired and exhausted. Moreover i think the bronchitis attack is coming back. Ahh... i have been coughing none stop lately. I don't see the need to even eat to breakfast because after eating i would just throw up. God! I hate it! I can't eat chicken and fruits again!! Ahhhhh!!!!!!

I so hate being sick!!! The feeling sux!!And my parents and bro have been bugging me to go doctor because i run out of medicine and my spray but NO!!!!!!!!! Going doctor is the last thing i would do. I don't want to put on that stupid gas. It sux!!

MEDICINE SUX TO BE EATEN!! I"M NOT GOING DOCTOR!!!

Alright i think i have to start doing history. Else tommorrow i will get present from Ms Lui and for some reason the present is not liked by any history students... sheeshh!!

why must all this have to happen?...

I'm not the type who will go obsess over a guy. To me its useless to because whenever you like that someone he will never like us in return. Eversince i gotta a blog. I have never blogged anything about guys. As in how cute a guy is, how i have a crush on this particular guy or how this guy wants me to be his girlfriend. To me it just a waste of time blogging about them. Not worth it. But today i don't know why i want to share a story and it got something to do with a guy.

There's this girl who once thinks that love is just so stupid. Love is nothing but something that really hurt most. She totally don't believe in love. Even now she still believe that true love does not exist. Maybe incidents happening around her make her believe that guys can only love a girl for only a short period of time and not forever while girls can only love only one person in her life. But she believe that not all guys are like that because if all guys are like that than her father will not exist. Her father is just way too good of a husband and father that she hopes somebody if someone were to show her what is love she would want a guy who is as good as her father.

Her family is everything to her. As she is the only daughter, she is pampered and showered with so much love from her parents and brother. Her parents have high hopes for her to enter to a poly at least and to become a teacher in future. She love her parents too much that she fears of dissappointing them. She is never good at lying and she can never lie to them. To her, she can never be blessed by lying to her own parents. Her parents forbid her to have any special relationship at her age now because it will only affect her studies. Her mum always remind her not to fall for a guy sweet words. She is always adviced to find a better half to be with. A responsible and honest one would make a good partner, said her mum.

In school she never dared to be in a relationship. Like her other friends who have boyfriends, she fear that by having one she might only break her parents trust for her. Therefore, how big a crush she had towards a guy, she never want it to be a serious one. One day she realised that she had a crush on this guy who was her classmate but then she realised that one of her best friend too had a crush on him. She remained silent untill after a few years that guy confessed to her his feelings for her for the past 4 years. She never thought it was true. It seems more of a joke to her but it was true. She then decided to confess to him her feelings towards him. Since this is the last year they will be in the same school. Like any other guy would do, he asked her to be his girlfriend but was rejected because she realised her situation she is in. She realised that she definately can't be in a relationship when she have to sit for her most important exam and most importantly she can't lie to her parents. Never would she have the heart to do it. Thus she explained to him how her situation is and so they guy respected and insist that she waits for her till she's ready.

As days goes by she realised that untill when would the guy wait for her. She realised that it will be so sellfish of her if she were to asked the guy to wait when he can go for any other girl. Hence, she was honest with the guy and told him to not wait and instead find someone else to like. She fears of huting him and so its better for her to tell him now than later. He insisted on waiting for her.

One night the guy asked her if she really want him to wait or not to wait for her. Again she explained to him of her situation and try to make him understand. To her it tough to let him go but its tougher to let him wait. It breaks her heart to break his. But she have to be honest that her priority now is studying to make her parents happy. She would sacrfice anything to make her parents happy. Thus its important for her not to be involve in a relationship yet. And she realised that she herself is not ready to be in a relationship and that she needs time. It definately breaks the guys heart to hear all this but she have no ther way. She does not want to give him more hope so she have to be honest and tell him not to wait for her as it will be a waste of time. As much as she likes him she have to say it though its hurting enough. No one can understand what is her situation is like. Not even him. The guy was terribly sad but she felt worst. She don't want other to say that she is only making use of him by asking him to wait. So she wants him to be just friends and not more than that.

She hopes that the he would find a better girl than her. She hopes that he is blessed with good health always. It hurts her to see him hurt and she hopes to see him happy always. All she hopes now is to make her parents proud. She does not know what is love. And if this is called love and that she have already fallen in love then they will surely meet and be together. Not now, not tommorrow but some other time when they know what is the true meaning of love and life. No one can understand how she feels right now. For now she is just concentrating on her studies and hope that future will awaits her with something better.

The end!

Hua Yi's 2005 Graduation Ceremony

Today was awesome. Had so much tear and laughter. I'm so gonna miss Hua Yi and my friends. It is sad to leve Hua Yi but i'm sure the sweet memories in Hua Yi will make me smile whenever i'm down. Especially to 5N3, i love you guys so much! To Mr. Lee and my dear councillors too. You rock! To my malay class, say sayang kamu! Hahahaz... Alright why not i let the pictures do the talking! Hahaz... there...

http://hyssgraduation.mypicgallery.com/?t=1

I'm a step ahead to being a young mature adult. Goodbye all childishness. (maybe a lil though!)... hahaz... haiz... i'm so gonna miss Hua Yi!! Sob sob... after school i stayed back with Sab, Azmi, Farhana, Diyana and Shriffah. And then after azmi left i went up to the library and there we did lotsa stupid things. Laughed so much that my stomach almost burst! Hahaz... my camera had to die that moment. Low batt so took pictures with my handphone. I so love my new phone. The pictures were all so clear and it turned out nice. There is this picture where me, sab, farhana, shariffah and diyana took it was soooo nice. I adjusted the effects to like the oldies sortta and it turned out fantastic! I LIKE!! Thanks to mdm Line who snap the photo for us. Hehez... Once my USB cable can be used i will upload it to my com. Hahaz... i took stupid pictures with Diyana and they bears in the library. Wahaha!! Couldn't stop laughing even by thinking about it.

Whoah it was just so fun! Its been a long time since we last stayed back in school and laughed so much. I missed all that. Thanks to Sab, Farhana, Diyana, Shariffah, ili (for shouting without signal...hahaz!!) and azmi for all the fun! I enjoyed myself so much. To think this will be the last it just brought me to tears... haish... gonna miss al these terribly! Love ya guys loads man! You guys made my day!!

Ok... last words for the day!

I LOVE HUA YI! I LOVE MRS KONG! I LOVE MY TEACHERS! AND THE MOST IMPORTANT IS I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!!!!