I want your laugh!

Inilah Sri Mersing terkini dari Wheelock College.
Haha, some underground secret. =)
I promise Lin to do something to this picture?
So Lin, how?
Work wonders tak skill aku?
Muker kau panjang, muker ku lebar.
Kwang kwang kwang

Special thanks to Lin & Family for the extemely fillinf and delicious dinner on Sunday! =P

When sometimes, the hardest thing now is to smile and laugh again.

3 weeks more

I shall fill my upcoming 3 weeks with the memory of today.
Take care my love, ilmyssm! <3

Annoyed!!

Am just feeling agitated with life.
I'm never ready to go through all this alone.

Hectic

Blogging during class because I cannot find any day or time to do any blogging for a while. School has been sucha killer. I'm lucky my love is as busy as me, far away, else I'll feel guilty that I will not have the time for him.

Since Nisha tagged to say she's unable to understandable my previous post. I shall translate it here. See Nisha, I'm sweet, am I?

"Yusliza wanna share that...
She is really missing and love Muhammad Hisham.
Yus want Sham!!!!!!"

Nobody can make me feel like I'm on cloud nine. Hearing the voice on a special day makes me go, awwwww, its our 29th 20th, and of course more more more coming up. <3

Nak Sham!

Yusliza hendak mengadu bahawa...

dia tersangatlah rindu akan sayang dia, Muhammad Hisham.

Yus Nak Sham!!!!!!!!!!! =(

he's gone

I'm looking forward for 16th for the Inclusion Symposium.
Not untill he told me he have to go for sailing on the same day.
Today turn out to be the saddest day ever.
Goodbye!

I hate marine life!

I hate good news.
I hate bad news.
I hate today.
I love him.

It's about ME!

I keep telling myself that i'm on my own now.
But I guess the mind is not ready for this huge change as yet.
It's like, i'm being someone whom i'm not.

The more I try not to trouble anyone, the more I feel i'm harrassing them.
Especially the close ones around me.
& the more I try to put down my thoughts to words, the crappier I get.
So till then.

Busy Bee

After so long, i'm here again.
At syg's place now because the poor boy is down with fever. =(
Assignments & projects piling as usual.
So will see less of me here.
Toodles!!

Backs!

Been inactive for a while and now I'm back. What can I say... first day of school was hell. Lin & me know nothing about assignment due on the second day of school. So what happened? Slogged through the nights doing readings. Thanks a bunch to Fareeza whom susah payah pinjam kan buku for Lin & me. Went to school with the lethargic face, and thanks ehh... my professor just have to say this...

"Welcome to the Bachelor degree program guys. It's all about reading..."

What the hell!! I soo hate readings! & now it seems more like my hobby. Ewww... So annoying. Ok so hello panda eyes, goodbye beauty sleep.

On a brighter note on the first day of school, my dearest Hyundai Getz.... FOUND!!!. Yayness!! & that is like right after abg's face terpampang besar kat newpaper. Haha... Thanks to the boyfriend who called the newpaper though. Haha...

Okay this part is totally random but anyways, Sharifah Badriah aku miss kau la!! Haish, biler nak buatkan essay aku lagi ni?! Hur hur...

Days have been tough and I've been missing my boy so much these past few days. He have been working so hard these past few days and still waiting to start his sailing. Seeing him slogged like this, working day and night, I rather he go sailing fast. I'm sure it fits his qualification as an engineer better compare to these tiring part-time job his juggling with now. Pains me to see him all tired. Nevertheless, I'm lucky to have a boyfriend so hardworking. Thanks love, sayang awak banyak banyak sekali. Muakz!

He's mine.<3

June.NO.June

Looks like June haven't been nice to me at all.
I'm still missing my car so much. =(
To this idiotic fella who stole my car: DAMN YOU!
I shall refrain myself from cursing him more. No good.

There's just so much to think now.
I'm lucky I still have Hisham, the love of my life beside me.
Going through the thick and thins with me.
Like he always say, "Takpe syg, bersusah-susah dulu, senang-senang kemudian."

Tell me how can I not love this man to bits.
In a few minutes time we'll turn 28th months.
Ilmy sygku!

Missing my car

Whoah, after felt like so long, I'm blogging again. A lot of things had happened within this particular week and the previous weeks. One of the saddest thing that happen to me and my family was we've lost our dearest Hyundai Getz. Someone stole it. How it happen? Well, abang wanted to help a drunken man. He claimed he left his i/c somewhere, abang went to help take it but when he came back the car was gone. His mistake though because he left his key in the car. So much for being nice. Haish... 5 days since I've seen my beloved car. So people, for those who know my car, please call the police right away. It's Hyundai Getz yellow in colour with the prominent LRS logo design on it. It's my brother's bike's team. Plate number, SFH 4099B. So yea, do help me get my darling ok? That picture was without the LRS logo as yet when this picture was taken.

Been meeting y babylove for 5 days straight. How I love it. Am spending more time with him now as much as possible before he set sail. Sham and me had been so nice to accompany Nur and Abg go swimming lately. A good way to relieve stress and rindu for my car. =( My love has been extremely patient and nice with me.

Writing clinic was so over. A nice ending having Sham to cook for me lunch yesterday. Thanks syg. Love it!! & sorry love for the mood swing. PMS do happens you see, what more I'm a normal girl. =) Thanks for being so patient with me syg. & of course a million thanks for making me smile. Syg Hisham saya.

& so I miss my car. =(

Worrying.

Went down to RH with love yesterday and i's finally settled.
More to come but taking things slow.
Writing clinic was.... sucha dread
Goodbye.

Bump bump bump...

First day of school today. & on the very first day of writing clinic, I had to do an essay! Right! Like Sham said, dah katernyer writing, so essay la. But aiyo, my brain rusty already man, dah basi, full of mushrooms inside. Haish, sembarang ah. All the best to my lecturer marking my essay ah. Topic was about should preschool education be made compulsory so that children does not lack the foundation knowledge as they enter primary one. So the lazy me was forced to elaborate and put my thoughts to words on an innocent piece of fullscap paper. Bluek...

Went for a really tiny shopping with Lin after school, and guess who I bumped to today. I use to love calling her full name during her school name. & she is V. NISHANTINI. Till now, I still feel her name's unique. Haha... I was on the train messaging Sham. He messaged to say he ended work and on the way back home. While Yusham were happily messaging, comes a another message. So the name, NISHA appears on my hand phone screen. She claims that maybe she saw my boyfriend. Haha, and she was so excited to confirm that it was Sham, real life! Hahaha... so she purposely, sweetly, awesomely, miss the bus to wait for me. Oh yes, Sham too. Hahaha... So the 3 of us took the same bus. Nisha went home, while Sham and me went to KFC. Haha, been so long since I that friend of mine. It was fun having to talk crap again. Wahaha...

& of course Nisha, I wouldn't forget to blog about this, Nisha wants a kiss and I kiss her at her cheeks. Hahahaha!!!!! Sweet right... aww... Nisha will sure to miss me so much from now on. Hahaha... & she has put me in charge for her upcoming birthday party invitation list. Die ah, put me in charge, the whole of zoo and night safari will come. Wahaha, no la I think you just invite me la Nish, and maybe Sham. But to think again, no need la Sham, he'll finish all your foods for sure. So just me ok?! Hur hur...

Anyhoos, thanks Nur Azlina Subari for the day. First day of school was ok, but it would have been better without having to write essay and if Nur Azlina were to be in the same class as me. Can't wait for actual class to start because finally Lin & Yus will be back for lectures together again. So, looking forward for 22nd June when actual lessons begins. Yessa!!

On a random note, someone close used to tell me that I give in too often and I apologised without showing any justice. When I thought by doing that will make everything fine again it took me a long time to realise that she was right. I cared too much about others that I never even gave a thought about my own feelings. Most of the time one can feel how hurt they are but they fail to see how they've hurt others. So, it's not about running away, but I just don't think I deserve this. I promised myself now that I will never ponder much about it anymore and I will not react to it anymore. My explaination never matters in anyway so it's better to just keep it to myself because somethings are better left unsaid. That's why memories exist, hence, I'll live with those memories. Thank you and all the best, I'm sorry a happy post have to end this way. Goodbye beautiful people. =)

weds + date

Congratulations to Abg Faizlin & Kak Yanti.
Like Abg Faizlin say, at last he's married. Haha!
& so LRS had a new head.
Dah gi tgk orang kahwin kahwin, me and Sham went for our date pulak. =)

Craved for fish and chips today.
So went down to Suntec and had Fish & Co.
I had fish with rice while sham had err... what's the name crayfish...
Something something, tak ingat.
It's new in the menu.

Went down to esplanade right after to just lepak.
Ader pulak a performance by the bay.
Tengok kejap dah habis.
Cis!! Kurang manis betol!!

So writing clinic begins tomorrow.
Which means, school starts tomorrow.
Dread to wake up early.
Excited to start my journey to get a degree.
Tak semangat because tak sama class ngan Lin for this writing clinic. =(

Okay la nak sleeping beauty.
It was a nice day with love just now.
Like I've said before, sometimes I hate him to the max, but most of the time I love him the core. =) Syg awak.

Saw this at esplanade.
Go figure what's that arabic word. ;p
Good night!

Recap

Last Thursday went to watch Blood The Last Vampire with love and bro.
Alright, maybe a 7 out of 10.
A Little like blade.
Story line was just OOOKAAYY.
But effect was awesome.
Okay that sounds like terminator.

Totally mood less today.
Can't be bothered with anything today.
Not even the weddings.

Can't wait to just chill and have a good rest with love tomorrow.
Haish...

Liz Creations again

Another work of art today.
Abg Faizlin is finally getting married this Sunday.
So went to the wife-to-be house to wear for her henna as usual.
& Yus Yus... tak sexy ehh amek gambar kaki kak Yanti tak kluarkan itu tissue.
Haha... and amek gambar lambat sikit ah, so can see all the inai dah terkluar.
Haha... nevertheless, ok la boleh dilihat dan direnung. Hehe...

Will update more if I'm taking pictures for kak yaya's wedding tommorrow.
& Abg Faizlin wedding on Sunday.
Because eversince this outbreak of annoying pimple, my interest in taking pictures had gone down to ZERO!
Benci, benci, BENCI!!!!

Sempat aku blog sambil tunggu Sham send good night msg.
So Sham dah msg.
Nak tdo!!
Good morning world!

Shopping again

Went out shopping with mama, the aunt and the cousin today. Ok initially it was just accompanying the aunt to shop for some baju. Didn't wanna shop for anything at first as I guess I got everything from last Sunday's shopping spree with sayang but that shoe just caught my eye. What more the price was crazily awesome. So asked for the smallest size, tried and grabbed it.

Gonna wait for the pay to come in and I'm going for a small tiny shopping spree again with Lin on Monday after writing clinic. Well this time round my shopping shouldn't cost a bomb because everywhere is having sale sale sale. Especially cotton on, wait for me!! Hee...

Was nearly about to book with Bibiq at RH but kindda think twice due to the tight consumption of finance this week. A lot of weddings this week and the week after next. So again gotta wait a few more days. Haish, really hope our date is still available.

Tuitions increasing and it's like everyday. I don't know how I would manage it while schooling next month. Hope everything will go on smoothly. On a brighter note, I'm glad that one of my secondary tuition kid top his class for his maths. Besides the other kid who always top his school, he was always one of my weaker kid, but now he improved tremendously. Why am I saying kid kid all the time eh? He's no a kid anymore. Gees! Ok, student can? Was really really happy for him. At least all the teachings and heartaches to make him understand do pay off. Haha! =)

Yesterday, out of all movie, I watched Monster Incorporated. Boo!! Cute kan ini budak? I want my anak to be as cute as her can?! Wahahaha!! Boyfriend's gaming. Ok, so what should I do?Maybe today back to more hindustan. So goodbye world.

With love

I realised that I've been watching a lot of movies lately. & the best thing is that its FREE!! Haha!! But the best out of the best would be, those days was with my HISHAM boy. How can I not say the week was awesome right? But at the end of the day, I can't help but to have this feeling of guilt. Mainly because of me he is all tired. What more, he's working the next day. =( Sorry hun hun but hope you enjoyed the days with me. Love you dear.

Yup, watched Terminator Salvation. Well, a 7 out of 10 maybe. I would have fallen asleep if not for the action. The story line was like, O-KAYYYY!! =)

& today watched Monster Vs. Alien. We brought Nini along since its the holiday. But the most annoying thing was it's not 3D!! Macam F!!! & we don't realise it. Naseb citer gerek & belo! Hahaha... I shall give it an 8.5 out of 10! =)

Boyfriend and I went shopping today. Bought tops for him at G2000 and Domanchi. While mine was at Yin & Yang and Cotton On. Sham saw a really nice skirt at Cotton On and though I was kindda over budget, I couldn't help but to grab it. Hahahaha!! & now I cannot wait to wear them. Looking forward for a double date with Kim darling, the childhood friend.

The thought of boyfriend ORD-ing soon makes me smile from cheek to cheek. But the thought of him going off sailing brings butterflies to my stomach. How am I going to go through each days knowing that I don't know when exactly will he be back? How am I going to go through my days not knowing what is he doing, when will I get to talk with him again? All these thoughts are really beginning to haunt me most of the time now. Haish, I can do nothing, for now. I just wish to spend more time with him. Treasure these moments when we still can meet each other almost everyday before that time comes. I don't how crazy I would be but waiting for his return is a definite thing for me. Guess I'll just let nature takes it course.

Last day at BLGPS was last Friday. Parent teachers' meeting went on smoothly. Just some angry parents who were not happy with me going away to further my study. Gonna miss the fun and the colleagues there. But on a brighter note, I'm in the same class with Lin in Wheelock!! Seronok keper?! & Wheelock's timetable is out. No lectures on Fridays! Yayness! & tuition students is increasing. Hmm... tough job but will definitely try to help these children excel in their studies. Insya'allah. No work tomorrow because its holiday!! Happy holidays kids!! Hip hip, HOORAY!!!

Result Analysis Meeting for SA1 was so over and done with just now.
Lepas balak kene berhadapan dengan number 1 and number 2.
Who? Saper lagi, Principal and Vice. P lor.

Most of the parents are coming to me to ask questions such as:
-Why are you leaving?
-Can you not go because changing teachers might not be a good idea?
-You come in good already then you go whose replacing?

Adoi, pecah otak aku nak jaab soalan2 cepu mas tu. Ish!!
If only lessons in wheelock don't clash with the work time. =(

Watched Echelon Conspiracy yesterday after work with love and brother.
A very recommended movie to watch for all.
For some reasons, I'd prefer this movie to Night at the museum 2.
I shall give it a 9 out of 10. =)
With the spinning head of mine, abg have to drag me to Clarke Quay to jln2 for a while.
So while he chit chat with his peeps at Arena, me and Sham went to take a stroll.
I've never been to that side of Clarke Quay. So jakun.
& no doubt, it was a really beautiful place.
No wonder couples like to go there.

Lastly, parent teachers' meeting and then I'm so done with work.
Back to life being a student once again.
Phew~

Haven't I told myself not to put high hopes & not take things for granted umpteen times?
It was never meant to be a regret.
Really.

Amazing weekends!

Weekends was a blast. Time flies when you are having fun. Now, back to square one. Work, work and work. But looking a the bright side, 4 more days to school holiday! =) Anyhoos, weekends is making my weight go up up up. Like I still, i don't care. Mainly because...

Yes, Saturday, out with the best friend and Man. Had Manhattan Fish and Ben and Jerry and late night supper at Mac. Apernyer tak gemok! Haha... It's been like ages since I last met them. The meeting was like as though we were bidding farewell to Di whose going in kandang soon. Hahaha...

& then the next day, date with boyfriend. Again, we had Manhattan fish. But this time round, Sham tried the flaming prawn ad he love it. Haha! Next up was Night at the museum 2 at Lido. My dearest boyfriends favourite movie theatre was theatre 1. Like seriously, Lido theatre one is superbly big. So very comfy and nice. =) Rating? Well, I prefer the first one though. So 8 out of 10.

Then had late supper with love and brother. After which love spend the night at my place. Brother and him was laughing away watching Police Academy but I can't help it but to be in dreamland already. But it was definitely nice to have him saying good night to me and the first thing when I woke up is seeing him by side. A good morning kiss on the cheek. Gosh, How I wish time can just stop right there and then. But owh well, like Man says, back to square one. Monday to Friday, work, work and work. So I shall be a good employee and start cleaning up my desk right now. Not much free period today. Haish...

WEEKENDS!!

Like finally, food feast for a king MLEA is sooo done!! Yayness. Aftermath is just, tired tired tired. But it was all worth it since it's a great success. The teachers were as excited as the children I think. Haha... Now left ith book-checking on Tuesday then parents meeting on Friday. Bleagh~

A great start for the weekend with love by my side. Though he's watching wrestling. Sabar jer. Takper, sayang nyer pasal. Layankan. Haha... Weekends weekends weekends... Seronok nyer!!!!! Good night duniaku.

These 2 days had been really busy with the King's feast that the primary 2 level is going to have tomorrow. Gees, just now was crazy. It was really exhausting that I headed straight on my bed as soon as I reached home. Thought of going to bed early but gotta finish up some work for tomorrow.

I am so looking forward for the weekends. Was suppose to meet boyfriend on Saturday for a date but Sham was so nice to change it to Sunday just so I can meet the best friend after such a long time. & since he wanna masok kandang next month. Haha... so two things to look forward to, meet best friend and of course the love, boyfriend! Can't wait.

Book checking on Tuesday yet marking is not all completed. Grr... hectic week and pimples are sooooo not helping. *faints* On a brighter note, my dearest Kris Allen won! =) Something to smile off these crazy week. & have I ever told anyone that I soo love and going all obsess with Kris' version of heartless?

A moment ago I called noone else but Lin, and told her I'm sick.
But she corrected me because she said it's just Lovesick.

Indeed I am.
Macam nak nyanyi lagu ni jer:

"Oh mama, saya mahu kahwin,
Kahwin dengan siapa,
Dengan siapa sahaja..."

Eh tak tak, dengan Muhd Hisham Amir jer. Hee...

I love you, not for who you are, but for who I am when I am with you.
Happy 27th Monthsary love.

Simple yet awesome

After more than 3 weeks of not seeing him, I finally met him.
A simple date yet awesome.
Dinner at swensen and late night supper at Macdonalds.
I feel like a pig yet I don't care.

He was sick as soon as he came back but he is well now.
So not to worry.
& yessa, it is so set set set!
For those who understand, YEA BABY!!

Love you syg!

Khas buat Mama

It's the 16th of May.
Which means it's my dearest mama's birthday.
Gave her the present I bought for her.
It may not be as expensive like some other daughter would give their mothers,
but surely this present comes from my heart and some people would say,
"It's the thought that counts".
& if ever mama were to go Internet surfing,
I want her to go to my blog and read this:

Mama,
I've always wanted to give you the best.
& achieving that diploma is another present for you this year.
I've always wanted to see a smile on your face.
I always wanted to make you the happiest mother on earth.
But if I fail to do so, I'm sorry.
Nevertheless, I will never fail to try to be a good daughter to the most beautiful mother in the world that is so you!
Love you mama.
May God bless you with great health always.
Insya'allah.

There should be another joy on this day too.
The first timein my life, I'm scared to face that joy.
Good morning world.

you & them

Stop blaming me for being emotional all the time.

Because being emotional have its causes and reasons.
& again quit blaming me for the existence of those causes and reasons.
Try reflecting on yourselves first before you start pointing fingers at anyone else including me.
Maybe you aren't as emotional because people around you have done a good job in caring more about your feelings but you didn't.

Moving on from you to them,

Her life was much better without your presence in her life.
With your existence, you don't only bring hell to her but the family as well.
Get this in your head, going the evil way will just cause you more harm.
Be careful with that.

All the best to the both of them.

To these humans,
Thank you so much for diminishing my excitement for the photo shoot tomorrow.
Each time I get so upbeat for something, it will never turn out right.
With that, goodbye.

Graduation day

After 3 years of hard work and mugging, I'm awarded that long awaited diploma.

Finally a Diploma in Early Childhood Education.
I'm officially a graduate! =)

Along with my 2 other buddies or rather partners in crime for the past 3 years.
The ones been through thick and thin with me.
Hur hur... girls, you are the best projectmate ever. Love you babes!

Thanks to the family for being there.

Nur Azlina Subari, saying thanks is never enough to describe how fortunate I am to have you by my side always throughout these 3 years. Hope our friendship will continue to blossom in the years to come. I love you la sehh!!! See you in Wheelock real soon babe. We'll soon be back mugging. Haiya...

We so made it girls. Yaa hoo!!

It was a great day.
However, it would have been better if the other 3 most important people in my life would be there too.
Miss them.

she's my mama

She's my idol, she's my star. She's my strength, she's my love. She's the best gift God can ever give me. Thank you God for blessing me with such loving, caring and supportive mum. On this beautiful day, I would like to wish mama a very Happy Mother's Day. Thanks dearest mama for all sacrifices made to bring me up all these years. You are the best mama in the whole wide world. I love you soo mama!! *hugs and kisses* Some people say I'm just a carbon copy of my mum. Haha, oh well, pretty people, what can I say? *Mcm paham*

Brought mama jln jln to expo and then had dinner at lau pa sat! Satay and ayam madu!! Yum yum!! Hope she likes it. & I am officially in love with Grandeur Fai and RH bridal. Both offers good packages. Hmmm.... now problems with the date. Grrr.... Ok, so 7 more days, pls come soon.

H is for HIsham

H- Hisham

I- is

S- so

H- horribly

A- anxiously

M- missed

3 weeks feels like 3 years. 8 more days till he's back. I miss him like crazy.

& maybe it's not any kind of fever, i's just love sick. =(

Laughing day!

Today was a long day. The day started with English common marking. It was tiring bt uber fun. Haha! Why is that so? Because... wait I always teach my kids not to start with because. Ok I mean, It is because we lost one of my kid's script when everyone thought we were all done already. After a high and low search, under the table, me checking 2/5, 2/10 and 2/1 pile, it was still untraceable. Then my super girl Hafiezah found it in who's pile tau, 2/6 pile which is NURUL'S class! Sengajer tau dier nak sabo aku! Hahaha!! Bukan nak check class dier but she checked other people's class. Menyusahkan hidup aku! Haha!! A big funny mess just now. & thank God I did not bet with Madiya about who had taken the paper by mistake. Sungguh salah dot com! Orang tu tak bersalah sak Madiya. Hahaha!!

Another round of chaos tom morrow. & its going to be Math!!! Mati ah class aku! Hancur hancur. Berderau jantung nak mark. The paper was tough though. Kalau 'P' tanyer why they have lousy marks how eh?! Die die!! & one more funny incident happen just now. Again our dear Mdm Cheng Mui Tiang spitted out her drinks due to excessive and uncontrollable laughter. Like again, Nurul is responsible for this. She and her nonsense. Haha!! Target was Nurul and me this time. Thanks eh Mui Tiang, air watermelon juice lagi. So its certified that Nurul was attacked by ants in class right after our lunch just now! First incident happened in the hall. Till one of my kids asked "Ms Liza, what happened to Mdm Cheng just now? Why her drinks spill from her mouth?" LOL!

Today's Sheila's birthday! Woo hoo!!! Happy Birthday lady!!! Sorry no presents babe, but if you're reading, may God bless you with great health always and may all dreams come true. && may 2/9 especially that little devil of yours, what's his name again... can stop giving you problems and stop declaring his own holiday. Lol! Naseb we are both leaving soon. I am soooo sorry I didn't get for you anything today and worst still tak tahu today your birthday. Sorry tau! Haha... that picture was taken on my birthday last year. Aliff and her celebrated my birthday and gave me a really pleasant surprise by inviting Fadyll too. Thanks ehh, dah tau aku darah gemuruh each time jumper tu mamat. But now I'm ok. Nak kutuk kutuk Fadyll sekarang pun dah ok. Hahaha! Miss those days! Hope there's more of those this year.

Ok dah banyak bertonye today. So I'm off for now! Before I leave, to those ECHians graduating, have you taken your gown? For those taken, don't you think you look like penguin in it? Not to the tall ones maybe. For me, TOTALLY! Gees, ok taking care world. Stay free from diseases tau! Twees!

long weekends ended.

Yea, so long weekends ended. It was ok. I managed to get ample rest. Thanks to Nur Azlina Subari for being so sweet. She slept over at my crib and just spend the whole day lazing at home since she knew I needed as much rest as possible. Still we cannot believe it we watched Yuuvraj! Despite Salman Khan's and Katrina Kaif gorgeous, killer look, the movie was craptacularly atrocious! Anyways thanks babe, it was definitely fun with you though we did nothing. Well, not nothing as a whole, we did have a good laugh most of the time. Even over something small or stupid. Haha... well that's Lin and Yus for you! Wahaha!! What more, we were both whining about how we miss our boyfriend who were at faraway land. (mcm paham!)

This temperature taking thingy in school is really draining me out. What more, exams exams exams. Budak-budak yang amek exam, aku yang stress. Aiyo!! Will be super exhausted with common marking, abrupt school emergency meetings and more more. Ish! I'm feeling the heat already. Macam zaman-zaman buat project dulu kat poly. & school starting in a months time. Cepat kan? Graduation ceremony on Wednesday! No more diploma, now bachelor! Ya Allah, sungguh cepat maser berlalu. *faints*

rough

The long awaited weekends is finally here.
Life's a mess lately.
Was running a high fever and have been going shopping to and fro to the clinic.
Gone like twice, thanks to the rose in my temperature suddenly.
There goes my pay, nicely blown away to the doctor. Or rather clinic.

Whatever. Annoying.
Forced myself out of bed for work and tuition because of the exam craze.

& Love had been calling me since he safely had reached Thailand.
How I miss him.
16 May, please come soon.
Ilmy hun! =(

it's a disappointment as you are priority,
but i'm only your option.
thanks for everthing and everything not.

updates

A short yet beautiful dinner I had with love.Thanks love!
& we saw a man who went into the ladies, came out stare at us as though we were the ones who went to wrong toilet. Wahaha!! Strange yet funny!

"Missing you starts from now."-her

"Loving you is forever."-him

Convocation Makeover Promotion

Anyone interested, do drop me a mail, call me, msn me, tag me or do anything as long as you can reach me. I'll definitely get back to you. Haha... good deal for you to snap those happy moments with your dearest ones who never fails to cheer up you lecture days. Espcially Ngee Ann peeps! Grab it grab it!!

The feelings within

I'm angry, I'm frustrated, I'm contented.

Angry, because I'm unable to spend time with love on our 20th.
Frustrated, because, although I am able to see him, I am still unable to spend more time with love on our 20th.
Contented, because amidst this busy Monday, I managed to have dinner with love on our 20th.

"Of course you are always wrong, and that is what I like so much about you. Your imperfection makes it all perfect"=)

Ily sweetheart.

Happy 26th Monthsary Love. <3

789 days & counting.

.You & Me.

Yesterday, I spent the day at work and the night viwawa-ing with Lin and Sharifah. & not forgetting talking with Lin on MSN microphone for hours and hours. It was fun fun fun. Finally we are not talking about project la seh! && finally I'm like gaming again with Sharifah & tommorrow, like finally meeting her. But well, the laughing geng is not complete becuase Reshmel cannot make it. Sabar je.

Today spent the day with boyfriend at his crib. Watched Black Sheep and Slumdog Millionaire. While he's sleeping I did my markings and talking talking with his mummy and not forgetting fried goreng pisang. It was sucha lovely day though we are not doing anything but just watching movie and me watching him sleep. But I so regret how ended the day just now. Boyfriend somehow felt upset that I sounded like I halau him because I just close the car door. =(

I'm so sorry sayang, I was somehow nervous to face my parents tadi because of something that's whirling in my head that very moment. I'm like so really dumb, can? I can never leave him without kissing his hand and him kissing my forehead all the time but I just did it just now. He did not kiss my forehead. I felt something was sooooo not right and missing. Stupid me. Why am I so nervous anyways to face papa. Papa's face is forever stern anyways. Ahhh, Yus Yus!! Haish, once again I so apologise darling boyfriend. =( Thanks for the day too love. <3

& this portion here is dedicated to my dear friend Nur Hidayah Bte Othman. Dier telang men-tag aku dan bertanya, "Kenape kau tak pernah rindu aku eh?" Amboi Dayah, soalan cepu mas! Sebab kau tak rindu aku la, apa lagi?! Hahaha, tak la, aku rindu kau cume cara aku mengexpressi kan nyer tu lain. Kau mane paham. Haha... Sesungguh aku rindu kau la belo! Bile kau nak blanja aku ngan Lin wayang? Driving2 kiter ker... aku dah tak kuaser nak pass kan theory aku eh, kau jer drive aku around. Ok? Rindu rindu selalu yer wanita?

Alright, nak tengok hindustan yang telah ku kebas dari rumah Shamku. =)

*smiles*

Had a wonderful date with the boyfriend on a very cold Saturday evening. Each time syg goes to the gym surely hujan selebat-lebatnya. Went to cineleisure straight after since its near to his gym, had dinner at BBQ chicken and we watched Fast and the Furious 4. I'd give it a 8 out of 10. Compared to the other Fast and furious, I think this is really good.

I'm so lucky to have a boyfriend so intelligent. Who can even read my mind. You are one in a million my love. Didn't know it would be that easy to disucuss such a matter. & finally we have come to terms with it. Alhumdulilah, hopefully everything will work out just as fine. Insya'allah.

Special thanks to dearest Azlina Subari yang sentiase berade disisiku walaupun telingamu bengkak dengan aduan dan whine aku. Aku tetap menyayangimu wahai sahabatku.

Oh yes, jumpe Chombi lagi tadi! & the first thing she said was, "Again aku ingat matair kau ni cine." Oh well, what can I say. Kerane ke-sepetan mataya itu la yang membuatkan Yus terpikat habes ngan Sham. Wahaha... sayang banget deh itu mamat. Tapi kadang-kadang macam dier selalu tinggalkan saya, hah! Benci habes! Like this 23rd, he's leaving to Thailand. BENCI BENCI BENCI!! Tak habes habes ni army menyusahkan hidupku! =( & that's why he so can't attend my graduation ceremony. Benci la, Selamat malam semua!

Tu la future LRS racing team nyer racer. Macam paham!! Wahaha!! & I thought my hair cannot do siput lela manja. But heyy... look... Wahaha, I loike!!

& when my bf say 'ORD oh', I'm gonna say, 'GRADUATION ohh!!!" Yessa!!

Visited Norhan with mama & papa today. Alhumdulilah Norhan is improving. Hopefully he'll recover real soon. Get well soon my dear friend.

*wonders*

I recieved the shock of my life yesterday as soon as I woke up with the issue brought up at home. And how nice to recieve another piece of news regarding oral that will be held next Monday. Like OMG!! I haven't start anything practice and my class is so behind time due to the handover work. Goodness! There's so many to cover and I'm left with just 3 weeks left before exam. Mati ah Yus! Amidst those stress just now, at least there's still something to smile about to brighten my day. Recieved that beautiful flower right after TTT. Hope to know who's this angel soon. =)

My decision is set. Will his be of the same or will it just go kaboom?! Gosh, this heart beats faster and faster each time I think about it. & when the issue is brought up, I have butterflies in my stomach. Ahhh, tolong tolong!!!

I swear I was perspiring like crazy, like as though I've just ran a 2.4km run without stopping, when they brought up that topic. I'm not even sure if I'm ready or not for that big decision. All I know is yes, I wanna be with him forever. Oh God, please help me with this.

Anyhoos, today my family went window shopping with the childhood friend Kim and her family. It was fun, fun, fun talking and laughing away. However quiet Jon can be, we were still as noisy in the car. Hur hur... Uncle Phillip bought me a dress. So do Kim, but hers is grey while mine is brown. As usual, brown always caught my eye first. Then off we went to Selegie for air tahu!! Yum!

Ok, my mind is still so stuck with that issue. Worst still, I'm unable to talk with him because he's busy at work. Ya Allah, tolong lah hambamu ini. =(

A Saturday well-spent with my huneyboo. Thanks for the day love. Hope he's strong enough for work tommorrow since he just went back to his camp like an hour ago, sent by dearest bro. I'm sleepy actually but I can't seem to sleep so kindda explains why I'm here.

Visited Norhan with my boo just now. What a small world. So Abg Kasillah's mum is Han's nenek sedare. Which makes Han, Abg Kasillah's anak sedare. Hmmm... and no wonder I saw Han on Abg Kasillah's sis engagement last year. Dunia dunia...

When hatred leads to much love all the time.<3

That fear.

It's strange how ideas starts flowing when we are in weird places like, the toilet. Now that I'm sitting right in front of the screen, the brain just go blank. I am simply unable to put my thoughts to words here. This is so ridiculous.

Anyways, yes, I'm drowning myself with work right now just so I am not reminded of all the treatment I get right now. I tried my best to be realistic and see the world as full of ups and downs. But the downs keep coming whenever I'm enjoying like only 10% of the ups. I'm really sorry but I'm still trying to adapt. Yes, I will still keep on trying so that I'm able to face my future. I have always hate this part of you but I'm helpless. Pendirian seseorang tidak boleh diubah oleh sesiapa pun. Some people understand but some people don't. Well, who can understand us better if not us isn't it.

Right now, if anyone were to ask me what's my biggest fear, my answer would be, my biggest fear is having to change my existing fear. Again some people understand but most people don't. Oh Allah, please, give me all the strength to face this and my future. Please please please. I'm tired world. Good night.