Fixing a broken heart

Alright yeah i'm very much obsess with that song Fixing A Broken Heart by Indecent Obsession and this girl whom they duet with. I don't know who she is but her voice is superb. Love it!! Today first day working at Causeway Point. I have finally worked at all the outlets. Jurong Point, Queensway and Causeway Point. I would love to go work at BUgis junction but nah its too far. Moreover its not Man Master its LeFuture. Anyways had a great time doing that Japan game. Was it ShiMin? I don't know. Shi Min introduces me to tat game and i think its fun. Hahaz... i'm getting a hang of it too. Hahaz... Looking forward to work with Shi Min again. Friday i'm working with the prettiest girl in Man Master. MEI LING!! Hahaz... So MeiLing see you on Friday!!

Actually i got a lot to say but i'm too lazy to say it today. So i'll save it for the next time i blog. Enrolment to Ngee Ann have been done. I just hope that everything will go on smoothly and i'l get to step to Ngee Ann on th 24th April 2006. I will quit my job on the 15th April. I will miss the people at Man Master. Especially Ah Bee.... Shi Min and all. You people had really been all nice and patient with me. Especially Ah Bee and Catherine. Love ya guys!! :-( Hope to work again during my school holidays.

Alright quite tired i'm going off to get some beauty sleep. Bye!

I'm back!!

Hey people!! Am i missed? Hahaz!! Well i'm back. My computer has been reformated and now its perfectly fine! Goodbye to TROJAN!!! Hah!! Actually i wanna watch DIA so i'm will have a quick update. So Haifa Noorin pics are up...LOOK!

Okay we took this with great diffuculty because basically i have to take it and my hand is too short for it. Hahaz... end up Haifa Noorin have to snap it because she havlonger arms. Ouh yeah whatever don't be too flattered my dear girl. Hahaz...

Hahaz... and btw look it's our shoes!!! Hahaz... i had fish and chip at IndoChine. And my goodness... i just discover that we 3 girls just can't stop talking because we got so many craps and nonsense to share. Wahaha!! Just love u 2 la!! Muacks muacks... Haifa Noorin jangan nak buat buat luper that you are going to buy all my school needs arh. Err... not really all just the bag and the rest that Hairon Najib will settle. Hehez... Right right?!

And look at that!! That was when i was admitted to the hospital and look yucks!! I just managed to put it at my com because i have my new N70 and my Samsung E730 can't upload it to my com. Ass!! Sudden;y i fear of getting injected but i don't mind injecting anyone. Hahaz!!!

Okay i think i don't want to talk much because DIA is just so interesting now. Or ya not forgetting frustrating!! Ass!!

ON A HIATUS

So from this minute, this time, this day and this moment and whatever word that can be associated i'm on HIATUS!! Will be beck in a few days or weeks time. Cya!!

With Love, YusLiza

A Quick One

Alright my com needs a reformating so people wouldn't be seeing me much online. I don't know when my brother and me is going to solve this problem because we are just too busy working and settling some stuffs. So before i'm off iwill reply to all my dear taggers.

Dear afro: Thanks ehh zal... peterpan peterpan.... don't talk about my boyfriend already later he jealous!! Hahaz!!

Dear naszri: Yea but i'm still the first master! They love me too much. They'll cry for me okay!! Hahaz!!

Dear nisha: Hey girl long time never see you too!! Been busy with work and life right now!! Hahaz.... hope to see ya around soon. Will love it if i were to even see you at my workplace. We can talk abit. hee hee... cya soon girl! Love ya!!

Dear pam: Hey... another pretty young thing saying that to the other...so sad! Hahaz... ya la i worst the snail i tell you. People who reads books ar called bookworm but me i think booksnail!! hahaha!!!


So all tags replied. By the way to my best friend Sabbie!! Thanks for the shirt! Just love ya la girl!! Muackz... Haifa Noorin i still haven;t have any idea of what bag to get. Till the next shopping spree. You guys go shopping totally on the wrong timing la that's why! Okay i'm off. BYE!

I'm reading again...

***Before i start wanna wish my TWO BEST FRIENDS A VERY HAPPY BELATED 18th BIRTHDAY. TO SABRINA AND AARON CHAN JUN HON!! Love ya guys many many la!! May all wishes come true ya!! Muackkzz and huggsss!!!***

Wow! Shocking isn't it. I'm reading a book. Or rather or novel. What the hell. I've never LOVE reading. Just a normal likes thats all. Books that i've read so far are only 'Princess Diaries by Meg Cabot' and 'Sisterhood of the travelling pants'. And gees guess just how long i need to finish one book. A few months maybe. Ask Pam she knows it far to well. Hahaz...

I just finish reading anovel called "Before we were Thirty" by Katie Agnew. And i swear this book is frigging fantastic, baulous, interesting and more!! You guys should read it. There's drugs, sex, rock 'n' roll and heartbreaking tragedy like one of the magazines commented for this book. I just love reading it. Okay the credits must go to HAIFA NOORIN who practically introduces me with this book and that well the book belongs to her! Ass i can't keep it!! Grr!! And i'm still waiting for a new book to read at my work place.

By the way i realised that i'm getting old. Nah not really that old but i'm nearly becoming an adult. Well a young adult i can say. That's scary. With so much responsibilites and problems and everything. It freaks me out. I don't wanna grow!! I wanna remain a kid like Peter Pan. But i can't. :-( So now i think i got to act and think maturely. I guess i'm doing it well. Hopefully so.

I won't be blabbering a lot today because i'm friggingtired because since the kenduri at home i got no rest. Not enough sleep. So peeps i'm off now but before i end i'm replying all tags. So here goes:

Dear Naszri: I don't even bite my own toe nails your biatch!! Hahaz!! Go do all the ten year series la you! Don't talk much! And hell don't destroy my books with your handwrittings ya!! Hahaz... have pity... they are only books!! Wahahahaha!!!!

Dear Ads: Hahaz... thanks for inviting though i think i'm not invited but no la dear girl working. Twees!!

Dear Madey: Hey see you there girl!! Hehez... if i'm fit enough for my early childhood course though. :-(

Dear Ayienz: Ehh?! You like that course too? Yok la masuk same same!! Hahaz!!!

Dear Afro: Ooii.. Shh!! I want to dush dush you my problem arh!! HAH!!! Bluekz... :-P


-THE END-

I LOVE PAM!!!

Hahaz... I'm not lesbian mind you. But i just wanna say i love my friend name PAM sooo much!! Hahaz!! Thanks for the great day girl!! Enjoyed myself. Hahaz... thanks for the accompanyment. The girls day out is sure do fun!! And pampering ourselves to some manicure is sure fantastic!! Hahaz... its so funny how the both of us try to carry our things properly just as not to destroy our tiny little fingernails. Hahahaz!!! And Pam i'll get the PMK shirt tommorow yeah!! Sheeshh!! Can't bloody shop because of those nails. Gees!! Hahaz... and we didn't get to eat Anderson!! Hahaz... next time maybe!! Anyways thanks girl. Love ya Loads.

So yeah i'm trying very hard not to bite my nails after those manicure.Since they already shape it nicely i hope it will grow as the shape is. I'm really trying my very best to not bite la!! Errghhh....can't resist actually!!! ISh!!! Addictive!! Hahahaz...

So to sum up today's entry i just wanna say I LOVE PAM for all the fun and MR LEE HAN HWA for all your help all these while. You are my HERO!! Hahaha!!!

Finally...

Its been such a long long long time i guess.... Phew!! Finally i updated. Like so many people has been screaming at me to update. Ok ok here goes the same old boring update of mine. I didn't know there's people who's interested in reading my entries. I thought that all along it had been so boring. Anyways who wants to read your welcome to who doesn't, you may click that cross sign at the top right hand corner of your screen ya.

So yeah i've been very busy with work lately. Got transder to work at Queesnway for a couple of days. So what more can be as fun as going to work with your BEST FRIEND!! Hehez... and Aaron is a nice guy. Not Aaron Chan Jun Hon!! But Aaron Ong donno what else. He's nice to work with. Man Master Rocks!! Will go to Causeway Point soon and meet MEI LING!! Eric was all nice too. Hahaz... he said i'm special because i don't have to go interview for the job. Straight away work. Hehe... *shy*. And Queensway have so many strange and weird people. Especially malay boys and malay mak ciks too. Hahaz... didn't know that they will pakat with the son to get to kknow a girl. There's this lady who went in the shop while i'm like serving this group of malay boys. She went in the shop browse throught so fast then pass me then grab my left hand and gave me a piece of paper and say "Somebody give one. Call later he crazy." I was like huh? Alamak so not gentleman la ask mother give. Want to know come yourself la. Hahaz!! So as usual crushed and to the dust bin it goes. Hahahaz!! Sorry. But come on la this method so outdated la. Nowadays girls prefer a more gentlemanly and daring move la. Hahaz... that shows more of sincerity mah. Hahahaz...

Ouh okay to whom who wants to know if in the same school as you. Well i'm going to my all time favourite school NGEE ANN!! YAY!!! And to all time favourite course EARLY CHILDHOOD!! YAY!! I decided not to appeal for business because i think that i couldn't get it because this year's aggregate is sure very very low. Cut off point of 13 is sure do low. Ish!! And anyways i think i'm more interested in Early Childhood to business. But what fears and worries me now is the health check up. What if i'm unfit or what. I will be kicked from the course!! Ouh nono!! Ouh God!! Please i don't want to!! I love that course!! Hope my bronchitis wouldn't affect anything. I checked the net about the various disease that one should not have to enter the course. So far i think i don't have any of them. I really hope i'll be fine. If not! If not, i don't know what will happens next! Truly don't know! Haiz... worries worries and more worries. Gotta pray hard that everything will goes fine. Anyways to people who will go "Alah Yus your face again". So sorry peeps... got to bear with this ugly face again for 3 years!!

To Haifa Noorin!! Sorry babe can't go pengantin with on friday. Working la. I really hope when school start i can go pakaikan inai with you. And okay its been such a loooooongggg time since i wear for anyone inai and i don't know if i'll do a nice one on friday. Gees... hahaz!! And OIII I wear for you right hand you wear for me right la!!! Left hand i make myself!! Your left hand also make yourself. Ok ok?!!

Hehez... guess what Zaimy called me the other. Wow shocking. Its been such a long long long long time since he last called. Hahaz! I'm just so shocked. Chatted on the phone. And his girlfriend's workplace is sure to be eerie that i was scared meet my brother alone at the carpark after work that day when i chat with him on the phone. Thanks ehh MI!!

Ouh yes bought a N70. Because my Samsung phone just died on phone after a fall. Not as good as Nokia still la. Nokia drop 10 times also still as strong. My phone drop not that many times though. Around 5 or 6 times only maybe and it dies!! Hahaz!! So bought a N70 which at first i think it looks so bloody ugly and bulky but when i bought it i think its not that bad. It's slimmer. Haifa Noorin your previous phone is much fatter and bigger. LOL!! But ouh well i learn my lesson. Shall not just look at the hsape of the phone. Look at the function is still the best. And N70 has everythin. I loike!!!

Okay okay time to reply to all my dearest taggers!! Here goes...

Dear Heal~Miez: Hey hi! What so cool sey!! Same old boring blog. Hahaz!! You take care too!

Dear afro: OKOK dah update. Happy? Hahaz! Dah bacer boring kan?!

Dear Crimson's Key: Huh?! I understand what you talking about. And by the way who are you?!
Meditating what?

Dear Mick: Hahaz... if its your bro then something is soooo wrong with your skin colour. It should be black too. Hahaz!!

Dear Brenden: Heyy!! Very long never see you!! Thanks for the compliment. See you around soon yeah!!

Dear Yingxuann: Ok hun update already!! Now leave a more interesting tag at my tagboard yea!! Hahahaz!!

Dear .a.ron: AARON CHAN JUN HON!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm inviting you to my house on saturday too you kuku!!! alah why must your birthday fall on that day?! So sorry la can't come on that day. Sab too!! Talk to you about it the other day right so you should know. Ouh yah about my life too! And congrats for getting into LaSalle!! Like is tat even the spelling? Hahaz... whatever. You know i know!!

Dear nisha: Gal update already. Slowly read arh!! Hehez!!

Dear ads: Nopez. i'm not going for the chalet dear girl. Why?! I know i come you don't want come right? Hahahaz....

Dear xuansheng: Ouh ok will re-link you soon.

Dear JV: Update already dear nurul!! Happy reading!! Hehez!!

Dear saL: Alah kak!!! Guess i'll treat you next time yeah? Will ask kak mira along. Hows that? *smilling widely*

Okay replied all tags. Tommorow off but i guess i'm very busy tommorrow. Phew. Need to clean the mess in my room for Saturday. Bought so many new clothes, earings, pants and everything and its like placed everywhere in my room. And i need to pack my obooks to give it to some people who need it. To sum up my room is a total mess. Yucks!! So i guess gotta go get some sleep now. Bie! *yawns*

THIS IS MY BLOG!

Okay the title is like okay that's obvious Yus. But some people just don't realise it. So people please refrain yourself from picking a fight or anything especially at my TAGBOARD!! To the 'PRETENDER' who has ben using someone else nick to tag, i don't wish to know who you are sinc you are not going to tell but i just want you to stop it. Its not nice to use other people's name when you have yours. Whoever you may be i hope you'll stop. If you don't respect yourself at least respect my blog for once! Alright? Thanks a lot. I don't ask a lot from you. All i want is a ceased to this nonsense!! Alright? Thanks again.

Floorball! Its fun but somethings just bring my mood level to 0!! But anyways had fun with Sab, Shariffah and Reshmel just now! Okay confirm tommorrow i'll ache everywhere. BUt last week never lei! Hmm...today play a bit stress arh! A lot of running. Hahahaz!!

Yes!! I just want to say that i'm very impress with my red cross. The juniors i mean. They improved a lot. Hope you guys will make it for the competition. HYRC ROCKS!!! Okay i got nothing else to say. Want to get an early sleep because tommorrow WORKING!!! So bye bye....

Weird Episode of my Life

Yay!! Tommorrow's Thursday! Off day and that means floorball. Ms Lee my Red Cross Teacher called me to come back train footdrill tommorrow. Wow that was like so rushing when she told me at around 7 plus. Was working so didn't think much so i should be able to make it. So hope to have an intensive training with them for half an hour tommorrow and then off they go for the competition.

A lot happened to me this few days while working. Firstly there was this guy who being such an irritating toot. What he did? He didn't practically disturb me but what the hell i don't even know what was he up to. I already saw him passing by my shop and he gave me that sharp stare. I was like looking away knowing he was looking at me. I thought that's the end. While i was talking with my boss and one of my colleague, that guy appear.

"Yes Sir can i help you?" My boss said.

"Sorry ah i want to talk to her (me)," He replied.

"Yes?!" i asked.

(Was speaking in fluent malay though he looks like indian. So hard to say what race.)

"You ever stayed at Taman Jurong or Jurong extension before ah?" He asked me.

"NO...." i answered.

"Where you stay? You look familiar ah," He added.

"I saty Jurong but not Taman Jurong or Extension," I answered his question again.

"Ouh, like got see you before. Can come out outside. I want to talk to you," He said.

"NO! I working! Bye!" i answered for the last time. Then i went in to store room.

My boss asked me if i know that guy and seriously i don't know who he is!!! I never in my life see him before. So my boss asked me go inside because he was still standing outside my shop. He stayed there for like around 20 mins. And then he went inside COURTS. If only my brother was working. then there will be a scence. LOL! So i went out to serve customer since he's in courts. When my customer was about to pay he appeared again. This time he asked my colleague to read for him a message from his handphone. He was actually standing in front of me looking at me but didn't ask me. Thank God! The best thing was my friend replied, "I DONNO!!" And then she walk off! Hahaha!! Then he asked my boss. And again he kana. My boss said, "I donno i donno, go away i donno english. Go away i doing bussiness here." Haha!! Then he gave me that stare again and then walk off. Gosh he's one weird guy! I was even scared to go toilet because i so him at the first floor. My mum couldn't fetch me that night because she just reach Serangoon which is my aunt's house. My brother off and i have no idea where was he. Like as usual when i told my mum, my mum don't allow me to go home alone and so she called my cousin and he picked me up. Actually i insisted that i would be fine and i take cab home but she still don't want to allow it because she's scared that he will still be waiting for me which i doubt so. So my cousin bring me home. And guess what was the frightening thing. Thank God i followed my mum's advice. I was on the bike and i saw that man wearing red at the parking. Ish ish ish ish. But thank godness!! I'm safe. I don't know what was his intention. Seriously don't know! I don't remember knowing anyone who looks like him. Was his intention good or bad. God knows. But the experience was really scary.

Before this i ya i do come across weird guys la. But they just will ask my number and then flirt with me instead of buying the shirts there and then my boss will get all fed up. But that's just it. Not as strange as this case. Sometimes those guys who motive is just flirting and not buying makes me say all the swear words in my heart. Its like kuku you dumbos, make me stand here serve you for nothing! Never buy somemore and if want to flirt flirt properly. I so don't like the way those guys flirt with me. Yucks! So unproffessional. Only this one guy, he's a mixed malay. He can't decide what to wear for his d'N'd and i find it fun talking with him. Suggesting him what to wear and all. What shocked me was he came the next day after the incident of the weird indian guy. And when i say," thank you please come again". He actually said, "Oh can i come again and disturb you like that man yesterday?" And i was stunned for a moment of how he knew? He want to walk off but i stopped him and asked, "Err you are not suppose to know right?" He replied, "Oh i was here yesterday but i need to rush off."

Phew okay that was relieving to hear. He's quite old though and i'm sure he's attached. Hahaz!! But he's a nice customer. Like the way he speak english. People i'm not falling for him ah. Those praises are just sincere. Gees! Not that fast to fall for anyone right!! Ish ish!!! LOL!!

So overall weird things have been happenind to me la. And i keep bumping into things and people too!! Lame lame lame. getting more clumsy each there. Yus Yus!! And guess what today is 23rd of February!! This day is when me and Sab we became best friend!! And its been 5 years of friendship! How i love it!! Love you Sab!! You are the bestest best friend i ever have!! Or anyone could ever have. Starting of as enemies and ending of as best friends. What can be better than this right?! You know what i have to say to you since i gave you the letter. So here i would just say I LOVE YOU LOADS!!! May our friendship last forever. Love ya best friend!!

And by the way before i end the person who gave me a flower on Valentine's day gave me the permission to publish his name big big in my blog. So he is MUHAMMAD FAIZAL BIN ZAINAL ABIDIN!!! Hahahaz!! Thanks Zal appreaciate it. Eh Eh!! He's not my boyfriend or admirer or anything ah. Don't know why he gave me the rose but i know he means well. Whatever it is sorry zal was too shock to say thanks that moment so i shall say it here THANK YOU!!!! So okay you may stop reading now!

Shopping Spree with Beloved Mama!

Did i ever tell you guys that i simply LOVE shopping. I am such a crazy shopaholic! Hahaz!! This month i went shopping with my beloved mama!! I just love her so bloody much lah!! She's my super woman, my ou xiang, my hero and my everything la! I just love to bits!! The best mother on earth!! Mama you rock!! And yes... it was ladies day out only that luch papa join us for lunch. Had lunch at Sakura. I was my treat to the best parent in the world! Haha!! It was not an expensive meal but i hope they are happy with it. Then papa have to go work. Damn!!

So mama and me made our way to shops to SHOP!! What else! Hahahaz!! Bought a earing and bought mama a ring at Ginza. My gosh GINZA is like so EMPTY!! Nothing to shop there. Haha!! And ouh yeah it was funny when both mother daughter don't know where we are going and where to have lunch. LOL!! So i bought a skirt and pants from double index. I just love that shop la! But when i reach home and try on the pants it don't look good on me at all. so i think i am going back to the shop to maybe change it if it is allowed. Bought 2 tops from PMK. Thought of getting another skirt there but the skirt there a kindda short and i am uncomfortable wearing it so just bought a top. Then what else did i bought?! Ouh yes! The most expensive one among all that i shop. I bought a Solvil Titus watch. I so love it! Mama was like "buy adek buy at least when you start school you know ouh this watch is your hard earn money when you are working". Hahaz! So i bought it. Bought for mama a brooch from B'dazzle. Haifa Noorin recommended her to buy there! Kuku you its EX you know!! Hahaha!! But its nice la! For the second time i bought for her brooch. How boring. Wanna buy her bag or shoe all not nice so she don't wanna! So okay as long as she's happy. I don't know what to get for papa. Well i hope the treat at Sakura oka la eh?! Wahaha!! Ouh yah at for dinner a Roti Prata treat! Hahahahaz!! See i'm such a good daughter. Hehehez!

Actually i'm rushing now because DIA is starting in 10 minutes time. So maybe i'll end it here. Today is just so fun!! Mother and daughter shopping like nobody's bussiness! Hahaha!! I love my MAMA sooooooooooo much! Can i say that again. Nah... later jealousy will arise because i just a GREAT mother. Hahaha!! Bye bye!!

Floorball Rocks my Stockings

The title tells it all. Wow! It was indeed a long time since i last played but ouh well. I enjoyed it! I scored!! One time only though. Haha! Not easy to score okay! Only Ms. Agnes can score till so many. Haha!! She's so pro. I just love the way she hold the stick. Wow!! My Siew Ngo... oops! She was like yelling at me "You called me Siew Ngo in your blog" just now! Wahaha!! Sorry la. Its like a habit already. You calling me lizard and i calling you Siew Ngo. It's definately something wrong if you start calling me "yusLiza". Hahaha! Ok anyways i'll try to start the habit of calling you Mrs Kelly Tan here and you know what Mrs Tan i still can't remember you full name even after you tell me with your round eyes just now!! Wahaha!! Anyways Mrs Tan was so violent. I got one love bit from Mrs Tan's stick on my hand! Haha!! But no doubt her seriousness in the game makes her a good floorball player. Wee weet. *jealous*

WoW!! i realised that teachers is starting to read this boring blog of mine. Hahaha... and Miss Sally Pang!!! You tagged!!!!! I'm so proud of you! Wahaha! Okay don't ask me what so proud about it. Haha! I just find it cool la for her to tag. Hehes!

Okay i want to say thanks to that someone who gave me a rose on Valentine's Day. You should know who you. I don't mind putting you name here. But i scared you don't like it. So if you don't mind i put it in next entry!! Okay? Anyways i was so busy scolding you for giving me that i forgot did i say thanks? If haven't here goes, THANKS!!! Okay?! Was expecting a rose from another person but ouh well.

Moving on. to my cousins who want to go out with me celebrate my results. I'm so sorry people! My off day is so not fixed. Very difficult. So sorry ya! And Haifa Noorin i saw a nice bag at Esprit. Heh heh! *evil laugh* You promise babe!

Okay next replying to all tags. Here goes nothing. Hehe!

Dear Pam: Hey its okay la. At least you got to spend v.day with your love ones too. Your family! The most important people to everyone. Hope your mum is fine now ya! Btw i miss you la!! I want go shopping with you again!! Waiting next pay! Heh Heh!! I know you also want to go shop with me right? Admit it! LOLZ!!

Dear Ms Pang: Wow i'm so glad you tagged. We can keep in touch this way. Blogging is not that bad afterall. Haha! Anyways thanks Ms Pang. I definately can't do it alone. Teachers like you too deserve the credit. Thanks so much to you who never fail to guide me in biology! And wow! I didn't know that my blog is that interesting. Many of my friends say its boring. Don't believe ask them. Haha! Thanks everything Ms Pang. Looking forward to go back Hua Yi for another floorball match with you and the rest of the teachers too. Somebody pro already la! I so scared play against her! LOLZ!!! Cya around ya!!

Dear yingxuann: Thanks girl. Yeah man really hope i can go to the business admin. But nah i don't think so i can get it. The placing is very little. Ouh well. I just have to pray hard. Haha! Teacher's are always scary to me when i was in primary school but nah not really la. They quite fun also la. LOLZ!

Dear faezah: Alamak sebok la you! Another year of your face... boring arh! Hahaz... like as though we got to know our school and course already arh? Hahahaz!!

Alright had a fun day just now. It feels so great to get to meet my B2 and B3!! Reshmel and Shariffah. Haha!! Laugh Laugh Laugh!! Hahaz!! Haiz... though we have some problems bothering us but the company of people like Sab, Shariffah and Resh makes me forget all my problem. Miss you guys!! Hope to have such meet up soon ya?! Alright Shariffah wants me to find for her cheat code and don't know why i feel so busy now all of a sudden!! Hahaha!! Before i end just wishng Pam's mum a SPEEDY RECOVERY!!

whatever it may be...

Okay i realised that i have many taggers not replied!! So i decided to reply to all my deag taggers. So here goes.

Dear azizah: Hey girl. Can you like give me your new blog link or not? Hehez. Sorry. And anyways thanks for the best wishes. And girl how is your results? I can't tag your board to ask you basically because i forget to save your link when you told me some time ago. Hehez... sorry girl.

Dear yingxuann: Hey yingxuann thanks. Congrats to you for the excellent results. I'm so proud of you! Ceh bahh... hahaz!!

Dear naszri: I will put my result here. So go have a look at the atrocious marks of mine. And btw help you what? And what janji you talking around about?

Dear hi-far: Ooii!! Tak sia- sia berpenyakit tau (kakak suraya says this). Pass jugak! LOLZ!!

Dear ayienz: Hey hun! I will put up my result soon ya. Btw ain did i tell you i saw Zunairah that day. Hahaz... so long never see her.

Dear ika: Ika!! U tagged!! Hahaz!! Will put up my horrible results soon.

Dear nadd: NADD!! I so miss you la girl!! Nice to here from you. Sadly can't go JC see you la! Haha!! Because i bloody get a D7 for my combined humanities. So i'm just eligible for Millenia Institiute which i'm not interested to take A-Level for 3 years. Hahaz! So hows school girl?

Dear dian: Thanks dian! So long never see you. Take care yea!

So to whoever is willing to see my awful, terrible and horrible you may proceed. To these who can't bear to laugh at it you may. My pleasure. While to those who can't bear to look at that ugly marks please click on the cross at the top right hand corner. Okay?

Eng; 5 Maths; 4 Com. Sci; 3 Malay; 2 Com. Humanities; 7 (damn SS) Principles of Accounts;2

L1R4; 16 L1R5; 23

So that's how pathethic my result is. Chose Business Admin at SP as my first choice. Hope to get it after much thought and advise from many people. Tommorrow's Valentine. !8 years without a date. So nothing new. Yet another boring Valentine's day. Thank God i'm working! Not that boring afterall.

Happy.Proud. Nah!

Phew! My panda eyes appears not for nothing okay. The sleeping late, the sacrifices to not watch tv and go out jalan raya also does paid off! I was so shocked after looking at the results slip. A 16 for L1R4 is so unexpected. I thought the most we could get is like 20! Oh my!! I'm so proud of myself. The hard work is finally paid of.

Thanks to Mr Amran firstly for the support and guidance. You have been a great teacher who always have faith in me and never fail to support me. Thanks a bunch cher. To Mr Lee Han Hwa! Phew a 3 for science is also unexpected when i totally thought i screwed up for my biology practical. And thanks for being so patient in answering all my stupid chemistry question! You are just too great! Miss Pang too. Thanks for being so patient with my slowness and answering my 'Y ah' question in your class. And SIEW NGO!!! Hahaz!!! I just love you la now! Haha!! Another unexpected disticntion for accounts makes me love MRS KELLY TAN more! Hahaz!! To kak Salbiah! Thanks for teaching me maths. Actually a lot of peopleI really appreaciate it. Love ya guys! is helping me out with maths!! RONALD!! Thanks my dear Ronald! Nisha too!! Thanks people!

I have a bloody bad sore throat. Want to sleep now so bye.

The BIG day!

Okay. So tommorrow is the BIG day. Which decides my future. So people wish me luck. I think i really need loads of it. Today's Cat last day. =( And she treat me to anderson ice-cream. Though you bought me the wrong flabour i still love you. Nice working with you Cat. Thanks for being patient with me. Love you many many.

OkayOkay! I can't seem to be concentrating on anything i do now. Too scared. Too nervous. Too worried. I run out of vocab already. So enough and bye!

Shopping Spree Episode 2

Went shopping with my dearest best friend Sabrina! Its been a long time since we went out together. Miss those days. Enjoy every single minute of it. Thanks Sab for the top. And i hope you like the pants i bought for you. Love the neoprints. No idea why i can't upload the pictures here. So i can't be bothered anymore because blogger or is it my com have been giving me problems. Arggh!! Frustrating enough. Wanna thanks Shi YIng for the discount given. Haha! And Jia Qi!! So glad to see my girlfriend again! Hehe!!

Alright like one more day to results. Yus is so dead. Dead Dead Dead. *bang*
The End.

Another day at work...

Tommorrow off day!! Yay!! So tomorrow is shopping day!! Nobody’s invited to this shopping spree because i'm going out with my beloved best friend Sabbie!! She's sick but hope she's better by tomorrow else then I have to invite other people already. Hahaz… nah I think I still go with her.

Gosh a lot of stupid things happened at work today. All my customers are like so weird and so funny. I couldn't help but to laugh while serving them. Cat la! You have to look at me and make me laugh one is it? And oh my god me and Cat are like so sick of Jurong Pount food that we totally have no idea what to eat. Have to really crack our brains to buy our food. Hahaz!! And Cat have been teaching me loads of Chinese words. But I can't rememeber much! Haha! Funny thing happened when I do settlement just now. I actually heard a sound of a sound. I was so engrossed in counting the money that I thing I was hallucinating because it wasn’t the sound of a mouse but my handphone message tone and guess who messaged. It was MUHD FAIZAL! Hahaz… ish! I got scared nothing. Stupid right? Zal I didn't want to tell you because you will sure laughed about it right that moment. So wait for one day for you to read this. Hahaz! Seriously the first thing I thought was MOUSE!! My handphone was in the drawer so it doesn’t sound loud. Cat was mopping the floor so she doesn't know this. If she knows, she will burst to laughter. Haha!! I actually stand on the chair to do settlement until I realised ‘Was it my handphone which make the stupid sound?!’ Indeed it was. I’m going to change the tone immediately man. I don't want to be such a fool again! Or its just me la who was being so blur and stupid. What’s new? That’s freaking YUS LIZA!! Gees. Hahaha!! Thank God I did settlement all correctly. If not Cat will kill me because ah kim and ah bee will kill her!! Hahaha!!And what the hell, there were a lot of female customers just now buying for their boyfriend a Valentine’s day gift. *jealous* Haha! Like the past few years I will be spending Valentine’s day alone AGAIN! Like duh I no boyfriend of course alone la! Haha! Sometimes how I wished I can spend it with my special someone but ouh well. I got to stop dreaming and get back to reality. Not everyone is as lucky to find someone whom they loved and being loved back in return. Well it takes times and obstacles to find our special someone anyways. Once I thought I have found my better half but ouh well. Guess matters of the heart is really confusing and complicated. I have to be very careful in handling it again if not I will just see my heart broken up to pieces again.

Enough about those love crap. I still can't stop worrying about the damn results! Arggh! Must every Singapore students have to undergo this? Exams stress or rather exams results stress!! Arggh!! I don’t know how to face Mr.Amran to get my results. * heads down* I wonder how would I react if Mr. Amran were to say “I know you tried your best but I know you can do better.” Ahhh… *bites nails* I’m so going to disappoint so many people. Haiz! Well that’s life. I got to except it. Ouh yes! Did I say I’m having a bad headache the whole day at work and I need to sleep now. Yeah so I wanted by dreamland. So bye peeps!

fate changes everything, everything changes fate

To people like Adilah who keeps asking me to update. I'm so sorry but I did update. Don't believe ask Faizal. I posted a very very very long entry yesterday for like twice. But it just went missing just like that. I don't know what's wrong. Is it the blogger or my computer that is creating these entire sick kindda problems. So I guess only Faizal gets to read it before it went missing. Like ili said, the case of the missing entry. What the heck. Anyways if this entry went missing again I just don't know what to say. It's just so getting on my nerves. So I shall not be bothered.

Life is full of ups and downs. Indeed it's true. I realised that these few days God has really tested me with all kinds of problems but ouh well I should say that I managed to handle it well. Everything changes fate or fate changes everything. Sometimes it's better off unsaid and unanswered or un-understandable.

Lately I have been very sick. So ill that I have to be sent to the hospital and guess what I'm beginning to hate doctors now. I was injected or rather better said poke few times at like 5 different places and at that every spot he have to bloody miss the veins. How frustrating! It was so painful and all the doctor can say is “I'm sorry that I have to inject you a few times.” Gosh! It was definitely a painful and unforgettable experience for me. I was so bored in the observation ward to that I took my hand phone and snap the picture of my hand where I was injected and put on a drip. I just couldn't get to sleep with all the noises around me and the gas on my mouth. I was in pain, tired and bored but thanks to people like Sab, Faizal, Pam, Candy, Idzahar, Aaron and many more who actually messaged me to ask how was I feeling. It feels great to have people like that who actually cared for you. I feel blessed that I met these people in this life. Thanks guys for your care and concern. I really appreciate it. Love you guys to the very bits!! I thanked God that I wasn't admitted because if I do i'm going to make such a big scene there because I will insist that I want to go home. Haha! Chaos me! But whatever it is I really hoped that this will be the last. Dear Allah please blessed me with good health always!!

Being sick is already so bad and some things have to add on to it and never fail to bring me down. I was so disturbed physically and mentally for that past few days. I really feel like breaking down that instance but I learnt to be more patient and that every problem has its solution. I take things slow. Indeed with so much patience I succeeded. I realised and discovered so many things after all this. I realised that everything happens for a reason. Yes, it's so true. After all this I thank God that I found out the truth before it's too late. I’m lucky am I? Not everyone is as lucky as me. Though it hurts so badly but i'm still all relieved that I know the truth much earlier. The phrase truth hurts does make sense. Afterall, i'm not all sad. There’s still something to be happy about. I believed now, in life, we should not take the ups of life for granted and that not all the ups are good. The downs maybe better than the ups eventually. Though I was feeling horrible I don't give way to the small things in my life which will bring me down to get in my way. I still look for the other side of life which will bring back my happiness again. The past was just a memory that will be stored in my heart forever. For now I have to face the reality bravely and be prepared for what is in store for me. The chapter of my life doesn't stop at chapter 10 but it will carry on proving that life is beautiful and that I have to live life to the fullest.

Sigh. I'm feeling all exhausted and tired after all the test God have put me through that I just feel like screaming at an open field to relieve all the confusions in me. Ahhh!! For now, what more can be more stressing than the O level results that is going to be released soon. It's just a few more days and boom, the result is out. Sigh. I just have a very big gut feeling that I can’t make it. Went to Ngee Ann Poly open house yesterday and what the heck the cut off points for Early Childhood is like 15. Like how on earth can I get such marks? I will just end up in ITE. Sigh. I really want to go Ngee Ann badly and get in to Early Childhood Course. Ouh well no use saying it all now. Guess I just have to wait for the results to be out, be prepared for the worst and cry it out. What else can I do anyways? Somebody told me to always look on the bright side of life. That's exactly what I should do right now.

I'm like so obsessed with this malay song right now. It's an old song. I don't know if some of you guys know the song. The song is Kau Tetap Dalam Anganku sang by Azie. I remembered I use to love this song when I was young but back then I just think that the tune is nice and all but for now I realised that the lyrics is very meaningful after much analysis. Just read the lyrics and give your views on it. To the non-malays i'm sorry I can't translate. For an expected D7 or worst English score for the Os is better to not even try translating it else I will make everyone all confused. Haha!

Kau Tetap Dalam Anganku Lyrics:

Sekilasku teringat detik-detik yang lepas
Indahnya berkasihan semacam kurasakan
Tak sanggup rasanya sesaat ditinggalkan.

Dan seboleh bolehnya ku ingin mengikut mu
Walau kelurah dalam aku snaggup tenggelam
Demi kerana sayang
Apa jua kurela jiwa dan raga.

Engkau saja yang sentiasa bermain di fikiran tiap masa dan ketika
Tak terlintas dihati ini untuk curang kepada mu, oh kekasih.
Aku harap pendirian engkau juga
Sama-sama pertahankan kesetiaan.
Walau diacuh belati tajam mengugutmu
Cinta aku kasih aku tetap untukmu hingga kemati
Hanya itu mampu kuberi. (2X)

Tersentak lamunan bila diri disentuh oleh seseorang.
Ku cuba damaikan hati yang kian berkoca.
Agar perasaan sedih aku ini tidak nampak. (2X)

too tired...

Okay people i'm sick, very sick! I will NEVER go hospital so don't ever talk to me about that topic. Sorry wouldn't be updating much. Too frustrated here. Being breathless is NEVER fun!! That's it FULLSTOP. Bye.

Weeee....

Alright went shopping with my dear Pam just now! Thanks Pam for being a nice shopping partner. Bought mama a brooch and myself a top. But the most favourite part of mine is eating at Fish and Co!! Yay!!! Hahaz... Pam and I just couldn't decide on what to eat. After much consideration we decided on Fish and Chips with rice for me and Black Pepper Stingray with rice for Pam. Hahaz... both with rice no chips! Hahahaz... and yay!! I got to eat CALAMRI!!! Nyum nyum!! Hah... tak guner nyer Stephen Kwek Xiu Wen!! Promise to treat me Calamari from before the Os until Want to get result already still haven't treat me. Hah!!! And then we were bloated.

I hate it when the sales person have to give us that look when we say we will come back later and like sortta force us to buy it. Pam and me encountered it just now!! Hah!! What the hell. Learn to be a nice sales girl like me people. When people don't want to buy after trying like 4-5 clothes, i would just give them a smile and say 'thank you'. When they go already then make the face. Hah!! Gong gong! That kind of people is so not fit to be with customer relations! Dumbos!!Hahahaz... oopss i apologize to whoever who teraser. Hehehez...

Anyways wanna say thanks to my dear Pam for the fun we had today. Love ya girl. Hope to have more of this shopping fever. Hahaz!! Off again tommorrow so going to have a lot of rest because after tommorrow i have no more off and i have to work till chinese New Year. Gosh it will sure be tiring man. 12 hours a day everyday. AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Busy busy bee...

Phew! Life has been very hectic. Been very busy with work. 12 hours everyday at Jurong Point makes me feel that there's NO WAY i'm going shopping on my off day at Jurong Point. Gosh!! So sick of it. Anyways firstly wishing Miss Dalina a very happr married life! Congratulations on your wedding. Selamat Pengatin Baru. Though she's not going to read this but who knows she too bloghop! Hahaz!! Saw Miss Dalina just now! Hehez... so got to say sorry because cannot come her wedding because i couldn't take leave. There's not been a day since i work i didn't see anyone i know. Hahahaz... there's always people to salam, smile and talk!! Hahaz... and oh my god those people who wants my number, the way they say it, its so funny! Hahahaz... but of course i'll not give my number. There's one handsome malay guy though but ouh well, not my prinsip to give my number and to get to know through sms. I think it don't work! Hahahaz...

Work is getting funner and funner each day. Funner? Hmm... new work in YusliZa's dictionary. Hahahaz... with Jason, Angeline and Wei Wei around i can never get bored. Hahahaz... And guess what? I proudly say that i'm not the shprtest at MAN MASTER because Angeline is!! Hahaz... Don't believe come man master and see the height chart. You don't see my name in the most bottom. Hahahaz... Ok i have an important announcement to make...

I NEED A SHOPPING PARTNER BADLY!!

Hahaz... i have two days off and i really feel like shopping. But what is weird is feel like shopping for someone more and not myself. I feel like shopping for someone badly. Hahahahaz!! Who is so free to go with me? Erm... i prefer a guy! Hahahaz... this is because can help me carry my shopping bag. Hahaha... nah just kidding. So anyone available please give me a call. Twees!!

Here are the replies to my beloved taggers!!

Dear Vanessa: Yeah of course! Thanks for your concern hun! Aaron too!! Thanks for always being there for me. It was really hard at first to keep smilling but to think again no use being all grumpy and let people know all your stupid problems! Hahahaz...

Dear Nisha: Hey girl. Thanks for your concern and advice. I'm so blessed to have friends like you! Thanks a bunch girl. I know i can always count on my friends. Love ya!

Dear Dinky: Hahaz... yeah always see you there but tegur me once only! Dush dush!! Hahahaz... blaja la orang air ker, ice-cream ker... Hahahahaz!!

Dear *sal*: Hey kak!! Miss ya too! Hahahaz... don't worry i still remember...swensen ice-cream!! But i dubt so you'll get it!! Hahahaz...

Dear Seri: My dear chatting partner, i'm catching the mishness from you and posting my hugs to you!! Hahaz.... miss ya girl!! Maklum jer la kiter orang nie busy woman la ehh skarang!! Hahahaz...

Dear Pam: Hey PAM!!! Miss you so much girl!! Miss you loads and loads, cartens and cartens!! Hahahahaz.... yeah man been really busy. Well, better be busy working now then later busy schooling right?... Hahaz... so must make use of the time earning some cash. Hehez... hope to see you soon girl. Muackz!!

Dear afro: Hey HELLO!!!! Anyways relax yeah, everything will be fine soon!! If you want a late dinner again call me up!! Hahaz...twees!!

I'm very exausted now. Getting some rest and sleep before i start work again in 10 hours time. Grr... So long everyone!

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha

With such crazy, fun and lovable cousins around me how can i not forget aboout all my sadness or problems for a while. Love you guys. Selamat hari raya aidiladha to all my family and friends. Maaf zahir dan batin. Semoga semua jemaah haji yang kini di Mecca sihat wal'afiat! Well only Hairon Najib (who is working) and Haifa Noorin (who is at her home waiting for us) is not in that picture. Miss you guys. Hope all this bunch of camwhores will remain crazy in the next hari raya to come so that we will all collapse the building with our nonsense and laughter. Hahahahaz....

Anyways here are all the replies to the taggies:

Dear yingxuann: Yeah i will look on the bright side because i'm scared of the dark! Hahahaz....

Dear afro: Hahaz...ouh! If i free i msg you arh but you know i wouldn't msg first because like scared i might disturb you ah! So you message me la!! Kuku! Hahaz... anyways you never fail to cheer me up ... thanks! :-)

Dear nisha: Love ya too my dear nisha. Thanks for the advice. Yeah you are right but in some ways i find it difficult to let it out to people around me because i think they would not understand me so its best i wrote it out like that in a blog... but don't worry i'm ok... hehez... twees!! :-)

Dear JV: hey! I'd love that but one problem. I don't know when is my next off day. I don't think i have off now because want to Chinese New Year already so got a lot of people cannot off. Off not fixed. So i'm sorry if i can't join you guys. You guys shall go ahead without me so it wouldn't create any inconvenience. Ok?! I'll try my best to find free time though!

Dear seri: Hey my dear chatting partner. Selamat hari raya to you too! Miss you la girl! Yelah mentang mentang budak dah start work jugak. Hehez... busy people la we all now! Hahaz... hope to chat with ya soon. Twees!!

Dear vanessa: Hey.. no need worry about me la. How many problems i have also i can still laugh and be crazy. Don't believe u ask aaron. Hahahaz... he will know. Anyways thanks for your concern girl!! Twees!

Ok dah lah. THE END.

Just what do i need?

Sometimes you feel confuse.
Sometimes youo feel lost.

Sometimes you feel puzzle.

Sometime you don't seem to know anything that's going on around you.

Sometimes you feel sad.
Sometimes you feel like crying.
Sometimes you feel like shouting.
Sometimes you feel like hugging that very someone and hoped to be consoled.

Sometimes you feel angry.
Sometimes you feel jealous.
Sometimes you feel mad.
Sometimes you feel like ltting it out from your chest.

Sometimes the feeling inside is unknown.
Sometimes you'll get frustrated.
Sometimes you just don't know how you feel!

And sometimes you get SICK and TIRED of it!!

JUST HOW AM I FEELING AND WHAT DO I WANT?!
SHUT UP!!!!!
GET REAL!!! ARGH!!!!

I hate smiling just to pretend i'm not hurt.

I hate to giggle to show i'll be okay.

I hate to laugh after I cry.

the end.

Regretting is not an issue but more to realising a mistake. Now i learnt that i should not confess my feelings to anyone if i'm not ready for it. It just makes things worst.


I used to pretend I didn't care jus so I wouldn't get hurt,

& I never realized how much I hurt others

until you pretended not to care back.

I MISS SCHOOL!

I WANNA GO BACK SCHOOL LIKE HOW I USED TO 11 YEARS AGO. I MISS SCHOOL AND FRIENDS BADLY. SUDDENLY I DON'T MIND THE NAGGING FROM MY TEACHERS BUT I STILL HATE THE ASSIGNMENTS THOUGH. FINALLY I DON'T HAVE TO FRET OVER UNFINISHED HOLIDAY ASSIGNMENT ON A NEW YEAR! HAHAHAZ.....!!!!!!!!!!!

MISSING SCHOOL BADLY LAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

First Day At Work

Kakak Ida's birthday! Haifa Noorin! I want pics else i publish your dash picture at my blog!! Hahahaz....Alright this time i think i'm going to love my work. Not like that time where i work at the bazaar because that was a bit boring but this time not so. Okay my boss is friendly and funny and my other two colleague is also fun. Catherine or Cat. My miss mei ni. She's so patient with me. Thanks Cat. And the other girl i always forgot her name. Hahaz... and since i'm at home now blogging and Cat is not with me i can't go ask Cat like how i always do "Cat what's her name again". Hahahaz... and ah bee (my boss), he's just so funny. Hahahaz... but have to admit it is a tiring job but working at bazaar is worst last year while fasting and NO AIR CON!! Imagine how thirsty i can be? Gosh! But this time i'm only tired of standing but ah bee says i'll get used to it. Hope so!! Hahaz... but anyways this is just the first day. Let's see the upcoming days. And i guess i am good at sweet talking people to buy the clothes because i sold quite a few. *evil laugh* Okay i'm tired. I need to 'BAM' at my bed now! ZZZzzzzZZZZzzzZZZZzzzz.....

When something seems wrong...

Ok this entry is going to be short because there's something in my com that needs fixing so i am not in a mood to blog. Just that tommorrow is first day of work. Feeling kindda nervous and at the same time excited and also not forgetting scared. I hope the one i'm working with is friendly or something if not... haish! BORING!!! Okay happy new year people. Hope 2006 will bring us happiness, wealth and good health always. Take care peeps!!

Shopping Spree!!

Okay that's like my new shoe. Hehez... yesh! Went shopping again. Oh my god! I think i really spend alot this month. Hey don't blame me! Blame the sales everywhere!! The sales are driving me nuts. December is the 'shopping fever' month. Anyone agrees with me? Christmas sales and New Year's sales. How can i resist it. And the best part is most of the items bought i didn't ask for it. My brother too can't resist it. He will be like "Dek cheap la buy arh" and the best part is your money u offer so OK!! Hahaz... better make him bankrupt now first because when i start work i'll start paying it myself and i don't like that idea. Hahahaz!!

Guess what! I have always hated handbags. I hate bringing handbags to whereever i go. But i think i really it now. There's just too much things to bring when you are out. Hahaz... i just realised it. I'm still very lazy to carry handbags with me but ouh well i got no choice. So i got no handbags so my mum bought me one just now. Ok lah nice. No choice got to use them. Haish! So ma fan!! And guess what again! I had Ben and Jerry Chocolate ice-cream just now!! Nyum nyum. People like me don't get to eat ice-cream too much else the doctor will get sick and tired of my face! Hahahaz.... and that had dinner at 'The Rice Table'.

I just remembered i bought female january issue yesterday. I've yet to read them! Okay that's it i'm going to start planning what to shop for next month!! The dress in the magazine looks nice! HAIFA NOORIN buy for me!!!!!

The Chornicles of Narnia

Yes yes!! I watch The chronicles of Narnia. The Lion The Witch The Wardrobe. It was a nice movie. I just love that Lucy. Hahaz... grow up sure very gorgeous and dead beautiful. Hahaz... love her. Edmund is another one cute guy. Actually peter too. Hahaz... Nadd is so right!! Hahaz... Interesting movie indeed. Enjoyed myself watching.

Pam came to my house just now. Just to chat and to show me her New Zealand pictures. Indeed it was nice. Beautiful. I'm so falling in love. Falling in love with New Zealand. Look... isn't it beautiful.


Gosh how nice if i can go there for my honeymoon. Aww.... hahaz!! Romantic mah!! Hahaz... something is toubling me. But i just don't know what it is. I just feel that someone close to me is keeping something from me. Don't know what it is and who is it. I hate this feeling. It making me all worried and trouble. And especially for nothing. Just hope that anything will be okay soon. Haish... i 3rd January! I really wish to go back Hua Yi Secondary School. Meet all my friends. Become crazy and never study! Hahaz... sleep in class and always disturb Mrs Wong lesson!! Hahaz... and maybe Mr. Ting too. I miss malay class and i miss everything that is related to Hua Yi Secondary School now. Councillors and Red Cross drills and everything now!! Haish... how i wish i could turn back time! But i WISH!

A few more days and we are saying good bye to 2005 and a warm welcome to 2006. I have to admit that there were fun moments of 2005 but i think 2005 had been the toughest year for me. There were a lot of obstacles that i faced. The Os, the lost of my handphone, not having my best friend with me in school like the previous year and lots more. And 2006 will be an even tougher year i think where i should work and i don't think i have a lot of time for my own leisure and friends but i hope 2006 will still bring me loads of happiness and joys.

Haish... a few more days to enjoy the last few moments of 2005. Hahaz... well ok i shall not talk more else i start crying. I don't know why i just feel like bursting all of a sudden. Suddenly i missed someone so much today. I missed that someone whom i spent my time 24/7 with everyday in school. The one whom i sahred every single bit of my secrets with. The one whom i started of as an enemy and then a best friend i ever had. Hahaz... Okok... i said i wanna stop before i burst right?! Hahaz...

YES yes YES yes!!!

Oh my God!! i bought BARSAAT and KYON KI!!! And i've watched it!! Not bad la the movie. I don't really like Bobby Deol's character in Barsaat and Kyon Ki i think there's too much talking in the movie but it was rather touching la. But whatever it is BARSAAT songs are awesome. Love them! Hahaz... I'm so like obsessed with the song now. Prinyanka Chopra is dead gorgeous man. Ish!! No wonder she's Miss World! Hahaz...

What a weather. Its been raining heavily. And its soooo cold!! I loike!! Hahaz... Oh my, i so love this girl... PRIYANKA CHOPRA!! Look she's wearing a crown!! I WANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Escape Themepark

Merry Christmas everyone. I don't celebrate it though but ouh well to those who does... Merry Christmas. Went to Escape Themepark just now. It was rather a hot day. Gosh! I'm black!! Sunburnt. First stop was that haunted house thingy. My brother, his girslfriend and my cousin went in first and then papa, mama and me went in. Just a few steps mama don't wanna continue and decided to pull papa and me out. Hahahaz...!! I was indeed scary. Got POCHONG!! Ish!! Then second was this...

Yup viking! I sat at the second last seat as the last seat was taken. You know last seat is always the best because you can feel more but ouh well! Hahaz... it was fun and scary too la. Tears did roll down my cheeks. Hahahaz... can't help it la. But i enjoy it though. It was high!! And for someone who is afraid of heights it was rather and achievement la to sit on that viking. And after the viking me and my brother's girlfriend can't give a proper smile and position to pose. Unbalanced twees!!Mabok Mabok after the ride!! Hahahaz... See...


Played a lot and i'm just too lazy to list. Overall it was fun and boring too. Because some of the games can't be played because its either under maintenance (its always the nice nice games) or the queue is just way too long. Then went to Far East for dinner. Ate at this Thai Restaurant. Hahaz... Thank God i asked my food to not have the veges else i'll feel like a rabbit because the rice is not full of rice but the greens. Ewww!! I hate the greens!!! Hahahaz... but the food was delicious. Of course having my favourite dish LEMON CHICKEN is WOW!!! Hahahaz!!

Okay here's something to be proud for YusLiza. Hahahaz... i am awarded 'Good Progress Award' from CDC/CCC. Hahahaz... at least something right? At least my effort and studying and all did paid off though Os result s is not out yet. Yay!! Will pick up the money from school maybe on Tuesday. I remember the last time i got that was like when i was Primary 4 when i got first in class. Hahahaz... i can't remember other years i got some award too but don't know from where. Hahaz!! But my biggest award is of course if i get to go to where i want after getting the results later. But ouh well, though i don't get to my Early CHildhood its confirm that i will sure continue to study. I don't care if its ITE or whatever!! What can i do besides studying man. Hahaz!! Ahh... i shall not worry myself and talk about it. The best thing to do now at this hour is to..... SLEEP!!! So peeps, i'm off!!

Nisha's Christmas Party

Wow! Nisha's Cristmas party was fantastic. Hahaz... Thanks Nisha and family for the nice food. Its sad that i cannot eat much because my stupid ulcer is killing me. Yep!! Its attacking again!! DAmn bloody pain. Anyways it was fun getting to see you guys. And of course get to see COEXISTENCE again!! It was great to talk to people like Li Yu and the rest too again. Thanks Nisha for having this great party. Miss you people man! Wish many were there. The more the merrier you see. Happy Belated Birthday to Yisheng and Happy Advanced Birthday Adilah!! Hahaz... May all wishes come true! Of course CC took a lot of weird nice photos but Nurul haven't uploaded from her phone to pass it to me so cannot see for now. I have to like rely on Nurul now because the cable for my phone is not working. Bro and i just have no time to get it send back to Samsung since i have a year warranty.

Before going to Nisha's house went out with my family. And went to eat LONG JOHN SILVER!! Nyum nyum!! Been craving for it and i was already drooling when azmi told me he ate it yesterday. And today I got to have them! YAY!!! Bluek Azmi!! You never have it today!! Hahahaz... Went to Lo 1 to do window shopping. Saw and tried on a nice dress but decided not to buy them because i think i bought too much clothes this month. Cannot be so spendthrift right! My shopaholic attitude have to control also right?! Hahaz... I saw Adilah at the Lot 1 toilet!! Wahaha!! Adilah, her siblings and her mum!! When i reached NIsha's house, Nisha said that adilah is still at Lot 1. Oh my god adilah how long did u spend there man. Don't ya get bored or something girl? Hahaz... i was there for nearly and hour and i'm bored and sick of that place. While you spend like what more than 3 hours?! Gosh!! Hahahaz...!! Wow you survived indeed!! Hahaz...

Anyways something strange is happening. I feel that i gained weight. But the weird thing is that when i read YiSheng's tagged this morning, i went to check my weight. But i did not gain or lose. Still 44kg!! and i'm still short!!! While people gets taller and taller each day. I feel that i get shorter and shorter each day!! Hahaz... maybe when i start to gain some weight the asthma and fever attack make me lose weight again. WTH!! Anyways, i think i better gain some weight else people will say like you look fat its impossible your 44kg!! Ish!! Hahaz... How i wish i could entend my leg, my body and not bloody have flabby hands or do we call it arms? Hahahaz...!! I don't mind getting fat as long as i can grow taller by 5 cm man!! Hahahaz... Haiz why must my parents be that short. Ish, i'm so bad!! Wahaha!! Should accept whatever God gave us!! I should not curse my flabby hands anymore. I should thank God for not having any disabilities. Hahaz... But ouh well i'm still fat! Hahaz...

My beloved 2 cars! One papa's and bro's and yus's coming out soon. Ahem!! A volkswagen will be a fantastic one!! Hahaz... Or maybe Tuscani. Nah Mr. Lee have it already!! I know i know!! Lexus!! Ok first and foremost get a lisence first YUS!!!


And this is my beloved mama!! WE lok alike or not? Nah.... i'm prettier!! Hahaz... No la!! My mum is the prettiest mum on earth ok?! Hahaz... love her. Though she nags more than 24 hours a day i still love her so much. I love her the most than anything else in this earth. She deserves no comparison because she is the BEST mum anyone can ever have!! Love you mama!!! Twees!!

the advantages and disadvantages

Blogging have the advantages and disadvantages. To me the advantges are such that i met my long lost schoolmate such as Atiqah. We used to be close friends back then in primary school. Untill primary 5 she was transferred to another primary school. But for a year we still each other because we studied in the same religious class. When we entered secondary school life. We lost contact. And we stop writting letters to each other. Hahaz... and now she found my blog and we are in contact again. Hahahaz... how i miss her!!

And NADIA EDDY RAZALI!!! Wah full name sehh!! She also. My long lost best friend when i was in shuqun primary school. I found here through blogging. Hahaz... yeah same story, she found my blog. And now at least we can like say "heyy, hi, how are you doing now?!" Hahahaz... Nadia, i so miss you! Miss the chats and nonsense we always talk about at the back of the class during malay class. And during choir!! Just lurve you la girl!! Hahaz...

NURUL AIN!! She also!! My dearest primary schoolmate, tuition mate and religious classmate!!! Hahaz... and again we lost contact we when we entered secondary school. She found my blog too. Hahahaz...

And i realise one thing maybe i need to do more bloghopping. Maybe i'll find more people. Hahahaz... don't be so lazy YUS!! And Azizah, another of my bloghopper. If you happened to be Norhan's girlfriend Sabrina the friend whom studied maths at the library then oh my god what a co-incident. Hahahaz!!

And i'm too lazy to talk about the disadvantages. You guys would basically know anyways!!

What a small world!! Hahaz... how i wished if FRANKIE MUNIZ happens to hop by my blog and compliment it!! Hahahaz.... dream on YUS!!! I want that HUGE Winnie The Pooh at minitoons!! If there still is. Hahaz... by the way i change layout. I think i still prefer the previous skin. Way nicer. But nah, change it because i'm sick of it. Will change to nicer one once i'm not lazy enough to do it! Hahahaz... i'm such a lazy pig. A few more days and then start work. Thinking of it kindda scared to start work. My boss seems like a nice person but like a bit fierce also. Scary. And will i make nice friends? And what if i don't know how to operate the nets machine thingy? Haiz... kindda nervous though. Oh God!! Please save me! I wanna enjoy working like everyone else. Though working can be tiring but the collegue we have will make our day. So i really hope that some of the workers there are sortta friendly. Hahaz... you know me. I can't stand quietness basically because i'm just too irritating of a person and that i am so full of crap and jokes. Hahahahaz.... haiz... lets just wait and see la arh!! Hmmm.....

homey homey....

Guess what i did the whole day today? Woke up. As usual vacuum house. Tidy up my room. Polish all the frames, television and mirrors. And wow... i made EPOK EPOK!!! Or curry puff. I made it with my hands for the first time. At first the curl was a bit of a problem and then i'm expert already. I learn fast you know. I used to do it last time but its like a few years back then. Now forget already. But anyways, i manage to do it. And its fried and its ready to eat. Nyum Nyum!! Hahaz!! What i hate about doing it is to kopek the kentang and cut it. Hahahaz... after that i truly enjoyed it. Hahahaz...

Was at home the whole day and i enjoyed it. Now i know why my mum can't be a teacher. She was just so impatient when teaching me. Hahahaz... and i realised something also i prefer to like cook and stir anything with my left hand than right hand. When i told my mum she said. Oh no, 'KIDAL!!'. I was like, 'yeah right'. Kidal?! And i write with right hand?! Hahahaz...

Suddenly i miss my councillors most today!! Maybe after the chat with Mr Lee!! Kuku you!!

zig zaggy...

Went Suntec yesterday. And oh my god! Did i say i LOVE my brother so much!! Hahahaz.... He bought me BRATZ again!! The first one i bought was my money but yesterday was HIS!!! That was the best part. Bought Yasmin AGAIN but the fashion is sports. Hehehe.... i am so happy!! And i still have the Fashion Fever doll that Sab gave me for my birthday. Kayla! Hahahaz... Love it!!

Went window shopping till my leg achieve a blister. Hahahaz... its all the new shoe's fault! Hahahaz... Okay here are the replies to all my beloved taggers...

Dear ika: YES IKA!!!!! I bought YASMIN!! BRATZ!! Of course BRATZ is cool. And anyways Jade wasn't available there. Maybe she no more passion for fashion already. Hahahaz... ok la jgn jealous ehh... hahaz!!

Dear JV: Love ya too girl!! Always also!! Hehehez...

Dear afro: Huh?! What i same as you sis? I don't get it!... hmm....

Dear Pam: PAM!! I got something to tell you. Msg me when you are on online. And anyways nah we don't have much cash to buy you anything yet. Hahahaz... But once your home go online and if you find me online then you will recieve the small gift... hahahaz!! Ok set?!

Dear passerby: Hey i was rather in Jurong Point one of the days last week. Maybe its me. Anyways you are? Care to intro? Skali i saw you too. Hahahaz....

Alrights all tags replied. Tag more yeah people. I love it. I so miss school. I wanna go back to school. I miss sleeping during Mr Ting's lesson. Oops... should not say that in public. Hahaz... miss PE lesson!! Miss the interclass games. Miss FLOORBALL!!! Miss POA lesson with my dearest Siew Ngo. MIss coucillor duty with kuku Mr Lee. Miss everything laa!!

I WANNA GO BACK SCHOOL!!!!

something is happening... hmmm...

Hey i miss the first part of kuch kuch hota hai because i was at town just now. Damn it. Yup shop again!! Whoah i'm really a shopaholic man. I bet i will never have a boyfriend. No one will wanna have a girlfriend like me who shops so much!! Hahaz... well i only shop if i have the money. If my bro's paying, i have to wait for his pay. Hehehez.... But this time besides buying shoe from isetan guess what i bought. I shop for BRATZ!! YEah the doll BRATZ!! I finall bought Yasmin. It was cheap because of christmas sale so what am i waiting for i bought it. I tell you if i have the cash when i start working i'm definately going to have a full set of BRATZ. Yasmin is my favourite so its a confirm going to have in my room. The next one on the list to buy is Meygan, Phoebe, Chloe and Nevra. And the bike and the car. And the guys!! Whoah. Love BRATZ. Their fashion and everything is just so NICE!! I like!!



Hahahaz... i'm mad. Aww!! My Yasmin is so pretty!! Hahahaz... i wanna be as fashionable as her. Hahaha... Actually this year lights at own is kindda plain. But ouh well its like the same every year. But i still enjoy looking at it. Wahaha!! Saw kuku aaron and Vann. Hahaz... I'm so dumb i saw Vannesa from afar but aaron who was in front of me i didn't see. Hahahaz..

Alright bery tired after all the shopping so now getting some rest and who knows a kind soul will bring me shopping again tommorrow. My treat but his/her money!! Hahahahaz....

I LOVE COEXISTENCE!

There the girls of my life!! COEXISTENCE!!! Miss ya guys. Thanks for the great outing. Thanks for being such great friends to me and always being there for me. I remember when we first form Coexistence, i heard from many people that this kinda group wouldn't last and that they will break up one day. Buy hey look at us!! Its been 3 years. Coexistence, a year is going to end and again this year we achieve in upholding our motto that is peaceful and tolerance. There were no fights! How can there be any misunderstandings when we so love each other so much don't we? NO time for fights just love. And we believe that though we don't see each other or talk to each other everyday, we know that deep down in our hearts that we have such special friendship that we will treasure for the rest of our lives! Right girls? Hahahaz... thanks girls. You guys are like my heroine! No words can describe how i love u guys. Hope such outings will cheer us up with all the stressful life in future. You know the work and school and all. Our jokes, laughter and even the serious talks like in the train is interesting. Hahaha... all that can put a smile and all the stress will dissolve. Who needs boyfriends with such fabtastic friends around. Hahaz...ceh bah! Girls... you are the best love ya!!

CE outing has always been great. This is the second outing since we like are not like seeing each other everyday like in school. As usual the outing just now wa sawesome. Hahahaz... with all the laughter. And with my dear Candy's jokes, i can never fail to get bored. Hahaz... bro bought me a top again and his girlfriend too bought me a shirt. The came down to Plaza Singapura to get me the top. The shirt my bro's girlfriend bought for me, i got no idea where she get it. And its mickey mouse! MOUSE?! Grr... but its ok la... people buy already i'm very grateful for it. The chat at starbucks was awesome and the most best part of the day. Especially when i took picture with Sab. Something funny happens!! Hahahaz... i still laughing about it untill now!! Hahaz... you guys should know what i'm talking about. Hahahaz... Gawd it was so funny that i laughed till i tear! God i so enjoyed myself. Hahaz... Nurul bought a top from future state too. I went in that shop 4 times. Gees... malu malu! Hahahaz.... We took lots of stupid pictures just now such as this...

And the last one is the sweet COEXISTENCE and we were actually hugging each other ( cannot be seen). We love each other and COEXITENCE ROCKS!!! Rude beings don't be so jealous alright! Hahaz... aren't we sweet?...

Everything seems great but just one thing is missing. PAM!! We were all missing PAM that Pam if you happened to read this and if you see me online please msg me because COEXISTENCE have something specially for you. We missed you so much and really wished you were there. Hahaz... we can't wait for your souvenirs from new zealand and can't wait to give you OUR present to you. Heh heh...

And that's my dearest bestest best friend Sabbie! Sab.. i so missed you so much. Yeah we should do like what we do just now again next time when we go out. Hahaz... hope you'll get a job soon so we can go shopping again... hahaz!! You shouldknow that though we don't talk or see each other like how we used to, you will always be my bestest best friend no matter what! Noone can just replace you la girl!! Love ya loads!! I so love that pic!! Nice!! Hahahaz...

Ouhk... i kindda feel sleepy... want to go get some sleep soon. Hey look what time i blogged okayz!! And Candy wake me up so early just now!! Hahahahaz.... she'll scream at me once she read this, CONFIRM! Hahahaz....

am i lost?

Heyy!! I realised something today. Snoopy is CUTE! Hehe... Gosh! Brought my cousin to watch Snoopy at Jurong Point just now. Hahaz... it was so cute. I remembered how i used to draw Snoopy on my art file during my primary school days. Hahahaz... what a childhood memories! I envy those kids who can go up the stage and hug and took picture with them. Gees... There were no such thing when we were young don't you guys think so? Hahahaz...

Went shopping just now. Bought a shirt and some essentials. And i love my brother for buying loads and loads of chocolates! Wee... MERCI and FERRARO ROCHER here i come and pimples and fats please leave me alone!!! INteresting day but tiring and one meal makes me so full today that i can't seem to eat more. But all the food seems nice and its like telling me "yus come... take me to your world of digestion!! Nyum Nyum!!" But cannot too full and bloated already. Hahahaz....

The rainbow connection ending was indeed touching. I came home right on time for it. I'm so gonna kill myself if i missed it. But i didn't so i'm still alive! Wee... hahaz!! Jian Yu is so friggin.... arghh!! Wth!! The way yoyo cried makes my heart aww and i feel like screaming... GUYS YOU SUX!! Gees.... hahaz... all they do is HURT girls. Ish... but nah i believe not all guys is the same though.

And now come the most HOT news of the day....

a bloody, disgusting, f**king, irritating, yucky and all sorts of words which can describe hatred attacked me just now and makes me cry!! Its the bloody... err i really don't want the say that name....

RAT! YUCKS! OR WAS IT A MOUSE!! WHATEVER!!

Same species lah!!! It was at my house carpark. I was like opeing the car bonnet to take out the things when the rat actually pass me and hit my leg. And what else, of course i scream and ran far far away!!! Stupid animal which makes me cried and shiver for the past 1 hour. Watch rainbow connection also no peace. Oh my god can you imagine, your most scariest animal is showed itself right in front of your eyes. And guess what i saw the long tails!!

YUCK YUCK YUCK YUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Last last YUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gees.... i'm not talking about it no more!! It just makes me burst again! Ewww..... yuck!! I'm so going to have nightmare tonight!! Ish...

I'm back...

Yo everyone!! I'm back!!! I miss blogging so much. Hahaz... A week at my aunt's place and all i did was watch tv!! And of course, non stop hits, bollywood. Hahahaz... gees i can be a great DJ! Every bollywood lovers will love my song. I think i getting very fat soon. With all the foods. Ish! Help her unpack the stuff and i think that's all i did. And guess what this will be very interesting fo Muhd Nasri!! See this...

Wahaha... i saw this while i do some unpacking with Mak Mon! We look so stupid. I was crying and Nas intention was to stop me from crying but at last he himself end up crying. What only!! That's what my aunt said la!! Hahaz... Ouh yah he won't get to see this because his com spoil. Hahaz... i remembered the stupid games we played when we were young. We spent the whole day together only because our other cousins as much more older than us. The age gap is huge. So he's my only friend and cousin who tolerated my nonsense. Hahaz... sometimes we will even end up fighting...gees! But very soon we will be back playing again! And another picture during don't know which year's hari raya. And i look so selenger!! Hahahaz....



Hahaz... And guess who's that?! Its me? Again i look so stupid...gosh!



Gees i'm starting work on the 1st of January. Yay! Haiz life has been very hectic for me. Though i'm bored at home. Some stuff have really been keeping me all worried and busy. And all this is thanks to one bloody human, or can i say she's an animal rather than human. Arggh... anyways no point talking about it here. Guess i should enjoy life first before i start working. Hehe...

I'm missing school and HIM so much! I miss the lessons and the nonsense we had in school. I wanna go back school badly!!! Haiz... how i really wish we could turn back time but ouh well... Ouhk here goes a reply to all my beloved taggers!!

Dear Vanessa: hahaz... Vann actually he gave us the consent to flood his tagboard. But even if he don't give we would still have flood hor?... Hahaz... That kuku aaron is quitting his job... anws are you working? Or schooling?

Dear Heal-Miez: Hey thanks for dropping by and thks for the compliment for my blog.

Dear Yingxuann: Yup i have a very close relationship with my aunt. Especially one of them whom got no children and she took care of me when i was born when my mum had a chicken pox right after giving birth to me. Wahaha!! And now i'm back my dear girl then i can update. Hahaz...

Dear Hi_far: Ey ey tak yah report report aku dah pulang dengan selamatnyer. Ouh kau jealous ehh aku tak tido rumah kau?... Wahaha... kak tak baik jealous jealous...dosa!! Wahahahahaha!!! Oi your demam dah baik belom arh?!

Dear Ronny: Lerr... adeq dier lak! Oi kau ni tak habes habes ngan new toy kau. Don't need buy for yourself already la, buy me one new toy also. Hehehehe!! Datang rumah aku dah lar tido!! Tak guner!! Wahahaha!!

Dear Faezah: Huh rileks sua?... Asal faezah nak join group motor abang aku ker...namer dier Lu Rilek Sua!! Hahahahahaz.... ouh about aku ngan azmi ehh?... ouh not about mr man ehh? OOOIIICCC!! Wahaha... Oi kau kerjer maner arh?!!

Dear Mick: Thanks for the information you give to them.

Ouhk all tags replied. Thanks for tagging ya guys. Appreaciate it loads... Ouhk will end here for now!

On Hiatus!!

Whoah... i'm like updating my blog at like 2am in the morning. What the hell. Hahahaz... i still cound't get some sleep. Alrights will not be able to update my blog for some time because will be staying over at aunts place. So people don't miss me yea! Hahaz... feel free to msg me if anything the matter. I'll definately entertain you guys. Hahahaz...

Ish now i'm updating and now i feel like sleeping... so peeps... going to dreamland now. Have t wake up early tommorrow. Wanna go jln2 with shariffah and farhana!! Hahaz... hope so if there are still going. So cya!! Will miss you guys!! Hahaz... So i'll set my blog as...

ON HIATUS!!!

what if there's no tommorrow?

Kal ho naa ho. Gees... so excited man. Its kal ho naa ho on tv! Love that movie. It is just so touching. Hahaz... i remember Shazz bought me the soundtrack from that movie. Love it man! Thanks Shazz!!! The movie is awesome. Heyy Shazz looking forward for more soundtracks from you ah... Hahahaz...

Okay just get back from my aunty's new house again. Hahaz... its my third aunt's birthday so celebrated it there. With my cousins and aunties around of course the house was like collapsing. Hahaz... laughter here and there. Hahaz... love them! And with camera's nothing is bored. So took pictures. So coussies just click to my msn space at my profile for the pictures.

Haish, i'm so bored. Its either i'm at home or my second home which is at my aunt's place. Wth... i want to go out. Catch a movie or something. Sab's not free. Besides her i don't know who to go with already. Everybody is busy. Grr....anyone wanna go out with me. But at the mean time i prefer girls to go out with me. Girls who is like having a craving to watch movie... hahaz... crazy to go shopping and eat lots and lots of food untill become fat like me. Gees... hahahaz.... just msg or give me a call to date me alright girls. Wahaha!!

Alright the next thing i will do now is to reply all the taggies at my tagboards. I love doing this. Thanks guys again for tagging.

Dear Vanessa: Heyy sweety. Thanks for being so sweet... love you many many. Hahaz... heyy if i'm not the first to know, i'll dush dush you! Hahaz... Eyy guess aaron already finds out about the flood at his tagboard. But ouh well at least its not a drought or famine!! Wahaha... ok yus is sooo lame!

Dear Naszri: Heyy i don't even know what's my problem. Haish... anyways thanks for always listening to my shit. Hahaz... i know you enjoy it... admit it.... hahaz... oi confirm with me again about friday. Ok?!... and btw this song is by trademark you dumb! Its nice i like can already! Hahaz...

Dear Yingxuann: Heyy girl...thanks... i'm trying my best to take things easy?... you take care yeah!

Dear Faezah: Faezah you really need a dush dush from me right?... how assure are you that i wouldn't regret. And who say azmi like me? Who say i like him? How come i donno ehh?... hmm... pe jer faezah... hahaz... i know you miss your mr man but don need hayal untill like this... Wahahaz... anws thanks for your concern... Twees!!

Dear ShorteeLi: Heyy long time never hear your suare sex on the phone girl...hahahahaaz.... and then you will go kau diam!! Hahaz... Oi pompan aku nak manicure!!! You take care too girl...

Alright... i feel like watching mohabbatein now in the middle of the night! Hahahaz... can't wait for next week sunday at 9. Hahaz... so i'm off... I hate it when i have to swollow those bloody small pills every morning. The thing that i hate is that tak padan kecik, pahit nak mampos. So damn bloody yuckz! gees...

the attack of a....

Asthma! Yeah that's the word. I'm suffering from it now. Wth, i don't get how body functions though i'm studying biology which involve how our body and heart works. I was super normal and perfect in the morning and i was attack with asthma at around 11 plus at night. Bloody hell i have to go to the doctor to get my inhaler because i run out of it. And like as usual, there were too many phlegm. Yikes. That's exactly why i can't breathe properly. and also throat infection. Wth... now my throat is so bloody pain. Body aching everytwhere. And the medicine i was given makes me so drowsy. Arghh... hate the feeling. I so don't wanna be sick. HATE MEDICINES AND HATE DOCTORS!!!! Eww...

Okay too lazy to update much so i'm off...

everything means nothing

This is going to be short! Because i'm so not in mood to update and that is because my life truly sux now!

God, please bring me back to the yesteryears where there were full of laughter and joys!

I hate my life now! Everything is getting on my nerves. The people around me is not making me feel any better. This mixture of feelings never feels any better. Frustrated, fear, hurt, lonely, bored, pissed, sick, anger and many more negative feelings is attacking me. Myabe 2005 is just not my year. School was horrible, face many problems woth friendships and studies, birthday was hell and i got nothing else to say because it will makes me feel even more worst than i already feel.

Felt kindda lost, lonely and like really nobody to turn to now to talk and laugh with. Everything about how i feel is bottling up in my heart. I don't know untill when it can withstand but i hope it stays strong always because the person i am who don't often tell people my problem, i sure do need a strong heart to bottle the feelings within me.

Enough said. Fullstop.